It was awful

[URABombShell]

Thank you thank you.

[prospero628]

Thank you for this...



[GodisLOVE917]

All I gotta say is, you are the most candid person ever! I absolutely adore how open you are in all your videos. I was recently diagnosed with ocd and depression and it's encouraging to see how you fight your illness daily and how you are victorious over all!

[GodisLOVE917]

All I gotta say is, you are the most candid person ever! I absolutely adore how open you are in all your videos. I was recently diagnosed with ocd and depression and it's encouraging to see how you fight your illness daily and how you are victorious over all!

[keliata]

You're very beautiful and very brave:) Don't regret making this video for a minute. I can't imagine all of what you went through but I suffer severe insomnia and recently had a two day episode of visual and auditory hallucinations. I felt very alone.

I'm glad you're feeling better:) You are the most articulate person on this illness.

I want to give you a hug.

[winstono75]

You have internalized other people's perceptions of you as ill. It's very common.

[sugashane19844]

i was hopin 2 see ur boobs.........

[Magherav33n]

ha ha yes..... sorry, not laughing ha ha, crazy ha ha! More people should be able to take the approach you do to mental illness. my problem was i kept thinking that as bad as i am, there will always be someone worse off in the world, but it got to the point that i couldn't tell the difference between being bad and being unhealthily bad..

[girococo]

nice vid, been there

[halation777]

This world is mentally ill. Don't get down on yourself!! Love yourself!!

[the7thwreck]

@shootcentermass I can see how they would help...I wouldnt even have thought about a vitamin shop, when I feel ill my brain screams 'DOCTOR!, PILLS!' Did you ask them what would help or did you already know what to get?

[the7thwreck]

@shootcentermass I think it maybe the opiate withddrawal making you feel so shit actually. Opiates are the only thing ive ever had real bad wds with. i wonder if you went back to taking 8mg of subs you would feel fine. buprenorphine is just as bad an opiate withdrawal than other opiates.

[the7thwreck]

@shootcentermass oh yeah, ive been on something, be it anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, benzos, anything opiate based for the last 16 years....im not even 30 yet!

[the7thwreck]

@shootcentermass you'll live plus they say it gets easier....I was on subutex but it turned me into a raving alcoholic, so now im back on methadone. I cant live without opiates im also on effexor, seroquel, nitrazepam, dihydrocodeine..and im not giving up anything anytime soon! ever since a rehab forced me into benzo withdrawal, methadone withdrawal and heroin withdrawal ALL AT THE SAME TIME! ive just thought...fuck it, im never gonna feel that ill again so I gave up on giving up anything!

[the7thwreck]

@shootcentermass So you have experienced both? Maybe its because of the longevity of the anti-depressant withdrawal and the reappearance of the symptoms that made you start taking them that made it seem worse.

[the7thwreck]

it does suck..i spose, getting arrested for arson made me kinda think about it... (how do ppl not get arrested everytime they leave their house?!!!)

IM MENTAL AND I RULE!

[arlandam]

Love You !!!!

[skwid12]

dont worry we all love you

[soilmanted1]

Might it not be possilbe to feel fine, and live well, yet not be "normal" and not "act like everyone else." ??

[charlyneyishow]

it sounds WORSE than opiate based narcotics withdrawl such as morphine, percocet (oxycodone) of which I have first hand experience with, glad you can laugh now :)

[mattman4020]

@charlyneyishow What did she withdrawal from? This video freaks me out lol

[charlyneyishow]

it sounds WORSE than opiate based narcotics withdrawl such as morphine, percocet (oxycodone) of which I have first hand experience with, glad you can laugh :)

[the7thwreck]

@charlyneyishow I dont know man....opiates are the only thing I found that help with my mental illness....but theyre illegal, ive withdrawn from heroin and methadone...but keep coming back, they keep me alive.. The hell of withdrawing is nothing compared to the hell of living as a non-medicated mentally ill individual.

[dj02tc5]

my doctor doesnt work with me atall he mostly goes with my sister and my mom and that they say i am so crazy that they are normal and look at me like that i am sychotic and something is wront with me and i know that my sister has that problems to but not to know that they act like they dont have the sam problesm and dont want to accept that but its not but yeah

[crazyhippy685]

thank you sooooo much hang in there sweetie xxxxoxxox

[Monstermack40]

You are a cutey pie, and don't you worry, trust in God, and take it one moment at a time.

