I don't know why people WANT to be anorexic. But I do understand if someone wants their anorexia back. Because I do that. I'm pretty much recovered but sometimes I want that feeling of control back, the feeling of nearly dying. But at the same time I am telling myself, that it was the worst time in my entire life and I never want to go back there again. It will be a lifetime struggle I guess...
Im not shallow, but I do prefer people who are bigger because thin is not very attractive. Girls that are really thin I do not find attractive. It looks unhealthy and not natural. I find it ironic that all these women want to starve themselves to look repulsive and thin. Its not how they were made to be. Maybe thin people are jealous because "fat" people are more attractive.
I am not , nor have I ever been anorexic. But I do suffer from body dismorphic disorder. I don't know what your going thru but I can see how, "You look so much better ,you look great" would translate to "your saying I'm fat" . even though this video was soo long ago , hope it went well.
I love you girl, you are my weekly addiction! So much to tell, so much reasonable to say, so much"speedy gonzales talking"(which i LOVE) - LOVE your spirit, LOVE - YOU! Never quit this, Courtney! You are friggin AWESOME!
@idontliketrees; YOU shut the fuck up and get some shread of a life that doesnt include cruising youtube for vloggers to attack, you pathetic fucking prick. I don't give a damn about "reality", thats not an excuse for being a shit starter. Get yur ugly ass on youtube and lets see how you feel when ppl start bashing YOU. toodles fucker!
In my over 50 years of interacting with others as well as my patients, she seems a little bit "Too" up" that's all. Be honest. People generally don't act so dramatically, even in front of the camera and I due a little "You Tubing myself."
aww i love u courtney everytime i watch ur vids i just get way to happy to even think about restricting or going crazy with workouts and stuf u just make my day i hope everythings going good in ur life now =]
Haha you're a genius, and so right about everything.. I know exactly what you're talking about, so I won't tell you you look healthy, but I will tell you that you look really pretty just the way you are. I really hope you get/stay better! (sorry, that would translate to fat again in anorexic language.. but seriously, you're really pretty!)
It's true. Anorexia is perhaps one of the most alienating disorders ever...I'm dealing with it now. It's sad and lonely and I hate it and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Ever.
that happened to me a couple months ago! someone said you look healthier and i freaked out and immediately relapsed...ik this is an old vid but i hope that everything went ok! i love your energy btw!
i've been overwieght almost my entire life, until now. just out of curiosity, is anorexia a fear of being overweight, because i feel like not eating out of fear of gaining it back.
I'm exactly like that. I've lost 31 pounds since Jan. 25. The more I lose the less I want to eat. The less I eat the more I lose. Ya know? I don't really remember how to eat normal without being worried "Crap this granola bar 170 cals. That could make you gain." I really want to know if that's anorexia, but I'm already overweight. I want to stop it before it gets worse if it's anorexia..
Please do yourself a favor. I have OCD and without med's., I would be under my covers right now, unable to face the world. A living hell. So listen please. YOU NEED TO GET OFF WEHATEVER YOU ARE TAKING FIRST. Then, you must get to a doctor ASAP Please stop the cutesy routine. It's medicine you need because your brains chemicals are out of sync.This is no different than any other sickness, no matter what the uninformed think! Please do this before you end up making many people cry!
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this is why i date blondes. harmless and very easily gullible and always mumble on and on and on lol check out my music video called change the world and cant love you better. i think she needs some love in her life / one love
I can really relate to your videos, Courtney! you are such a radical person. I know this video is old, but you are just so great to watch. anyways, hope your doing good!! :)
I just want to feel good, even ok, about my body... I exercise a lot and my weight is in middle normal range but I'm trying to get back to my pre-preg. weight. Not the weight where my mom was saying "eat a cheeseburger, girl" (I'm a vegan HA!)
Me gusta tu videos mucho.
What scares me the most about pro-ana sites especially is the thought that my 5 year old sisters could stumble upon one looking to youtube "princess ana" or something. :-( (Happened with Barbie-porno!! O_O) (con.)
shut the fuck up your haters and complainers--why are you watching her videos if you're just going to make rude comments. IDIOTS. Keep it up Courtney!
that is so true, every1 has said to me i look so healthy! arg! i hate it! i wanna look unhealthily skinny again!!! but it helps when they say u could gain a bit more..
i mean i would NO FUKING WAY want to gain MORE, but its nice to imagine someone still thinking ur thin..
oh my gosh you are so right...about everything! I wish all of those dumb people who ask me "how i could have ever been anorexic youre so dumb" could see this and somehow understand. Healthy did mean fat to me and isolation was definitely the worst part of anorexia. you never realize how many social events include food until you dont eat!
