you are very touching. i battle derpression and suicide thoughts every day. i've talked to counselors, tried to ignore the fact that i was depressed, i tried cutting and etc. Nothing worked. Most of which just made my day even worse. but thank you for such an amazing video
@MrXaviKilla It will rain and it will pour but it cannot rain forever. Things will get better, just remember all the hard times are just stepping stones to get us to the place in life we wouldn't give up or trade for the world. And if everything in life didn't happen exactly like it did/does when it did/does the good to come wouldn't be either. One day you'll have a family of your own and achieve great things, hang on for the hope of a better tomorrow. It will come I promise<3
I wrote a song about my friend that was cutting called Brea’s song. To see me perform it live copy or type (mason Bellamy Cedarville) in Youtube’s search window (I can’t post a link). THANKS!
~~PLEASE spread the word if you like it (Facebook, Twitter, ECT)! I want hurting kids to know their value and see it!~~ “YOU ARE A DIAMOND YOU’RE NO LONGER COAL”
Always stand strong! God loves ALL of us and no one should ever let any other person bring them down! People can be mean and evil many times. When things seem to be going bad sometimes it is a test of faith. The more difficult the challenge and the more pain and suffering the greater the rewards and blessings in due time! I was put to the test for many years and back in 2007 I was blessed in a huge way. (Joel 2:28) Be proud of who you are and stand Strong!
I used to cut just to get through stuff in my life like divorce, my parents fighting, family member dying or just stress. How would I go to help if my parents think I look for attention and I have no one
@annbear122 Know in your heart none of it is ever your fault. Love dies and people pass on, it's the most painful things to go through but know your parents don't fight to hurt you, their hurting inside too. Just know your better than that, and cutting.. a moments pain for a lifetime of scars.. it's not worth it. You still have alot in life to look forward to. The bad will go just like the rain. Keep your head up(:
@streetkingz14 hard to live life to the fullest when god keeps giving us shit to deal with! I'm sorry but im 20 and i've already dealt with abuse, rape, drugs, addiction, death of my father, I was born with a heart condition, had 8 heart surgeries and suffered a massive stroke, my mom threw me out, and now i live in chronic pain EVERY DAMN DAY and i use to go to church every sunday but recently its been hard to believe in someone who "loves" could put you threw so much SHIT!
@wackywhitty He doesnt put you through it. He made this world perfect and we as people destroyed it with our sinnful lives. He doesnt hurt you like you are a target, He simply doesnt prevent pain because of peoples life. Some of the most painful things give us a testimony that can help others. what is a testimony with out a "test." Satan is having a field day on this earth because it is easy for him to cause people to turn away from God when bad things happen...I know this from experience.
10 months later im watching video again same girl broak my heart again and she is sitting next to me im at her house and she wants to work this out i traveled 2000 miles for her 5 day im here " i dont like you anymore"
i gotta say i agree with you on some of that but seriously life isnt worth living if everyday theres something that makes you want to cut or commit suicide......ive tried to commit suicide but something always happened and it never happened in the end i always got mad at god...i hate my life and i keep trying to kill myself and it never works i even split a vein and that didnt work...why should we live if we know were going to die relationships/school/jobs all of it is unnecessary id rather die.
@W4rify because one day you will have a wife/husband that loves you more than anything and a beautiful child. that will make everything in the past worth it.
everything in the past is necessary steps to get us to the place in the future we wouldn't give up or trade for the world.
hey you video is really good and i was wondering if i could ask you a few questions ive considered suicide quite alot of times and alot of people have told me to do it some are even supposed to be my friends ive apparently been "clinically depressed" since i was 10 i am now 15 and in this you said life would get better mine hasnt yet and i just dno what to do :/
@grimmy998 You can ask me anything(: I'm always here and will never judge.
Well you know what my cutting and depression started around 12/13 and now im almost 18, i have a fiance and a baby on the way. life does take amazing turns. and when you get to that place in life that you wouldn't change or redo for the world, you'll then look back and understand all the shit and hard times were necessary to get you to that place in life you wouldn't trade for the world. Hang on, your day will come<3
@grimmy998 ..what do u do if..you really want to jump..im 18 i have had Borderline Personality disorder, Manic Depression, And Post Traumatic Stress Disorter. and the biggest probles..psycosis. but serious..i really want to jump. what the heck do i do?