[poppix69]

a beautiful mind it's all it takes

[beccasmomabcd]

You take how ever long you need to get it out. If it helps you heal, if it helps you feel better, do what you need to do.

You can get through this. Be strong. I'm rooting for you here in PA! :)

I'll pray for you.

I'm going through the same thing as you. Good luck and best wishes!

May the Lord be with you!:)

[april161981]

Liz, you are among my premiere heroes. You're incredibly beautiful and brave. These videos will outlive any shit you had to go through at PDN.

[april161981]

My bad: it is PW, not Photo District News.

[kristyl9999]

I hear you.........

[FallaciesDetective]

thanks!

[oldboatclub]

I have had ECT, been hospitalized numerous times. I too find those times hard to believe. It was extremely hard on my family and friends. One day I stood in the Post office wishing I was dead, & a little man came in through the door. His body was held together by braces & straps. He was in pain. Seeing this got me out of my head for a moment. Life isn't supposed to be easy. Keep up the fight

[44jhofmann]

I lost my only son to a drug overdose. I almost lost my only daughter to cancer. Her husband had a stroke. After over 3 years of battling depression because of these events am I a big whining crybaby for not being able to "get over it"? I was on Paxil for a coupe of months. They didn't work. My Dr. gave me some samples of Lexapro to try out. If I'm a big crybaby for feeling this way you can all go fuck yourself!!

[tictoc544]

Thankyou for sharing your story

FWIW You look and sound OK to Me

[herrapikkarainen]

My sister too had a habit of running away when she was psychotic. She still suffers from a psychotic disorder with schizophrenic features but it is mostly under control with medication. But when her mind was completely warped it was just terrible. She got into her head that we are scheming against her, tapping her phone and apartment, etc. Then she would run away from us because she believed we would put her away somewhere where she would be at the mercy of her ex-husband.

[BastyBoo]

Hit the gym and get a positive focal point for your life rather than this endlessly self perpetuating cycle of feeling like a victim and being treated like a victim.

[TiTMOUSE13]

@BastyBoo THATS THE BEST THING, GOING TO THE GYM, RUNNING, SWIMMING, ETC, THIS IS WHY THE REST OF THE WORLD MAKES FUN OF AMERICANS, BECAUSE OF WINNEY CRY BABYS LIKE HER, YOU KNOW WHAT THE CURE FOR DEPPRESSION IS IN OTHER COUNTRYS? GET THE FUCK TO WORK

[FallaciesDetective]

@TiTMOUSE13

timouse13´s account has been closed!

very good!

[dossmanos8]

Women who are you doing this video for? I have clinical depression and all the indifference you describe going thru is common to me as waking up everyday. I just got more shock treeatments for my endless depressive abyss. Far be it from me to tell you how devastating treatment-resistant depression can be. and how terribly lonely it makes you feel.

[FallaciesDetective]

@TiTMOUSE13

go to bed and don´t bother sick folks!

[Draziom203]

psychiatrists make people mentally ill.

[macaframa12]

@Draziom203 EXACTLY

[mobb70]

Hope you are doing better, you seem so adorable! Hope all is well with you and your fam.

[max4099]

God bless you,and keep away from drugs.Deprestion makes one feel like you do.I pray for people like you and myself.Dont giveup and what is normal??

[akareefkeeper]

you dick

[threelittleniglets]

what u need is some cock

[threelittleniglets]

let's see those nips

[apalleschi]

thank you for taking the time out to make a video while you felt this way. it did help for me too hear what you said. fending for yourself in poverty is hard enough let alone having to do it in while ur nearly psychotic everyday.

[koolkeystone]

I just went thru Paxil withdrawal a couple weeks ago, my drug pusher (doctor) neglected to tell me how dangerous these SSRI's are. Now I have more of my old self back. I realize its okay to cry, not a reason to take drugs like the doctors force down your throat. I am using the SAMe supplement now and I think that is helping me a little bit. Folks, Paxil=Prozac=Celexa=Cymbalta=K­lonopin=Death and Destruction. Blood is on any doc that prescribes them, especially the dangerous poison Paxil.