You are afraid of them saying that you look healthy!? That's what I don't get! If you're aware that you are anorexic, then you know that your idea of an ideal body is totally warped. When people ive you a comment like that, you just need to realize that YOU are the one who's fucked up (no offense)! You don't really look the way you see yourself in your mind. When peaople look at you now and tell you that you look healthy, it's because you do. You don't look like a cancer patient anymore!
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Look if you were really suffering you wouldnt be like this.. i have a friend that is really anorexic and really trying to recover.. but if you were anorexic you wouldnt be able to translate that.. you may have tried to be anorexic and you may have been underweight.. just admit it your a yo yo dieter no an anorexic please save you personal digs for somewhere else.. otherwise how can you take the piss out of something so real and something that people suffer from. just stop
Misfitdepressive: You're an ASS! Courtney is right about everything she said.
I have struggled w/anorexia for years & your friend has the ED not you so you can't possibly understand what we think or believe or react to. Unless you personally struggle you can't know what it's like in our world.
We all have our own ways of copying, mine is self-injury & Courtney's is thru humor and if listening to her is going to take my mind off cutting gashes on my body then I thank her for distracting me.
omg ur personality and everything just cheers me up... like just in certain way calm myself... and stop for some minutes this thing and feelings that are taking away and kind of sanity from me.. ty... i would still watching some more...
about the fat thing, at first I thought you were being sarcastic..
yeah... you're being serious.
however, anorexia is a state of mind of which it is impossible to convince someone (who isn't fat) that they are in fact not fat. Despite how pretty they appear to us, they don't see the same thing we see when they look in the mirror..
It almost can be compared to hallucinations actually...
well, as most of my peers said, you aren't fat at all.
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It must be hard for you living in the weird mix of self loathing and vanity .. find something interesting to do it'll take your mind off your self obsession.
well done you keep having such a positive outlook on things, i like how you seem to drive yourself to do stuff you really don't want to do but know will be good for you in the long run, it's a sign of maturity. you're not being stubborn and making your life more difficult than it has to be so well done. and, ignore the comments from people who don't understand what your going through, it's hard for them cause they havent had to deal with this and its easy to assume that you can just start eating
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i havnt eaten in three days, i dont know what to do, i know i need to eat i just cant, ive been hiiding food and doing what ever i can i know its wrong but i cant stop, i really want to i just cant
I completely understand where you are coming from. I have been in tears before when someone has said that I "look so much better" and I am "healthy" because as an Anorexic, you do hear "fat". I think you are so funny and are talented. Keep it up. And to the person who said that they cannot take your rants. They are just jealous.
eating disorders are extremely glamourized...& as much as i know thats not what it is theres always that lil voice saying that being thin will make you happier & better.
why do u think ur fat u not and im sorry that ur friends r jerks but u just need to meet some new people and why would u go if u r going to be called fat and they havent seen u in like 3 days school just let out what did u do gain 50 pounds in 5 days!!!!!!!
k no one cares if shes recovering from it she doesn't have to tell people who know how to eat properly that theyre fat. and you guys dont have to fucking insult ppl. like honeslty everyone has feelings and i bet you don't like it when people call you stupid and make fun of your voice. so stop insuling people youd dont even know.
She's not insulting anyone. Shes speaking about what all the praise that people are giving her that may seem positive in their minds truely means to someone who has suffered with an eating disorder. Its does not mean that anyone who is normal weight is fat, it how distorted ones mind becomes whehn they have anorexia nervosa. No matter what your weight is you still believe that you as in idividual are fat, it has nothing to do with anyone else.
You ought to be ashamed of yourself! If you still think you are fat, you still need to be in therapy. You are self obsessive and needy...probably very spoilt too...get a fucking grip!!!....and this isn't a message from a kid , its from a (married)mum of 6 kids from the UK.....btw you're voice is soooo grating, calm it down
wow. im a 14 year old girl and i have more common sense than you. shes a recovering anorexia and you shouldn't be saing something like that. your pathedic. get a life and stop insulting people. i would feel so ashamed to call you my mom you whore.
Why should she be ashamed of herself? Having the courage to fight an eating disorder and take your life back is certainly not something to be ashamed of. Courtney is an inspiration to everyone, with or without an eating disorder.
Personally, watching all her videos and seeing her transform from an 85 lb, basically emaciated individual, into a beautiful healthy young woman is incredible. It takes so much strength and bravery to do what she has done and anorexia is not a simple problem to fix. You still have to take it step by step and every day is a battle. She's still working on recovery so yeah, maybe she still has a few issues with her body but the point is she never gave up.