@alexaffliction93 im really thankful you did this vid. im in a tough situation if it is okay, could i get your advice on a couple of suicide related questions? dont worry i am not asking for a counseling session or anything
@NihilisticSliceshow ask away(: and lol of coarse it wouldn't be anything like a counseling session. those people are fucktards who don't really care and never really help. Just being there for someone and listening and helping in any way possible while never judging is my way to go.
@alexaffliction93 I agree with ur opinion on cousellors lol i was sent to one wen i was bullied and they didnt do anything and the only thing they were worried bout wen i started cutting was that other ppl would start. SHE DIDNT EVEN CALL MY FUCKING PARENTS and they still dont know. then i stopped like a month ago and now i'm sorta going bulimic...wow i'm fucked..
btw i read another one of ur comments and congrats on u having a baby and fiance. I know u'll take good care of it (:
If only, if only, i had boUght her a pony, then maybe shed still be here. Instead i bought her a gun, instead i bought her a gun, cause i thaight we'd have fun, as she started to drink the beer.Instead she blew Her brains all over the wall, and as she started to fall, she made me cry and wonder why someone so beautiful would want to die. Let me know wut u think about my poem. Plze.
@shadow4737 way way way too negative and out of bounds. for the fact many people have gone through traumatic stages in there life like so and when they read it it will only hurt them more i'm not trying to down your poetry but hun talents talent. don't waste it on the negative. make something beautiful.
well theres certainly no reason to be mean about it, its a very serious and sensitive subject. being rude get people nowhere, opening your heart will get you exactly where you wanna be(:
@alexaffliction93 Well where I come from people are too wrapped up in their own lives to be sensitive. Most of them just look at anyone who's suicidal or depressed as someone who's just playing it up. Not my opinion of course but that's why I help so many people, because I believe that everyone should have the option of being happy. But yea I definitely have respect for you and this vid :)
In my school at least half the students have cut and many of them do it on a regular basis. I've become kind of the person that a lot of them turn to and I just wanted to say thanks because I can use what you said to help some of them.
I just wanted to say thank you. This video has helped me so many times.. I'm a cutter and depressed and when I watch this it brings me happiness. So thank you.. So much
@JMoneyDc10 No thank you(: and thank everyone for all the positive feedback from my video. i never thought me ranting on from my heart could ever mean something in the eyes of another and yet it has so many. even tho its almost 4 years later im thinking about making another vid like this but more clear(:
@alexaffliction93 sometimes its the things that we think nothing about and think wont help anyone that really end up saving lives. i think it would be amazing if you made a newer one. but what i think made this one so amazing is that it just came straight from your heart and you truly meant what you were saying and it showed.
I would kill to have a friend like you. wut u said is very insperational and helpfull. it sux wen ask for help and everyone looks at my scars,laughs and then calls me a freak.
I'm not exactly sure how I got to this video... But I just don't understand something. Life is hard sometimes, in fact, for most people life is always hard. But we seem to be the only generation of people to ever cause physical harm to ourselves when the shit hits the fan. What does that say about us? Just remember everybody, whatever happens, it's not worth hurting yourself over. Whatever problems come up, you will live past them tomorrow.
thank all of you, you never realize how big of an impact one voice can have. and the rewards of knowing you helped even one person is unimaginable. as soon as i get my new camera i am going to upload a new one for all of you(:
Amazing video hun! i cut every day, and i wish i could stop that. I sometimes wish i could just end life, but i know it would cause too much pain to others. Your really inspiring hun!
damn.. not to long ago i almost endup takeing my life but then a friend of mine helped me out and made me see the lighter side of things and for that i thank her
i dont feel better by watching this video, you are attractive i thought and then yet you are only 15. WTF now i hate me. i want to jump, if i die before i hurt you then its better than hurting you before i die. 1 life would be saved right?
