Quite poignant. The alluring visual tease complimented the lyrics nicely. You've got a knack for style and storytelling. I especially liked how you managed to amp up the emotions of the poem with your eyes: the way you would occasionally glance at the camera, allowing the moment to linger before moving to the next tantalizing layer.
@Ln192 I'm happy to keep rebutting your prejudices with my apparently superior logic ad nauseum, if you like, but we are quickly going to reach a cycle of redundancy and i've got better things to do than try and impress some random asshole on the internet.
that was pretty good. happiness is what you make it. if a bum can be happy with his pet dog, then its only in the eye of the beholder will it be found. take care slim
You look like a very pretty boy. Sorry, I just cannot fully "process" you as a woman. But don't worry my dear, you are free to act as you please and even more free to follow your heart in deciding who you are to love.
gee, so many terrible comments on this video... this is why I would makecomments on my video closed, but then you woould also miss out on all the nice comments...
@YukiNekoPrincess The hater comments used to really bother me back when I first started making videos but at some point I just had to learn to let it roll off me. If I hadn't learned how to do that I would have stopped making videos years ago.
am not dat smart but do luv 2 hear poems even do i need sum 1 2 like translate in dum wurds but i wanet 2 like ask if sum 1 kuld like pls xplain dis poem in simpeler wurds pls i wuld greatly apreciate it. thx lol ^^
Didn't have room in my first post. I am supposing you did this as a sort of wind up for all the cheap thrill-seekers in here? Or is it deeper than that, about the body, it's way of representing but not being us. The autumnal casting off of the leaves leading to the temporary dormancy of death, so our bodies are mere temporalities its foliage our disguise/persona for this life.
My reaction to this was at first surprising. I thought- how could you do this?Why would you cheapen yourself? Then this was mixed with a little titillation as you do have a great complexion and are, in my modest opinion, very pretty. So there I was, confused, but still I couldn't stop watching. Then you removed your top and my thoughts were very mundane-wow, what a lovely necklace, bringing out the delicacy and milky smoothness of your neck and shoulders. Ambiguity or what? X
we are born naked. it is the reaction of other people that cause us to be self conscious. remove that influence, and whoever will be begin to totally relax bing nude.
Wow, IKILLTRANNYS, I'm surprised you were capable of actually streaming together a sentence. Maybe soon you'll be able to learn how to properly use the shift key, and maybe by that time your outward hate will subside and turn into acceptance. People are people reguardless of their lifestyle. Perhaps the idea of being transgender hits a little too close to home and you're unable to come to terms with your own issues so you turn your hate outward. Grow an appreciation for art.
Your hair is so 90's in this vid! I still haven't figured out if it means that you are too early or you are too late... ^--^ Big Kis from the Netherlands!
I never post comments, but after watching all the rest of your vlogs I came to this one and I just had to say that was soooo well done. The lyrics and music set to the video was so tastefully done! Kudos
I find it really odd that you would apologize first thing and then say something so crude and disgusting. The apology at the beginning at least insinuates that you recognize exactly how disgusting the comment you were able to make is and thus you should know better. You wouldn't say that to you sister or mother (at least I hope not) so I don't see why you would say it to some random girl you don't know. Anyway... BLOCKED!
It's true... I was born male but transitioned to living as a female several years ago.
As it stands right now I think I can marry anyone I want... I have a drivers license that says Male and another, newer one, that said Female... so depending on which I take to the marriage certificate place will determine who i can get married to.
That is the plan at least... so when I get married to my girlfriend Morgan at the end of the year we will be getting legally married!
Erin-I was just wondering about this, about the marriage and all.
First off I'm GLAD you can marry anyone you want legally, we trans-people deserve all the breaks we can get, huh?
BUT when you have surgery and become FEMALE legally won't that change ALL your legal records and documents to female? So will the will you STILL legally be married AFTER your surgery? B/c won't the licence then read "female/female" which is not yet legal? I've just been wondering about that.
butchafalutch-She's got a girlfriend, that should clue you in and if you've watched any of her other vids you should know.
She's a GAY GIRL who was born in a male body, the WRONG body for her, it did not match her FEMALE brain. The technical term is a "gay trans-girl" or a "trans-lesbian". It's not so confusing, or you are just easily confused and intolerant!
The whole thing was very well put together; the words, music, and visual. The only bad thing is that people will want to see other good things from you. Well done!
Considering you have an assload of fans/subscribers you could say the biggest load of garbage ever and still have tons of people congradulating you on how "awesome" it was.
I was thinking about that actually. I think it would be hilarious to do a 5 minute long video in which i do nothing but look at the screen. See who watches and who comments.
Why is it always "Dude"? No one ever calls anyone a "Dude" anymore unless it is them trying to decided whether I am a boy or girl... is it because it's hyper-masculine and by using something so blatantly male you plan to hurt me? If that is the case, and I can think of no other logical reason, then why do you want to hurt me? Is it because I messed with you perception of gender as a rigid 2 party system? or even dumber; that you think you'd gay now because you thought I was hot? Deal with it!