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You should be ashamed of yourself for posting such blasphamy. You clearly know nothing about eating disorders so please do not go running your mouth about what you do not understand.
yeh i think what that girl said was sico noone want to be a anorexic its is no fun and really hard to stop,...and i feel u on that thanksgiving is coming and im scared to death of all the food people might make me eat,...im still stuck in this crazy prosses and no matter what i just cant stop:{
Do you want to miss your graduation just because you were too afraid to hear that you look healthy? Take a deep breath, get over it and GO. Don't let this disorder ruin any more of your life.
Also, I think you should go into radio/tv as a career- you have a chatty personality!
Hey Courtney!! I like your video lol I agree with you in the anorexic Language Healty means YOU LOOK FAT!! but it doesn't matter, you look great now, thin and smart so... GO ON!!
It doesn't matter if it make you popular. Why do people want to be popular so desperately, anyways? As long as you have a good group of real friends and are happy that's all you need. And this is coming from a girl who's nowhere close to fat, but not anorexic either.
"You look healthy" doesn't means "you're fat by any means". But if one day you see a girl that weights 85 pounds, and then she weighs around 120, you're like "Wow, you look so much better", which doesn't means "you're fat".
Maybe you don't mean it that way, but to someone who's had an eating disorder, our minds take it that way. We hear 'you're fat' even if that's not your intent.
Omg u carnt cry about u been anerexic and then call people fat thats just horrible and yeah u propbabaly are messed up in the brain thats real tyt !!:'(
You're very right. You can kick your social life goodbye when you're in the thick of an ED. All my friends have abandoned me. But I can't blame them, people can only be rejected and turned down so many times before they think you don't like them. I'm sorting to wonder if I'll ever have normal friendships again. I try not to feel lonely. But it's hard. I used to be very social now all I do is hide from the world. When I do go out I feel like everyone is staring and laughing at me.
Ok, so why do people think that having an eating disorder will make them popular/happier/whatever...? As someone who thought that, I can tell you for me it was easier to blame my weight for my lack of friends & social life, rather than admit people just didn't like me cause of me!
Looking back on it I can see how stupid that is but at the time I thought if I was skinny people would like me more. Course now I don't have a social life or friends cause of lack of money & time (thanks to bulimia).
I don't know why people WANT to be anorexic. But I do understand if someone wants their anorexia back. Because I do that. I'm pretty much recovered but sometimes I want that feeling of control back, the feeling of nearly dying. But at the same time I am telling myself, that it was the worst time in my entire life and I never want to go back there again. It will be a lifetime struggle I guess...
Alisen12 1 week ago
Im not shallow, but I do prefer people who are bigger because thin is not very attractive. Girls that are really thin I do not find attractive. It looks unhealthy and not natural. I find it ironic that all these women want to starve themselves to look repulsive and thin. Its not how they were made to be. Maybe thin people are jealous because "fat" people are more attractive.
VASINGER 3 months ago
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VASINGER 3 months ago
you are a nice girl
buscotrabajo28 5 months ago
I am not , nor have I ever been anorexic. But I do suffer from body dismorphic disorder. I don't know what your going thru but I can see how, "You look so much better ,you look great" would translate to "your saying I'm fat" . even though this video was soo long ago , hope it went well.
MsFreshy3 7 months ago
this is so stupid and annyoing. i only got through a few seconds of the video. so bye!!
xwannabethinx 10 months ago
You are hot.
danieljo2013 1 year ago
y ou are just fine the way you are. don't listen to the idiots there.
rextony22 1 year ago
I HATE YOU, why did it link me to this annoying bimbo?
lordadman 1 year ago
lol @ comments about blondes acting like bimbos. I've also known a load of dark haired men who are complete bimbos.....
steed20011 1 year ago 3
I love you girl, you are my weekly addiction! So much to tell, so much reasonable to say, so much"speedy gonzales talking"(which i LOVE) - LOVE your spirit, LOVE - YOU! Never quit this, Courtney! You are friggin AWESOME!
htsand 1 year ago
i love this girl.
bhart0789 1 year ago
you're sooooooooooooo right! :'(
ankoboa 1 year ago
LOL. I love you.
silverpixel2 1 year ago
@idontliketrees; YOU shut the fuck up and get some shread of a life that doesnt include cruising youtube for vloggers to attack, you pathetic fucking prick. I don't give a damn about "reality", thats not an excuse for being a shit starter. Get yur ugly ass on youtube and lets see how you feel when ppl start bashing YOU. toodles fucker!
rungirl05 1 year ago
jesus, get off the crack lady
moviesoundtracks01 1 year ago
omg i love u!hah all the stuff u said are soo real:D
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r u drunk?
