Depressed teens & broken homes

[thesonoftheatheist1]

Why are there any dislikes?

[XxMiserableSmilesxX]

I'm 12.I haven't felt comfortable in my own home since i was 9.My parents started fighting more after i was bron.My mom's a druggie and my dad's an alcoholic.My brother who's 17 doesn't care about me.He says i'm a problem and useless.The only person that cares about me is my oldest brother,but I only see him every few months.I self injure.I have since I was 10.I know I've made mistakes,but im just a kid.We all screw up,why can't my parents just realize that?

[lollipopkid88]

Luck***

[lollipopkid88]

I'm 12and I feel like that.I've done stupid stuff never drugs or pills but some self injury I don't anymore but it's hard to think back and be like wow the things that have gone on in my life and I think about a better way to have solved my problem. I havent gotten help from therapists simply because I dont want any. Thanks for the video for once I feel like I am not the only one going through this. Best of lunch. Xo

[PrivateAreku]

i have only have one thought on this: -cries-

[BrainDeadIntellect]

I have the same exact top as you do. I got it at playto's closet. Weird.

[xmoroseguyx]

A lot of people now stay on at their family home well past their teenage years, and all for the same reasons you said, high rents, unreliable tenants, and basically struggle to learn to how to live by yourself, you are certainly not alone on that one. p.s you can dogg a bit on your perents, if they would leave you to sleep in a car! instead of letting you have your old bedroom back. I imagine you don`t mess with xsullengirlx in her teens!

[KhagarBalugrak]

The best way to cure broken homes is for stupid/neglectful/vicious people to stop having kids! If these types of people didn't have kids, there would be far fewer broken homes and depressed teens.

I will admit, though, that the only way this could happen is if people become far more conscientious, moral, and willing to put aside their impulsive desires for the greater good.

[kotathatsme]

When I was 13, my mum kicked me out of the house. I still was able to go to my dad´s but I dislike him for always picking on me. Though being there is better than staying at my mum´s, because she used to screw me up emotionally, we do not have an actual relationship now. Even if she´d want to have one, I just hate her for everything she did and I cant like or love her anymore... :/ I dont even miss her.

[Atotalfailure]

I totally kno how u feel xx

[Atotalfailure]

Yeah my parents fucking hate me :(

[mdcombs79]

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[Smilingxpopcorn]

My parent won't let me do anything and I'm stuck in my room because of that most of the day. Even if I would be able to do something now I wouldn't be able because I don't have the social skills needed. I hate it.

[spongebabe411]

i h8 my life and im still stuck its been 1 yr already !!! but ur vid helped :) i cnt tell my parents there harsh i get abused :L i phoned childline loadss even skwl think im depressed :(

[RockAustinDXtakerRk0]

i fuckin hate my parents, its like they want me to be who they want me to be, i dont have a say in my life. when people talk about "love your family" etc it really pisses me off bcoz the same cant b said 4 every person they only say that bcoz their life is goin gr8 while me i get suicidal thoughts every now and then. the reason i mstill alive is bcoz my dad said i'd never make it to the top out there so im gonna prove that sick bastard wrong

[spongebabe411]

yup its always the dads :L i used to smoke cuz my life was a wreck and still is but ive gave it up though

[BlueRoseCrimson]

My mom always asks me if I self-injure because of her... I think parents act this way, because they feel guilty, and they can prove to themselves that if you move out, and still self-injure, it never was their fault. And that you want to do it, and that they can't take responsibility for your actions when you're not living under their roof. It makes it easier for them to ignore the problem and pretend it's not related to them in any way... Parents never realise we need them to just let us be

[dawgsmycopilot]

@BlueRoseCrimson Yeah we do. All parents were people long before we were parents. We know we have this role thrust on us by society and we have your entire futures in our hands and it sucks ass because we know no matter what we do we will fuck up. Because we are just people too. We'd love to just let you be. But how? Society demands that educate you, dress you to a certain standard, make you publicly presentable. We never signed up to be Nazis.

