P4A: John Green Remembers Esther with the Make-A-Wish Foundation

[NerdfighterneverFTBA]

It feels amazing wearing my TSWGO bracelet while seeing this.

[mollcutio]

I can't bear to see John like that. So emotional. RIA, Esther. You still inspire us.

[mthsbandrocks]

OH MY GOD MY TEARS. JOHN. <3

[xindestructibleonex]

OH GOD, WHEN HE CHOKES UP. THERE GOES MY HEART.

[stableyes]

this kills me. john green is an incredible person

[Friedya]

I keep coming back to this video, it brings tears to my eyes every time to see John nearly crying like that. It's truly emotional

[laxgurl271]

I've watched all of John and Hank's videos about Esther before, but this is the first one that made me cry. :( R.I.A. Esther.

[MrFredthelemur]

I don't cry often with these types of things, but I bawling right now.

[ishvampire]

As soon as i got a paypal account i got a This Star Won't Go Out Bracelet. I was dying to do anything i could to help those who need help. I'm so glad she had such warming friends from nerdfighteria around her.

[Musicalbellz]

Aaaaawwwwwwwww....

[Handitar]

I cry every single time John cries...

[EmbryzImprint]

I wish I had been a part of Nerdfighteria in time to be able to have known, or at least had the privilege to talk to/with Esther. Never the less, I celebrate Esther day, and I always will. Rest In Peace, Esther. <3

[amiradelal]

RIA Esther! Happy Esther day

DFTBA

This star Won't go Out.

[ALLCAPSfan98726]

I rembere my wish when make-a-wish came to my house.And I feel like hugging John.RIA Esther.

[CaptainSteelRain]

I completely lost it when John started to cry. ):

[jaytummy]

I wish I had joined nerdfighteria in time to know Esther. RIA Esther.

[Andengradspolynomium]

John you are the sweetest thing:)

[rachelfrench1992]

Is it wrong that I hugged my laptop when John started crying?

[MrGaberthegamer]

@rachelfrench1992 NO ABSOLUTELY NOT

[Lexicografia]

I can't watch John cry. I literally had to hide this window during the video :(

RIA Esther.

[ezzbbj8]

If you listen closely, his voices barely whimpers at 1:14 and as soon as I heard that in the live show, I knew John ,among others, were going to get all emotional and stuff. I agree with InnocenceExperience with this being the most moving moment (three word alliteration) of P4A.

[Alssadar]

QQ-ing manly tears of joy.

[AliOchic]

i want to hug john right now

[melissaratliff]

Always in awesome. Beautiful

[mollywaterman]

John, Esther was not looking down at you when you cried. She was there with you. Because she is always there. Rest in Awesome Esther.

[s004237]

This was really emotional. Makes me really happy that I sacrifice a portion of my pathetic, minimum casual pay to this foundation.

[Crai600]

Rest In Awesome Esther

[platinumbid]

4 people have never lost someone they loved.

This made me cry. For someone that most of us never knew, Esther has touched so many people. RIA.

[anything0everything]

every time i watch this video i cry. rest in awesome ester.

[hannah4colbert]

John made me cry.

Rest in peace Esther.

[MikeyNewJin]

Rest in Peace Esther

[katie98ification]

:'( When I watched this video for the first time yesterday and John got to the part where he started crying, I grabbed my pillow pet for comfort and started to cry too.

Esther, RIP. I didn't know you, but I, along with all of Nerdfighteria, miss you.

[chibillama24]

i imagine that everytime John talks about Esther he has to take a break to cry. I cry on the inside for him. What incredible people

[nooneisfamous]

this is a real man,

because he has no problem with showing his feeling!

[harvestguy204]

Esther, your star will not go out

RIA

[MattAlexScott]

Her star will not go out. We won`t let it.

[mugglemania12]

RIA Esther

[jconradi2345]

this is one of the most touching things ive ever seen, i cry everytime i love you john

[entertainmentfan30]

i started crying when john did. i never knew esther but she seemed like a great person with alot of determination :) DFTBA

[UncoProductions]

RIP Esther. DFTBA

John and Hank, may you look forward to the best that is yet to come

[cindyluvsdemselandjb]

oh god john, i cried. RIP esther. DFTBA.