Stuvardessa 1 year ago
you look soooo much like one of my friends...her name is courtney as well hahaha :) you are gorgeous
anaidol 1 year ago
In my over 50 years of interacting with others as well as my patients, she seems a little bit "Too" up" that's all. Be honest. People generally don't act so dramatically, even in front of the camera and I due a little "You Tubing myself."
lazerlazer 1 year ago
@lazerlazer sorry do not due
lazerlazer 1 year ago
aww i love u courtney everytime i watch ur vids i just get way to happy to even think about restricting or going crazy with workouts and stuf u just make my day i hope everythings going good in ur life now =]
darkwatervamp 1 year ago
Haha you're a genius, and so right about everything.. I know exactly what you're talking about, so I won't tell you you look healthy, but I will tell you that you look really pretty just the way you are. I really hope you get/stay better! (sorry, that would translate to fat again in anorexic language.. but seriously, you're really pretty!)
JustKeepOnBreathing 1 year ago
It's true. Anorexia is perhaps one of the most alienating disorders ever...I'm dealing with it now. It's sad and lonely and I hate it and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Ever.
xxassessment 1 year ago
YOUR REALLY ANNOYING HAAA
TheJoannalovesyou 1 year ago
that happened to me a couple months ago! someone said you look healthier and i freaked out and immediately relapsed...ik this is an old vid but i hope that everything went ok! i love your energy btw!
nataliefan4Christ 1 year ago
Can you say "borderline personality disorder". Wow they make mood stabilizers for this kind of problem.
julie1300 1 year ago
@julie1300 I have BPD and you need to shut your mouth and let it go because I can say you speak before you think.
beakie20 1 year ago
Haaaa I love you so much!!!!! You rock and your videos make me feel so happy. I hope you're doing well. Please post again soon!!!!!
bambilee23 1 year ago
i've been overwieght almost my entire life, until now. just out of curiosity, is anorexia a fear of being overweight, because i feel like not eating out of fear of gaining it back.
BeeZee1992 1 year ago
@BeeZee1992
I'm exactly like that. I've lost 31 pounds since Jan. 25. The more I lose the less I want to eat. The less I eat the more I lose. Ya know? I don't really remember how to eat normal without being worried "Crap this granola bar 170 cals. That could make you gain." I really want to know if that's anorexia, but I'm already overweight. I want to stop it before it gets worse if it's anorexia..
brokenbabe1 1 year ago
Please do yourself a favor. I have OCD and without med's., I would be under my covers right now, unable to face the world. A living hell. So listen please. YOU NEED TO GET OFF WEHATEVER YOU ARE TAKING FIRST. Then, you must get to a doctor ASAP Please stop the cutesy routine. It's medicine you need because your brains chemicals are out of sync.This is no different than any other sickness, no matter what the uninformed think! Please do this before you end up making many people cry!
lazerlazer 1 year ago
@lazerlazer i have a question but u made this comment like 4 months ago but what makes you think courtney is on something?
Rae56789 1 year ago
i really dislike your speach impediment...
hate your lisp...try working for TMZ....
123isuper 1 year ago
so i gotta say......if this dumbass understands everything about her problem........shes probably not anorexic and just faking the whole thing
r0fl3d 2 years ago
wow you are so right about the translations. haha
SincerelyJustine 2 years ago
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What the fuck are you on? You sound like a heroine addict.
Fishie56 2 years ago
a little hyper are we?
Rachiann 2 years ago
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this is why i date blondes. harmless and very easily gullible and always mumble on and on and on lol check out my music video called change the world and cant love you better. i think she needs some love in her life / one love
mrmontoya7 2 years ago
"Bless her heart, bless her heart, I mean we can't all be einstein's here, but really.."
bahahaha
I love her.
FoxEatFox 2 years ago 3
when someone says "i wanna be anorexic," they are generally exaggerating
WalkThePath87 2 years ago
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fap fap fap fap.
syianblood 2 years ago
*still would.
entanglement 2 years ago
youre not fat but you definitely are mental
entanglement 2 years ago
youre awesome..i agree lol
riideme2009 2 years ago 2
I can really relate to your videos, Courtney! you are such a radical person. I know this video is old, but you are just so great to watch. anyways, hope your doing good!! :)
tattoo666amy 2 years ago
typical Lady, never shut's up xD
TheFilipinek 2 years ago
UR REALLY DUMB AN ANNOYING
vanity713 2 years ago
so why watch?
daisygirrl1234 2 years ago 2
I just want to feel good, even ok, about my body... I exercise a lot and my weight is in middle normal range but I'm trying to get back to my pre-preg. weight. Not the weight where my mom was saying "eat a cheeseburger, girl" (I'm a vegan HA!)