[zorlockowns93]

i know exactly how that is, my parents they told me if i wanted to live with them that i would have to pay rent..and i told them i wouldnt do it..i also know how it feels to feel alone, and like nobody wants you...its sad how people like us walk down a street or a hallway and feel like your invisible, the thing that keeps me going is the saying "you only live life once" idk what it is about it, but the words make me feel better when im alone...

[msxblackxvelvetx]

I started self injuring when I was about 10 years old, now I'm 15 and life has been hard. Your videos really help me through my tough days and I really want to tell you thanks for saving my life because you honestly have a few times. I just feel so alone sometimes and its hard growing up in a home where everyone doesnt really get what you're doing and where just saying "stop cutting yourself" doesnt work at all. It just sucks I guess, I dont want anyone to feel sorry, just needed to release. :)

[Orbit915]

oh my god. let me tell you. im 22 and i had the exact same thing happen with me. i was kicked out, lived on a roof, live on the beach, for stupid reasons, i finally tried to come back home, and when i did, my parents said that was it, you have to leave. it's alot more than that but everything you said, kinda rang true to me. especially the walking on egg shells at home part. wow. im so glad im not alone

[slashtear]

I can totally relate, I'm 18 and i'm leaving home next week sometimes you just need to get on with it and make the best of what you've got, look at the bright side at least you had friends and a car to stay in when i got kicked out i had to sleep on the concrete out side...

[gawz4eva]

well, im 16, my parents dont understand me, they say i spend to much time in my room, but i only do that because i dont feel comfortable around anyone in my family, they are the reason i started injuring myself, they are always putting me down and hitting me, i hate it her. they are always telling me that im an embarassment to be with because i dress differantly and wear my make up differant. im just trying to find me and they dont accept that. its really annoying.

[DaLilShorty8999]

dont worry live by the number one rule DGAF (dont give a fuck) you have your own fucking life and your parents if they dont respect YOUR choices then fuck them you have your own life and you control it cut all you want as long as thats what your wanna do im going thru the same thing so your not alone just remember that you will luckily be out some day try to go away to college so you can stay away from them.

[MyCatWatchesMe]

WELL SAID.

[MyCatWatchesMe]

Keep dressing differently & doing your hair & make up as you like it. After all, YOU'RE the one who has to wear it!! Surface image is so hollow. Tell your parents that. If you look the part they want you to but you still are who YOU are: what's the point? What, LOOKing like you're what they prefer? Insane shit.

[kayleeShoe]

I had the EXACT same problem.

Finally they stopped with all the stuff they kept saying to me, but if you need to talk to someone who has been there, I'm here.

[meow3121]

i hate my house im just the opposite but i understand cuz im not home and hate my house in the stage with rules. alot of stuff actually

[blondechic69]

i would die if i didnt write in my notebooks!

[dOUBLEDDOULBE]

poor child i feel with you.

[COBHCBloodJunkie666]

I am not telling my life story to get attention, i just need to get it off my chest.

I can relate to a lot of the things you are saying.

7 yrs ago my mum was diagnosed as bipolar. I was 9 at the time & my bro was 7 so we didn't understand. She was admitted to a psych ward, released a month later on meds, following summer was removed from meds for trial & got ill again. Dad had nervous breakdown. I got responisbility of house & my bro.

[COBHCBloodJunkie666]

Every summer she would get ill again when on trial. My mum kinda was dead to me from that point bcos with all the illness & pills she was a different person. I had to go through puberty (scary) without someone to relate to or tell me what-was-what. At that time me & a mate were flashed at & again a week later. This guy would be around a lot more & 1 time followed me through town, till finally I was at lidl with my parents where he worked, he tried to pinch mu bum & my dad saw him & called police

[COBHCBloodJunkie666]

about 2 yrs ago i stayed with a friend who lives 1 hr away. getting back I got picked up from train station by my dad. I had 2 txt her to say i was safe home, my phone was dead. I borrowed my dad's phone & found a txt with kisses not from my mum. Confronted him & I am the only 1 who knows about his affair.

8 yrs ago I moved away from familarity & friends to bullying & this. Cannot wait to get away.