I wake up everyday worthless I do nothing help no one, accomplish nothing. I'm starting Day number 8 indoors without leaving. I have no friends to visit outside these 4 walls. I'm 17 alone job less and life a head of me is not one I want to fight for until I'm thirty and have kids just to let go. I have had no traumatic experiences. I just have no reason to live no friends a distancing relationship with reality and no skills.
U r a relly nice person who cares a lot about these situations. Ive met ppl who have thought about a jump. I always remind them that somewhere under this sky, God put a person out there 2 look 4 u and meet u and be happy just cause ur there. Big hugs 2 u!
I cant really hear you that good but good video anyways =]] but you should of like recorded your voice with a mic. otherwise still good video to spread a message!
you know, about a year ago i was suicidal, on the verge of commiting suicide. then i saw this video, and it changed my mind... i tried and tried to find this video again so i could thank you, and now, a year later i finally found it. so thank you, i owe you my now happy, and self-harm free life :)
no, everything isnt going to get better. my bestfriend in the world, the guy who saved my life, he thought it could only get better. then his boyfriend whored himself out and lost his verginity. once again, my friend thought it could only get better, and his boyfriend cheated on him again. he kept thinking it could only get better, then his two year old daughter died. guess what, he killed himself two weeks ago. it doesnt always get better. soetimes, it can only get worse.
@DeadUponArival its very unfortunate that all that happened and i know it doesnt always get better but my point in being is you have the power to make it better. you can take your life in any direction you want. pple may have a say in your life but you have the deciding vote on what goes down.
Iv been to the physc ward 2 times now for suicide, self harm, anxiaty and sleep.
Im strting a group my counclior runs today for teens who self harm, its called teens needing tools. Im really scared but some of my friends from the hospital are there!
Fuuuuck! We must help 2 suciders! Why? Cuz I was. Fortunatelly - I am live now and all reasons which made me wanna suecide are gone. So now - I sayt hanxx!
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Help god dammit!
Now I am living with idea ~ I will allways be able 2 kll myself, but not to come back to this life.
So I made a promise 2 myself - If everything will be screwd - I will wait one month. And if wount be Oky-doky again : Lets go!
Well I cut and it is worth it it releaxis yr pain but don't do it it's adicting I can't even stop it's been I think 3 years and I'm only 3 I would have alredy jumped by now
most people that good looking are just flat out dumb.you, however, definitely have some intelligence and not just science-ish "oh this and that percent of sh'ers miss the vein and dont wanna die", you actually know from our perspective, thank you
I wish I was your freind, I spent 2 years on the phone with a girl your age , we used to talk 6 hrs a day, and all night many times, talked her out of it, She asked why would a stranger like me care? I told her, I,m an adult, your my future. Don,t know you , but wish I could be your freind
omg teens are realy mean so i just give them and the rest of the world the finger we are judged by what we do what we wear and how we act but the people who can see past that are the true friends in life but finding true friedns is hard but dont give up im not "emo" but i do think this world sucks but dont give up i have no life so if anyone wanna talk im on facebook just message me through my u tube account k
Thank you, thank you, thank you. You really have no idea how beneficial this video has been to my very well-being. I thank you for giving a light to everyone in the dark. I respect you for wanting to change things & give hope to the hopeless. You are beautiful inside & out & I thank you for being that sliver of hope for me and so many others♥
All I can say is thank you. This video REALLY made me think. I cut myself and I've considered suicide a few times. I'm only 13. But this gave me hope. You have no idea how much this helped. Thanks for posting this. I know it's old but still.
i always watch this video when i feel bad thank you but sometimes it dosnt work you alex are a beautiful person careing for others so everyone who says shit about her fuck off
ok. for one i share myself,my past,my knowledge,and etc to everyone. I help the ones who come to me and or are willing to listen. what you say does not affect me nor anyone else. it just shows how much of a low life you are. dont like what other people are doin? well freakin keep it to yourself.