Meh...dont take comments on here too personally, It's not worth getting hurt. if you hadn't written "transgender" on any of your titles, or mentioned it, I wouldn't have guessed you were. You naturally look feminine.
Hi Erin, thats a funny one, I don't know about in the US, but here in the UK, I have come across girls calling each other "dude" (also amongst my friends)..I suppose you don't get that there.
no, i am not trying to hurt your feeling but rather trying to be witlessly sacred -- apparently i failed. which brings up to my unspoken question:
are you a transgender? male-to-female? i am just "asking" simply to clear my ignorant perception, not because i seek to discredit you in any shape or form. it is merely an inquisition to quell my curiosity. i can care less if someone is guy, girl, or anything in between as long as i know.
i loved your "What do lesbians really do in bed?" video.
Hey thanks for clearing that up. Yes, I am transgender. I was born a male and for the last 3 and a half years I have been trying my hardest to live and pass as female... So it is kind of a sore subject when I get called "dude". I plan to get surgery as soon as I can get the 20k that it costs...
20 frigging million dollars!! excuse my ignorance, but I live in a redneck infested area in which people are forked for their "abnormal" sexual orientation. So, as you can see these things are not usually discussed here, hence my juvenile inquisitions which I about to bestow upon you.
let me ask you this, and take the response to private message if this is an intrusion of your privacy, but how do they actually do it, the operation that is?
does the Dr. actually removes the penis, creates a cavity/orifice? if so, then how does he rearrange the nerve endings? penis usually is more dense with these nerve cells as oppose to clitoris, so I am wondering whether they actually constructed a fully functional vagina + clitoris, right? I am just asking because, if I was to go through such operation, I wouldn't want to lose the sense of pleasure I would have with my previous organs, you know what I am saying.
Or is this something that just you have to accept that things wouldn't be same as before? Do the majority of transgenders "yearn" to have the actual operation or most are "ok" with their anatomy but only wish to be considered as an opposite sex? Oh, OH, another thing, now that you are taking hormons or what not for transition, do you actually feel your skin being more "sensitive" as women tend to experience? God, I have more questions to ask but I can't recall all at this moment.
I do accept that things won't be the same after the surgery... though I am hoping that most of the changes will be for the better. And I can't speak for "most" transgender people, but there are people who want the surgery and others who are fine to not have it. I myself want it very badly. Everytime I see my penis or have to tuck it away when i'm getting dressed it is a reminder that i'm not like all the other girls.
Alright, I am going to be a little bit sarcastic here, don't get offended:
As a hetersexual guy, me and my penis are tight like THIS. So when you say you simply want to "cut" it off, my prince Albert gets really offended and frankly terrified. Don't you think your penis deserves a second chance? Like have you ever thought about giving him up for adoption? You know, somewhere he would belong and care for? Ok, enough with jokes...
Well, it's not getting cut off.. it's getting turned into a vagina.. and it is very excited about it. It's just as unhappy being a penis as I am with having a penis.
WOW! Wait a minute, so the doctor is going to push the penis in!! But... he needs to make a cavity, where would the penis go? Wouldn't that make you permenately "pregnant" with a penis? :)
I understand if he wants to preserve the urethra, or whatever it's called, or cut it short but the penis itself... oh the humanity. RIP.
You can post a link if you replace "." with a literal (dot) and spacing 3w or post/appending "." to the non-TTLcc and non-file type extensions.
WOW! I just skimmed over a few pages and some of the results are just down right amazing. You were right, a portion of penis would be used for the reassignment. I wonder if you can decide the depth and tightness of orific? The most important part, personally for me, would be the preservation of sensation and nerve endings. :)
It is! Good thinking =] Your the first person I know who thought of that without hearing it somewhere else. All fetuses start female, and if the chromosomes say "PENIS!!!", the the clitoris expands to the head and is pushed out with the lining of the urethra, (which you can actually feel with your hands if you push down at the base of the shaft. You can feel where the turnoff for where the normal vaginal hole is.) The labia forms the scrotum. Lalala! SRS is the reverse process, same way!
As for hormones, they change everything about you. It is funny because you have no idea just how much of your life is determined by hormones until you change them. The first effects were mental changes... it is hard to describe but it just felt more right. Then the physical affects; my skin is more sensitive, my sweat smells different, i grew breasts. Eventually my whole life was completely different and all because i changed the hormones in my body.
But I think the mental change must have been more subconscious which being reenforced by hormones, don't you think? Do your voice cords also evolve or you have to do a separate surgery for that?
Ok, who is Morgan? Is she your girlfriend? It's intersting because, I thought when you switch sexes, you would be more attractive to the opposite sex! Oh well. But I gotta say this: everyone needs a "Morgan" in their live. :)
Morgan is my soon to be wife.. and yes, I am a huge dyke. If you start to look at gender and sexuality as two separate things you'll understand... why is it that lesbians don't want to be men? They want to date women... why don't gay men want to be women; they want to date men. gender and sexuality really have very little to do with each other.
