Eating Disorder Story "Feel it in my bones" Tiesto feat. tegan & sara

[Libbymariehaw]

Whenever I watch these videos I feel Inspired not to eat, then right when I SWEAR I will never eat again I go and make myself some food WHY!?

[Jalynn99]

Great video but so awful what you lived through! I could see the pain in your eyes! You are beautiful! I pray your video helps someone else see that they not alone ! Beautifully done and brave!

[butterfly10080]

i want to be skinny soo bad but everyone says im already skinny but when i look in the mirror all i see is fat and ive tried to stop eating but i love food to much. theres this medicine i have to take everyday to help me focus in and out of school cause i have adhd and the medicine ruins my apitite so i dont eat. my stomach hurts a lot and if i even think about food my stomach hurts. it hurts even worse when i try to eat. i need help but i dont want to tell my mom i have a problem. what do i do

[crissystarrr]

@butterfly10080 whatever you do dont label yourself as an eating disorder. eat when you want and if you dont want to then dont force yourself just to make people around you happy. you might want to talk to your doctor about your stomach and GI tract. if your stomach really hurts when you eat you may have an ulcer...but more than likely if you regualrly starve/eat very little it will hurt when you do eat. it used to happen to me. try eating yogurt. its soothing on the stomach and very good for u.

[xXxForgottinxXx]

ur so pretty thesmade me allmost cry i have an ed its not to bad i gues cuz im notreally that number weight im 5 feet 5 intch 102 pounds i starve myself and purge all i thank about is my weight i allmost had to get a feeding tube i was fatter then then i am now iv had an ed as long as i can remeber it wasnt cuz i was told i was fat it was cuz i seen myself as fat and i soon became ubsest with the scale when i was 9 i dnt want treatment but i do at the same time :( help

[crissystarrr]

@xXxForgottinxXx i never have wanted to go into treatment. i was forced to e in the hospital 3 times and that was enough to push me away from any kind of help because of the hell i went thru.....and I am 21 now. I find support blogs online very helpful. and if you want to get help please do..... ill be praying for you.

[samdarls]

You are precious <3

[Swimmerchick3454]

Wow ur soo gorgeous my friends anorexic but wont listent to me :( idk how to help

[crissystarrr]

@Swimmerchick3454 the only thing you can really do is be there for her and try not to judge her....she more than likely can't help it. and trying to tell her how to get better or what to do will just make her cut you off.....just be a good friend the best you can.

[ilovenotyou12]

you are beautiful and brave

[DearNicoleRae]

good luck with recovery! i love your hair =] those evil girls from ur school are probably really unhappy now and the fact that u are fighting hard to improve ur situation pretty much guarantees that u will lead a richer and more fulfilling life than them(not that revenge is the point )

[ttsfa1]

I've had really bad experiences in middle school to, I know exactly how you must feel. But none of those things they said are true. What is true is that your beautiful and seem to have a good soul, kind hearted people are getting hard to find but I just found another one. :) peace

[MysteryAnaGirl]

im 128 pounds and im 5ft 4 am i fat :( ?

[Ilovecheese802]

@MysteryAnaGirl no.

[crissystarrr]

@MysteryAnaGirl you are perfect love

[JackiAndLyssaShow]

Im very happy you posted this, Ive had a eating disorder on a off for 3 years, all because girls called me different things, the worst part, Im 13, ive had a family member die from a eating disorder, it makes people wonder

[crissystarrr]

@JackiAndLyssaShow thats horrible :(... people die from ED's all the time....words do hurt...deeply.

[LeanneFWaters]

Very brave! Good for you missus! :) I'm just over a year out of therapy for my bulimia and we mostly talked about the bullying. Released my first published book this month on my illness and it's so great to see other people tking the same public step! xx

[crissystarrr]

@LeanneFWaters thats great! i would love to read it some day!

[PokieDalekCollector]

This is a verry touching video but what pisses me off is the end were its says words can make a girl stave her selfs to death as im a boy and i have anorexia for the same type of reason but if a male has it its pathetic and stupid girls get a lot more understanding about it and that makes it just that little bit harder! =(

[crissystarrr]

@PokieDalekCollector I have known many boys with eating disoders. its not as uncommon as you think. you see it in the fashion industry al the time actually. When I was in the hospital the second time there was a 13 year old boy in there with us. and he was prolly the thinnest of all of us and struggled the most. dont feel bad because eating disorders do not discriminate against gender or race. it can happen to anyone.

[standbackitssinead]

Dont mind what they said,there just jealous your a model and gorgeous:)

[cheyneyburger86]

this made me so upset that someone could say that to u. u r beautiful dont let some stupid girls wreck ure life, keep smiling

[LovesDebussy]

Damn your nose is beautiful- anyways thank you for sharing your story. And HOLY CRAP you are amazingly pretty. Feeling with you, Peace

[jklfds85]

you know kids are sometimes cruel because they are JELOUS? You are so beautiful!!! I bet you are much prettier than those bullies, so they wanted to put you down just to make themselves feel better! It's almost ALWAYS like that! BULLIES ARE JUST EXTREMELY JELOUS PEOPLE!!!

[BlehLeahUhmazinn]

I'm sorry, I hope you're doing okay.

Sometimes I try to make myself purge && stuff like that :/ Because I'm sick of my parents telling me I need to lose weight :/

[bossmane711]

this is truly sad

[samrigatoni]

the last part is so true :( people dont understaqnd how much words hurt...