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i agree, WITH MONKEY MAHN, hes right, burn i say burn, and you do not talk like that in real life i can guarentte it, if you did, u'd get slapped, and yes it is worth it to end your life, jump i say jump slip, slit even if thts ur thing, JUST FUCKING DIE
Wow... just when I though society had hit rock bottom, some dumbass like yourself comes onto Youtube and tries to start nonsence over a damn video. What she has done in this video is not wrong in the least, she has help many, to bad your to fucking stupid to understand that. Get a fucking life! Grow up and act civil, don't be disrespectful over a freaking youtube vid dude. Just learn from it, and if not learn, dont be an asshole and be discouraging like that.
thats good,antidepressants are a freakin joke. they just get u addicted and you eventually get immune to them so you need a higher dosage and so on. all you need to get over depression and cutting is will,want,inner strenght,and comfort of another. so many are going through the same thing yet all feel alone. i hate it i just wish we could all reach out to one another,share our stories,and end the hurt and suffering once and for all.
depression wooo i suffer from depression prity much every day do i cut yes i do i am ashamed of it i do want to stop but i dont want any antidepressants they just fuck you up even more i lve this video i always watch it when im down
i dont have a sickness and im not a cunt. i have a fucking life. i do leave them alone. i made a video and if they want me i am here for them, i dont forse anything. i am trying to help others with theirs and keep theirs thank you very f**king much. if anything your the one who doesnt have a life. watchin vids then decrading pple who are trying and doing what they love. >=(
why be afraid of yourself when you are the only one who can truly save yourself? not doctors not parents, maybe people on here and etc that understand. but even then YOU are the only one that can truly save yourself.
moon fairy, so your about 14, im 13and i take prozac too.i suffer from clinical depression aswell, though i also have anxiety, my thoughts of cutting make me scared(thats the anxiety kicking in) and im afraid of my self, i swear i make myself crazy, this vid just ...really just scared me, the idea really makes me scared of myself.but moonfffairy, i no ur pain eitherway.
Seriously,what the fuck,do you have some kind of sickness,or were you born a cunt? Get a life and leave those alone who are actually trying to help others keep theirs
wow, this has helped me alot... thank you... but, i still feel as if something is missing out of my life and i feel depressed alot lately... like i am alomost coming to a point of shut down/ giving up. but this vid has helped me alot. thank you.
This vid is ture cus iv been there im trying to stop cutting and im sick of the scars and memorys and stress of school and ive tryed to do it 3 time and this vid made me think alot about my life and i think it help the most with me stop cutting so thank i no it just a vid but still it what you said that got me thanks... DeathScroll56
I know exactly how you felt and went through(well not exactly exactly cause we all have our own unique different storys/backgrounds,but i know generally)
up to the mom point. i could never tell my mom,shes too stuck in the old days&wouldnt have understood. but antidepressants are bad,theyre just like being on anyother drug,and u get so dependant on them,you dont need them,your self will is stronger than any medicine when it comes to this.
Ive been cutting since I was nine about a year ago it got so bad that i was so scared because i kept going deeper and deeper i just wanted to die. I went and told my mum I was so scared but afterwards I just felt like a huge load was lifted. All the pain and suffering I had been keeping in for five years had spilled out of me. She took me to the doctor who refer me to a phsycologist I see once a week and take anti-depressents (prozac) over the past year my dose has trippled. Thnx for reading XxX
it will get better if you want it to. lifes a hellious rollercoaster. there will always be ups,downs,twists,loops and much more. anything is worth everything if you set your heart to it. your life is precious,just like all around you. it means the world to the ones around you and ones you dont even know about and still have yet to meet.
*Sighs* I Just wonder, what if it doesn't get better? Whats it worth? Whats my life worth? Whats anything worth?
Why did he leave me? Why did he take his life? It was selfish of him, selfish of me to think it too, but I Just ... Fuck I dont know. I just want to end the suffering, end the pain y'know?