[Quetzacoatl2]

if I had feelings, I would have cried.

[jlindyboy24]

This video is so touching. It makes me hope that they have youtube in whatever you like to call the afterlife.

[EuroPowa]

Number 73 was fucking huge

[TisReptar]

During yesterday's live show, John commented on this in one of the most genuine ways-- through humor.

"And then I started crying, because I am a WUSS. I think Esther would've made fun of me. If she's watching me somewhere, she was probably laughing at me."

John, you inspire me every day. And your ability to joke about something so dear to you and dear to us is indescribably significant.

DFTBA.

[jellybeangravy]

@TisReptar Where did you watch this? Damn it if I missed a live show :/

[zouljiin]

<333

[nerdunitofhunain]

This made me make a YouTube account...

[Bensterr23]

I managed to hold it in for most of it, and then John was crying and I just started blubbing like a baby.

[AntoinetteSong]

Does anyone think Hank should name is new album, "Esther"? Please come join the FB page: Hank Should Name His Album Esther..... pretty creative name, huh? :) We are urging the winner of the raffle to give up the awesome prize of having THEIR name be the title of Hanks's album, and give it to Esther. She has inspired so many of us to not forget to be awesome. Let's give back! Thanks guys! DFTBA.

[calvinball1]

omg John, when you cried I cried.

[Mainstandard]

@calvinball1 same here.

[WateverWatever04]

Tears welled up in my eyes before John was crying, but once he started to cry, that was it for me, I was crying so much I missed half an hour of the rest of the show. I never cry unless I am in extreme pain. My heart aches enough to cry for you Esther, RIA...

[NoOtherNamesWereLeft]

The best thing about nerdfighterts and Nerdfighteria is that we care so much about each other. We are all so different - but this one, tiny thing that binds us together is amazing! We stand up for each other, we support each other and cry together. We really are a little community, aren't we...

I hate being sentimental, but I've though about it for a while. Anywhere you write DFTBA you get a DFTBA in return, we care about each other. I love you all, nerdfighters! <3

[hotpinkelephant11]

@NoOtherNamesWereLeft DFTBA.

[harrysor]

Who can dislike this :(

[StayInsanelyAwesome]

This is what p4a is all about.

[TisReptar]

It is in watching this video and looking through its comments that the core of Nerdfighteria shines best. Beneath the awesome, beneath the nerdtastic traits, beneath the Shakesperian insults and everyday hilarity, we are human. We miss Esther. We mourn her every day. And we come together to support John, the Earl family-- to support each other. And, damn it, I am so proud to be a Nerdfighter. Rest in Awesome, Esther.

[TheSampleLife]

I remember watching this part of the live stream and being so emotional. I put my This star won't go out bracelet on straight after. Such a touching YouTube moment that shows that even though this is not 'IRL' what goes on here is REAL!

Gary.

[lauraofdublin1]

Seeing John cry just set me off.

[TheTARDISTimeLord]

Esther, I never met you, but we talked a couple of times, and I considered you a dear friend of mine. I love you, and I miss you and our talks.

Rest. In. Awesome, Esther, but most of all DFTBA.

I cried... so hard at this....

[LegendShark]

I thought John was afraid of heights!

[mahnahkah]

@LegendShark He is extremely afraid of heights. You can see it all over his face, fear mixed with sadness and hope and wishing with all his heart that he had as much of an effect on Esther as she had on him, on all of us. I think that's what everyone wanted, even those of us who had never met nor talked to her. We all wanted her to know that she had changed us. It's selfish, but it is the most selfless selfishness there is.

[weasley1497]

Esther was so amazing and she never forgot to be awesome. RIA Esther.

[ellabooray]

I'm so glad the internet can foster such a loving and caring community like Nerdfighteria.

I am glad we are able to remember Esther in such a personal, respectful way even though most of us haven't met her.

More than anything else, this is what makes me proud to be a nerdfighter.

[Carliekinz]

I don't think I can handle a sad John Green. We love you John!

&&Esther too, R.I.A!

