UR SO RIGHT WHEN U SAY THAT HAVING UR LOVE ONES IN SPIRIT SOMETIMES IS JUST NOT ENOUGH, AND I KNOW THAT MAYBE U IGNORE ALL THE COMMENTS CUZ ONLY U KNOW HOW UR FEELING AND NO GOOD COMMENT WOULD BRING BACK UR FAM..BUT, UR STILL IN THIS LIFE, OFCOURSE THERE IS A REASON WHY.B THANKFUL UR GRANDPA LIVED A LONG LIFE,ENJOY WHATEVER IT IS THAT U HAVE.MY BROTHER WAS KILLED SOME MONTHS AGO,HIS BABY WAS ONLY 3 MONTHS IT FEELS LIKE SHIT BUT IM STILL HERE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM.U TAKE CARE,LOVE AS MUCH AS U CAN.
omg, you broke my heart.....but in my mind if you lost that many people you loved in your life, i'm 100% sure your life will be better in the future. good luck from me :[
Girl, I'm so with you. Almost impossible to perform on camera when you have serious personal things in your life ... even if you attempt to shoot, the lens will detect your sadness. Glad to you're back. :) xx JJ P.S. Loved it when you let the cat in, lol ...
wow im sorry for all ur losses ::HUGSSSSSSSS:: ... i understand how it is to lose someone, Ive lost many people in my life, my grandmother passed away last year and i miss her SO much, she came into my dream after she died, and my roommate died two months later and i miss him too and he also came into my dream, i havnt lost my parents and i dunno what i would do if it does happen.. once again :HUGS:
I'm so sorry for your loss. I will include your grandfather in my prayers. Also it may help to think that you have been blessed to have your grandfather and to have had him in your life. Others may not even had a grandfather like yours. So despite of the loss you are blessed. :)
Aw hunny. We all go threw this some time or another. I don't blame you for not doing videos! I love them but I understand and Im pretty sure all your fans do too.
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even though in reality he';s not here he will be with u always!!not 2 sound like a freek but my great grandma passed away and didnt get a chance to meet her my grandma who is her daughter was in so much pain that she went to the hospital so i know how u feel!!im srry for ur grandpa but we are like ur family 2 <3
hey babe, not sure how much you are still reading these comments but i wanted to say that im 29 now and my mom suddently died on me when i was only 25. 3 1/2 years later i am still so hurt and so angry. everyone tells me all the spirit stuff blah blah blah but like you said, its not good enough. i want my mama back. just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, we all love you very much!
Mathieu, you are sucha speail person and deserve nothing but the best. Your right, you need time for yourself right now, time to mourn your lose. You need to do for you right now. Please don't worry about any of us and our needs right now, we all understand and hope that you feeling like yourself again soon.
I lost my dad the week after your diddy passed away. I know exactly how you're feeling babe. Please keep your chin up hun and know that you are and have been truly loved. xxx
if he raised you, your grandpa must have been a great, loving guy....u turned out to be such a beautiful light that we're all drawn to....i'm sure he's still very proud of u
mathieu, you're such an inspiration. i lost my great grandma a few years back, but i wasnt as close to her as you were to your grandfather. i cant even imagine how hard that must be for you. take all the time that you need to be sad and best wishes to you. <3
You are wise beyond your years, and you speak so eloquently and with such sincerity. You'll find your way, I just know it. Give yourself time to mourn and be sad.....it's okay. You're in my prayers. :)
Mathieu, it isn't a solusion to avoid your pain you got from the lost of your grandfather. If you want to help people you must help yourself first, as you sad, and you must d that. But before you can help yourself you must o through the lost of your family. Just cry and cry so much as you want to and just take your mind of entertaining people and just focus on yourself.
Mathier! I want you to know how much I think of how you are doing and how much I love and miss you. I pray you are holding up and through your grieving, you are able to take all the wonderful memories and keepsake them in you and cherish them and hold on to them forever. Your grandfather loved you SO MUCH and more than anything Mathieu, he wants you to be good to yourself and cherish his memory by making yourself happy and productive in your life.
It hurts, been through it and it never really goes away, but things change and things move on and you are blessed with a wonderful, warm, witty intelligent personality....it will get you through. Thinking of you...your grandad would want you to carry on with your life in the best possible way... now enough platitudes from an old tart like me.. go cry!
Everyone must go through the pain of loosing a loved one. Death is ironically a part of life. Since the day my mama went to Heaven in 2005, i grieved for 2 years. It takes a long time to get over the loss, but eventually you'll get used to the loss, as you'll notice even your closest friends will lose their loved ones too....
oh my god... I'm sorry to hear that. T_T ohh your DD loves you so much... don't worry he will never leave you.. i hope i can ease the pain that you carry right now..
YouTube's a luxury. Sure you make some friends, but it ain't life. You don't need to apologize to anyone for being away, and you don't need to set aside your priorities for something that takes up time and expense when you have neither to spare. However, if you ever need to know you're not alone... you know you've got people here who care about you.
i'm really sorry for your loss hun. You're such a strong individual.. I was able to notice that about you the first time I've seen you videos. You're such an inspiration to so many people.
We are all here to support you.. Take care of yourself sweetheart! xox
Well your only human sweetie, I'm sure your fans(like me) understand this is something serious and of course it will take up your time. Hope you feel a lil better and I will be waiting patiently for you to post up new videos.