Me gusta tu videos mucho.
What scares me the most about pro-ana sites especially is the thought that my 5 year old sisters could stumble upon one looking to youtube "princess ana" or something. :-( (Happened with Barbie-porno!! O_O) (con.)
anarkai27 2 years ago
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I bet this chick burns all her energy in these vids and as soon as she hits stop on the cam her head hits the desk and she starts snoring
shepherd76 2 years ago
i love her but my head hurts now
kay2bmkm 2 years ago
wtf
99oliver66 2 years ago
shut the fuck up your haters and complainers--why are you watching her videos if you're just going to make rude comments. IDIOTS. Keep it up Courtney!
rungirl05 2 years ago 21
@rungirl05 cuz we saw bitches on related videos. grow the fuck up and realize the reality is like that. people make fun of people. so fuck you!
idontliketrees 1 year ago
@rungirl05
there just jealous because she's hot and there ugly trolls.
bcroger2 9 months ago
@rungirl05 they watch the vids because its featured
koolguy1217 5 months ago
Be still! You move too much!
TheSafa70 2 years ago
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your hand gestures are annoying.. >:l
elizaAndHerMagicBee 2 years ago
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hey voice is damn annnoying
boniggy 2 years ago
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why does she talk like that?
sonja69dana 2 years ago
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ur voice is annyoing
xoxobriannaxoxo1 2 years ago
that is so true, every1 has said to me i look so healthy! arg! i hate it! i wanna look unhealthily skinny again!!! but it helps when they say u could gain a bit more..
i mean i would NO FUKING WAY want to gain MORE, but its nice to imagine someone still thinking ur thin..
Cherinbrook 2 years ago
I hope it went well- GO COURTNEY For fighting! God Bless you Courtney! Alice X
glitterface6 2 years ago 2
oh my gosh you are so right...about everything! I wish all of those dumb people who ask me "how i could have ever been anorexic youre so dumb" could see this and somehow understand. Healthy did mean fat to me and isolation was definitely the worst part of anorexia. you never realize how many social events include food until you dont eat!
msmetad 2 years ago 10
You are afraid of them saying that you look healthy!? That's what I don't get! If you're aware that you are anorexic, then you know that your idea of an ideal body is totally warped. When people ive you a comment like that, you just need to realize that YOU are the one who's fucked up (no offense)! You don't really look the way you see yourself in your mind. When peaople look at you now and tell you that you look healthy, it's because you do. You don't look like a cancer patient anymore!
jbox418prs 2 years ago
Oh my Gosh! That is so true!!!!!
jannacle 2 years ago
wow I think she is the prettiest girl ever, what a personality!! I would watch her any day
bbbaileebug 2 years ago 2
I'm happy you're recovering. I'm struggling with my weight and I have to learn to eat right again. Bless you hun
SilentAllieKat 2 years ago
mmm. I guess some people don't understand or relate to what you're saying.
but I do.
Congrats on recovery, by the way, that's awesome.
and i'll be keeping you in my prayers.
:)
blondemunchkin91 2 years ago
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you are the aids that is killing the internet
kelly ripa/jabba the hutt
DaneCarlin 2 years ago
thank you courtney, you are sooooo right!
KafkameetsPlath 2 years ago 4
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Look if you were really suffering you wouldnt be like this.. i have a friend that is really anorexic and really trying to recover.. but if you were anorexic you wouldnt be able to translate that.. you may have tried to be anorexic and you may have been underweight.. just admit it your a yo yo dieter no an anorexic please save you personal digs for somewhere else.. otherwise how can you take the piss out of something so real and something that people suffer from. just stop
Misfitdepressive 2 years ago
Misfitdepressive: You're an ASS! Courtney is right about everything she said.
I have struggled w/anorexia for years & your friend has the ED not you so you can't possibly understand what we think or believe or react to. Unless you personally struggle you can't know what it's like in our world.
We all have our own ways of copying, mine is self-injury & Courtney's is thru humor and if listening to her is going to take my mind off cutting gashes on my body then I thank her for distracting me.
ImaTwinSis2 2 years ago 4
ImaTwinSis2:
EXACTLY!
thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou! For saying this!
x
InspireYOURS3LF 2 years ago 2
InspireYOURS3LF:
Your welcome...this person doesn't have a clue.