[Draziom203]

@koolkeystone PSYCHIATRY KILLS

[koolkeystone]

You are obvious a highly intelligent person. You are already working thru things whether or not you realize it.. That's great. You don't have to post cheerful stuff if you don't want to, just tell it like it is. You are the one going thru tese difficulties so worry about yourself only, not others. So much of these drug pushing psycho psychiatrists and doctors jump to drugs right away, the drugs only mask feelings and create bigger problems down the road.

[richbdd01]

Ur cute x

[Nightfelluponme]

Scattered thoughts...

I'm on Effexor for the last 3-4 months,made my panic attacks disappear but my mood is stable,stable=down to zero,no happiness no sadness,just a big nothing,i feel nothing. I need glasses too...I dont wear 'em...You are beautiful,i'm not...

We 're gonna be fine though...I hope!

[1psydoc]

Hi. I am a medical psychologist. It was difficult for you to share your story and I know you felt vulnerable. I hope to share you story with many of my patients. It is inspiring. Thank you for that. The idiots that make rude and primitive comments just consider them Darwin material. Thank you.

[Draziom203]

psychology is a pseudoscience. You are nothing.

[islamrapesthemind]

nothing a good pipe-cleaning from a stiff cock can't cure!

[TiTMOUSE13]

@islamrapesthemind RIGHT ON,LOL

[mothberries]

Hi lspikol, I just want you to know I know very much exactly how you feel. I suffer from Schizoaffective disorder (dueling schizophrenia and bipolarism) and I've been through horrible things and I feel awful so many times. I just want you to know that you and I are not alone and we will not be defeated by our illnesses. I don't know you but I feel a great feeling of love towards you. Hang in there sweety,

Mirth

[torgomax]

I'm subscribing. You are able to say the things I need to say

[archeaologygirl]

Thank you so much for sharing. I cried when you began talking about your mother. I too feel guilt from inflecting my mental illness on my parents and others. But I always hope they know we don't mean to hurt them :)

[RebelliousPunk77]

I am eighteen years old and I think I have gone through so much more hell than she has in her entire life. I have withdrew from Ativan, Klonopin, Paxil, Zyprexa, and Vicodin. This girl is just a big cry baby. I am probably going to feel like shit for the rest of my life now.

[electrojones]

RebelliousPunk77 you are just a typical whining kid. Go outside and get some sun.

[RebelliousPunk77]

I actually think I am going through post acute withdrawal. The symptoms are less physically now but some physical symptoms still persist. I went through hellish lorazepam withdrawal and not as bad clonazepam withdrawal. It's been about four months since my last benzodiazapine and the post acute withdrawal has kicked in and I feel badly most of the time.

It's wrong to judge complete strangers that you don't know.

[rotcafarg]

Isn't that what you did in your first post?

Do your standards only apply to others?

[RebelliousPunk77]

I feel like a jack ass. Sorry if I bothered you.

[rotcafarg]

It didn't bother me at all. I was trying to get you to see beyond yourself.

I'm coming down off anti-depressants myself. Luckily for me it has not been so bad so far. Hope you will feel better soon :-)

[RebelliousPunk77]

Which anti-depressant are you coming off of? I came off of Paxil which was a real bitch.

[rotcafarg]

Cymbalta.

It's not too bad. Waves of dizziness, some people call them brain zaps. It's been 4 days. Hopefully it will go away soon

[retnuhD]

I'm happy you are feeling better. I also think you are pretty hot and sexy in a Sarah Palin sort of way.

[dave00075ie]

hope ur feel better now!

[TheThunderCunt]

You've never experienced "awful" sweetie. So cry me a river and drown in it honey.

[MelindaPetrongolo]

YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE! GROW UP!

[WALLY1234556]

ur a hard cunt arnt you? you sould be called TheHardCunt. or maybe just SAD CUNT.

[GordonsAllSeeingEye]

Doctors Serve As Middleman Pushers by Evelyn J. Pringle

[anxiety2229]

THANKYOU!

[niamhc]

i am so glad that there are people like you willing to make your experience public, to be so honest about the reality of mental illness. you are indispensable not just to youtube of course, but to society-thank you.

[gravlygravy]

your parents not my parents funstein. You're too busy trying to prove a conspiracy and not busy enough trying to understand the human factors which are the true reinforcers of a situation.