I had problems with friends & lying & trust.

[COBHCBloodJunkie666]

At this time I was suicidal ( attempted twice in a week) as well as self-harming as I had been on and off for 4 yrs. I felt unloved etc & conviently a bf turned up, he was a bit older. He made me feel loved, I hadnt felt that for a while, I dont know if I loved him, but our relationship got sexual quickly (fully consensual) but I broke it off. I thought he was using me for that purpose, I dont know if we was now. But then my house got repossed & then my mum was ill with COPD & almost died

[COBHCBloodJunkie666]

she was in a coma for a month in intensive care on a ventilator. We were told she had a week to live at one point. But shes overcome that. Shes a lot better I help care for her & thats stressful.

So yeah, thats basically it. No-one needs to/wants to know but I feel better for letting it all out. I havent self-harmed for 5 months now. Thankyou for letting me have the release =]

[MyCatWatchesMe]

Wow. I like to remember that other people suffer too because it feels way, way alone when you pain.

[MyCatWatchesMe]

Take care. I really feel about this. Just don't kill yourself. You deserve to LIVE, and so make it happen.

[amenah1989]

my mums bf was inappropriate to me at 14/15. i told my mum and well i guess she loves her bf more than me. i couldnt handle that. i became anorexic, self harming, anxious ect. i moved out at 16/17. my mother had more babies to him. i needed to move back in. they gave away my room to my half brother. repainted it and everything. i would sleep on the floor like a dog. i wish she knew how she made me feel. i've moved out now and i have cut off contact.

[xsullengirlx]

Wow, I think it's good that you moved out and cut off contact in the end. Sometimes I think that would be the best for me and yet my parents have a hold over me which hasn't allowed me to really get out from under them. I am sorry you went through so much but I hope you have or can overcome everything. Take care :)

[thender41]

@amenah1989 ,Dont feel bad alot of mother are like than mothers who aren't. Let God handle her. This goes on more often then you think.

[EmilysBloodycorps]

yes my mom did like that and my mom would make fun of what i have problesms with i dont wont to put what i have probles with on youtube but its what you go throw if you now what i mean and my mom tells me im a bad kide and i fill like i cant go to my mom for nothing and i thank its heard and i relate to you alot and hop thangs get better for you

[tresomme12]

I know of someone who is a little down...perhaps does not have a lot of self esteem...or is just alone too much. But i cannot help them because I have too many things going on in my life as it is. Trying to help only dragged into a world where I feel like a total jerk. But I know my intentions were good...just got a little carried away. She is on the computer waaay too much and so was I. I consider her one of my very best friends..though probably few of her friends would agree.

[Winfield92]

i can relate to a certain degree, but i know what it's like to be called crazy and a disappointment and so do my friends and bandmates. it's why our name's "the mistake." we're not emo in the least but we're basically "freaks who can't do anything right." we've all been through shit but i think our lead guitarist has it the hardest because her parents are raging psychos. let's say that she sees a shrink about her transsexual tendencies. she'd get yelled at if she was diagnosed with g.i.d.

[Animeroxmysox31]

I'm 14 and I've had problems since I was a child. My parents ignored me when I was younger and focused on my older sister cuz she was the perfect child. When she was 15 she started to do "stuff" and my parents found out(this was 2 yrs ago) eversince then they suffocate me with expectations and unfair rules. I don't live with my parents now, I live with my aunt and uncle cuz its closer to my school. But I do know what its like to be alienated by family. It really sucks. This vid helped a lot.

[xXxhybridmeteoraxXx]

wow. i wish everyone who made stereotypes and/or made fun of self-injurers could see this video, it would make them think twice. it seems your experiences have molded you into a very mature person, and i can relate to you when you say your mentally more mature than your friends. sometimes tragedies/experiences do that to a person. you are a very caring, intelligent and rational person, and i know you've probably heard that a lot.. please keep making more videos, im absolutely inspired!

[darkwriter101]

but both of my parents died...so at the same time i cant relate.

