My Kundalini Experience: Part 3 of 3 (Memories of Past Life and Aftermath) / Bipolar Disorder

[replytoomyass]

Kundalini Yoga by day, Joe Rogan podcast by night all day!

[StellaLeBret]

Hey sean, it's my understanding is that we do not have past lives per-se (I know this is radical) the warrior you experienced killing women is being who has passed,and is attached to you via your similar injury. Not that you want to kill women but as you said the trauma of your previous relationship.This memory or dream came to the fore as you tackled injuries during meditiation

[bipolarorwakingup]

@StellaLeBret In Kundalini theory, which comes from India, the beleif is that our Karma is mostly stored inside the coccyx (or tailbone). Our Karma is related to our past lives. As the experience of kundalini awakening is, truly, only deeply understood by mystics in the east, I tend to think past lives exist, and that my dreams mentioned here were connected to them somehow. But, I may be wrong!

[StellaLeBret]

@bipolarorwakingup hey sean yep, I understand kundalini, I'm just offering a more radical perspective. I had a 'kundalini' where my entire spirit body detached from the physical and walked around the flat! Some people would say that's not kundalini but I had full ONE- consciousness with the cosmos and a energy from the third eye that went out a around the globe in seconds. I could also see through buildings amazing!

[DougieG75]

I don't hold a lot of hope for clinical medicine's ability to deal with this kind of problem. I hope that a lot of people hear your message and can understand it. I totally agree with you and hope that many people will be helped by your videos. Unfortunately I think that many people experiencing this kind of thing don't have the kind of support they need to be able to express it.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@DougieG75 Agreed!

[alekid]

Thanks for sharing this. Very interesting. The only thing I couldn't understand is the connection between bipolar disorder and kundalini experience. Are you saying that the two manifest in similar ways? From what I know, bipolar disorder is a permanent condition, unlike what you've experienced through mediation.

[Alexm5225]

You are so amazing. True inspiration. You should host a retreat yourself. Like, a 3-day meditation/lecture. I love listening to you talk.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Alexm5225 Maybe one day I'll get there! I'm not so keen on the spiritual guru role though....I'm not that serene...

[pus107]

where did you go to get that experience. i am quiet too and strange

[ohjollyg]

Namaste!

Very nice 3 videos and honest expression of your experiences with kundilini energy.Lots of love and metta-Thanks

[samanthaeblack11]

Wonderful three videos. I have had many things happen but I have not meditated like this. I would like to try It! Thank You, Samantha

[bipolarorwakingup]

@samanthaeblack11 Give it a try, I'll be back at it in February, 2011!

[PetSounds3608]

I'll have to add this to my list of things to do before I die. I had a spiritual experience similar to this...nowhere near as strong, I'm sure, but still pretty strong. It came after a drug induced psychotic breakdown. I was catatonic, hallucinating, going out of my mind.. My friend (my very patient friend) had to talk me down from it for a couple hours or so. Afterward, I had the most intense feeling of my life, a feeling of oneness with the world around me, like I was reborn. It was incredible

[LordMoxas]

if you fight the feeling of the kundalini awakaning then you hallucinate you shit or piss yourself... not fun....

[DodenSpiegel]

Great video. I had mine last January. It's the greatest experience one can have and very personal.

[kundalinikrew]

Awesome videos dude. So grounded in reality. Peace out Bro

[bipolarorwakingup]

@kundalinikrew Peace back! Glad you picked up on the ´grounded´ part. I think, as we move forward, the idea of spirituality and a spiritual world on earth needs to be entirely grounded. The New-Age movement has too many people wrapped up in a crop-circle chasing, shaman worshipping, fantasy land.

[LUVALCHEMY]

Thanks for sharing your kundalini awakening. Nice videos, ... and you have a very good vibe. PEACE

[aparaajita10]

Hey Shawn, try to get your hands on a book, "Many Lives Many Masters" by Dr. Brian & read it. You will Weiss. Reading that will give u some insight into past lives. I believe we are not supposed to remember that. You are supposed to do the right thing regardless of what the consequence is, & do it without malice. Reading some of the Hindu scriptures, especially The Gita, will help u understand why Hindus appear weird to the rest of the world.

[FemmeFatale088]

Thanks v much for your videos. I have had amazing and continuous experiences with kundalini or bliss energy for the past 11 years. Ever since the kundalini opened up with an off the scale blissful explosion of experiences, my life has never been the same. I currently have to live with an overpowering 24/7 flow of blissful energy coming out of my heart, head, stomach, in fact all chakras,which makes it difficult to concentrate on anything but the energy itself, especially if it becomes painful.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@FemmeFatale088 11 years of that? I never thought it was possible! Thanks for watching

[deniceinspain]

Thank you for shareing your experience. I have not had such an intense experience as yet. I have had the wind knocked out of me during a chakra healing session, and some very intense stuff during my own meditations, but I'm highly interested in having burried energies leave me. Thanks again, I hope I can achieve the same benefits from now on.