And as for hormones, i don't think it was mostly subconscious; if you read any of the research about it you'll see just how profound our hormones are.
Your wife? WOW! Aren't you going a bit too fast? And please don't say dyke, a lady is more like it.
I totally understand a lesbian's decision; being a hetero guy, I wouldn't want to be with one so I am all with you on that. I even wonder how the opposite sex is attracted to man. I am all coolio with homosexuality and even transgender. It's just in case of the latter, I feel so horrible watching someone going through such identity crisis through no fault of their own.
I wish there was a hormon who would have especifically stopped the facial hair growth... Getting tired of shaving everyday.
P.S. I watched a documentary on transgenders a few years back on HBO which was actually shot in my own state, lots of hillbillies and it really shocked me to see there was a community in this shitty, redneck state. Although they were being persecuted time to time but not to the extremes. I can't remember the title of the documentary...
Going to fast? We're having our 2 year anniversary in a month... and getting married in November after a year long engagement... I don't think that is fast.
As for the lesbian thing... well, I'm actually bi but just happen to be dating Morgan. You don't choose who you fall in love with.
And ya, it sucks going through this whole thing just to be the gender i feel i am suppose to be, but I realized that I wouldn't trade that for anything. It has made me who i am, and I like that.
Oh, I meant, wouldn't it be better to wait after the majority of correction surgaries being performed? I guess now that I know you've been together for two years, I guess it's not too soon.
Oh, by the way, are you going to preserve your sperm just in case for future usage? :)
P.S. (joke) I had a penis transplant, but my hand rejected it.
Hi again. I was away from YouTube for a few weeks, hope you doing well.
I know I've been doing some sophomoric inquisitions throughout our conversation, so let me add a few more (uh oh!). As far as the marriage certificate or whatever it's called, once you make a sex change, can you legally get married to your g/f due to prior legal status of sexual orientation?
What kind of legal procedures do you have take, courtwise, to solidify you alternation? In your case, since you are marrying a girl, does the state have the right to nullify your marriage (not sure in your state)? Another thing, do guys, sexually come repulsive to you as for example they might be in case of a heterosexual?
I am bi.. so I like boys but I just happen to have fallen for a girl this time.
Legally I am Male (on my birth certificate) but on my NY drivers license it says Female. So as far as getting married... since i'm legally a male we can get married. The state could nullify my marriage after GRS but NY is really progressive so I don't think it will happen. Plus it will be several years until i can get that.
They don't cut off the penis... they basically turn it inside out. The testicals are removed, but the sctrotal sack can be used to create the labias. The shaft of the penis is used to create the inside of the vagina and the tip of the penish is partually used to create a clit. Everything, in theory, works very basically like a regular vagina. I'd be able to have sex and still climax and I'd be able to urinate without a problem.
K stands for thousand... Thank god it is not 20 million.
And as for how it works... well i could go on and on about it for days but there are all kinds of websites with pictures and much better medical explanations than i could offer. Though I will try.
Thanks for putting this up, it's really a good piece; I love the voice layering and music. The whispered parts and the poem itself, all of it's lovely.
Quite poignant. The alluring visual tease complimented the lyrics nicely. You've got a knack for style and storytelling. I especially liked how you managed to amp up the emotions of the poem with your eyes: the way you would occasionally glance at the camera, allowing the moment to linger before moving to the next tantalizing layer.
thegrandpubaa 1 month ago
@thegrandpubaa youre gay as fuck bro
Ln192 1 month ago
@Ln192 Na-na-na boo-boo, stick your head in doo-doo!
thegrandpubaa 1 month ago
@thegrandpubaa Thanks for proving my point.
Ln192 1 month ago
@Ln192 That troll-esque prejudiced assumptions are best met with childish inanity? Yep. You got me there.
thegrandpubaa 1 month ago
@thegrandpubaa oh man, youre even dumber than i thought.
Ln192 1 month ago
@Ln192 I'm happy to keep rebutting your prejudices with my apparently superior logic ad nauseum, if you like, but we are quickly going to reach a cycle of redundancy and i've got better things to do than try and impress some random asshole on the internet.
thegrandpubaa 1 month ago
that was pretty good. happiness is what you make it. if a bum can be happy with his pet dog, then its only in the eye of the beholder will it be found. take care slim
miguelfist 5 months ago
xD God .. who gives a shit about God ...
CallmeDogi 7 months ago
You look like a very pretty boy. Sorry, I just cannot fully "process" you as a woman. But don't worry my dear, you are free to act as you please and even more free to follow your heart in deciding who you are to love.
NightmareGanon 7 months ago
omg i love your hair!!! the pink and purple are so pretty!!!!!!!
unicornheart99 10 months ago
Wow, I'd love to kick your gay ass... God brought you to this world to be with women, but you, you are disgusting!
peraAFK13 10 months ago
This poem seems like it was forced to be deep and profound, yet it just falls flat
QuinnHayari 11 months ago
its a dude!!!
santan64 1 year ago
You would be attractive as a girl AND a boy. just saying.