ImaTwinSis2 2 years ago
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This chick has a serious mental problem.
onebrandofdemocracy 2 years ago
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If I was married to this chick I would drink myself to death.
onebrandofdemocracy 2 years ago
omg ur personality and everything just cheers me up... like just in certain way calm myself... and stop for some minutes this thing and feelings that are taking away and kind of sanity from me.. ty... i would still watching some more...
MadPorcelainDoll 2 years ago 4
you're not even fat.
xkelly18 2 years ago 2
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You only need to lose about 15 pounds--then you'll be the right size.
Thin is Beautiful!!!
Phish78 2 years ago
i would smash
KidATL9 2 years ago
your pretty awsome! i found these videos on acadent but i like watched them all
:]
lauracramer13textme 2 years ago
you are cute
djsimo149 2 years ago
omg ur so beautiful and not even close to fat so dont even worry about it. u should really go and enjoy ur one in a life time chance
HisLittleAngel25 2 years ago
haha i liked it. YOU'RE HOT!!!
npala101 2 years ago
...haha....yeah, you're being sarcastic... Sh-she's being sarcastic... I know she is... Right?
Bleak 2 years ago
No. Of course she's not. Why would she be?
~~~~SIA
siagothic 2 years ago
You're right. I misunderstood her condition.
Bleak 2 years ago
Lurk moar.
pikmin94 2 years ago
cu cuuu (8)
soozannegemini 2 years ago
you look hidious, look at you, you look so unhealthy!
by your logic, is this a compliment?
SolidSirhc 2 years ago
ur not fat so get over urself
myka8008325 2 years ago
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can't wait for u bunch of natural selection misfits die out and hungry happy asians take over your jacuzzies
WebmasterEUD 2 years ago
and pardon my gramatical mistakes in the previous comment as well as double posting.
GreyWolfyutuub 2 years ago
I hate numbers in the place of words too :).
about the fat thing, at first I thought you were being sarcastic..
yeah... you're being serious.
however, anorexia is a state of mind of which it is impossible to convince someone (who isn't fat) that they are in fact not fat. Despite how pretty they appear to us, they don't see the same thing we see when they look in the mirror..
It almost can be compared to hallucinations actually...
well, as most of my peers said, you aren't fat at all.
GreyWolfyutuub 2 years ago
you need help.
noodle360 2 years ago
if ur fat that makes me ... uhhh morbidly obease
itchynoob 2 years ago 4
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It must be hard for you living in the weird mix of self loathing and vanity .. find something interesting to do it'll take your mind off your self obsession.
Sansash01202 2 years ago
idiotic
cryofan 2 years ago
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you should get shoot.real talk chill with the crack pipe.
DirtyButterFinger 2 years ago
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im gonna rape you
TwilightLink98 2 years ago
dude i love your voice your a total trip and a great woman
journeyman3600 2 years ago
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shut the fuck up complaing life is bad 4 u waaa waaaa waaaa grow up lol
devilwolf167 2 years ago
Chill! CHILL THE FUCK DOWN! You're not fat dear, not even close, so don't worry about it.
Did you drink 10 energy drinks before you made this video? Just wondering.
Peanutbutterbucket 2 years ago 6
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ok... now could you speak in english? :/
aaronandchrisown 3 years ago
I've Missed 3 days of school because i binged for 5 days straight and i don't want people to see me. as "healthy"
veganlove113 3 years ago
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are you on speed?
MrKorea 3 years ago
well done you keep having such a positive outlook on things, i like how you seem to drive yourself to do stuff you really don't want to do but know will be good for you in the long run, it's a sign of maturity. you're not being stubborn and making your life more difficult than it has to be so well done. and, ignore the comments from people who don't understand what your going through, it's hard for them cause they havent had to deal with this and its easy to assume that you can just start eating
rainbowchild888 3 years ago
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i havnt eaten in three days, i dont know what to do, i know i need to eat i just cant, ive been hiiding food and doing what ever i can i know its wrong but i cant stop, i really want to i just cant
smile15800 3 years ago
I completely understand where you are coming from. I have been in tears before when someone has said that I "look so much better" and I am "healthy" because as an Anorexic, you do hear "fat". I think you are so funny and are talented. Keep it up. And to the person who said that they cannot take your rants. They are just jealous.
angaralove 3 years ago
eating disorders are extremely glamourized...& as much as i know thats not what it is theres always that lil voice saying that being thin will make you happier & better.
deathiinabox 3 years ago
It's good your getting over it
And just go to that thing with your head held high
missbeckyboob 3 years ago
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i could not care less for how fat you are, and i have little tollerance for youre rants about your life. sigh.
danielgooison9792 3 years ago
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i would love to plant one in you
YeaOrNot 3 years ago
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you're pretty, but the video was boring...
blueshift86 3 years ago
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You look healthy = You're fat?