Cry when you need too, no one will look down or poorly of you for it. Your dream sounds It's telling you to let your pain out. Don't fake a smile and say "I'm ok" when your not. I've been there too, It's a pain that never full goes away. I've lost so many people in my life, so many people I care about more then my own life. There where times when I felt so hollow & volid I really concedred killing myself. Now I have a loving boyfriend and even though the pain isn't gone It has gotten better.
Hang in there hun. Take as much time as you need. Stay strong, stay beautiful & take care of yourself. We are all here for you =)
and im not sure if i should say this but when i was listening to you, i just kept thinking that there was someone behind you over ur left shoulder thats just ready to say BOO!!!
sorry about your loss. you really should just take all the time you need. when my grandma died my mom was just the same. no energy. just so depressed. i hope you start to feel better. my heart <3 goes out to you.
i wish you all the best! you seem to be a strong person and i really appreciate that. and i wish that you find happyness, no matter if you are here and give us some of your precious time, or not. feel hugged! from us all, we love you!!! and if you decide to come back, we will be here, waiting.
whatever you do, don't put pressure on yourself to get yourself sorted out. i lost both parents to cancer when i was a kid and i can promise you the pain gets easier to deal with in time, but that length of time differs for everybody so just let the grief happen. when you lose someone it's easy to think 'they're gone' but it's better to think ' i miss them but at least i had them for a while'. love and hugs x
I consider you a motivational speaker after this. Youve encouraged people to be who they want to be, and now you're encouraged all of us and reminded thousands of people that we need to be thankful. You have thousands of friends here who will support you through anything. x
your story is so close to me. i too lost my grandfather [my poppy] to cancer 2 years ago this past august. i too lost him in less than the few months we thought we would have with him. my poppa was my world..and there are NO words for the loss...absolutely no comfort anyone can give you because they are not your grandfather. but as life will have it - time doesn't heal the pain it just hurts a little less as it goes on.
So sorry for your loss..Take care of You and then get back to us. Take care of yourself and my thoughts and prayers are with you....keep your head up. I lost my Dad 8 years ago, (he was only 56) and still haven't really dealt with it. I feel your pain....Take care hun...peace and health to you...
you re really a strong person I really appraciate that I have really big respect for you.. and it's gonna sounds so ordianry but everything is gonna be allright
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Loss of a loved one as close as your grandfather is so hard, but hold on to your dreams and follow what feels right for yourself. Take some Mathieu Time.
sounds to me like your dream means that your grandfather is watching over you sweetheart. *hugs* I'm sorry, I know how you feel, I felt the same when I lost my grandfather.
I am sorry for your loss. You have a wonderful way about you. You speak so fondly of your grandfather and it makes me wish we could have seen him on Youtube. He must have been a wonderful man to raise such a kind,funny, artistic person like you. Take good care of yourself and God Bless.
You would be a FANTASTIC motivational speaker. Honestly, everything you said in this video was so raw and intense, you definitely know how to strike a chord with people. So sorry for your loss, I can't imagine. Be good to yourself. And california welcomes you :)
We love you too. You've been there for us, let us be there for you for a while. You're going through something really difficult right now. Feel our love and support and let it help you through this. I know it's not even close to being enough. Nothing would be enough. I've thought of you often and wondered how you were holding up. I'm very sad with you. I'm sorry you're going through this.
nothing anyone says or does can make this hurt less, and i know that. i am so so sorry for your loss, i wish that sentence had more meaning and impact in type, but i really mean it. so many of us really genuinely care about you!! do WHATEVER you need to do until you start to feel some bit of normalcy again in your life. you are such a joy for others, and i hope someone can be that for you, when you need it the most. love and hugs and kisses! <3
i'm so sorry :( i hope things get better, you're an amazing person and have so many people [including strangers like me] who care about you and understand what you're going through.
.It's a tragic injustice if all you do is focus on the day you lost your loved one, or their illness, accident or death.Not only is it painful, it doesn't help you heal or move on. "You can and need to mourn their passing, but don't do that to the exclusion of celebrating their life." Remember, life doesn't stop just because that person is not alive. Ask yourself if your loved one would really want you to stop your life because they're no longer alive.
I also know what its like to lose someone. I have been through the loss of my dad, both sets of grandparents, a sister that was 18, and one of my uncles.
It is very hard, this is the best advice I have ever received.........
Dear Mathieu, I just want to hug you. I know this is difficult for you. Take all the time you need. My heart broke when you said your SPARK is gone. Your grandfather loves you and I know that would be hard for him to deal if he thought HE was the cause of your heartache. Live your life for yourself but know that he is watching and loving everything you do. Honor him and make him as proud of you as you can. You are LOVED. <3
Hello. I really can't relate when it comes to losing parents, but my dad isn't around. I have always wondered what it would be like to see him more. He comes around once every other year. I really think Diddy would want you to pursue your dream. That exceptance speech, i really think this was it. He knows your loving him. I wish you the best and i'll keep you in my prayers constantly and pray for your grandpa. You seem very strong on the surface, but your human too.xoxo daegen
I'm so sorry for your loss, i've lost all my grandparents, i lost my last grandparent when i was about 10/11 so its been a long time since and im not hurting anymore (i'm 17)
its so difficult, i hate this saying but its true, time will ease your pain. keep yourself busy, not to forget him, but to keep your mind off it.