0Anasti0 1 year ago
A lot of the people commenting here are really bigoted. Congratulations on not letting them get to you.
KittenButter 1 year ago
what would make me happy?.. hmm
that everybody would be bi sexual so every body could shut up about this stuff being bad or whatever
and so i can have trio's with hot girls :3
martijnspeed 1 year ago
gee, so many terrible comments on this video... this is why I would makecomments on my video closed, but then you woould also miss out on all the nice comments...
YukiNekoPrincess 1 year ago
@YukiNekoPrincess The hater comments used to really bother me back when I first started making videos but at some point I just had to learn to let it roll off me. If I hadn't learned how to do that I would have stopped making videos years ago.
grishno 1 year ago 4
@grishno I am so glad you are still making videos. ;-;
YukiNekoPrincess 1 year ago
;-;
YukiNekoPrincess 1 year ago
A girl who likes me for who I am would make me happy.
epizowningyou 1 year ago
i love your hair
CocoMonkeyTV 1 year ago
aww you're gorgeous. great vid hun. werk it! <333
marmar0007 1 year ago
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cool poem ur beautiful!
54spiritedwill54 1 year ago
Irony is dead.
I wonder if the poster can see the beauty in these comments. fucking hilarious.
"Hey I'm vulnerable and it's o-"
"HAHA, FUCKER!"
raccoonlord 1 year ago
Shit I was about to start jacking off until I found out this was a tranny
jroberts7387 1 year ago
CREEPY FUKER!!!
alienforcer6 2 years ago
prodicklapper-Oh you idiot
pgy002 2 years ago
wow. That's fucking powerful shit.
rorhan 2 years ago
Give her a break.
snowchoux 2 years ago
FUCKN CREEP!!
Otak808 2 years ago
If you dressed like a guy, I would be fooled completely.
Arcterious 2 years ago
I'm so sorry didn't read the profile...
3ngelina 2 years ago
The thing i really like about this video, is the question at the end.
Yes, that's a very good question indeed.
louisevale2 2 years ago
I thinks its a little weird.
but are you a boy or a girl?
3ngelina 2 years ago
Uhhh... That's a stupid question if I ever heard one.
Michelle348806 2 years ago
well she's wearing a bra
littlebrit123 2 years ago
Your chin is FIERCE.
Noobletw00n 2 years ago
loved the poem! *thumbs up*
girlintheatic 2 years ago
Awesome poetry! =D and cool hair!
BFFsAutumnK8 2 years ago
cool poem ur beatiful
Nahboy09 2 years ago
am not dat smart but do luv 2 hear poems even do i need sum 1 2 like translate in dum wurds but i wanet 2 like ask if sum 1 kuld like pls xplain dis poem in simpeler wurds pls i wuld greatly apreciate it. thx lol ^^
salviikid01 2 years ago
Damn! Wish I'd read your poem first before I posted the last comment.
515T0 2 years ago
Didn't have room in my first post. I am supposing you did this as a sort of wind up for all the cheap thrill-seekers in here? Or is it deeper than that, about the body, it's way of representing but not being us. The autumnal casting off of the leaves leading to the temporary dormancy of death, so our bodies are mere temporalities its foliage our disguise/persona for this life.
515T0 2 years ago
My reaction to this was at first surprising. I thought- how could you do this?Why would you cheapen yourself? Then this was mixed with a little titillation as you do have a great complexion and are, in my modest opinion, very pretty. So there I was, confused, but still I couldn't stop watching. Then you removed your top and my thoughts were very mundane-wow, what a lovely necklace, bringing out the delicacy and milky smoothness of your neck and shoulders. Ambiguity or what? X
515T0 2 years ago
we are born naked. it is the reaction of other people that cause us to be self conscious. remove that influence, and whoever will be begin to totally relax bing nude.
kobidobidog 2 years ago
i think you are very beautiful person...
gedide 2 years ago 2
You are right I am a beautiful person. It is by reason of a greater being that is in me.
kobidobidog 2 years ago
gedide
To see the good that is in me , you also have him in you too.
kobidobidog 2 years ago
wow ur amazing u write and sing it's so powerful
myproo 2 years ago
YEAH TAKE IT ALL OFF! WOOOOOO! *hoot hoot hoot*
lol.
Nice poem.
AntiChristAntiFail 2 years ago 2
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hey i'd fuck him in whatever vaginal facsimile he's able to set up for himself.
monocle0winsky 2 years ago
Only problem with that plan is that I wouldn't let anyone who butchered my pronouns in such a manner withing 10 yards of my vagina.
grishno 2 years ago 13
cool video i love trannys
NoriesW 2 years ago
i love trannys
NoriesW 2 years ago
Wow, IKILLTRANNYS, I'm surprised you were capable of actually streaming together a sentence. Maybe soon you'll be able to learn how to properly use the shift key, and maybe by that time your outward hate will subside and turn into acceptance. People are people reguardless of their lifestyle. Perhaps the idea of being transgender hits a little too close to home and you're unable to come to terms with your own issues so you turn your hate outward. Grow an appreciation for art.