Nice video. you care alot about others and people close. itz a gd gd video. u shud try making a relaxation one for people with the suicidal thing. i would listen to it. i have suffered so many things and would try do it myself but i wudnt know where to start even though i have been trhu it and still am. thanks
Wherever that was taken...I SO want to go there. It seems so peaceful and a great place to think...I thought the video was very sweet and sincere. You obviously have a lot of genuine care about others and yourself, and some good insight into life. It's not easy to just accept the kind of attitude you have, but it's certainly helpful for those who can:)
i ttride to of my sell six times 1st i jumpt of brig broke both legs 2th i i slit van 3rd i took a hand full of Advil and went to bead hope never to wake up agen that's wen i new i need help i call suicidal help line i still get idey every ow and thennow i got scars every wer on arm not big tho
I don't think that jump I'll kill ya it'll most likely leave you with some broken bones and a lot of pain. Majority of people who try to commit suicide end up just getting really badly hurt instead and them they have to live through that pain for the rest of their lives
Please don't try to give your opinion on things that you clearly DO NOT understand. You talk about cutting and suicide as if it was a simple, easy choice made by rational people. IT ISN'T. I speak from experience when I say that. I, and many others like me, don't cut to be "trendy". We do it because we're suppressing screams. We do it when the depression and rage that we keep tightly locked up within ourselves is so strong that it hurts to breathe, let alone even consider going on with life.
uhh that fall's just gonna break your legs. ha. but in all seriousness it's nice that you're sending a positive message out to depressed people like me. thanks
actually it only takes six feet to cause a fatality however I agree with what you said. this video is not about that and she did a great job and is very intellingent for her age. There is Hope in everyone, we just need to find it and help others find it in themselves. Both of you are great people.
can't speak for everyone babe... trust me... self harm is spreading... becoming an epidemic... the youth of the world right now offer so much hope but yet- are so tortured as well... you have the right mindset in keeping positive tho
ok, you made this video on my birthday. Now listen i have been Self harming for almost 2 years and stuff. I like your video but at the same time there are some things that are very wrong about it. You cant speak for everyone who si's. only urself if that is the case.
you are very touching. i battle derpression and suicide thoughts every day. i've talked to counselors, tried to ignore the fact that i was depressed, i tried cutting and etc. Nothing worked. Most of which just made my day even worse. but thank you for such an amazing video
MrChubby123456789 1 month ago
Why cant all girls be like this??
sk8rforlif 3 months ago
Mama told me there'd be days like this.
MonacoBlast 4 months ago
@MrXaviKilla It will rain and it will pour but it cannot rain forever. Things will get better, just remember all the hard times are just stepping stones to get us to the place in life we wouldn't give up or trade for the world. And if everything in life didn't happen exactly like it did/does when it did/does the good to come wouldn't be either. One day you'll have a family of your own and achieve great things, hang on for the hope of a better tomorrow. It will come I promise<3
alexaffliction93 5 months ago
@alexaffliction93 For me, it's been raining for 24 years.
MonacoBlast 4 months ago
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I wrote a song about my friend that was cutting called Brea’s song. To see me perform it live copy or type (mason Bellamy Cedarville) in Youtube’s search window (I can’t post a link). THANKS!
~~PLEASE spread the word if you like it (Facebook, Twitter, ECT)! I want hurting kids to know their value and see it!~~ “YOU ARE A DIAMOND YOU’RE NO LONGER COAL”
mysoteria7 5 months ago
i really like this video. thanks for sharing!
Jilliank08 6 months ago
Thank u that made me cry but no matter wat somone says self harm is somthin I just hav to do
IHartNaruNinjas 6 months ago
One quick motion from high enough and it's over just like that.
MonacoBlast 7 months ago
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urmyho8 7 months ago
You wouldn't die from that height. 10 stories up at least.
MonacoBlast 7 months ago
@MonacoBlast lolz! :P i thumb up
urmyho8 7 months ago
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MonacoBlast 8 months ago
my gf self harms when we argue and it kills me </3
lordfarquare 9 months ago
i like ur video its so true i do still self harm and i am only 13 i wish i can stop but i cant i cant cope wiv my feeling thank you for sharing this
sweetlovebbz 9 months ago
you're so beautiful and incredible! everything in this video is so true, thanks for sharing!
ineed1shotoflove 10 months ago
girl...i think you just saved my life <3
Taylorswiftbabey 11 months ago
Thank you... :')
Mistyriverstudios 11 months ago
Always stand strong! God loves ALL of us and no one should ever let any other person bring them down! People can be mean and evil many times. When things seem to be going bad sometimes it is a test of faith. The more difficult the challenge and the more pain and suffering the greater the rewards and blessings in due time! I was put to the test for many years and back in 2007 I was blessed in a huge way. (Joel 2:28) Be proud of who you are and stand Strong!