[darkwriter101]

I can relate to that journal entry. I am very depressed, upset, and i have major issues...and no one knows so i kinda feel trapped and just, completly alone. I know i should tell...but i am judged enough, so why tell and have people stare at me and talk behind my back about the problems i have that i just deal with in worse ways.

[HardcoreRainbowsies]

Because worse ways can kill you, and believe it or not someone out there cares.

[quakyftw]

hey im 14 and when i was about 12 i got bullied for yr but i got tht sorted out cuz at the end i told my mum but i dont think i've fully recovered becuz still in me im really depressed but i don't now who to talk to and sometimes i think suicides the only way out so i dnt now what to do can anyone suggest ways for me to get help becuz at the moment the only things actually stopping me commiting suicide is my mum mainly but my family and best friend.

can u plz suggest ways for me to get help

[xsullengirlx]

Well, depression does take a while to overcome, even if you have sorted your life out it can still linger on, a lot of people need other things to help them, such as counseling or medicine (etc). It's hard not having anyone to talk to, but suicide is never the answer, I am glad you have reasons for not doing it. Just focus on those reasons and in the meantime maybe talk to your mom about counseling and see what she says? It's a good way to get your feelings out. Take care. :)

[blueyes6474]

so ive lived like this for years andi ts catching up to me and ive started to SI and hink about suicide everyday and no one knows, im the loser of my friends, i screw everything up they dont really like hanging out with me im not the smartest or skinniest or happiest im no ones best friend and im the one that my friends can treat like crap cause i wont hold it against them cause i cant handle fighting with my friends when i fight so much already at home, so everythings really blah really

[blueyes6474]

my dad is an ex alcoholic but the damage is done to his brain he's an ass, and he's been disabled scince i was young and i have to take care of hom while my mom is mentally messed up the one she vents to and goes crazy and everything is a huge deal that ends in people scceaming at eachother at 3 in the morning and i hate them because someone in my hpuse is either crying screaming arguing or trying to control a situation to fit their scedual, my dad says he walks on egg shells all the time

[crashedxox]

i was abused since i was little, every frustration in my parents lives, they would take it out on me but i never got any serious injuries from it. i got into drugs and drinking and cutting and eventually attempted suicide. when they found out that i had been cutting, their initial reaction was to kick me out...then i got to move back in. my mom said that she was scared i would kill her..wtf!? i would never do that..i think broken homes are the main cause that so many people are so lost/messed up

[berryblue542]

im 13 and i get mad really easily. i yell at every1 for the stupidest reasons, and i hate it. i feel so bad afterwards but i cant control my anger. it just sort of comes out. my parents say im just being dramatic when i know im not (they dont know i SI). so i sort of isolated myself from my whole family. i sleep during the day so i dont have to deal with them when i get home from school. which has screwed up my grades at school bc im sleeping all the time. so idk what to do : (

[justahavaahava]

what i'm trying to get at is you can't blame yourself. parents are people too,and its pretty likely that if you have problems its in your genes... maybe this is why so many kids with mental issues have parents that cant seem to handle it.

i mean, my parents stole about 25 grand from me-i could have sued them easily. but i dont think its worth the personal pain to seek revenge, its so much healthier to let it slide.

at least your parents still talk to you :) thats something

[xsullengirlx]

You are right, parents are people too and I am sure they have their own shit to deal with, in fact I am sure of it. I may have gotten the short end of the stick, but I wish I could have handled myself a bit better, and that my parents would have been more intuitive about how their behavior affected my outcome. It is odd how similar situations can be. I guess you really can find anything on the internet, huh?

[justahavaahava]

..later on I found out my dad had mental problems himself (hed actually found my uncle whom id never heard about hanging)it was probably more denial about himself.

anyways college got me into some trouble but everyone messes up. my parents seemed to be looking for reasons to kick me out and i ended up in my car or with friends a lot too when i was home i was forced to sleep in a shed then my parents whiped out my bank account and kicked me out for good, turns out theyd been stealing for years.