[Nassifutz]

There is no such thing as a chemical imbalance. Depression etc. exist but its something totally different to call someone "SICK" or "ILL"

[ellabeex]

I totally hear you. but I've always thought of it differently. No need to go into specifics but I never considered it bad that I've been hospitalized or really psychiactrically sick. It's okay to be crazy, or have been crazy =]

[fun69stein]

depression is just a terrible addiction to masturbation.

Torturing your brain every day makes you ill and

medical business income increases.

Stop masturbating and you will get back your life and health within 6 to 8 weeks.

best wishes.

[Lucannz]

that was a stupid cruel ignorant uneducated comment... it also does not make any sense. It is a shame that not only people have to deal with depression, they have to deal with people like you that make such uninformed comments

[fun69stein]

Unloved children seek warmth and love in

masturbation. Get addicted and as young

adults get depression or even schizophrenia.

All addictions are built on denials.

You fight for your right to masturbate.

The cure of depression is simple - 2 months

without masturbation.

Get back your life and happiness my friend

and stop denying the truth!

[Lucannz]

This is the kind of nonsense people spouted back in the 1900's back in the day when people though lobotomy and leaches were a cure all... and if the cure for depression was as "simple" as you said it was people would not be depressed.

Here is a interesting fact that you seem not to fully grasp... major depression destroys libido, the people that suffer from it badly have zero interest in masturbation and sex in general.

So how about not pushing your religious agenda and try thinking rationally

[fun69stein]

in 1900 depression rate was less than 0,5% and masturbation was bad for your health.

Now masturbation is healthy and we have >10% depressive people and constantly growing.

Epidemy of depressions is caused by false notion that masturbation is healthy.

Denial is a base of all addictions - that's why suffering people claim they have no sex.

They do have excessive self-sex.

They torture their brains and get depressed.

It takes only 6 weeks to recover and convince you.

[Lucannz]

Let me re-quote what I just said:

"Here is a interesting fact that you seem not to fully grasp... major depression destroys libido, the people that suffer from it badly have zero interest in masturbation and sex in general."

That means if what you said was true, people who suffer from really bad depression would automatically be cured after a few months because again... they have zero interest in it when they are in the dark place.

[fun69stein]

no matter how many times you say about not-existing libido in depressed people it is NOT true.

depressed people abuse themselves - and it is

addiction like alcoholism - they torture their brains and deepen their depression.

They say that they don't have sex and this is truth. They are too exhausted to have sex.

Unfortunatelly they are able to masturbate.

It takes only 6 weeks to have a proof. Try.

[Lucannz]

Also, just because you seem to not be able to grasp the obvious... in the 1900's it was not in peoples best interest to show depression, or make it known that they masturbate.  Just because it was not seen did not mean it did not happen.

To tell a person who has hardly the energy to get out of bed let alone masturbate that masturbating is the cause of the problem makes zero sense. It is also ignorant, and cruel to dismiss it in such an simplistic manner, just to push your religious beliefs.

[gravlygravy]

Lacaanz what a thoughtless knee jerk dismissal of someone's attempt to tunnel into a problem from a different direction. You don't insult the insipid comments here. Instead you take on a sincere one that might risk making a few people think.

Let's say I believe SOME depression may have a relationship with addictions such as masturbation. I also relate to funstein's comment about unloved children.

Get some perspective. Ditch the shrill.

[Lucannz]

Actually if there as anything thoughtless and knee jerk, it was from fun69stein. He stated that Masterbation was the only cause of depression and in his simplistic little world if people did not do it, it would be manically cured. Such addictions happen rarely, and tend not to cause depression, in fact the reverse is true... they try to find any kind of pleasure to get out of the black hole of sadness that they are in.

[fun69stein]

the cause of depression is lack of love of parents. Children then get addicted to masturbation.

As adults - they deny - just like alcoholics.

biological cause for depression is ALWAYS masturbation.

the fundamental cause is lack of love.

[Lucannz]

What a lot of nonsense, I know of one person in particular who had a wonderful loving childhood. People do not fit into your one reason for getting depressed statements, it is not even rational to try.

There is zero biological evidence that shows Masturbation causes depression.

There is however evidence that thoughtless comments and the attempt to throw guilt onto people about something that is perfectly natural causes depression.

[fun69stein]

alcoholics deny they drink.

Onanists deny they masturbate.

You just don't use your brain to think.