Thanks for sharing this. I lost my Dad 3 years ago to the same cause and I still think of things I want to ask, things I need to say. I wish I could say the hurt goes away...it will lessen, but the empty spot is still always there. I'm sorry babe. Do your business first and you may find new heart along the way;)
We love you too. I just know you will be OK. Hope you know that too...
I wish I could give you a great big warm TX hug. I cannot imagine your loss. My biggest fear is losing my parents. My mom is 51 and so is my Dad, but at any moment we're given opportunities to realize how fragile life is. So fleeting. You've definitely made a difference in my life and for that I'm thankful. I wish you well and I look forward to your return. I love you!
im so sorry for your lost. i know what your going through im only 12 and ive lost my grandma granda and my aunt. this video made me cry espessically the part when you said that when you said about your speach and you wanted to thank him and hes not in the audience that was hard for me, and probably more for you. take as much time as you need. no rush. your in my prayers.
Sweetheart! I am so sorry for you loss, I hope you feel better and chin up! we need you, but we also want you to be good with yourself! I'll wait for you!
Im so sorry to hear that, Im in the same position as you i lost 5 people from april unit now october but i also got a bad news on the 1st of october its turn now from my brother, i cannot cry , i cannot feel i dont know what do the only thing is im asking god why, and all my plans are coming down. I know what you feeling those people also died from cancer!
I am in a loss of words, but I think mostly because I wish that I could just take the pain that your feeling and hold it inside of me, I dont really watch your videos but, I have seen a few but everytime I look into your eyes your always seem so happy but this video made me really wish that I didint live in Miami had 10 thousand to spare and a vacation home in california that i could just give you the keys, your a really good looking guy and deserve allot, and i wish I knew you better
i've missed you, i didn't know you had another channel, just the other day i was wondering "i wonder what ever happened to mathieu." i'm sorry for your loss and i hope some day you can be as happy as you once were.
Just because you lost him doesn't mean you have to give up your dream. I completely understand your feelings, but think about what he would want you to do. Don't run away from how you feel, but don't let it take over your entire life.
OMG, tears running down my face. I am so sorry for your loss Mathieu, I have followed your videos from the time that I discovered Youtube, and I know how much your diddy meant to you, all I can say is that you are light years ahead when it comes to your maturity and I pray for your strength in this hard time. Even if you never do another video, the positive light that is lit inside of you will never stop burning, so I know you will do great things with it in the future, we love you
i am so sorry for your loss. this kind of thing is NEVER easy. my suggestion? record a video diary...get everything out. scream, cry, yell. then put it away. i lost a close friend a few years ago and i still talk to him. talk to diddy...i promise you that if you listen and watch, you will see hes still there. i know its not the same...but the people who love us never leave completly. they are our angels who watch over us an help us. think...what would diddy say to you about the way you feel? xox
There really are no words that I can offer to express how truly sorry I am for you loss. I can not (and I'm afraid to) imagine how I would feel if I lost someone so close to me. It may sound cliche but seriously keep your faith and if you dont have faith in God, find it. Through HIM, all things are possible. Pray, cry, scream, or just simply talk to him. He listens.
i know exactly wat youre goin thru my grandma is my mom in every way that ur grandpa is ur dad i dont have my mom in my life and i almost lost her recently and i cant imagine if i did so i have such great sympathy for u
Big hugs to you, Mathieu.......... Please know that time will heal the wound. There will come a time when you will realize the pain is lessening. I hope there is someone you can talk to. Please remember- that you are a good kind person and the world needs- no matter what direction your life takes you.
((((hugs)))) your story is so close to my heart....I too lost my gpa My POPS he was my daddy...I lost him to cancer and its been ten years and let me tell ya child it hardly gets easier people say it and Ive been waiting for ten years but it just reminds me how long Ive been without him...aaaaah it sucks so bad and I know it hurts like hell but the truth is life goes on and trust me I was pissed when it kept going on after he died...but you will laugh and smile again but on your own time..
I am so terribly sorry about your grandfather. My grandfather also died from lung cancer, so I understand the pain and hardship you're going through. I can see the true emotion of your feelings through this video, you can see how much you really loved him. Let out your emotions it's okay to cry, and miss him. I'm usually the same way with death, it never hits me right away. You need to focus on you and get yourself together, it's ok. Take time for yourself sweetheart ♥
I'm so sorry about your grandfather. I could feel your emotion so strongly through this video and while I can't understand what you're going through - I wish you the very best in dealing with all of these feelings and emotions and getting your spark back <3 You are such a wonderful, inspiring person! *big hugs*
In some cultures they believe that when you dream about someone who's passed your spirits are actually together and interacting. Something to ponder... Good Luck :)
im so sorry mathieu. hes in a better place now. he knows you mean well. he loves you. how ironic 9.11 huh? guess thats never a good date =( *sighs* im soo sorry mathieu. were here for you!!! feel free to vent whenever.