[InnocenceExperience]

Undeniably the most moving moment of p4a

[dinozor67]

R.I.A Esther

[pippiclepickle]

i can't. i just can't. <3

[pippiclepickle]

<3

[zimmaster4]

I remembered Darren when that happened.

[TheSunshineNetwork]

awww, dont cry john. i have a tendency to not be able to cry easily so unfortunately i only could smile when i saw this. but hey, maybe thats a good thing, seeing everyone come together and really feel for each other. <3

[polaris666]

I cried so hard when I saw this. and I am still crying extremely hard every time I see it.

Esther, Rest in the incredible awesomeness.

We all love you.

[llilcat96]

John, you're making my heart hurt. A good kind of hurt, deep down, I guess, but it still hurts. Your crying, not unlike your laughter, is very contagious.

[1337Ryuzaki]

I gotta say, I cried a little bit when John cried.

RIA Esther.

and also, John looked a little uncomfortable up there on the balcony. lol.

[purplepanda11]

r.i.a esther

[blessedbyacurse]

John, you make it really hard to not cry when you do.

[Malazatable]

I cried so much after seeing this live last night. R.I.A Esther.

[jaytummy]

John, you've been a sort of omnipotent being in my life, through your books and your videos. Seeing you cry reminds me that you are, in fact, a real person. I will never forget again.

[nddulac]

This was easily the best moment of the Project for Awesome. This Star will definitely not go out.

[leksaksbomb]

Esther r.i.a.

we love you john <4

[ImExtra]

For some reason I keep re-watching this and I cry just as much as I did the first time. There are already so many amazing comments so I don't have much to add except:

Thank-you John and Hank for everything (for starting Vlogbrothers in the first place, for P4A,...)

DFTBA Nerdfighters (which I don't think really even needs to be said)

And RIA Esther (This Star Won't Go Out)

<3

[Vetauriel88]

I saw this live last night (it was like 4am where I live), and it broke me into tears. John, I really love you for what you're doing. If more people were as awesome as you are, the world would be a better place.

[eritter312]

Esther your star can never go out, you shine to brightly to ever let that happen. All of us in nerdfighteria miss you and are sad that they never got to miss you. We miss you and hope that we can live in your shadow of awesome. You mean so much to John, to Hank, and to the Nerdfighters. And I'm proud to whisper, to say, to yell, that this star won't go out. We love you Esther. Rest in Awesome and Peace.

[vanessacaterina]

I love you, John and may Esther rest in awesome. :(

[GeoGominolis]

i cried

[busybeingbla]

@GeoGominolis me too

[davj]

I missed the live stream but that that was really moving. I cried for Esther too. RIA Esther

[ericsimaginaryfriend]

This star WON'T go out, you never forgot to be awesome.

Rest In Awesome Esther

[Monna171]

I cried a river after watching that vid . .. John u r so great and may she rest in peace ...

[SirTeeGeeEss]

Real men can cry, too.

So very touching. I'm sure there was many a tear shed watching this section.

[tanman1110]

Its okay to cry John there is no need to hold it back ;) just cry

[lucyedgehill]

Rest In Awesome Esther!

[JenLovesJedward]

this really tugged at my heart :'(

but we all know Esther is in no pain anymore :)

[LeahandAnax]

This really touched me. I though t it was the most moving part of P4A. My mum was diagnosed with cancer too, this time last year and was in hospital for christmas.On behalf of all of my family (who love volgbrothers and nerdfighteria dearly) Thank you for doing this.Needless to say, Dftba Hank and John, from a thirteen year old nerdfighter.

[firnantok]

Thank you John.

[CitizenOfNeverland]

We all cried with you.

[CitizenOfNeverland]

John, thank you. Just thank you. Thank you for changing the lives of so many people around the world. You make us realize how extremely lucky we are to have such amazing friends and fantastic lives. I'm not really religious, but watching Lauren and Matt's video yesterday gave me this hope that Esther was watching and realizing how much she was loved. You are a beautiful human being, John. Thank you for opening your heart and for doing so much for so many great causes. You. Are. Awesome.

[mathstalio]

John, you are amazing for doing this, for p4a, for everything you've done for Esther, and for letting people see your emotions. This video really brings all of the emotion within Nerdfighteria together and reminds me that John and Hank are real Nerdfighters too.

