I started making myself sick by eating loads and loads of food and some drinks aswell until I have to go and throw it up starting from today,I used to do it but not like attending to vomit at the same time aswell if you know what I mean by that,if you want me to tell you how exactly how I "used" to do it compared to now then please inbox me..I hate my life because I have made 2 years without doing it. (the way I used too) and now I have the urge to do it again. :(
What you said at 4:40 was totally what I was going to say in my comment. Sometimes, suicide just seems like the only way to relieve others of the burden you feel you are. When I'm really depressed, I seriously feel like it might be better for my family if I weren't around. At those moments, my death seems like it would be the best thing for those I love.
Yupp, I've felt that before and on ocassion when I get low I have that thought run across my mind. It's scarey, but really in the moment it feels right...
The only thing that really keeps me sane through it is God, I couldn't just end my life..it would be a waste. There is a greater purpose.
You are so spot on girl that people who are suicidal do not see that if they go ahead with it how much it would hurt loved ones. They see themselves as THE problem and burden. I have been there before too. I know of two people who took there own lives because of such deep emotinal pain from their eating disorder. I believe past trauma such as abuse etc adds fuel to the fire. People that get to this point see a life that has been full of pain and they are so desperate to escape it.
I've been suicidal for a while now and have had many attempts in the past, so it's good to know that people like you are trying to make others aware of the mental pain one goes through.
Thanks hun. I do understand what your going through, please know your not a lone. You can message me if you need, Im here to support you. Don't give up, life is worth it more than you know. God bless you.
Hun, a size 4 is tiny! I know that what you see in the mirror isn't what everyone else sees. I, at times, see a HUGE person in the mirror, when other people always call me 'tiny'. Its hard to know how is telling the truth, but the truth will always set you free, and trust me the truth is your not huge, your worth recovery. Dont buy into the lie.
Your welcome. Plastic surgery is NOT the answer. Your beautiful as you are, as God made you. To fix something that isn't even broken is a waste of time. Getting that surgery doesn't improve your self image.
btw i like you cat,shes/hes cute.
cindy1000000 1 year ago
I started making myself sick by eating loads and loads of food and some drinks aswell until I have to go and throw it up starting from today,I used to do it but not like attending to vomit at the same time aswell if you know what I mean by that,if you want me to tell you how exactly how I "used" to do it compared to now then please inbox me..I hate my life because I have made 2 years without doing it. (the way I used too) and now I have the urge to do it again. :(
cindy1000000 1 year ago
I'm glad you are alive and healthy. You have strong faith in God.
SpriteBat 2 years ago
What you said at 4:40 was totally what I was going to say in my comment. Sometimes, suicide just seems like the only way to relieve others of the burden you feel you are. When I'm really depressed, I seriously feel like it might be better for my family if I weren't around. At those moments, my death seems like it would be the best thing for those I love.
I'm glad you posted this. Thank you.
FreddieMercuryRising 2 years ago
Yupp, I've felt that before and on ocassion when I get low I have that thought run across my mind. It's scarey, but really in the moment it feels right...
The only thing that really keeps me sane through it is God, I couldn't just end my life..it would be a waste. There is a greater purpose.
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
at 2:50 Exactly how I feel. I'm just glad someone understands.
daniNICOLEsaysSING 2 years ago
for me suicidal thoughts were not worse than depression, but i guess they're linked together and its hard to separate them
AnnaHasNoMiddleName 2 years ago
You are so spot on girl that people who are suicidal do not see that if they go ahead with it how much it would hurt loved ones. They see themselves as THE problem and burden. I have been there before too. I know of two people who took there own lives because of such deep emotinal pain from their eating disorder. I believe past trauma such as abuse etc adds fuel to the fire. People that get to this point see a life that has been full of pain and they are so desperate to escape it.
anawings 2 years ago
I've been suicidal for a while now and have had many attempts in the past, so it's good to know that people like you are trying to make others aware of the mental pain one goes through.
A brilliant video, I hope many watch it!
lilkittyx 2 years ago
Thanks hun. I do understand what your going through, please know your not a lone. You can message me if you need, Im here to support you. Don't give up, life is worth it more than you know. God bless you.
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
I found this very moving to watch. Thankyou for posting this, im glad it is on the internet for people to see.
lydiamusic1992 2 years ago
Thank you. I hope it helps many. God bless
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
Hun, a size 4 is tiny! I know that what you see in the mirror isn't what everyone else sees. I, at times, see a HUGE person in the mirror, when other people always call me 'tiny'. Its hard to know how is telling the truth, but the truth will always set you free, and trust me the truth is your not huge, your worth recovery. Dont buy into the lie.
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago
Your welcome. Plastic surgery is NOT the answer. Your beautiful as you are, as God made you. To fix something that isn't even broken is a waste of time. Getting that surgery doesn't improve your self image.
Lovesenduringpromise 2 years ago