BIGGGGGG HUGGG!!!!
mamacitalinda4ever13 1 week ago
hug u..no need for words...just...a big hug
kauri99 1 year ago
UR SO RIGHT WHEN U SAY THAT HAVING UR LOVE ONES IN SPIRIT SOMETIMES IS JUST NOT ENOUGH, AND I KNOW THAT MAYBE U IGNORE ALL THE COMMENTS CUZ ONLY U KNOW HOW UR FEELING AND NO GOOD COMMENT WOULD BRING BACK UR FAM..BUT, UR STILL IN THIS LIFE, OFCOURSE THERE IS A REASON WHY.B THANKFUL UR GRANDPA LIVED A LONG LIFE,ENJOY WHATEVER IT IS THAT U HAVE.MY BROTHER WAS KILLED SOME MONTHS AGO,HIS BABY WAS ONLY 3 MONTHS IT FEELS LIKE SHIT BUT IM STILL HERE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM.U TAKE CARE,LOVE AS MUCH AS U CAN.
BREEBRIYO 1 year ago
omg, you broke my heart.....but in my mind if you lost that many people you loved in your life, i'm 100% sure your life will be better in the future. good luck from me :[
misterfreehugs 1 year ago
Girl, I'm so with you. Almost impossible to perform on camera when you have serious personal things in your life ... even if you attempt to shoot, the lens will detect your sadness. Glad to you're back. :) xx JJ P.S. Loved it when you let the cat in, lol ...
JulietteTV1970 1 year ago
wow im sorry for all ur losses ::HUGSSSSSSSS:: ... i understand how it is to lose someone, Ive lost many people in my life, my grandmother passed away last year and i miss her SO much, she came into my dream after she died, and my roommate died two months later and i miss him too and he also came into my dream, i havnt lost my parents and i dunno what i would do if it does happen.. once again :HUGS:
JAVY
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36mofia33 1 year ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. I will include your grandfather in my prayers. Also it may help to think that you have been blessed to have your grandfather and to have had him in your life. Others may not even had a grandfather like yours. So despite of the loss you are blessed. :)
chamichams2008 1 year ago
Aw hunny. We all go threw this some time or another. I don't blame you for not doing videos! I love them but I understand and Im pretty sure all your fans do too.
You can get threw this.
♥
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paigelz04 2 years ago
Aww... *hugs*
LullabySweden 2 years ago
Im so sorry sweety!!
grisweet 2 years ago
all the best to you and your family x
brunettebarbienc30 2 years ago
even though in reality he';s not here he will be with u always!!not 2 sound like a freek but my great grandma passed away and didnt get a chance to meet her my grandma who is her daughter was in so much pain that she went to the hospital so i know how u feel!!im srry for ur grandpa but we are like ur family 2 <3
TalkGirlVlog 2 years ago
*HUG*
lajkitty 2 years ago
hey babe, not sure how much you are still reading these comments but i wanted to say that im 29 now and my mom suddently died on me when i was only 25. 3 1/2 years later i am still so hurt and so angry. everyone tells me all the spirit stuff blah blah blah but like you said, its not good enough. i want my mama back. just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, we all love you very much!
SuperTickledPink 2 years ago
I'm so sorry hun for your loss.
vampirekisses28 2 years ago
im soo sorry about ur grandfather :'(
macgirl241 2 years ago
Mathieu, you are sucha speail person and deserve nothing but the best. Your right, you need time for yourself right now, time to mourn your lose. You need to do for you right now. Please don't worry about any of us and our needs right now, we all understand and hope that you feeling like yourself again soon.
Inkotoma 2 years ago
I lost my dad the week after your diddy passed away. I know exactly how you're feeling babe. Please keep your chin up hun and know that you are and have been truly loved. xxx
mrsmullen74 2 years ago
if he raised you, your grandpa must have been a great, loving guy....u turned out to be such a beautiful light that we're all drawn to....i'm sure he's still very proud of u
LUQEE13 2 years ago
we believe in you!!
glamgal917 2 years ago
mathieu, you're such an inspiration. i lost my great grandma a few years back, but i wasnt as close to her as you were to your grandfather. i cant even imagine how hard that must be for you. take all the time that you need to be sad and best wishes to you. <3
shreddermanrules1 2 years ago
You are wise beyond your years, and you speak so eloquently and with such sincerity. You'll find your way, I just know it. Give yourself time to mourn and be sad.....it's okay. You're in my prayers. :)
TheSilverLining80 2 years ago
I'm so sorry :'(
Hugs!
chicainger 2 years ago
Mathieu, it isn't a solusion to avoid your pain you got from the lost of your grandfather. If you want to help people you must help yourself first, as you sad, and you must d that. But before you can help yourself you must o through the lost of your family. Just cry and cry so much as you want to and just take your mind of entertaining people and just focus on yourself.
Please make good dicisions. Love.
soofjhhu 2 years ago
Prayers headed out for you and the loss of your grandfather (father) <3
KarlaKayM 2 years ago
He never left you, he's with you at all times, watching over you.
Purrrsuasive1 2 years ago
Mathier! I want you to know how much I think of how you are doing and how much I love and miss you. I pray you are holding up and through your grieving, you are able to take all the wonderful memories and keepsake them in you and cherish them and hold on to them forever. Your grandfather loved you SO MUCH and more than anything Mathieu, he wants you to be good to yourself and cherish his memory by making yourself happy and productive in your life.
Purrrsuasive1 2 years ago
Where did Mathier come from!?! OK, Mathieu!!
Purrrsuasive1 2 years ago
It hurts, been through it and it never really goes away, but things change and things move on and you are blessed with a wonderful, warm, witty intelligent personality....it will get you through. Thinking of you...your grandad would want you to carry on with your life in the best possible way... now enough platitudes from an old tart like me.. go cry!
