Borderline Personality Disorder & Impulse Control

[majesticalps]

@xsullengirlx your videos are very honest and insightful so thank you for making them! And you have a non-judgemental take on personality disorders which is exactly how they should be looked at in my opinion because they can often have a neurological basis that make them genuine pathologies. All the best and continue to be awesome.

[majesticalps]

@sae1095hc I don't think you know what you're talking about. There is far more to personality disorders than "will" or "bad behaviour". If you haven't experienced it yourself, then it is perhaps not nice, or very logical, to assume you know what it's all about. Personality disorders, including Borderline, have been found to have a neurological basis so it is not merely "will" or "character".

[2BeMeekandBiPolar]

I've been BPD since as far as I can remember. It's almost sad... that people don't see this as an illness. They had to name it something! That's just how I look at it. Good Luck!

[FiFimuzo]

I have BPD and I can really relate to this impulse stuff...although mine wasnt shoplifting mine was more the sexual behaviour side of things

[codergames]

I get angry and anxious without any reason, is this BPD? It's extremely impulsive. I'm pretty depressed in those moments and could not control them before. Now I don't give a shit anymore so it's not that bad. I just have to make myself care even less, that would be the ultimate solution.

[MaskedFreak91]

I was just diagnosed with BPD, I'm glad that there are other people speaking out about it. I almost lost my life.

[AngelBug109]

I was wondering if you could do a video on Histrionic Personality Disorder....been looking at so many videos that were not good....I would LOVE to see your opinion on it...

[meowthecath]

You're so beautiful :)

[TheRealStinkyface]

y did u block me? u really are crazier than you look.

[xsullengirlx]

@TheRealStinkyface If I blocked you it was for a good reason, probably for being close-minded or rude. And if you're coming here on yet another youtube account to leave a comment about me blocking you... WHO'S the crazy one? Not me! It's my channel and I block whoever the fuck I want :) Bye!

[stelliesdram2010]

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[Fluffy4Puffy]

You're a really brave girl. Thank you very much for all these infos, I hope it'll help the people I cherish understand more.

[CMO999]

Thanks for sharing your experiences. My ex-girlfriend was schizophrenic. We got into heavy drugs and had an unhealthy lifestyle for about a year. Now we're both clean and still friends.

[Alisen12]

Are you in a wheelchair ? Looks like you have your hands on the wheels...

[xsullengirlx]

@Alisen12 Nah, just my hands on the arm rests of my desk chair.

[eartianwerewolf]

I go through phases of impulsive behavior. I did shoplift for a little bit of time and got caught so I stopped. I also buy very iimpuslively..I have also cut in the past. That is about all..I haven't had much money until recently, but I spent a lot a lot that I should have been saving, even the loan money I have to pay back :/,

[bluesgirl1205]

Ur so awesome

[andreasblog21]

wow all i can say is thank you

[Itstrue01]

Do you have an email address ? I'd like to ask you a question about BPD. It involves my fiance who I think might have it. Wanted to tell you the few "signs" i see and ask your opinion. I know you are not a doctor. not looking for a "diagnosis" just wanted your opinion. didnt want to post in comments.thanks!

[sumerfaith6]

We suffer from alot of the same problems and yet again I would like to thank you for everything...like I said before I am 9 months cut free but recently I've been struggling that's how I found your channel you are helping me keep on the track I want to be...thank you!

[BelialHexed]

hugs

[notohaterz]

what impulse mean!?

[xxashleyRxx]

@notohaterz Acting on impulse is like, not thinking through the potential consequences and all that, basically just acting without thinking.

[notohaterz]

@xxashleyRxx AAAHHHHHH

Im inpulsive

[TheMinimouse20]

I alway enjoy wathing you're videos, I feel that they have help me so much and for that I just want to say thank you so much. I glad that you're getting better and I d hope that your year is a lt beeter then the last =)

[ViviDior]

I love your videos. I have BPD, and I suffer from PCOS. I think the two might have some kind of link. I have read lots of stories of women having, both. Or women with Pcos having rage,and other stuff. Both suck to have. Take Care.

[Jaydensmama19]

Wow. This helped me immensely. I have always had poor impulse behaviors such as drug and alcohol abuse, shoplifting, eating disorders, wreckless driving, and self injury. Not sure if I have borderline personality but I do have several other mental disorders such as bipolar.