[justahavaahava]

I relate to everything you said-it's almost creepy how much our lives are alike

I grew up in a house where nobody spoke to each other-which was really strange because I was homeschooled. I started college at 16 and it gotten to the point where I almost had a panic attack when I had to walk through the living room to my room because I was so upset that my family was so distant

Id attempted suicide the year before & asked to see a doc, but my parents didnt seem to believe there was a problem

[DavACourt23]

GEEZ sorry but i didnt mean for it to come across as an offense to self injurers in general. Im just saying that people who dont hav friends and self injure are just making it worse. And noo i dont hav TRY!!lol! but still can some1 explain d point of it??

[xsullengirlx]

Well, saying "what r u ppl crazy or sumting" and accusing people who self harm of not having ANY friends is offensive, no matter how you look at it. I can't explain the point of self harm in a comment, but it's a coping mechanism for people, just like drugs and alcohol are for other people - it's all bad, but it's not that different from the problems lots of people have.

[DavACourt23]

Okay Okay im sorry for all d people i offended i didnt mean to.

[DavACourt23]

self injuring?!?! what r u ppl crazy or sumting?!? i mean cmon do hav any frends. and can someone tell me the point of self injuring cuz if u ask me i only maes things worse. n its probably the reason u hav no frends in the first place!

[xsullengirlx]

You're ignorant. Before you try to make some smart ass remark, do your research and use spell check. Who the hell said people who self injure have no friends? I'd try to answer your question but I have a feeling you won't get it or TRY to understand anyway.

[psydrone]

thank you! you might have to excuse my friend here DavAcourt23 (his name is alex) he's in my class and he's a bit of an asshole yea. and umm ,alex, wen you're really freakin' angry don't you feel like doing shit to yourself? that's how i feel and its pretty much the reason i do it...

[DavACourt23]

lol fuck u benjamin!! lol ur d asshole evryone thinks soo!?!? lol

[xsullengirlx]

Thanks for apologizing for him, but you don't have to :) Some people are just close minded and you can;t do much about it. People cope with shit in their own ways, some people turn to drugs and alcohol and some people turn to cutting, it's all a form of self harm in the end. Take care and thanks :)

[Forever1Twilight]

My parents don't want me to move out, but I feel so alone in this house. My dad is always at work and my mom makes me feel like a slave. She treats me like I'm not worthy enough to be her daughter. And since I'm so quiet I don't have a lot of friends so it's pretty quiet here. I have some scars and I'm not proud to wear them. Some of my friends have seen them and I know their going to start asking questions. Thank you for your video it made me feel alittle bit better.

[psydrone]

my dad can be really stuborn, if he doesnt get his own way then he'l get real pissed off and stuff. he never listens to anything i have to say. my mom listens but she doesnt understand and she tels me to just get over it. and my litle sister is only six years old so i prety much hate being at home. my friends all have good, fun parents so they cant relate to me.

[psydrone]

my dad is always at work so (thank God) i barely know my own dad. most of my time i spend on the computer in the living room and when my dad comes home from work i run to my room and practice my guitar or read a book. i hate being at home so i'm always out of that place.

[psydrone]

i'm only 14 and honestly i can't wait 'til i move out of the house when i'm 18. i don't know who to talk to. i don't have anyone to talk to about my problems. i'm not emo or anything, i just can't find any other way of coping with stress, anxiety and sadness.

[psydrone]

i self injure a lot and i'm really not proud of it either. i hate when people c the and force me to show them my scars.

[trixy219107]

My parents have both made it very clear that they dont want me. Ive been shuffled around, sent to foster care for 2 yrs, finally taken back by my father and I havent seen my mother in 4 months now... and shes made it very clear that she doesnt want to see me any time soon either... As for my father, he cant wait to get rid of me...

[funburrito]

My parents never tried to kick me out or wanted me to leave. In fact they want me here. But I do not want to be here... I always feel so alone. Your videos are great thank you. You have made me feel so much better.

[courtnylala]

..but I understand everything you are saying. I don't know anyone who can relate to me, but I can definitely relate to people.. if that makes sense :P

Sometimes looking back, [even though I'm still young] its almost embarrassing how I tried to handle my life, because I didn't have people to talk about it with, and I didn't know how to handle it myself.