People need TRUTH not drugs.

biological evidence is seen everywhere you loook for it.

People are suffering that terrible addiction in silence.

Loving parent is thinking parent, so there is no great childhood without one sentence: masturbation kills.

[Lucannz]

In that case, 90% of the male population would be dead.

[fun69stein]

some people masturbate twice a month and some twice a day. This is the difference between health and sickness.

5 times more males die in suicides than females.

5 times more suffer from depression than females.

[Lucannz]

Actually, Men tend to die more often in suicides because they choose more violent and thus effective means to do it, however women tend to try more often.

Stating that men die more often or suffer depresson more does not mean it what you say is true, If I were to apply your same logic then I could say that more men with brown eyes kill themselves, and that is why they do it.

Just because a lot of them have the same features does not mean it is the cause of it.

Nice try to manipulate facts.

[fun69stein]

unfortunately you are a drug seller not a person helping people.

[Lucannz]

again you make assumptions that are simply not true, I guess it is a habit for you.

I have never sold a drug to anybody.

My motives are to help people, not to push religious dogma with zero regard for facts.

[fun69stein]

You have illusions - I never said anything about any religion.

You should not try to help people if you know nothing about their illness.

What you do is just keeping them ill not helping.

[Lucannz]

The dogma you preach has religious beginnings, even if you are not religious yourself.

I have done years of training and research on this matter, I unlike yourself base what I say off evidence not blind willful ignorance.

[fun69stein]

if after years of trainind and research you still know nothing - that means that your teachers were brilliant.

You are just a seller of lies. Realise that finally.

[Lucannz]

And just so you know. People can recover, and live happy healthy lives. But again you show your ignorance in saying I "keep people ill" with zero evidence or even rational thought to back it up

[gravlygravy]

Lucannz you're trying to make out liking understanding depression is a closed shop. The poor results of the medical profession in this area mean that this question is still open to anyone's insight.

Funstein you are failing to comment from your personal experience and stating things outright without references, evidence, or even examples. Do you just feel this to be true? Have you been told it is so? Where does you theory come from? I'm genuinely curious.

[Lucannz]

Not at all, in fact I am trying to say it is not a closed shop. Fun69stein I believe is the closed shop with his belief that masturbation is the beginning and end of it all.

People are complex and the reasons for depression are just as complex, with multiple reasons.

I dearly wish it was as simple as finding one reason, I would like to think that it would have been cured by now if that was the case.

[fun69stein]

it is not theory - it is practice.

People just suffer from terrible addiction

in silence. They often do not realise that they are addicted an they never tell it to doctors. They just take drugs which lower libido or make your numb.

medical business is happy as makes thousand of billionson the disease which is a result of spreading one lie to people "masturbation is healthy".

Parents do not take care of children, children get addicted and the business is happy.

[gravlygravy]

As someone who has experienced a pretty harsh nexus between masturbation and depression in my own life... funstein: it isn't quite adding up to me.

You have a good point to make about the 'masturbation is healthy' thing being some sort of mainstream dogma. But this was our parents antidote to a censorial and denialist culture that had a terrible impact on them .. with plenty of suicides et al I'm sure.

What's need here is nuance. You are not revealing something about the origin of your pov

[fun69stein]

that wasn't our parents dogma.

That was medical business marketing.

Now the market for only one disease is worth 300 billions $.

Depression is 20 times more common than it used to be. It is the result of a notion "masturbation is healthy".

The ideal is in the middle - nothing sjould be denied to people, but people should know

the truth to make their own choices.

If parents do not masturbate but are fed with false notions - children die of suicides and nobody knows why.

[gravlygravy]

your parents not my parents funstein. You're too busy trying to prove the conspiracy and not spending enough thought for the the human factors. It's the human factors which create those structures around which an industry can attach itself.

[fun69stein]

i'm not busy.

I just show another vision of what's happening.

People are suffering and dying. Industry is making money. Doctors do not know the simplest things which were widely known to doctors in 1920s.

The human factor here is money.

[gravlygravy]

This is a compelling vision of one corner of the problem which I was glad to read in this thread. I try not to be convinced where I am compelled because that is the way people get led by the nose.

It is really irrelevant how much money the depression industry is making. You need to entice people to look deeper not to skip about on the surface with reaction, outrage, resentment. To say '$300B' as you do is to awaken the very money self which you list as your (token) human factor.