[TheKampfkeksi]

i think the thing with teenagers that are shoplifting is a little bit like using drugs, you don't have a problem if you try it once or twice but if you need it to feel good about yourself than you should get help...i personally shoplifted and made sure to get caught because i enjoyed being humiliated in public. i had to stop injuring myself cause my parents would have taken me to the hospital if i continued doing it and being caught shoplifting became me new self-injuring...btw nice vid xoxo

[naomi22345]

I've shoplifted and stolen things from friends ECT before. My main reason for doing is was just because I wanted more things, because I thought they would make me happy. I would also get jealous if a friend had something that I didn't have.

[carmenandmanila]

I can't get help cuz that would require telling my parents that I'm not happy n I cut n everything... That I've been faking a simile... Fml

[sarahlacroixmusic]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have a very similar story that I am ashamed to share. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for several years and only recently got a concrete diagnosis of BPD. Now I'm getting help, and it's exhausting, but very worth it.

[sae1095hc]

Don't take this as an accusation, but I think most diagnosises of BPD are just examples clinicians trying to pathologize bad behavior done by selfish people.

I think it would be helpful if they went back to calling them "Character Disorders" which imply that these behaviors are changeable by a conscious act of will and are not innate to the individual personality.

I always watch and enjoy your videos and I hope your new year is better than 2011!

[xsullengirlx]

@sae1095hc How is a Character Disorder different than a Personality Disorder? Both are only changeable by acts of will, like you said. They do affect your personality, which is in essence, your character. Personality disorders are real, and yeah the terms are thrown around but they are very real, but they can be overcome like I mentioned at the end of the video, I said pretty much the same thing you did. I don't really appreciate being called bad and selfish, but that's your opinion.

[xsullengirlx]

@sae1095hc one more thing, yes my behavior was bad, and maybe selfish, but my impulse control goes beyond that of a normal "badly behaved kid" and has since gotten better once I willfully decided to get help for it. And yes, I needed help, because I have a true mental illness, it's a struggle every damn day, but I know I am a good person who happens to have some problems that fortunately, can be overcome.

[realmofoz]

@sae1095hc I think you are COMPLETELY WRONG, this disorder isn't just because someone wants to act badly or is a "problem child" not a whole lot of people are diagnosed with BPD, and you have to match a lot of criteria to be diagnosed. Its about coping mechanisms and how you respond to everything, its not something that is programmed in our brains, to act like everyone else, its like a subconscious reaction without even thinking about doing something like driving a car.

[realmofoz]

@realmofoz It really is more complicated than you are making out to be, and don't fully understand the disorder. I think you should read more on the topic and actually deal with someone who has the disorder. Character/personality are the same. But just because you have BPD doesn't make you a bad person. It takes us longer to realize that self destructive behavior whatever it may be at the time is bad, because when you are in that type of mind frame you cannot realize it until something drastic.

[realmofoz]

@sae1095hc It takes lots of therapy, and self reflection, and a constant struggle every hour of everyday to just not do some destructive behavior. For me personally everyday is filled with some type of anxiety, some type of extreme emotion about anything, just something small......things in the past, things in the future, and its very hard to stay in check. I never did drugs, stole a lil when i was younger, mine was destructive relationships, and emotional extremes....self injury. So..

[realmofoz]

@realmofoz and problems with gambling, spending...

[missdarkangelxxx]

@sae1095hc try living a week in the mind of someone with BPD, you wouldn't think their selfish. But you probably couldn't cope in our minds lol

[msdelle22]

now that i got my ssd im back spending like a mad women and i did this when i worked to every check when on clothes shoe drugs u name it but i did pay my bills first MUST HAVE ROOF OVER UR Head gas elect etc u can play with

[ClaraM101]

I feel like I have bpd, I've been researching it, and I seem to meet many of the symptoms. But I'm afriad to tell my parents and I'm afriad to go to a doc. I really dont know what to do with myself.

[ClaraM101]

Quit huffing*

[ClaraM101]

I have pretty bad impulse control. I started self harming and huffing gasoline when I was 13, and now (at 15) I recently recovered from an eating disorder, I did huffing but I still self harm and now I also drink and smoke and pop pills every now and then. I hate to feel 'normal' I was depressed for ahwile but I feel like I'm happier since I started smoking. I also have anxiety.