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It'S a FuCkInG mAn U dUmB cUnTs! If I cAtCh ThIs FrEaK wAlKiNg DoWn My StReEt I'm GoInG tO sNaP hIs NeCk lIkE a TwIg... HiM aNd HiS tRaNnY aLiEn!
IKILLTRANNYS 2 years ago
Wow...That blew me away.
aquemeni541 2 years ago
Wow that was beautiful. Really.
amethystxrain 2 years ago 2
Your hair is so 90's in this vid! I still haven't figured out if it means that you are too early or you are too late... ^--^ Big Kis from the Netherlands!
mevrouwdebeer 2 years ago
Wonderful! Thank you!
wdgeo 2 years ago
Beautiful work, beautiful person. Thank you for this. I mean it.
CourtneyAthena 2 years ago
art!
wickedwatwat1 2 years ago
you are pretty. insight and out.
1butterflyandroses1 2 years ago
Beyond cool.
cathlicscholboy4life 2 years ago
i really like this! you're so good at spoken word! how did i miss this one??
lisadanielsonmusic 2 years ago
huh!
2COKEMAN 2 years ago
this is REALLY good you're wise Erin
gabriele12345678 2 years ago
thought u where a guy my bad
trag3dygraff3r 2 years ago
your hair looks great
TGBrooklyn 2 years ago
AMAZING! You've left me speechless..
KimmieTorp 2 years ago
wow your amazing... I saw your myspace awsome.. I added this to my page... I was wondering were all do you sell your cd??
stardel6 2 years ago
lol nice knitted throw on your couch there
oppositronic 3 years ago
omg!!!!!!!!! that was awesome
shiftybabymmm 3 years ago
weird person..
xMarvelSuperHeroesx 3 years ago
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I bet you the only reason you got 50,000 views was because the title was Naked. If you named it poem you would have gotten in the 100's.
OwnedLmfao 3 years ago
wow lovly poem
stardel6 3 years ago
es un maromo.
dontlookbac 3 years ago
That is a really good poem
i love the video and not because you got pretty much naked.
unprettyprincess411 3 years ago
the poem was amazing
xoYourGirl55xo 3 years ago
wow! wow! this piece is really spectacular. strong and thought provoking. well done.
treehuggingtranny 3 years ago
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clicked expecting tits. instead i got 1:10 of manface and shitty dyke poetry 0/10
sickdesperation 3 years ago
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lol
nofearinthisdojo 3 years ago
w00p w00p
dalek11111 3 years ago
I never post comments, but after watching all the rest of your vlogs I came to this one and I just had to say that was soooo well done. The lyrics and music set to the video was so tastefully done! Kudos
stephijosh 3 years ago 2
That was beautiful.
You're beautiful.
♥
ilovetransboysxx 3 years ago
it's a pity that you already have a girlfriend.. ;p
gootruont 3 years ago
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thats a man dressed as a woman
utuber93r 3 years ago
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sorry ,.... but i wanna see u take it in the....backpussy of yours
stamakos 3 years ago
I find it really odd that you would apologize first thing and then say something so crude and disgusting. The apology at the beginning at least insinuates that you recognize exactly how disgusting the comment you were able to make is and thus you should know better. You wouldn't say that to you sister or mother (at least I hope not) so I don't see why you would say it to some random girl you don't know. Anyway... BLOCKED!
grishno 3 years ago
you're beautiful
Sirsin888 3 years ago 2
wow. good job. cant wait 4 flight.
GLBTQcommunity 3 years ago
Wow...just wow.
That was amazing.
AshIsOutrageous 3 years ago
You rock, love the lyrics ;D
Lyset1992 3 years ago
thank you so much for this! :D
acclimation 3 years ago
chea i liked it! xD. ur gifted dude.
lilrose297 3 years ago
this was pretty deep hun =). Did you write that? * FAN HERE!*. lol
♥Lily
lilrose297 3 years ago
I did actually. I wrote it, recorded it (guitar and vocals) and performed it.
Glad you liked it.
grishno 3 years ago
too sexy grishno
you are the number 1
scimmiesca 3 years ago
Oye, te tengo una pregunta...ERES JOTO??
SLDSK 3 years ago
That was a beautiful. And your face is really intense, it sure adds to it really well!
Please don't take this the wrong way, but you used to be male? Are you serious? Wow, that is actually... really cool.
That means you can still marry women though right? Yaaaaay for loopholes in the (completely idiotic) laws!! :D
JozzyJozz 3 years ago
It's true... I was born male but transitioned to living as a female several years ago.