Wow...
You look brillant then... lol
Morningstack 3 years ago
and you americans wonder why us English consider you stupid?
fondoogle 3 years ago
hey now! i'm american and i am definately not stupid!! hahaha... but i know what you're talking about.. for sure..
porcelain100 3 years ago
why do u think ur fat u not and im sorry that ur friends r jerks but u just need to meet some new people and why would u go if u r going to be called fat and they havent seen u in like 3 days school just let out what did u do gain 50 pounds in 5 days!!!!!!!
aroc321 3 years ago
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ur sooo boring i felt like i was going to die after likt 30 seconds just shut up!!!!
aroc321 3 years ago
i listened to 30 seconds of that and already can't stand you.
zabbaz3693 3 years ago
k no one cares if shes recovering from it she doesn't have to tell people who know how to eat properly that theyre fat. and you guys dont have to fucking insult ppl. like honeslty everyone has feelings and i bet you don't like it when people call you stupid and make fun of your voice. so stop insuling people youd dont even know.
Nikki7424 3 years ago
She's not insulting anyone. Shes speaking about what all the praise that people are giving her that may seem positive in their minds truely means to someone who has suffered with an eating disorder. Its does not mean that anyone who is normal weight is fat, it how distorted ones mind becomes whehn they have anorexia nervosa. No matter what your weight is you still believe that you as in idividual are fat, it has nothing to do with anyone else.
JiGsAwMoFo 3 years ago
ur a retard you loser!
sportywolf 3 years ago
You ought to be ashamed of yourself! If you still think you are fat, you still need to be in therapy. You are self obsessive and needy...probably very spoilt too...get a fucking grip!!!....and this isn't a message from a kid , its from a (married)mum of 6 kids from the UK.....btw you're voice is soooo grating, calm it down
babybedlam 3 years ago
wow. im a 14 year old girl and i have more common sense than you. shes a recovering anorexia and you shouldn't be saing something like that. your pathedic. get a life and stop insulting people. i would feel so ashamed to call you my mom you whore.
0xMZx0 3 years ago
Agreed. 17 year old of the UK =)
Binfieldius 3 years ago
Why should she be ashamed of herself? Having the courage to fight an eating disorder and take your life back is certainly not something to be ashamed of. Courtney is an inspiration to everyone, with or without an eating disorder.
JiGsAwMoFo 3 years ago
Personally, watching all her videos and seeing her transform from an 85 lb, basically emaciated individual, into a beautiful healthy young woman is incredible. It takes so much strength and bravery to do what she has done and anorexia is not a simple problem to fix. You still have to take it step by step and every day is a battle. She's still working on recovery so yeah, maybe she still has a few issues with her body but the point is she never gave up.
JiGsAwMoFo 3 years ago 3
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You should be ashamed of yourself for posting such blasphamy. You clearly know nothing about eating disorders so please do not go running your mouth about what you do not understand.
JiGsAwMoFo 3 years ago
haha ur voice intrest me. so i favored it
0xMZx0 3 years ago
8 mins of my life wasted you fat filthy whor
DVAVWVSVOVN 3 years ago
?...
people like you should be kicked off of a cliff
yourRETARDEDomg 3 years ago
so healthy people are fat? cruel, cruel world...
hobgoblin81 3 years ago
I think i hate you.
Radderz22 3 years ago 2
yu remind me of rachel from friends i think its coz yu sound like her
LucyHelyer 3 years ago
Same
NaddiiSpud 3 years ago
shes quite hot...
cpk93 3 years ago
i hate being skinny....i weigh 126 pounds and am 5ft 11inch tall.
gaddes01 3 years ago
yeh i think what that girl said was sico noone want to be a anorexic its is no fun and really hard to stop,...and i feel u on that thanksgiving is coming and im scared to death of all the food people might make me eat,...im still stuck in this crazy prosses and no matter what i just cant stop:{
notlikeotherz 3 years ago
may i ask how old u are? 28?
lilgirlsj 3 years ago
Do you want to miss your graduation just because you were too afraid to hear that you look healthy? Take a deep breath, get over it and GO. Don't let this disorder ruin any more of your life.
Also, I think you should go into radio/tv as a career- you have a chatty personality!
KatieandCoco 3 years ago 5
lmfao you are so funny...I love listening to you!