Thing is, I've only self diagnosed myself for depression and anxiety, I haven't gone to a doctor. I've been doing re

[Ilovebobbetty]

Isn't it strange how we only seem to engage in some some compulsive behaviours and not all of them? Unfortunately mine were alcoholism, compulsive sexual behaviour which have both stopped, but I am still struggling with ED's and self harm.

[FashionPlate2]

please make more videos! as someone who is really struggling with depression right now, i'd love to see more videos from you because for some reason they cheer me up

[somanystories]

This was a brave video. Thank you for it!<3

[mychanneleeezey]

I think I have bipolar disorder or BPD, and I want to get help or something but I am too afraid. Idk what to tell my mom we don't have that kind of relationship even though I love her and don't want her to get worried. I don't want to be all like "hey mom, im mentaly sick can we get help for me?". I have to go to my mom first,im only 14.

[DirtxInxThexGround]

I have BPD,recently diagnosed...but also diagnosed when I was 19 (long story).I've suffe red from poor impulse control and shop-lifted.Got caught and that didn't stop me.Turned to alcohol and drugs but I don't use either any more but I have a severe problem with self harming.I attend CBT once a week to help...so far it's done zip,I admire that you can talk so openly about your illness.I'd be afraid if someone found my video's if I spoke out.

[pizzaroll23]

theres no hope for me............

[ItsFlapJack]

@pizzaroll23 there isn't if you keep thinking that way, you doubt yourself everything negative starts happening

[ZOLOY]

What meds are you on?

[missv556]

i had bad impulse control wiv drugs (and alcohol 2 a certain extent) had 2 go 2 a drug counsellor, it took months of attendance b4 i even started 2 try. used 2 go 2 a session and go get high right after it finished. i lost 3 years gettin high. and lookin back there r situations i got in2 that i probably could/should have been in serious danger. i've been drug free since july 2010. something i'll always struggle with. right now i've started drinkin again, not much but it can trigger other stuff

[RhayvenBlood]

I've shop lifted before. Not out of impulse, in the sense of impulse to shoplift - But really, really wanted razors, and didn't have the money to buy them.

Have done it more than once - And 90% of the things I've taken were razors or had razors in them ((IE: Pencil sharpeners, and such))

My issues, as far as impulse goes stem into Self Injury and my ED - And I dont see either stopping any time soon, nor do I want to stop in the first place.

[xXxAnguLaxXx]

i too shop lifted and im no longer allowed in walmart. but i was old enough that it is on my record and pretty much ruined my life. and theres nothing you can do to take it back. but i understand thew rush. and you just sit back now and wonder what the hell you were thinking,. your not alone

[slobomotion]

A Swedish friend with BPD did not try to educate me but when I asked she encouraged me to look this up. I now realize THIS IS MY MOTHER and a lot of people I've known. THEY HARMED ME. Now I have better coping mechanisms to direct them to help. And if need be to get away from them, which is sad, especially when it's family. But I have to say, YOU MAY HAVE BPD please LOOK INTO THIS, goodbye until you check this out. Uprated. Good channel.

[IDontDoDrumCovers]

i can fit into a box

[xsullengirlx]

@IDontDoDrumCovers I'd like to see a video of that.

[Alexisqueertube]

i used to take things at school when i was in jr high and in high school and did all that dumb crap but never got cot for it or anything but was vary close i dont do it any more but i do have BPD i was told by the place i go to an i have like a list of much more i still struggle with impulse control im only 22 an will get a hold on it great video an im happy to here you are doing better!

[superman2ify]

Im thirteen and i have bpd:/ But im getting alot better and idk how but your videos really help me:) thank you:) (p.s. you should upload more often)

[xsullengirlx]

@superman2ify I'm sorry to hear you struggle with BPD as well, but at least we are not alone. And I'm so glad to know you're getting better! Keep at it! I wish I had been getting better at your age, my life would have been a lot better! :) And Ill try to upload more often haha x

[kansasjamiemcmurray]

Wow this is weird I couldn't sleep but to wake up to watch and listen to your video. Thankyou I needed to hear this god bless you.

[xsullengirlx]

@kansasjamiemcmurray Aw I'm sorry to hear you couldn't sleep, but glad to know I could bring you some kind of comfort. Bless you too :) xox

[kansasjamiemcmurray]

@xsullengirlx Will it did help me sleep better after I watched your video though and that is good ..God bless you xoxo

[ROXIO7]

hey, lucky me for waking up this late (or early)

[xsullengirlx]

@ROXIO7 haha, well good morning sunshine!