[FlightOfTheCondoors]

Wow that is the koolest background ever.

[PennyLane0123]

watching john tear up made me start crying too. john, we're all crying with you. <3 i didn';t know esther, but i feel like i did, and ive worn my tswgo band since the day i got it, months ago. to the earl family- thank you for your daughter. her star will never go out. <3

[MaddhatterChannel]

P4A

[srslyveronica]

Watching John Green cry was really hard. . Esther sounds like she was the most freakin' awesome person ever. I hope she's happy, wherever she may be.

[TromsoMovies]

Rest in awesome, Esther.

[Jmemmerson]

These two videos combined were, to me, the powerful moments of th P4A broadcast. What Darren did was so selfless and so awesome, but seeing John Green hold back tears while talking about Esther really threw me. It reminded me the John and Hank are not just telling the stories and making the interesting videos for us, they really love Nerdfighteria and obviously felt a great connection to Esther which we all still do. Those seconds where John almost lost it made me cry too. R.I.A Esther and DFTBA

[panicatthediscoqueen]

It was desperatly hard to watch him cry I welled up and I want to send my best to Esthers family and to John.

I am sure it was her best day never forget it :)

xx DFTBA

[DoctorSmurph]

You are an amazing person... John I know that was hard but you did great.

[jaytummy]

The only reason 3 people disliked this is because seeing John Green cry is just too painful.

[FreddyLopez321]

i look up to john so much, like a dad. i might be a guy but whatever i just want to hug this guy, i understand his pain, watching him cry made me cry. ='(

[cpate0005]

This was one of the most beautiful and special moments I've ever witnessed. Esther would be proud, and likely a little embarrassed from all the attention :-) We all have grown to know and love her through the wonder of the internet and we know that her start will never go out and none of us will ever forget to be awesome. We are all better people because of Esther and people like John and Hank Green. Thank you. RIA, Esther.

[HanHansell]

This was a great part of the p4a :)

[JinzoDefiler]

I cried when i watched this. I could feel the emotion from his voice. Rest in Awesome, Esther!

[PadfootLestrange]

Ah man, I said I wouldn't cry. <3

[RvP587]

I was stupid and thought that I will never know Esther (I only recently became acquainted with the awesomeness that is nerdfighteria) . But I finally realised that with each one of these videos and through nerdfighteria, I really do know Esther. That's why I wear the 'this star won't go out' band on wrist with so much pride and affection. Thank you John and Hank and the whole of nerdfighteria! This community is indeed made of awesome. R.I.A. Esther.

[breakidnwn]

dangit john, you're making me cry!

[jennafishy]

"This star won't go out. It won't. We won't let it."

Rest In Awesome, Esther.

[ilyJB713]

WHO ARE THE THREE LOSERS WHO DISLIKED THIS VIDEO?

[3021163]

dftba

[NathanIsReallyBored]

Only three Youtube videos have made me tear up. One being one of UnculturedProject's videos, one being John's original Esther dedication, and this.

[ADGN17]

DFTBA

[sasuke1on1]

*huggs john* u all miss esther sooo much!!! R.I.A!

[phillyeagles0328]

i'll admit as one of the few male nerdfighters that i welled up a little when i watched this. We'll always remember you Esther!!!!

[MyLIfeStudios]

rest in awesome , Esther 

[Bowling4SoupGirl]

Rest in Awesome, Esther.

[ThatDarnAdele]

rest in awesome, Esther. you are missed

[Apparoid]

DAMMIT JOHN I SAID I WOULDN'T CRY.

[BrittanysMusicVideos]

Rest in Awesome, Esther.

[GlobalFrankIE]

Rest in Awesome Esther.

[noorgansjustawesome]

This was beautiful.

[crs0831]

Esther was so lucky to live such a fulfilled life, as terribly short as it was. Esther was, and still is, and inspiration to so many people. I'm sure she knows that every nerdfighter misses her and loves her even without ever meeting or speaking to her. She was such a brilliant star, and she definitely will not go out.