[courtnylala]

My mom and I had a horrible relationship while I was living with her. I'm 17 right now, and I'm married. I moved out of my moms house over a year ago. My mom had me at 15 and my brother at 16. She always accused me of things that were obscured, things I'd never do.. but eventually I started to rebel cos I got fed up i guess. We just never had a good relationship. So she kicked me out and oddly enough, we get along now. Its still hard to think how easily I forgive her but, shes my mom..

[GaarasBloodyTears]

Ya, my mum hasnt kicked me out yet, she thinks I'll just get arrested, my 2 sis' did drugs and drinking, my bro just was naturally trouble. I get good grades, I am a good child but I still self injure and have for 3 years now, sad part is my mom knows, she found out and doesn't say a word about it, she just stays in her room all day when I dont have school...she is embarresed that she has me as a child, if the cops dont get me, I'll be kicked out the minute Im 18 O_o

[RoseLoveMeOrHateMe]

yea I know what it like.... :(

[xxcomplicatedchildxx]

my self injury is probably what would hit them the hardest. they wouldnt care about the fact that their only child is a self injurer, they would only care about what their friends would think, my mom has said to me that she would rather die then have a psychotic wrist-slitter for a daughter...

all of this causing me to cut more and more.

[lilras18]

I know how you feel (felt). I am also a self injurer. I don't know my parents though. I was adopted when I was born. My parents didn't care for me. Neither does my adopted parents. They wouldn't care if I cut. Only care what their friends say about me.

[xsullengirlx]

I know how you feel too, I think that it happens to a lot of us... Our parents are more worried about their image and what THEY would come off looking like if they had a "cutter" for a child, than what it's actually doing to the child themselves. It's very selfish but happens more than you think. I hope your parents can become more open minded.

[RoseLoveMeOrHateMe]

I was also adopted, but i was adopted to my grandmother.... and even thought i was with her i never really stady with her... and  i just think that she only care about her image..

[xxcomplicatedchildxx]

my parents havent kicked me out yet, but there are 3 hings that would each by themselves get me kicked out of my house even though im only 14. the fact that im gay, would not only get me kicked out, but my parents would most likely never speak to me again. my anorexia might not get me kicked out, but it would make living with my parents absolute hell.

[Vivienne0rawr]

my parents did stuff lik that it was dif bt ther are similaritys and i moved out finaly at 17 and a half

[marysk8s]

i wasnt allowed to go to school because noone would claim or adopt me, so that i had someone over the age of 21 paying property taxes on me. neither of them ever found out about my cutting, yet i was abandon, nd my sis who is a drug addict nd stripper gets invited over for dinner and showered with gifts. i havnt seen my mom in 2 years cause she got a no trespass order on my bf who took me in. i so envy that your parents let you stay at least till u were 18. being abandon makes you cut even more.

[marysk8s]

i spent most of my time in my room 2. my mom nd dad split 6 months after i turned 17. when my dad moved out, my mom and guidance counselor met nd decided it would be best for me not to live at home. my mom didnt want me anymore. so i asked my dad if i could live with him. but he didnt want me either.

[seetanamoose]

It must be very hard to deal with all these hurts. I don't know your parents, but it sounds like they really love you - more than you could understand. Unfortunately, parents in their humanity have many problems and weaknesses too. It sounds like they couldn't cope with your problems anymore, but I'd be money that they deeply love you as a person. Remember, you're not alone. Your Father in heaven has not forgotten you or your problems. Best wishes and comfort to you.

[tissucks]

I'm 15 I've been kicked out about 9 times my dad abuses me My mom is emotionally abusive 

I've eaten chirmiss dinner at a homeless shelter

[tishang9]

well my mum didnt trust me so much that she put me in to hospital for the night they discharged me though but i had to keep seeing a therapist and im only 13 and i cant speak to anyone

[Pyroxbrit]

well my mom she forced me to hurt myself..... she would do anything or say anything to cause me emotional pain........ and she knows i have a hard time dealing with emotional pain.....