[AlexVonVanity]

sticks and stones may break her bones, but words can make a girl starve herself to death...</3

[Wedidurmom]

Nice teeth you have !

[TheTwixstyle]

I think you are beautiful! :)

Stay storng! :)

[Prinsessefrejaaa]

This is very brave of you! I think you are VERY VERY beautiful, and the persons who called you fat, are freaking insane!!! Omg, i've been called fat, so i know how you feel, but seriously.. you are very very beautiful!!!

[BananaCake789]

This is a beautiful video, and i'm sorry for what happened to you. Try to stay strong :) if you want to chat i'm here <3

[kjmac1421]

actually yeah...there's a million other videos like this and they all say "i look happy don't i?" nope because ur talking thorugh index cards on a youtube video. soooo many girls have eating disorders and we all survive without showing it off and compliment fishing. ur fine.



[ThatTeenageNoob]

@kjmac1421 true..

[MyMajesticLife]

You are so beautiful.

(Inner and outward beauty)

Middle school is hard on almost everyone but you...jeez...I am -so- sorry!!!

[foreverrbieberr]

this is like a vido from this girl named jade but anyways good job

[MsJonnnnnna]

I can see the pain in your eyes..

Y O U

A R E

B E A U T I F U L !

[KittyMooKat]

<3 I hope you know that you inspire so many people... Many people at my school are verbally abused and sometimes even physically abused.. I have a friend that had this problem and it took her months to start eating regularly again but she still isn't eating as much as she should. I have almost starved myself because of all the insults I get in school so I would purposely skip school so I wouldn't have to deal with it. I am going into 8th grade and I want to help make bullying stop. <3

[crissystarrr]

thank you for the feedback everyone!!!! <3 i love you all and hope only the best, stay strong my loves.

[prettysailorusagi]

Hey, this popped up on my suggested videos. And I was wondering, have you ever heard of Mercy Ministries? Might be an option- totally free-of-charge. I'm a graduate of the programme, if you have any questions.

[AlexandraNewbz]

Very brave thanks for sharing

[MandyEatzDinosaurz]

I love you for posting this :) I'm going into the 8th grade and I get harrased too, I started to starve myself but then I came across your video, I'm glad I could stop it before it got to late. <3 xoxo

[stardel6]

I did the same never told any one tho and I didn't loss real fast and it made me hate my self more .. I am now 24 and been fighting it for 6 years .. It is something a hide a lot but founds ways by my self to help me.. I now also talk to some one about it.. Not just friends.. But thank you for this it is so true ..

[kylieiscool1]

ur really pretty like a skinny version of kesha <3

[FIREYICEangel]

That's how my eating disorder developed it wasn't just written it was said to my face and spread all around school i was fat ugly i starve my self and I'm sick now i'm in high school and it's a habit no one did anything my mom tried but it wouldn't take her words to try and fix everything the teachers did nothing i didn't have any friends to begin with and now i look in the mirror nothing but ugly i need to go two more days ... three.. four your right words can make you starve to death

[COWBOYSRCOMING]

You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. No joke. :)

[LittleTwiddleTweaker]

very nice...i was bullied to, and i always felt alone....i still think im fat and there are people who call me bacon ore pig, just because im not thin enough.

[mistgeneraal]

@LittleTwiddleTweaker are they craaaaaaazzzyyyyyy~???!!!!!! OMFG =| !!!!!

[EPBOTS]

Wow! This is intense. You are brave and beautiful for this. People have no compassion, and the older I get the more I know, that is the problem with the world we live in. When we care we make the difference. :) Stay true to you and all the best for the future. Take care.

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[IsaFromUruguay]

I cried when I read everything, I hope you will get better. I relapse too..... a lot unfortunately. you are beautifull! you can get better! :)

hugs

[cottoncandyrainbows1]

awww <3 dont listen to them you are BEAUTIFUL!

[blondiebabex6]

This was wonderful! And I know how it feels to made fun of, im in highschool and people make fun of my boob size because small boobs are in the family so now I wear a huge push up bra, and I'm scared that people will find out and make fun of me even though they all say I stuff my bra anyways...

[SugaXcandi]

this is inspirational <3 x

[zaranbenji]

you're amazing for posting this. and you're beautiful!

[crissystarrr]

@anagirlempath im praying for you too *hugs* as well i am here if you ever want to talk. and for anyone else who has struggled or is still struggling with any type of ED. Contact me on my blog if you have a tumblr account @ skinnyblondebitch.tumblr.com dont let the name fool you im really quite nice :)

[Bloodygeek11]

@crissystarrr

where did you hear the sticks and stones thing??

can i use it

or is it trade marked??

[crissystarrr]

@Bloodygeek11 I hear it from somewhere I believe an anti-eating disorder campaign. Feel free to use it!

[Bloodygeek11]

@crissystarrr

thank you!!

=)

[crissystarrr]

@Bloodygeek11 go for it!

[AnaGirlEmpath]

@crissystarrr:

Your story is similar to mine (except the pretty blonde part...). I was bullied too and had things stolen; was beaten up; fights where I cried and lots of other kids circled to simply watch. I wish someone would have stood up for me, too. I am sorry for all you have suffered, precious one. I hope you will keep fighting for recovery. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. *hugs if they feel safe*

[escapethehorizon912]

<333