Andreakitten1 2 years ago
Everyone must go through the pain of loosing a loved one. Death is ironically a part of life. Since the day my mama went to Heaven in 2005, i grieved for 2 years. It takes a long time to get over the loss, but eventually you'll get used to the loss, as you'll notice even your closest friends will lose their loved ones too....
jusitke07 2 years ago
i wish all best vibes and hope u come back soon! ;)
claudiadinizart 2 years ago
it takes time.. sometimes longer then you think. IM SO SORRY..
MrDalin7 2 years ago
sending you good wishes and hoping you feel better soon...XOXO
colormymind 2 years ago
Aww.
I'm so sorry :(
FlowerFuzz 2 years ago
oh my god... I'm sorry to hear that. T_T ohh your DD loves you so much... don't worry he will never leave you.. i hope i can ease the pain that you carry right now..
luisamichelle 2 years ago
hey, hope u feel better soon. =) cheer up!
amandachan90 2 years ago
YouTube's a luxury. Sure you make some friends, but it ain't life. You don't need to apologize to anyone for being away, and you don't need to set aside your priorities for something that takes up time and expense when you have neither to spare. However, if you ever need to know you're not alone... you know you've got people here who care about you.
ranetan 2 years ago
i'm really sorry for your loss hun. You're such a strong individual.. I was able to notice that about you the first time I've seen you videos. You're such an inspiration to so many people.
We are all here to support you.. Take care of yourself sweetheart! xox
sweetchick509 2 years ago
I understand what you are going through. Just take the time and help yourself and don't worry about anything else
tori790 2 years ago
I am soo sorry for your lost. I will keep you in my prayers. Take care
tori790 2 years ago
Well your only human sweetie, I'm sure your fans(like me) understand this is something serious and of course it will take up your time. Hope you feel a lil better and I will be waiting patiently for you to post up new videos.
mguerrero632004 2 years ago
omg babe..im so sorry. Im SO sorry...how are you? Im going to call you.. <3
QueenofBlendingMUA 2 years ago
Cry when you need too, no one will look down or poorly of you for it. Your dream sounds It's telling you to let your pain out. Don't fake a smile and say "I'm ok" when your not. I've been there too, It's a pain that never full goes away. I've lost so many people in my life, so many people I care about more then my own life. There where times when I felt so hollow & volid I really concedred killing myself. Now I have a loving boyfriend and even though the pain isn't gone It has gotten better.
DevArtsHiei14 2 years ago 2
Hang in there hun. Take as much time as you need. Stay strong, stay beautiful & take care of yourself. We are all here for you =)
and im not sure if i should say this but when i was listening to you, i just kept thinking that there was someone behind you over ur left shoulder thats just ready to say BOO!!!
christinejoy23 2 years ago
lots of love to you and i hope you begin to feel better soon.xxx
yumcherrytart 2 years ago
You will get through this and you have to put yourself first darling. Thinking of you.
MarikaVisser 2 years ago
I know you don't know me, but my love and thoughts are with you.
WishGreenSea 2 years ago
be strong, take your time!
boncil99 2 years ago
By the way, I had a dream similar to yours after my Nanna died. It was kind of like closure for me.
ikielove 2 years ago
:( I am so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself first youtube will be here waiting. Much Love!
Not to sound crass, but the no pants part made me laugh.
ikielove 2 years ago
sorry about your loss. you really should just take all the time you need. when my grandma died my mom was just the same. no energy. just so depressed. i hope you start to feel better. my heart <3 goes out to you.
sma9401 2 years ago
I remember how I was when I dreamed my Grandpa was still alive.. then I woke up and remembered he wasn't.
NATALIE4TKD 2 years ago
i wish you all the best! you seem to be a strong person and i really appreciate that. and i wish that you find happyness, no matter if you are here and give us some of your precious time, or not. feel hugged! from us all, we love you!!! and if you decide to come back, we will be here, waiting.
cerridwen20 2 years ago
whatever you do, don't put pressure on yourself to get yourself sorted out. i lost both parents to cancer when i was a kid and i can promise you the pain gets easier to deal with in time, but that length of time differs for everybody so just let the grief happen. when you lose someone it's easy to think 'they're gone' but it's better to think ' i miss them but at least i had them for a while'. love and hugs x
Lizleyann 2 years ago 2
I consider you a motivational speaker after this. Youve encouraged people to be who they want to be, and now you're encouraged all of us and reminded thousands of people that we need to be thankful. You have thousands of friends here who will support you through anything. x
kokokoda 2 years ago
if he says that he's with you, then he's always there even though he's physically gone :)
espedragonluvr 2 years ago
<3 <3
DerrickMayFan 2 years ago
my heart goes out to you.
2BrightOfAStaRR 2 years ago
matthieu,
your story is so close to me. i too lost my grandfather [my poppy] to cancer 2 years ago this past august. i too lost him in less than the few months we thought we would have with him. my poppa was my world..and there are NO words for the loss...absolutely no comfort anyone can give you because they are not your grandfather. but as life will have it - time doesn't heal the pain it just hurts a little less as it goes on.