[SilverSuspension]

Do you think that it's unfair when people belittle your problems or ordeals with your parents when they know nothing about them? People tend to do that to me and my sister and they think that just because our parents haven't beat us or don't do things the way yours have done to you that we have nothing going on. Is it because they're right? Sometimes I believe they are because there seems to be an army against us

[kaityniblochilldawg]

im 14 and I HAVE been thrown out of my house a couple of months ago My mom is a single mom and I haven't seen my dad in 10 years. My mom is emotionally and mentally abusive She onstantly tells me things that would put anyone down. Now she wonders why I am so depressed, like I don't talk to anyone anymore beside few really good friends that know most things about me. She grew up wealthy and I grew up in a low income, violent home with drug addicted people. I started doing drugs to feel better.

[lvlymusicstars121]

well everyone gets depressed at one point of time but that doesn't mean that you have to hurt yourself or commit suicide come on life is a challenge and we have to face ups and downs do come its just that we have to find a proper solution and once when found the proper solution life can become so much better..........supposing if u have broken up wid ur bf or something then just let it go don't get all depressed about it coz it is really of no use....

[666emeth]

i feel like evering thing i do is wrong even when its right and icant even say hi with out getting snapped at i uused to cut my self and just started again but im afraid to let any body know for fear of getting the pity or egg shell treatment but my life is okay and i have no logical reason to feel pain i do i cant help that

[lauren21120607]

Yeah the whole of this year i have been going to school and not talking to anyone, coming home and going straight to my bedroom.. and spending my whole time in there..

but i just moved.. (which definitly does NOT help howim feeling) but it's making me become more social and talk to my family more which is good i guess.

I thought moving would be bad, but it turns out its good because i am happier than i was. I still have my moments but im getting through. But yes i am a stranger in my house.

[lauren21120607]

I'm only 14, so i havn't been told to move out. Though i have been threatened once with being kicked out. My dad once said "I am so close to putting you out on the street, you're causing too much stress for this family" And that really hurt me, because its not exactly my choice.. My parents definitly do not understand... i even asked for help and they said no. so i gave up. Parents usually do not understand.

[ginnyismyhero]

i feel the same as what youre saying around the 10.25-10.31 mark

[brittanyxxx]

I'm constantly threatened with being kicked out :/ I'm newly 18, and for some reason, my parents believe that I should already be setting the world on fire. I'm a recovered self-injurer, however I still occasionally struggle with the desire to SH. They now tell me that if I do "that shit" again I can "find a new place to live." Nice, huh?

[NinaDeLaNoche]

I chuckled when I read your "that shit" comment. My mom used to make slashing motions on her arms and say "Leigh, when are you gonna be done with...y'know *slashing motion* THAT shit?" Middle American parents are pretty much all the same...

[poisonedxveins]

It's kind of interesting that your parents kicked you out, whereas mine never did technically (I'd been looking to move out from 15, and finally found a place close to school at 17). My dad just threatened, as did I to move out in the end.

My family is extremely different to yours though so I suppose I can't compare. It's still interesting that your parents kicked you out, whereas my drug-addled, alcoholic, extremely abusive, fucked up parents never kicked me out.

Hope you're doing better.xox

[poisonedxveins]

Your parents sound a tad selfish. From what you've said, it's easier for them to not have you in their house. Sometimes you do have to take care of yourself and it seems that's what your parents are doing.

My parents are abusive, alcoholics, drug addicts etc., but my mum still asks me to come home. Of course, I won't ever go back there unless I've run out of options. My mum is caring but doesn't really show it, except to want to feed me etc. The rest of the time she's drunk (which is every day)

[xxbloodyros15xx]

i dont understand how they can call themselfs a parent a loving one if they basically act like they dont care where u go or if u even have a bed to sleep in or food to eat

[natalieg2]

I cant imagine bein kicked out. I think I'd just end up giving up & wasting away in a gutter coz if my parents dont care about me why would I care about myself? I know what u mean about feeling like a stranger & being treated as crazy. Parents cant deal with ur problems & when they find out these things suddenly they want to believe ur a completely different person, as if ur problems contradict who they thought u were. Doesnt help that most ppl think mental illness = insanity. I know the feeling

[jillieandkate]

i just recently turned 16 and ive been kicked out of the house three times in the last year and had to sleep on the street. and my parents constantly tell me to go and live with other people because they prefer it when im not around.

ive suffered depression and self-injury for three years and my parents try to act as if nothings wrong coz they dont want anyone to know.

so i definately can relate to what your talking about.