[orkishiswithk]

omg, lol, three days of sitting with your legs crossed for something that is a matter of about 20 minutes of entertainment, chilling out and fun?

isn't that like trying to squeeze a glass of water out of a stone while you could just turn the tap?

if that is not insane than what is?

jk

[bipolarorwakingup]

@orkishiswithk Actually, it was 10 days. And I don't get your analogy at all.

[orkishiswithk]

@bipolarorwakingup yeah, i did notice that the camp was for 10 days.

i was referring to the three days that it took until things started to become more interesting.

the analogy means that kundalini is much easier than the stereotype says.

you had a reference to eckhart tolle somewhere, doesn't he say that you need some intensity?

how to get intensity?

see where this line of thought is getting to?

i say getting enough intensity is a matter of minutes and you do not need to be bipolar.

[deniceinspain]

@orkishiswithk your man mentions how some deeply burried stuff was uncovered due to this practise. I don't think that the really deep trauma can be cured with 20 min. of enjoyement, although It'd be great if I could cure my own junk like that ;)

[orkishiswithk]

@deniceinspain well, it's much "worse" than that.

it is not that i am contradicting the stereotype by saying that you can release some minor trauma in 20 minutes.

what i am saying is that kundalini awakening is a matter of about 20 minutes.

those two are not exactly the same thing.

actually it seems that in such short time limits, physical fitness seems to have an influence on how fast it can be done.

[OneHectare]

Great vid brother. I had several spontaneous 'special K' experiences over the years. Just before the most intense one, I remembered being an american indian in a PL.

Years later i was talking to a girlfriend i'd always been attracted to, who remembers heaps of her past lives. Turns out she was my Indian wife in our last life. She remembered returning to our teepee and seeing me slumped over dead, having been shot by the calvalry. The Medical Mafia make up illnesses and conditions 2 boost profit.

[mygodiswithin]

I realy like your videos. They are so honest. Honesty is the greatest thing I know.

[CarlyeHB]

Hi :) I enjoyed your video, it resonates deeply with me as I have been undergoing kundalini awkakening for the past 2 years in different energetic manifestations. Observing and listening to my body was what initially set it off and then I began dimensional meditation, taking in prana, increasing the pressence of my energy body. I find it difficult to live with at times because it is with me 24/7 and I don't know anyone who has had or is having a similar experience.

[CarlyeHB]

Hi :) I enjoyed your video, it resonates deeply with me as I have been undergoing kundalini awkakening for the past 2 years in different energetic manifestations. Observing and listening to my body was what initially set it off and then I began dimensional meditation, taking in prana, increasing the pressence of my energy body. I find it difficult to live with at times because it is with me 24/7 and I don't know anyone who has had or is having a similar experience.

[HumbleHermit7]

so if an awakening won't help me get rid of this schizophrenia or bi polar disorder than whats the point? mines well just continue to play video games lol.

but i do see what your saying about graduating. no one can just escape reality and have no problems. thx for the info :-)

[1488bill]

Another K awakening last night,this one was like yours.Meditating to the point of transcendence when my heart chakra opened and roused me.Tried to relax...then a loud crackling boom like thunder came.When no one else in the house was disturbed,I deduced that this came from inside me.Sure enough thoughts and feelings started welling up from the subconscious.Memories long forgotten,almost image like,mixed with emotions.Tried to calm my reeling thoughts with free association techniques-heart racing

[1488bill]

I should add that this was a very, very mild episode compared to yours.

[1488bill]

I wonder how much of this is subjective.How much the mental images and mandalas are only in the mind-like a dream feels real and can influence the heart rate and pulse.Carl Jung had encounters with the unconscious that led to many of his theories and discoveries.I have taken the Silva Method and I recommend it. It is compatible with any metaphysical system.Left brain-objective,rational // right brain-subjective,intuitive,tim­eless.Two dimensions.

I have an excellent Kundalini book if interested.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Well, considering how much of it is common among many people, I consider it pretty objective. Also, my experience started after 3 straight days of meditating. I was in a no-mind state and the whole thing caught me off guard. I was thinking of nothing when it happened, and can´t connect it to any specific experience.