<3 ash
ashesloveformakeup 2 years ago
So sorry for your loss..Take care of You and then get back to us. Take care of yourself and my thoughts and prayers are with you....keep your head up. I lost my Dad 8 years ago, (he was only 56) and still haven't really dealt with it. I feel your pain....Take care hun...peace and health to you...
Dvus821 2 years ago
you re really a strong person I really appraciate that I have really big respect for you.. and it's gonna sounds so ordianry but everything is gonna be allright
iyiu 2 years ago
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Loss of a loved one as close as your grandfather is so hard, but hold on to your dreams and follow what feels right for yourself. Take some Mathieu Time.
tbaby0307 2 years ago
sounds to me like your dream means that your grandfather is watching over you sweetheart. *hugs* I'm sorry, I know how you feel, I felt the same when I lost my grandfather.
Jasons0girl 2 years ago
I am sorry for your loss. You have a wonderful way about you. You speak so fondly of your grandfather and it makes me wish we could have seen him on Youtube. He must have been a wonderful man to raise such a kind,funny, artistic person like you. Take good care of yourself and God Bless.
cobste 2 years ago
You would be a FANTASTIC motivational speaker. Honestly, everything you said in this video was so raw and intense, you definitely know how to strike a chord with people. So sorry for your loss, I can't imagine. Be good to yourself. And california welcomes you :)
holly1324 2 years ago
We love you too. You've been there for us, let us be there for you for a while. You're going through something really difficult right now. Feel our love and support and let it help you through this. I know it's not even close to being enough. Nothing would be enough. I've thought of you often and wondered how you were holding up. I'm very sad with you. I'm sorry you're going through this.
cierrablue 2 years ago
I wish i could give you a big hug :'( [[HUGGGGG]]
nothing anyone says or does can make this hurt less, and i know that. i am so so sorry for your loss, i wish that sentence had more meaning and impact in type, but i really mean it. so many of us really genuinely care about you!! do WHATEVER you need to do until you start to feel some bit of normalcy again in your life. you are such a joy for others, and i hope someone can be that for you, when you need it the most. love and hugs and kisses! <3
blondieafgirl 2 years ago
keep your chin up! my thoughts are with you!
eshutchison 2 years ago
Aww honey I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Granny a year or so ago, and it really hurt, but I promise it does get better :)
Love and hugs
xxxxx
ParkParks93 2 years ago
i'm so sorry :( i hope things get better, you're an amazing person and have so many people [including strangers like me] who care about you and understand what you're going through.
viviencanady 2 years ago
very sorry for your loss.
grief is not on a time table, take the time you need to recover.
my father died years ago and i still can't speak about him with choking up.
ContrastY 2 years ago
The past is over, and the future hasn't happened yet. Adopt an attitude that says, 'The only time is now: I need to live in the moment.
bellebutton1 2 years ago
.It's a tragic injustice if all you do is focus on the day you lost your loved one, or their illness, accident or death.Not only is it painful, it doesn't help you heal or move on. "You can and need to mourn their passing, but don't do that to the exclusion of celebrating their life." Remember, life doesn't stop just because that person is not alive. Ask yourself if your loved one would really want you to stop your life because they're no longer alive.
bellebutton1 2 years ago 2
I also know what its like to lose someone. I have been through the loss of my dad, both sets of grandparents, a sister that was 18, and one of my uncles.
It is very hard, this is the best advice I have ever received.........
bellebutton1 2 years ago
God Bless You Matthew.
viva7italia7bella 2 years ago
Dear Mathieu, I just want to hug you. I know this is difficult for you. Take all the time you need. My heart broke when you said your SPARK is gone. Your grandfather loves you and I know that would be hard for him to deal if he thought HE was the cause of your heartache. Live your life for yourself but know that he is watching and loving everything you do. Honor him and make him as proud of you as you can. You are LOVED. <3
lanaindiana 2 years ago 2
Mathieu sweetheart I'm so, so sorry for your loss :(. Thinking of you and sending you tons of love. Tons of hugs.
xoxo
GeeFeexoxo 2 years ago
Hello. I really can't relate when it comes to losing parents, but my dad isn't around. I have always wondered what it would be like to see him more. He comes around once every other year. I really think Diddy would want you to pursue your dream. That exceptance speech, i really think this was it. He knows your loving him. I wish you the best and i'll keep you in my prayers constantly and pray for your grandpa. You seem very strong on the surface, but your human too.xoxo daegen
daegenjohnson 2 years ago
I'm so sorry for your loss, i've lost all my grandparents, i lost my last grandparent when i was about 10/11 so its been a long time since and im not hurting anymore (i'm 17)
its so difficult, i hate this saying but its true, time will ease your pain. keep yourself busy, not to forget him, but to keep your mind off it.
xxxxx
sloweyo 2 years ago
I am soooo sorry! You do what you have to do for you.
dwilliams19831 2 years ago
Thanks for sharing this. I lost my Dad 3 years ago to the same cause and I still think of things I want to ask, things I need to say. I wish I could say the hurt goes away...it will lessen, but the empty spot is still always there. I'm sorry babe. Do your business first and you may find new heart along the way;)
We love you too. I just know you will be OK. Hope you know that too...
frenchfinish 2 years ago
Damn, i hoped you where busy and living your live. this is so sad
kvlooy 2 years ago
I wish I could give you a great big warm TX hug. I cannot imagine your loss. My biggest fear is losing my parents. My mom is 51 and so is my Dad, but at any moment we're given opportunities to realize how fragile life is. So fleeting. You've definitely made a difference in my life and for that I'm thankful. I wish you well and I look forward to your return. I love you!
laurelitavera 2 years ago
im so sorry for your lost. i know what your going through im only 12 and ive lost my grandma granda and my aunt. this video made me cry espessically the part when you said that when you said about your speach and you wanted to thank him and hes not in the audience that was hard for me, and probably more for you. take as much time as you need. no rush. your in my prayers.