As it stands right now I think I can marry anyone I want... I have a drivers license that says Male and another, newer one, that said Female... so depending on which I take to the marriage certificate place will determine who i can get married to.
That is the plan at least... so when I get married to my girlfriend Morgan at the end of the year we will be getting legally married!
YAY!
~E
grishno 3 years ago
Brilliant!! Oh, and I'm happy for you and Morgan! :D
JozzyJozz 3 years ago
I guess this is ONE good thing that trans people have when we are in the transition period we can marry WHO ever want!
pgy001 3 years ago
Erin-I was just wondering about this, about the marriage and all.
First off I'm GLAD you can marry anyone you want legally, we trans-people deserve all the breaks we can get, huh?
BUT when you have surgery and become FEMALE legally won't that change ALL your legal records and documents to female? So will the will you STILL legally be married AFTER your surgery? B/c won't the licence then read "female/female" which is not yet legal? I've just been wondering about that.
pgy001 3 years ago
It is true... but the state can't just void the marriage, so ya, I would be a legally married lesbian.
grishno 3 years ago
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wut the fuck ur voice sounds like a gay man and u look like one too. no offense but wut are u a gay girl or a gay man? damn it's so confusing
butchfalutch 3 years ago
butchafalutch-She's got a girlfriend, that should clue you in and if you've watched any of her other vids you should know.
She's a GAY GIRL who was born in a male body, the WRONG body for her, it did not match her FEMALE brain. The technical term is a "gay trans-girl" or a "trans-lesbian". It's not so confusing, or you are just easily confused and intolerant!
pgy001 3 years ago 2
that was beautiful , it shows me you are a beautiful person,
in sincerity
georgia
MyPinkRainbow 3 years ago
This is a beautiful, moving piece. I loved it. Is the guitar work your composition, as well?
tjkoz22 3 years ago
Thanks and yes... 100% written, recorded, and performed by me.
grishno 3 years ago
i agree
lockedcherry 3 years ago
I'm sorry, was a rap against whores, or just something in general?
Well written though!
corye181 3 years ago
Just about how something may feel right at the moment but if you don't respect yourself and your body you will end up regretting it in the end.
grishno 3 years ago
wow
TheAtraMors 3 years ago
beautiful and poetic, i like
exzentriker420 3 years ago
The whole thing was very well put together; the words, music, and visual. The only bad thing is that people will want to see other good things from you. Well done!
yurei8 3 years ago
Ya, there is a reason I am taking my time with a follow up video... it is going to take me a long time to come up with something to top this.
grishno 3 years ago
Considering you have an assload of fans/subscribers you could say the biggest load of garbage ever and still have tons of people congradulating you on how "awesome" it was.
ss4yugi 3 years ago
I was thinking about that actually. I think it would be hilarious to do a 5 minute long video in which i do nothing but look at the screen. See who watches and who comments.
~E
grishno 3 years ago
your hair is so gorgeous... im jealous
ericatsatlanta 3 years ago
Nicely done. Every one grasps for love in different ways. Sometimes we have to crawl through the mud to find ourselves on the other side.
audionautix 3 years ago
guy or girl... guy or girl... guy or girl... I CANNOT TELL! alright, that was a dude.
belukh 3 years ago
Why is it always "Dude"? No one ever calls anyone a "Dude" anymore unless it is them trying to decided whether I am a boy or girl... is it because it's hyper-masculine and by using something so blatantly male you plan to hurt me? If that is the case, and I can think of no other logical reason, then why do you want to hurt me? Is it because I messed with you perception of gender as a rigid 2 party system? or even dumber; that you think you'd gay now because you thought I was hot? Deal with it!
grishno 3 years ago
Meh...dont take comments on here too personally, It's not worth getting hurt. if you hadn't written "transgender" on any of your titles, or mentioned it, I wouldn't have guessed you were. You naturally look feminine.
madeeha83 3 years ago
Thanks. I don't really take anything on here personally, but that is the same mentality that
I sometimes get from people on the street. Always "Dude".
Anyway, thanks for the kind words.
~Erin
grishno 3 years ago
Hi Erin, thats a funny one, I don't know about in the US, but here in the UK, I have come across girls calling each other "dude" (also amongst my friends)..I suppose you don't get that there.
madeeha83 3 years ago
Depends on where you are... not really in NYC.
grishno 3 years ago
no, i am not trying to hurt your feeling but rather trying to be witlessly sacred -- apparently i failed. which brings up to my unspoken question:
are you a transgender? male-to-female? i am just "asking" simply to clear my ignorant perception, not because i seek to discredit you in any shape or form. it is merely an inquisition to quell my curiosity. i can care less if someone is guy, girl, or anything in between as long as i know.
i loved your "What do lesbians really do in bed?" video.
belukh 3 years ago
Hey thanks for clearing that up. Yes, I am transgender. I was born a male and for the last 3 and a half years I have been trying my hardest to live and pass as female... So it is kind of a sore subject when I get called "dude". I plan to get surgery as soon as I can get the 20k that it costs...