[fun69stein]

but there is one feature of that vision that is sad - the vision is true.

I checked it on more than 40 people - who was treated with sad truth and now are free of druggs and illness.

It takes only truth and 6 weeks time to recover from depression. Nobody makes money on truth so people must suffer.

[gravlygravy]

A check on more than 40 people 'now are free of drugs and illness' sounds like old fashioned snake oil adverts.

Perhaps this is a language difficulty but it sounds to me like you are selling something.

[fun69stein]

you must be really ill.

I'm telling you only how to recover from debilitating illness.

It is denied addiction to masturbation

which makes people depressed.

Nothing more nothing less.

[TheThunderCunt]

You're a bad salesman :'(

[pilluhiki86]

I dont know why, but I started to cry when I watched this video...I could feel how you feel

[DKSCHROER]

Liz: I was rivetted by your video. You are an excellent speaker, not to mention beautiful and intelligent. Your video is two years old. I hope you are strong and happy. God bless you for sharing. You should write a book.

Dawn

[girlway84]

i have OCD i suffer depression i have anxiety

but i hate psych because some of them just want like money its like a deal like someone said before just people i dont think OCD its a disease i smoke weed and it help me a lot and i can remember my life when i take pills i didnt remenber i was a zombie

peace GOD bless u all pray gos accept him in your lives to help with this

[augustina91]

I know what it must have been for you..

They declared me psychotic when I was 15,life became a living hell since then..

Please know you are not alone in this,I can`t describe nor share what ive been through and I think I understand your suffering..keep loving yourselve,for everything happens for a reason..I wish you well..

[fuzzbox5150]

the whole purpose of ect is to fragment the brain,make the patient more managable and totally dependant on the doctor and thus provide the whole profession with guaranteed work for the rest of their careers.its a scam.every profession has one and needs one to survive.i think everybody can guess the pharmaceutical industries one

[akfuzero]

Pray about it and dont jump ln that pitty pot. I had alot of stuff that happened to me and I decided to drink and drug for ten years. It got me no where. After I got clean I got diagnosed bi-polar. I love myself and others that saved my life. Im proud to be different and a outcast. I am crazy and I believe it helps me see things differntly than the so called normies. I Love you guys!!!

[casunray]

I really appreciate your sharing this "raw" moment....it is very good, I believe, to just observe yourself in a real way, and not try to judge or make better (just then). And, your humor is a great defense......I don't know what else to say....Just, THANK YOU for your videos.

[dynom23]

I read about you in the ny times. I"M going to be watchinh your vids and you really are doing a servive for people like me who suffer with mental illness(OCD for me ) Thank YOu lIz

[luuvvpuppy]

I'm considering ECT therapy and I want to Thank YOU for your videos..I've only seen 3 but, am hooked...You are truly something special for sharing with the world...

[electrojones]

I was able to deal with a lot of my depression problems through talk therapy, but my anxiety issues sadly persist. I would never say that I know what you're going through- every person's pain is unique and wholly their own- but I can so empathize with you. It's staggering that you're doing these speaking engagements now. You're really kind of a wonder. Thanks for all of this work and sacrifice.

[tampabaymadpride]

im bi-polar...no mainstream meds work..so i swim, bicycle, walk, i love photography, videography. i self-med on opiates..but it works..peace...

[papillonleah]

thank you thank you thank you

ps i love your glasses

[kencamp214]

Thank you Liz.  I feel the same. Much Love,

Ken

[karendowds]

You are a living support mechanism; I wish the person (I dated for 3.5 years w/o knowing he was diagnosed with ps years ago)I know and loved could benefit by this. But he's in total denial and using alcohol again (so afraid he'll die alone with noone knowing). He won't accept help because he can't discern reality from the tricks his brain plays on him. You are an inspirational person.

[Sludgy9]

Your raw moment does nothing but inspire, Liz.

Often you see nothing of a person, but the side which they want to portray. You must know by now, being Intelligent, Beautiful,Inspiring, and just fucking great, that youre worth more than you can know. Your curse, is your gift. That raw moment is such a good moment..thank you.

[02bukweet]

Liz,

Thank you and God Bless You.

[jeco300]

Thank you for this...It helps to hear from someone who has/is going through the same thing.