Materpal 2 years ago
I'm so sorry for your loss sweetie, your grandfather is in a better place, and I know he'll be watching over you. Keep the faith and stay strong.
x
MizzFab 2 years ago
So sorry to hear about your loss Mathieu. I hope you find the strength and courage to get back out there. xoxox
fuzzywiggle 2 years ago
Sweetheart! I am so sorry for you loss, I hope you feel better and chin up! we need you, but we also want you to be good with yourself! I'll wait for you!
Liz :)
Makeupholicliz 2 years ago
aww im so sorry for your loss :(
im sure all of your lovely subbies are thinking about you :)
LydiaxLOSERFACE 2 years ago
Im so sorry to hear that, Im in the same position as you i lost 5 people from april unit now october but i also got a bad news on the 1st of october its turn now from my brother, i cannot cry , i cannot feel i dont know what do the only thing is im asking god why, and all my plans are coming down. I know what you feeling those people also died from cancer!
amaoj 2 years ago 2
*Hugs*
tsukihikari 2 years ago
So sorry for your loss!!
sabeena911 2 years ago
I am in a loss of words, but I think mostly because I wish that I could just take the pain that your feeling and hold it inside of me, I dont really watch your videos but, I have seen a few but everytime I look into your eyes your always seem so happy but this video made me really wish that I didint live in Miami had 10 thousand to spare and a vacation home in california that i could just give you the keys, your a really good looking guy and deserve allot, and i wish I knew you better
TADCI 2 years ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.
Punkrose33 2 years ago
Please accept my most sincere condolences :( you are right, I lost my dad and nothing anybody said was good enough.
Please take care and know that there are many who adore you. I will keep you in my prayers.
krazie7 2 years ago
i'm sorry for your loss. i hope you're doing okay.
HousePetMarla 2 years ago
im sorry for your loss and do what ever u want to do god bless u and i love u
06yuridia1 2 years ago
I've missed you. I'm so sorry for your loss.
shugarymiss 2 years ago
all I can say is that my heart is with you
htownpnai 2 years ago
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LindseyCakes 2 years ago
i've missed you, i didn't know you had another channel, just the other day i was wondering "i wonder what ever happened to mathieu." i'm sorry for your loss and i hope some day you can be as happy as you once were.
marla06 2 years ago
so sorry for ur loss.
EvyCena 2 years ago
i love youuu
summerhunnie23 2 years ago
Just because you lost him doesn't mean you have to give up your dream. I completely understand your feelings, but think about what he would want you to do. Don't run away from how you feel, but don't let it take over your entire life.
i2ofmei 2 years ago
i'm sorry Matthieu. i love you, and i'll keep your family in my prayers.
MomoMonroe 2 years ago
sorry for your loss hun
bxzchiquita 2 years ago
OMG, tears running down my face. I am so sorry for your loss Mathieu, I have followed your videos from the time that I discovered Youtube, and I know how much your diddy meant to you, all I can say is that you are light years ahead when it comes to your maturity and I pray for your strength in this hard time. Even if you never do another video, the positive light that is lit inside of you will never stop burning, so I know you will do great things with it in the future, we love you
MakeupUrMind81 2 years ago 2
you are so freaking cute no pants love it
ilovesteve7 2 years ago
I'm sorry for your loss Mathieu.
dosharam 2 years ago
Pants are soo last season. Have you not been paying attention to fashion week? it's all about NO PANTS.
theVstop 2 years ago
i am so sorry for your loss. this kind of thing is NEVER easy. my suggestion? record a video diary...get everything out. scream, cry, yell. then put it away. i lost a close friend a few years ago and i still talk to him. talk to diddy...i promise you that if you listen and watch, you will see hes still there. i know its not the same...but the people who love us never leave completly. they are our angels who watch over us an help us. think...what would diddy say to you about the way you feel? xox
beeisdancing 2 years ago
There really are no words that I can offer to express how truly sorry I am for you loss. I can not (and I'm afraid to) imagine how I would feel if I lost someone so close to me. It may sound cliche but seriously keep your faith and if you dont have faith in God, find it. Through HIM, all things are possible. Pray, cry, scream, or just simply talk to him. He listens.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*
kmc050909 2 years ago
omg i love you. i wish you the absolute best and I pray that you feel better and that only good things come to you in the future
SoCaCrys 2 years ago
sorry for your loss...
letinian 2 years ago
Oh wow, Im so sorry Mathieu
painted00eyes 2 years ago
i know exactly wat youre goin thru my grandma is my mom in every way that ur grandpa is ur dad i dont have my mom in my life and i almost lost her recently and i cant imagine if i did so i have such great sympathy for u
Dramaqueenbz 2 years ago
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lambchopxoxo 2 years ago
I am so sorry. I wish you the best during this time. :)
talkfamous 2 years ago
OMG I have been missing you! You're make up tuts were hilarious!! but extremely good at the same time :] Love your music vids too lol
hellovanillasnow 2 years ago
ill be thinking of you!! *big hug*
sweetipi123 2 years ago
I'm so sorry, Matthew :(
Much love, xoxo
GregoryGORGEOUS 2 years ago
That was a very nice video.. Makes me realize I need to cherish so much more than I already do, because sooner or later I'll loss it...