I do hope things get well for you dear, you are such an angel. xox
deathiinabox 3 years ago
she actually made me laugh quite a bit.
gaddes01 3 years ago
same haha
deathiinabox 3 years ago
Hey Courtney!! I like your video lol I agree with you in the anorexic Language Healty means YOU LOOK FAT!! but it doesn't matter, you look great now, thin and smart so... GO ON!!
lizethhdzc 3 years ago
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oh do fuck off
STENCHBURG 3 years ago
Has any one ever told you that you are a lot like the character Rachel from the American tv show Friends?
sundaydote 3 years ago
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You need a fucking muzzle!
ThaDagger1 3 years ago
LMFAO
KidKayos09 3 years ago
you are beautiful, you don't need to be anorexic!
Hollyitalia 3 years ago
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Just eat infront of people.
If I eat out I don't have a meal the next day.
AND YES ANOREXIA DOES MAKE YOU POPULAR. Last time I checked fat girls got made fun of and anorexic girls had boyfriends.
ASK yourself how many fat girls got invited to that pool party. But you, being anorexic, DID.
SkinnyGirl125 3 years ago
It doesn't matter if it make you popular. Why do people want to be popular so desperately, anyways? As long as you have a good group of real friends and are happy that's all you need. And this is coming from a girl who's nowhere close to fat, but not anorexic either.
1yK3Y4 3 years ago 6
im skinny, i look good, and im unpopular. perfect!
sirillclint 3 years ago
Yes, it does alienate you.
That is so beyond true.
This summer i had so many "hot tub" moments.
Or pool partys i skipped on because i was too self conscious to.
msbevhills 3 years ago
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U really like your voice, don't u???
D80aleph 3 years ago
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you need some friend girl RELAX!!!!
D80aleph 3 years ago
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girl wat is u talking about u dont be talking about people wit problems cuz u have problem >=|
niquejoy 3 years ago
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THIS BITCH HAS THE BRAIN OF A APPLE
ebonne222 3 years ago
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*an apple
Good going, and I disagree with you completely.
Find something productive to do with your time. For example, brush up on your english.
briittneyy 3 years ago
Okay i wrote that before the end ....It makes sense now ... ur kinda right!
playboybabee93 3 years ago
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SHUT THE $%&* UP!!!!!
playboybabee93 3 years ago
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dude she is fucking annoying lol
tigerworth 3 years ago
Then don't watch her videos, Obviously..
HisagiShuhei 3 years ago 6
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the way you talk is SO annoying.
jenalicousss 3 years ago
"You look healthy" doesn't means "you're fat by any means". But if one day you see a girl that weights 85 pounds, and then she weighs around 120, you're like "Wow, you look so much better", which doesn't means "you're fat".
¬_¬ Seriously
Pulits 3 years ago
Maybe you don't mean it that way, but to someone who's had an eating disorder, our minds take it that way. We hear 'you're fat' even if that's not your intent.
SilverWingling 3 years ago 4
Omg u carnt cry about u been anerexic and then call people fat thats just horrible and yeah u propbabaly are messed up in the brain thats real tyt !!:'(
JessieHorseyMad 3 years ago
lol she kinda reminds me of justinge3. NOT a insult. lol very funny.:)
boxofmarkers 3 years ago
love your personality, but you remind me of jennifer aniston alot (ur way of speaking and looks hehe)
Stay bless hunn'
Falling4Ana 3 years ago
You're very right. You can kick your social life goodbye when you're in the thick of an ED. All my friends have abandoned me. But I can't blame them, people can only be rejected and turned down so many times before they think you don't like them. I'm sorting to wonder if I'll ever have normal friendships again. I try not to feel lonely. But it's hard. I used to be very social now all I do is hide from the world. When I do go out I feel like everyone is staring and laughing at me.
AnaMiaSucks 3 years ago
Ok, so why do people think that having an eating disorder will make them popular/happier/whatever...? As someone who thought that, I can tell you for me it was easier to blame my weight for my lack of friends & social life, rather than admit people just didn't like me cause of me!
Looking back on it I can see how stupid that is but at the time I thought if I was skinny people would like me more. Course now I don't have a social life or friends cause of lack of money & time (thanks to bulimia).
Claripup 3 years ago
Youre right.
I lost my weight and Im skinny now (but not anorexic!!) and I realised that... nothing changed. I dont feel better at all.
rapemerapemeagain 3 years ago
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Hey chick. You are not fat you are stupid!
salvadordemi 3 years ago
HELP ME!!!
itsemilybitch1 3 years ago
hi there, you are funny...check out my fat bike song.
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