[suavesosa]

@1488bill can you tell me how Carl Jung and Tool are related

[1488bill]

@suavesosa Maynard from Tool often mentions Jung and his psychology of "high colonics".Tool even founded a water based esoteric religion based on purging one's emotions through tears and a release of subsequent endorphins.Their first two full albums,Undertow and Aenima,are water themed with songs like Flood and Swamp Song.Anima is Jung's word for the female archetype latent within the male unconscious.Tool expand on mystical and occult Jungian premises surrounding existential confrontation.

[MrAwara911]

I dreamt a long long time ago I was a child monk being shaved, on my knees (My POV), somewhere in Soutth or SE Asia. There were tan-skinned men wearing safari suits aroung me. Since I was looking down, I couldn't see any faces. I remember thinking,"I am not ready, I am not ready". I have not been able to shake the idea 20 years later.

[HeyWakeUpPeople]

Thanks for the video!!

[psychawareness]

One night during mania, I had written down a statement that came to mind. It contained two concepts (push and pull). I then marched over to my bed and released a massive, animal growl. I felt faint and collapsed on my bed. Then I realized these two opposing concepts in my mind (push/pull) and how I had used these two concepts as associations in my life in various contexts. I felt a surge of energy being released from my heart and my stomach. After this experience, I became obsessive with THREE.

[bipolarorwakingup]

I had an acute psychosis, like many 'bipolar' people have 12 years ago. Since then I have been unmedicated and in fact, never even considered the possibility that what I went through back then was even remotely similar to mental illness. My story is on my blog. This kundalini experience has been another type of awakening. But many people go through this type of thing and have a mental disorder with it. Many of those people get labeled (and medicated) bipolar.

[Livinginfullenergy]

Good luck to you mate. Not sure if have heared of EFT or not, but if you haven't I would recommend googling it. I've helped many release unwanted energy and replace it with more of the desirable. Anyhow great to see a self developer. Universal blessings to you.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Thanks, I'm familiar with EFT. I'm a little skeptical of it, but my wife uses it occasionally.

[LCimcerotras]

very well of you to share with everybody your experience.

MANY people are going through very similar experiences but have no clue about Kundalini, prior to it happening.

Symptoms listed for Kundalini Syndrome and Morgellons are exactly the same.

Morgellons seems to be Kundalini on steroids.. with the final stages of the transformative process emerging rapidly.

visit my page for a video about the 2 syndromes.

Keep up the good work and research.. helping others going through this to understand.

[decidetobehappy]

yes, thank you for sharing your expierience!

[dnafreq]

What energy is coming in the planet right now? I got hit on 1/2/09. It has been a very difficult process. I cried for 2 months straight. My body is just now recovering. I also felt the presence of an et angel shaman working on me. What a fantastical journey... open your heart... and let the sun shine in... thank you for sharing.

[humnbeng]

I just turned 19 and since about Nov I think I've been going through a Kundalini awakening within myself, very unintentional, I should add. The past 4 months I've experienced very similar situations as you did. It's been a strange experience for me. I had never meditated or even thought of myself as a spiritual person before all this stuff happened to me, but that's changed now. I didn't know what Kundalini was before yesterday when I got curious & looked it up - thanks for sharing your exp!

[ambygirl1008]

What a fantastic journey and thank you for the courage to share that. I laughed when you said that "oh yeah, when people become enlightened now life is assumed to be easy, when really it gets harder!" Yep, I have noticed that also. Thanks again and I have very much enjoyed all your videos so far. I have learned a great deal.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Good to hear Danni. And I love the dollhead. looks just like you!

[GrlRock]

Wow! Absolutely amazing! I am so happy for you that you were able to have that experience. You are a truly unique person and you are living out your purpose. Thank you so much for sharing.

[bipolarorwakingup]

GrlRock, when you say it like that, you make is sound like I actually KNOW what I´m doing. Believe me, nothing could be further from the truth!

[xTommyGirlx]

I'm going to try this.. But is it okay to go 10 hours straight without taking breaks?

[bipolarorwakingup]

There are breaks every 2 hours or so. But one thing, are you bipolar. If you have a history of mental disorders, you should not do it. You will likely go into a psychosis. But I have a meditation video coming that you can do (a little bit at a time)!

[xTommyGirlx]

I'm bipolar but.. I'm not completely sure if I've ever truly, TRULY, experienced psychosis or not before. I mean I've had severe depersonalization to the point that I thought I was half demon, and I've gotten quite dellusional and paranoid before, and become so manic that I started shaking and laughing and saw a couple hallucinations.. things like that, but what qualifies for psychosis exactly? I've never been hospitalized..