Potatoe0Soup0Yo 2 years ago
may god bess you and i am so sorry i didnt knoiw all that you were going through u will make it. take care.
iloveyou112091 2 years ago
Sorry for your lost, we're all wishing you a good strong life.
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gloriaer060 2 years ago
Big hugs to you, Mathieu.......... Please know that time will heal the wound. There will come a time when you will realize the pain is lessening. I hope there is someone you can talk to. Please remember- that you are a good kind person and the world needs- no matter what direction your life takes you.
Weezie1957 2 years ago
God bless I hope you feel better soon. I'm sorry for your loss. do what is best for you.
dani2018 2 years ago
also your videos are amazing but at the end of the day do whats best for you!!!
rubiomama1 2 years ago
((((hugs)))) your story is so close to my heart....I too lost my gpa My POPS he was my daddy...I lost him to cancer and its been ten years and let me tell ya child it hardly gets easier people say it and Ive been waiting for ten years but it just reminds me how long Ive been without him...aaaaah it sucks so bad and I know it hurts like hell but the truth is life goes on and trust me I was pissed when it kept going on after he died...but you will laugh and smile again but on your own time..
rubiomama1 2 years ago
I am so, so, so sorry. God bless you. You're in my prayers <3.
DisneyElphie07 2 years ago
I'm so sorry for your loss honey!
jackeetm 2 years ago
God Bless you and keep you. You are in my prayers. My grandfather was my heart too.
MsOracle718 2 years ago
I am so terribly sorry about your grandfather. My grandfather also died from lung cancer, so I understand the pain and hardship you're going through. I can see the true emotion of your feelings through this video, you can see how much you really loved him. Let out your emotions it's okay to cry, and miss him. I'm usually the same way with death, it never hits me right away. You need to focus on you and get yourself together, it's ok. Take time for yourself sweetheart ♥
xheathermichelle 2 years ago
I'm so sorry about your grandfather. I could feel your emotion so strongly through this video and while I can't understand what you're going through - I wish you the very best in dealing with all of these feelings and emotions and getting your spark back <3 You are such a wonderful, inspiring person! *big hugs*
yarbs83 2 years ago
I love you Mathieu and I know that he is still with you everyday all the time. I hope you feel better soon. God bless. <3
XtinaMarieOxo 2 years ago
i am so sorry to hear this.... but he is in a better place now... <3 we support u and ur family!
independentx0x0 2 years ago
Mathieu i am truly sincerely sorry, i understand what you're going through and you take all the time you need. my prayers are with you <3 <3
disney1nickjluvr45 2 years ago
i am so sorry :(
BabyKakes4265 2 years ago
You have an amazing smile, perfectly pearly white teeth
karebear583 2 years ago
In some cultures they believe that when you dream about someone who's passed your spirits are actually together and interacting. Something to ponder... Good Luck :)
unicornsmile28 2 years ago 2
this made me weepy, i'm very sorry for your loss
i feel like i'm watchin myself in this, i'm dealing with the same sort of things since i've lost my granny who was my main parent
it's just one of those one day at a time things
take care darlin, every thing you are feeling is allowed and you don't always have to put a happy face on
purifieddrinkinwater 2 years ago 2
my condolences for your loss Mathieu,
SarahBeara87 2 years ago
I wish I can just give you the biggest damn hug. <3
cherylboberyl 2 years ago
OMG I had that same dream like a few days or so after my best friend died. Idk but i think the dream means something good :)
halee09 2 years ago
What a heartfelt video.
Thanks for sharing yourself with us. <3
Take care of yourself.
THEPinkRuby 2 years ago
now im crying...
i know that wont help you but i understand you completely! Take your time!
I feel empty inside my entire life! I havent talked to my dad for years! Hes not there for me and that hurts as much as lose someone!
Im sorry this really wont help you but i feel with you!
Love, Teresa
1oHollYwooD 2 years ago
my thoughts and prayers are with u. i know how it is to lose someone. u'vll never get over it but u'll learn to deal with it. god bless!
headcheeseortiz 2 years ago
I wish you much happiness and hope you find something to ease your sadness. God Bless!
kawahine88 2 years ago
so sorry matheiu
mollzz 2 years ago
:-( sorry to hear that Mathieu.
lindieinred 2 years ago
im so sorry mathieu. hes in a better place now. he knows you mean well. he loves you. how ironic 9.11 huh? guess thats never a good date =( *sighs* im soo sorry mathieu. were here for you!!! feel free to vent whenever.
beezyfree 2 years ago
so sorry Mathieu...Prayers are with you..
BellaBKNY 2 years ago
you are my love.
=]=]
its okay mathieu.
<33
uuloveashley 2 years ago
Love you Matheiu!! You are absolutely amazing :0))))
Gbonita3795 2 years ago 2
And I am also very very sorry about your grandfather. Go\d bless you :)
Gbonita3795 2 years ago
*God
Gbonita3795 2 years ago