Thanks again,
~E
grishno 3 years ago
20 frigging million dollars!! excuse my ignorance, but I live in a redneck infested area in which people are forked for their "abnormal" sexual orientation. So, as you can see these things are not usually discussed here, hence my juvenile inquisitions which I about to bestow upon you.
let me ask you this, and take the response to private message if this is an intrusion of your privacy, but how do they actually do it, the operation that is?
belukh 3 years ago
does the Dr. actually removes the penis, creates a cavity/orifice? if so, then how does he rearrange the nerve endings? penis usually is more dense with these nerve cells as oppose to clitoris, so I am wondering whether they actually constructed a fully functional vagina + clitoris, right? I am just asking because, if I was to go through such operation, I wouldn't want to lose the sense of pleasure I would have with my previous organs, you know what I am saying.
belukh 3 years ago
Or is this something that just you have to accept that things wouldn't be same as before? Do the majority of transgenders "yearn" to have the actual operation or most are "ok" with their anatomy but only wish to be considered as an opposite sex? Oh, OH, another thing, now that you are taking hormons or what not for transition, do you actually feel your skin being more "sensitive" as women tend to experience? God, I have more questions to ask but I can't recall all at this moment.
belukh 3 years ago
I do accept that things won't be the same after the surgery... though I am hoping that most of the changes will be for the better. And I can't speak for "most" transgender people, but there are people who want the surgery and others who are fine to not have it. I myself want it very badly. Everytime I see my penis or have to tuck it away when i'm getting dressed it is a reminder that i'm not like all the other girls.
grishno 3 years ago
Alright, I am going to be a little bit sarcastic here, don't get offended:
As a hetersexual guy, me and my penis are tight like THIS. So when you say you simply want to "cut" it off, my prince Albert gets really offended and frankly terrified. Don't you think your penis deserves a second chance? Like have you ever thought about giving him up for adoption? You know, somewhere he would belong and care for? Ok, enough with jokes...
belukh 3 years ago
Well, it's not getting cut off.. it's getting turned into a vagina.. and it is very excited about it. It's just as unhappy being a penis as I am with having a penis.
grishno 3 years ago
WOW! Wait a minute, so the doctor is going to push the penis in!! But... he needs to make a cavity, where would the penis go? Wouldn't that make you permenately "pregnant" with a penis? :)
I understand if he wants to preserve the urethra, or whatever it's called, or cut it short but the penis itself... oh the humanity. RIP.
belukh 3 years ago
I can't post links in the comments because youtube doesn't allow it... just look up "mtf srs" on google and you'll see how it works...
grishno 3 years ago
You can post a link if you replace "." with a literal (dot) and spacing 3w or post/appending "." to the non-TTLcc and non-file type extensions.
WOW! I just skimmed over a few pages and some of the results are just down right amazing. You were right, a portion of penis would be used for the reassignment. I wonder if you can decide the depth and tightness of orific? The most important part, personally for me, would be the preservation of sensation and nerve endings. :)
belukh 3 years ago
i.e.
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.domain. it/blah. pdf
belukh 3 years ago
I think a penis is just an overdeveloped vagina anyway.
pgy001 3 years ago
Don't just think that, know that. Biologically we all start with vaginas in the womb, then some of us develop penis'.
ijusteatpie 3 years ago 7
*penises.
TheKinkyShrink 3 years ago
It is! Good thinking =] Your the first person I know who thought of that without hearing it somewhere else. All fetuses start female, and if the chromosomes say "PENIS!!!", the the clitoris expands to the head and is pushed out with the lining of the urethra, (which you can actually feel with your hands if you push down at the base of the shaft. You can feel where the turnoff for where the normal vaginal hole is.) The labia forms the scrotum. Lalala! SRS is the reverse process, same way!
TehBeo 3 years ago
This is a long ass comment xD
TehBeo 3 years ago
As for hormones, they change everything about you. It is funny because you have no idea just how much of your life is determined by hormones until you change them. The first effects were mental changes... it is hard to describe but it just felt more right. Then the physical affects; my skin is more sensitive, my sweat smells different, i grew breasts. Eventually my whole life was completely different and all because i changed the hormones in my body.
grishno 3 years ago
But I think the mental change must have been more subconscious which being reenforced by hormones, don't you think? Do your voice cords also evolve or you have to do a separate surgery for that?
Ok, who is Morgan? Is she your girlfriend? It's intersting because, I thought when you switch sexes, you would be more attractive to the opposite sex! Oh well. But I gotta say this: everyone needs a "Morgan" in their live. :)
belukh 3 years ago
Morgan is my soon to be wife.. and yes, I am a huge dyke. If you start to look at gender and sexuality as two separate things you'll understand... why is it that lesbians don't want to be men? They want to date women... why don't gay men want to be women; they want to date men. gender and sexuality really have very little to do with each other.