[Albval1711]

So they only let you go home when they need you to house sit? My step-dad was like what you are describing, but my mom would let me go home anytime.

[Ophelia9184]

My mother would threaten to kick me out over all kinds of bullshit. One time it was because I didn't want to goto over night camp. I was 15. Geez. I've always felt as if I walk on eggshells around them.

[Albval1711]

How could you upload a 13 minute video, when Youtube only allows 10?

[theFPxperience]

i totally know how you feel. every time i leave my room my step dad gived me looks like im a horrble discusting person. im sorry any one has to go through it.

[bleedingheart1327]

I almost forgot.Once I just broke down in front of my mom.Crying.She just flat out told me to go away and that I was being a baby.My dad always gets mad when I'm sad because he says I make everyone miserable.

[isabellahertz]

Aww that's awful, I'm sorry. Same thing happens to me. My dad says I make people miserable.

[bleedingheart1327]

In my personal opinion anyone who lives with their parents,minor or not,needs a strong home base because if they don't then it's like a lot easier to be depressed if you don't have a good home to come to.Speaking from personal expeirence.

[87blahh87]

Hey, just wanted to leave a quick message and say that I totally agree with you. I'm almost 20 and my parents still have no clue that I SI and I have for around 5 years now. I don't feel comfortable in my own house and I lock myself in my room like constantly..so I kinda know where you're coming from..They really don't even know me and they think nothing bad ever happens in my life or something...man are they ever wrong :P

[chicabonita5606]

I totally get what your talking away. My parents pushed my issues under the rug. We talked about my SI for 30 mins and most of it was yelling. What if they knew 2 years later, i was still doing it.

I think parents are overly cautious .. they think that if they make u mad .. ur gonna cut. Well acting like im a freak doesnt make it better.. it actually makes it worse.

Im sorry about ur parents, sometimes they just dont understand that they make it worse.

Feel better !

[punkrockerchic1989]

my parents never treated me like that, i was taken from my parents under falise pertense, but the lady i lived with lied to me for the five years i lived with her. and the lies she told was like my parents didn't want me and all that stuff and it made me feel like it was my fault.but when i turned 18 i movied in with my sister and go stay with my parents every weekend.but i know how you feel. its hard to be a teenager when your world is crashing down around you.

[fontario4]

Aww if i lived in ur state i would so let you live with me lol.

[flomartoo]

Hope you find healing, Thank's

[StephFL07]

I relate to your feelings about the age thing. I'm 24 and no where near being married, etc.

[ParkerWashington]

i understand about being a good person but your parents treating you like the world's most horrible teenager.. i lived with my dad and his girlfriend for my 10th grade year of high school, and they treated me like i was the worst person, so i spent all of my time in my room too.. sad part is i couldnt do anything, i had no computer or tv, or even cd player.. they even took away my clothes wtf?! i would write in a journal about how much i hated myself b/c i blamed myself, not them..

[123emmy123]

Yay First Comment! :D

Yes I can totally relate to you completely. My parents are so similar to yours. When I was living with my mum..They used to lock a lot of the doors in the house like the kitchen and living room and I felt like I shouldnt be there and they always forced me to do things like I wasnt able to watch tv with them, I had to watch tv in the cellar and like it made me feel like a prisinor(can't spell lol) and like everyday my dad tells me to get out and Im a self harmer...

[chrissys31]

Im going to leave you a message about this one because its too long to leave in a comment box so but ohhh yes I totally understand this one and Im 32 and I have a whole crap load of stuff to tell you about this one that shaped my whole adulthood. Its not good either! Read my message k~~