[holman2987]

you are very intelligent and strong person. will help me deal with some problems i have. thanks.

[cvjucla3]

You look a little like Kyra Sedwik.

[dadasopher]

Thank you for this. I know whereof you speak.

[glenmyrtle]

Thanks

[nitroglc]

You are so Hypnotic with your Blue eyes!

[restlessheart59]

Liz,

Thank you for your bravery and honesty. I am 47 and JUST getting the courage to seek help. Something happened recently that opened up the flood gates and I know if I want to be here for my family I must do something.

You are a brave soul. I am hoping to see you soon at a meeting.

God Bless you .

[zalee33]

My young, bipolar son and I just watched this and he said, and I quote "Mom, she gets it. I didn't think anyone really did."

Thank you so much for doing this. A first hand view delivered in such an articulate way. You should be very proud of yourself!

[stiffnee2000]

hi liz, new viewer here. i so appreciate your videos, and this one in particular i most relate to...please do your viewers and yourself a favor and realize we enjoy you're just being real. you don't need to make the next video cheerful every time you have a serious vid. it's the serious ones, for me at least, that are the most effective. you innately have a sense of humour and that comes through, but please don't feel a need to be more comedic as a penance.

[sivanova293]

Thank your for sharing this Liz. I too cost my family much and they gave up on me. I ran away as a kid, I've been in jail and homeless. I have had my own roaches and endless anger. I know about knowing your are nuts, and being unable to fix it. I've been unable to sleep and unable to get up from the weight of the fatigue. If you are like I was, you think about retiring early from it all, all the time. Take care.

[SFJane]

Sorry the above post by sivanova293, that was me, using my roomate's computer. But yea, many of us know exactly where you are coming from Liz.

[roobeer01]

Hi Liz. I know about going crazy, and being haunted by it after recovering. At times, I doubt everything, my decisions, others, myself. It's hard to have faith in your mind or a higher power when they both seem to have gone missing somewhere. So, when staring into the abyss, remember to bring a candle. You know, some warm, bright part of your life. To desperately cling to. To drive off the black things. To steer by. (Even if that thing happens to be a hamster...) :)

Take care of yourself.

[UkuleleElvis]

Hey Liz, don't ever regret posting videos like the one above. I've been through what you've been through and when I watch someone out there in the world talking honestly about mental illness it gives me strength. If you can keep going, so will I and so will many others. This video made me teary and determined to keep sane. Thank you, Simon.

[lspikol]

Thanks, everyone, for being so supportive. Of course I do feel better today, as I knew I would. Nothing like practicing denial and deliberate forgetfulness to get you through the day!

[planker70]

Hi Liz. I started watching your films, while trying to find more out about E.C.T. I work as a Music/guitar teacher and had for five years, a student who had (and still probably has) this form of treatment. To endure this horrific form of "so called" Therapy and still come out and tell the tale, is just beyond comprehension. The word Amazing is an understatement.

BTW. You have a fantastic and natural sense of humour. Please forgive my UK spelling. Keep those films coming in. C.L.

[robrobbins]

What do you think of those people who suffer a single psychotic break and then make a complete recovery? I think it was once referred to as a "nervous breakdown".

[littleleobabe]

I think you are the coolest person Liz! I know all of us on here that love you so much on YouTube would give you one big hug and tell you everything is going to be ok and that you are a wonderful person! I hope you feel better soon.

~sarah

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Great video. I'm going to try to make a response vid later, but I have to say: yes. Cannot believe all the shit I've been thru, put my family thru, it is fucking hard damnit! So hard, even on the best days.

[cat12muffin]

This video was def different than all your other ones. It really shows you in the moment. That took some guts. It would be great if life had a pause button so you could get a nap sort some things out and then start out on things again. I will let you know if i find the remote:P

[Freshette]

You are so brave and honest. Thank you for remembering what was, saying what's true, for really feeling, and for working hard for your life now that you have the capacity.

[holden190]

Liz,

Speaking of our own mental issues is always trying -- it's OK to feel upset and drained. You did not ask for this illness.

You will always be my hero!

Big hug! (((((((Liz)))))))

Dennis

[TJay9000]

You are wonderful Liz! I know exactly how you feel. After 6 years I still haven't come to terms with my problems. Mental illness is really like a life sentence for a crime you didn't commit. It is too cruel. Thank you for making this video!!