And as for hormones, i don't think it was mostly subconscious; if you read any of the research about it you'll see just how profound our hormones are.
grishno 3 years ago
Your wife? WOW! Aren't you going a bit too fast? And please don't say dyke, a lady is more like it.
I totally understand a lesbian's decision; being a hetero guy, I wouldn't want to be with one so I am all with you on that. I even wonder how the opposite sex is attracted to man. I am all coolio with homosexuality and even transgender. It's just in case of the latter, I feel so horrible watching someone going through such identity crisis through no fault of their own.
belukh 3 years ago
I wish there was a hormon who would have especifically stopped the facial hair growth... Getting tired of shaving everyday.
P.S. I watched a documentary on transgenders a few years back on HBO which was actually shot in my own state, lots of hillbillies and it really shocked me to see there was a community in this shitty, redneck state. Although they were being persecuted time to time but not to the extremes. I can't remember the title of the documentary...
belukh 3 years ago 2
Going to fast? We're having our 2 year anniversary in a month... and getting married in November after a year long engagement... I don't think that is fast.
As for the lesbian thing... well, I'm actually bi but just happen to be dating Morgan. You don't choose who you fall in love with.
And ya, it sucks going through this whole thing just to be the gender i feel i am suppose to be, but I realized that I wouldn't trade that for anything. It has made me who i am, and I like that.
grishno 3 years ago
Oh, I meant, wouldn't it be better to wait after the majority of correction surgaries being performed? I guess now that I know you've been together for two years, I guess it's not too soon.
Oh, by the way, are you going to preserve your sperm just in case for future usage? :)
P.S. (joke) I had a penis transplant, but my hand rejected it.
belukh 3 years ago
no need to preserve sprem... i'd much rather adopt a child.
grishno 3 years ago
Hi again. I was away from YouTube for a few weeks, hope you doing well.
I know I've been doing some sophomoric inquisitions throughout our conversation, so let me add a few more (uh oh!). As far as the marriage certificate or whatever it's called, once you make a sex change, can you legally get married to your g/f due to prior legal status of sexual orientation?
belukh 3 years ago
What kind of legal procedures do you have take, courtwise, to solidify you alternation? In your case, since you are marrying a girl, does the state have the right to nullify your marriage (not sure in your state)? Another thing, do guys, sexually come repulsive to you as for example they might be in case of a heterosexual?
belukh 3 years ago
Lots of stuff to answer.
I am bi.. so I like boys but I just happen to have fallen for a girl this time.
Legally I am Male (on my birth certificate) but on my NY drivers license it says Female. So as far as getting married... since i'm legally a male we can get married. The state could nullify my marriage after GRS but NY is really progressive so I don't think it will happen. Plus it will be several years until i can get that.
Hope that helps.
~E
grishno 3 years ago
Uh, that's perfect. I suppose you could say: "In your face judicial system." :)
belukh 3 years ago
Exactly!
grishno 3 years ago
exxxxxxxactly =]
TehBeo 3 years ago
They don't cut off the penis... they basically turn it inside out. The testicals are removed, but the sctrotal sack can be used to create the labias. The shaft of the penis is used to create the inside of the vagina and the tip of the penish is partually used to create a clit. Everything, in theory, works very basically like a regular vagina. I'd be able to have sex and still climax and I'd be able to urinate without a problem.
grishno 3 years ago
K stands for thousand... Thank god it is not 20 million.
And as for how it works... well i could go on and on about it for days but there are all kinds of websites with pictures and much better medical explanations than i could offer. Though I will try.
grishno 3 years ago
Wow, that was intensely poetic. Good Job.
dgranowski 3 years ago
you write and speak well- I too love playing music and doing graphic art- nicely nicely..
flatted5th 3 years ago
Thanks for putting this up, it's really a good piece; I love the voice layering and music. The whispered parts and the poem itself, all of it's lovely.
ps, love the hair :)
ObsidianEmbers 3 years ago
Thanks, thanks, thanks and thanks. I am glad that you liked it.
grishno 3 years ago
really beautiful story, nice done!
ZoskaTv 3 years ago
great poetry - brilliant visualization...
Spytrx 3 years ago
Hey thanks!
grishno 3 years ago
great hair
letsletslets 3 years ago
that was wonderful .. very thought provoking, thnx
Toxicrubi 3 years ago
You're welcome
grishno 3 years ago
Guess that's one thing to love about poetry, almost anyone can do it. :/
ss4yugi 3 years ago
I know that's what I love about it. Too bad everyone can't do it well.
grishno 3 years ago
That is excelent, the build up of intrigue, the climax and the music. Well done.
chris19001 3 years ago
Hey thanks!
grishno 3 years ago
Best poem i ever heard :D
nanarsx 3 years ago
Ever? There must be something better out there...
grishno 3 years ago
Good peoem, but sad, well done and artistic. Good job.
Lexphoto 3 years ago
wow..
not sure what to think.. but definitely makes me think. :)
very beautiful.
PinkPetals7 3 years ago