John, when you cried, I cried. Thank you so much for being the awesome person you are. Esther must have been so happy to finally meet you and spend time with you. <3 DFTBA

[vulcanusii]

Yup this finally did it. Many videos over the past few days have almost made me cry, this tipped me over the edge.

RIA Esther

Hank & John continue in awesome 4eva!

[footynutguy]

To say that Esther was one of the most important nerdfighters was an understatement. I know many will disagree with me, but I would say that she was the most important nerdfighter who wasn't in the limelight that much.

[gypsytea1961]

You're not alone in crying John. When you cry, Nerdfighteria cries with you. You have effected so many people and so many lives in such an amazing and positive way. You've made me want to be a better person, need! to be a better person. Thank you so much for starting Project 4 Awesome. We love you <3 :)

[NoOtherNamesWereLeft]

Oh... <3333

[itsjustlizzieee]

Aww this made me cry

[Reitsumapanta]

We miss you esther. 

[Theearthquest]

Esther RIA <3 Damn you John, now I can´t stop crying :( <3

[itsRachelsaurus]

Rest in Awesome Esther.

[HyddenRiver]

lol.... people eye are ell...

[avescharleston]

This just breaks my heart.

[Speilbilde]

Rest in Awesome, Esther. This star won't go out, ever. Thank you so much for this, John. And thank you to Esther, for all you did for Nerdfighteria. You're still an inspiration to all of us.

[tavilovesyou]

Esther was a beautiful person and her star will never go out! Thank you John for caring so much and helping others care so much. DFTBA! This made me cry.

[1binx]

I cried when this was live. and I'm crying now.

Rest in awesome Esther.

DFTBA

[bakerbridget]

*sniffles*

[yourrrsmile]

Watching John cry was one of the hardest things I've done in a while :S

[Lyssykins]

Awwww! I haven't cried so much in two days. Thanks for everything, John!

[kazooga1234]

i love how frightened john was being out on the balcony as well and esther is as ha bisky as P4A is

[TeamSpock57]

Awe! DFTBA! HUGS to all! This made me teary for sure. Love you John and Esther forever!

[kontekzt]

<3

[MolinMUSE]

This was extremely beautiful and moving, and like the others; I now have soaked cheeks. There is nothing I can say that the other amazing nerdfighters haven't.

Rest in awesome, Esther. We love you, John. This star won't go out.

[MarjoB73]

I cried too. And when I said "I love you" to the screen, I wasn't just talking to John Green. I wasn't even talking to "them". I was talking to us, all Of Us.

[hollabooiers]

@MarjoB73 Same here. Every time I said "I love you", and there really was more than one time, I meant Us.

I don't have words to describe what Nerdfighteria means to me.

[jellybeangravy]

Oh John, you made me go as well!

We all love you in Nerdfighteria, although I'm relatively new to the community, this hit me so hard, I've never cried at a YouTube video, so that's a first! I'm only a couple months younger than Esther, but I really hope I can help, this foundation in particular, to do more made of awesome things for people who need it.

Thank you John and Hank for helping to decrease worldsuck. This star won't go out.

DFTBA

[ClocksInMyPlace]

I'm only in the beginning of being a Nerdfighter (have watched 1/4 of Vlogbrothers' videos), but I look forward to the vlog that introduces me to Esther.

This moves me and you John crying makes me cry. It is clear that she was close to your awesome heart, John. This clip a very beautiful way of showing memory of her.

[TheDoctorIsMyHomeboy]

Oh god. As soon as you started crying John, I couldn't help it :( Esther would be so happy to know how much she's affected Nerdfighteria! I didn't even know who she was till a few months before she died, and I cried the day she passed away.

This star won't go out!

[hampson2]

the star will never go out

[HelloMrYoung]

Being a 24 yr old guy, naturally it's hard to talk about emotions, but watching this and the rest of the P4A and everything you guys are doing, it was overwhelming and for the first time in years I've actually shed some tears. You guys are amazing and never stop what you're doing.

[TheDevilsSnare]

I teared up immediately.

Just beautiful. -3

DFTBA

This star will never go out.

[Greaseh]

This star will never go out

[LangeE612]

this was extremely moving

[winterdaysable]

RIP Esther <3