[maximotion]

This was fascinating and I really appreciate you being so real/honest about your experiences. I'm interested in the past life thing. I had an experience as a child of 'remembering' being a man (I'm a woman). Have you read Michael Newton's books - Journey of Souls and Destiny of Souls? I recommend them to everyone.

[bipolarorwakingup]

No I haven´t, but I´ll keep it in mind.

[AbsolutRuthless]

Maybe you were just sharing a memory from the cosmic consciousness - research nondualism. The idea of oneness

[bipolarorwakingup]

Could be, but when I woke up, it felt more like  a personal message to me.

[crazedmystic]

Keep it up... it gets really strange when you start dreaming of alien past lives ;) No joke.... There just stories anyway... oh yeah, we all have the same karma ;) the universe if infinite & you've lived ALL past lives & all lives that are to come... hehehehehehehehe

[joemoonblue]

going from chicago to san francsisco in april could pop over you then sean

[bipolarorwakingup]

Anytime...I´m here!

[1humanbean1]

check out 'MTCTB" by Daniel Ingram, 'path w/ heart' by Jack Kornfield 'progress of insight' by Mahasi Sayadaw(just to name a few).They touch here and there how bi-polar like cycling, intense temporary psychotic-like states, etc.etc..are often common experiences during stages of insight on the Vipassana path.Its all been kind of mapped out progressively. it's not simplisticly dark to light.Rather, a kind of cycling of ups and downs. these maps are obviously broad, rough, and unhelpful for some.

[1humanbean1]

sweet dude....Goenka retreat. What you describe is just par for the course. I've done like 7 of them. One was 20 days.  you have to roll with the punches on these things. Just observe WHATEVER comes up no matter how crazy and out there it is and you'll come out on top. And by on top I mean HUMBLED....closer to the sometimes harsh, embaressing, destabilizing, and often painfuly unpleasant reality of being human. vipassanas the real deal. It's no feel good pleasure cruise to new ageville.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Judging by your comments, you´ve been there, obviously! 7 times! And I´ll admit, I think humility has been the lesson, not only only the course, but for the months afterwards.

[mistyred8]

Sounds like a fascinating experience. I think these things happen more readily if you're completely open to it.

[bipolarorwakingup]

After 2 years of talking to people about psychotic episodes, I think I´m ready for just about anything!

[ojosdelaluna313]

thank u for making these videos. im 33 and have been battling this bipolar nightmare since age 12. many things have happened lately that are steering me in the direction of meditation on a more serious level. today i got my confirmation with your videos here. i know this will make more changes for me .....i'm trying to twist the fear into fascination and charge ahead. thanks for ur videos.....

[bipolarorwakingup]

Your welcome, but take it slow. I´ll have a video on meditation up soon. That will be a good place for you to start.

[numshine9]

Did you have any major periods of humiliation and having to look at yourself in the mirror? Maybe your dream has to do with the whole thing that we're all the same person and we've all lived eachother's lives..blah, blah, hard to explain...I don't like it..when I had my experiences which by the way the last one was december 2008, I go through that terror and heaven...and it DOES mean something to get through it by yourself..even as you LONG for help...sorry if this message is scattered...thanks!

[bipolarorwakingup]

Humiliation? I don´t think I had any strong feelings of humiliation. Like I said, probably some unresolved shame related to toilet training. But nothing I would call serious. Simply releasing the mild trauma of growing up.

[numshine9]

When I had my experiences, I had alot of humiliation and shame, it was resolved into forgiveness and love, but I had to go through that the first and second time, and when I had my third experience (psychosis) this past december, there was less...I had just wondered if you had to face every little thing you'd done or said and see it for what it was...if you didn't, good for you because it's very uncomfortable...you can be forced into humiliation...thanks

[surfinbernard77]

Thanks, haven't got anything clever to say at all, but I feel better off for hearing about your experiences.

[bipolarorwakingup]

That´s cool too! Glad you enjoyed it!

[LanceFightsReality]

you seem well alert and very passionate

[bipolarorwakingup]

Actually, I redid the whole video because when I did it the first time I thought I looked too much like a flake! Somehow, the ´professional' approach works better when you are conveying such unusual experiences.

[ozjthomas]

Thanks, Sean. Look forward to the meditation video. This is good information to have.

[bipolarorwakingup]

Hey man, glad you enjoyed it.  And after 18 months, its nice to know you are still interested in what I´ve got to say!

[ozjthomas]

Definitely interested. There are places we disagree, but you are a wellspring od knowledge. =)

[bipolarorwakingup]

How true...the wellspring OD knowledge!

[ozjthomas]

lol, meant to type of, of course :D