Charlesrocks 11 months ago
I used to cut just to get through stuff in my life like divorce, my parents fighting, family member dying or just stress. How would I go to help if my parents think I look for attention and I have no one
annbear122 1 year ago
@annbear122 Know in your heart none of it is ever your fault. Love dies and people pass on, it's the most painful things to go through but know your parents don't fight to hurt you, their hurting inside too. Just know your better than that, and cutting.. a moments pain for a lifetime of scars.. it's not worth it. You still have alot in life to look forward to. The bad will go just like the rain. Keep your head up(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
life is the most precious thing that god has given us...live it to the fullest, things will get better
streetkingz14 1 year ago
@streetkingz14 thank you(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@streetkingz14 hard to live life to the fullest when god keeps giving us shit to deal with! I'm sorry but im 20 and i've already dealt with abuse, rape, drugs, addiction, death of my father, I was born with a heart condition, had 8 heart surgeries and suffered a massive stroke, my mom threw me out, and now i live in chronic pain EVERY DAMN DAY and i use to go to church every sunday but recently its been hard to believe in someone who "loves" could put you threw so much SHIT!
wackywhitty 9 months ago
@wackywhitty He doesnt put you through it. He made this world perfect and we as people destroyed it with our sinnful lives. He doesnt hurt you like you are a target, He simply doesnt prevent pain because of peoples life. Some of the most painful things give us a testimony that can help others. what is a testimony with out a "test." Satan is having a field day on this earth because it is easy for him to cause people to turn away from God when bad things happen...I know this from experience.
theKATEartist 6 months ago
I love this.(:wow. You really are amazing and touching. Thank you so much.<3
XxthunderingxhorsexX 1 year ago 4
@XxthunderingxhorsexX
No thank you for watching(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
wow you made me feel better <33
and congrats on the baby
ASPIREZx 1 year ago
10 months later im watching video again same girl broak my heart again and she is sitting next to me im at her house and she wants to work this out i traveled 2000 miles for her 5 day im here " i dont like you anymore"
maddogmaurice 1 year ago
i gotta say i agree with you on some of that but seriously life isnt worth living if everyday theres something that makes you want to cut or commit suicide......ive tried to commit suicide but something always happened and it never happened in the end i always got mad at god...i hate my life and i keep trying to kill myself and it never works i even split a vein and that didnt work...why should we live if we know were going to die relationships/school/jobs all of it is unnecessary id rather die.
W4rify 1 year ago
@W4rify because one day you will have a wife/husband that loves you more than anything and a beautiful child. that will make everything in the past worth it.
everything in the past is necessary steps to get us to the place in the future we wouldn't give up or trade for the world.
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@W4rify
if what you say is true..... God has got you by the arm and is not going to let go.
Signed, a adult that has been there.
eDrifter1 1 year ago
hey you video is really good and i was wondering if i could ask you a few questions ive considered suicide quite alot of times and alot of people have told me to do it some are even supposed to be my friends ive apparently been "clinically depressed" since i was 10 i am now 15 and in this you said life would get better mine hasnt yet and i just dno what to do :/
grimmy998 1 year ago
@grimmy998 You can ask me anything(: I'm always here and will never judge.
Well you know what my cutting and depression started around 12/13 and now im almost 18, i have a fiance and a baby on the way. life does take amazing turns. and when you get to that place in life that you wouldn't change or redo for the world, you'll then look back and understand all the shit and hard times were necessary to get you to that place in life you wouldn't trade for the world. Hang on, your day will come<3
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@grimmy998 ..what do u do if..you really want to jump..im 18 i have had Borderline Personality disorder, Manic Depression, And Post Traumatic Stress Disorter. and the biggest probles..psycosis. but serious..i really want to jump. what the heck do i do?
BleedMyBeautiful 1 year ago
@alexaffliction93 im really thankful you did this vid. im in a tough situation if it is okay, could i get your advice on a couple of suicide related questions? dont worry i am not asking for a counseling session or anything
NihilisticSliceshow 1 year ago
@NihilisticSliceshow ask away(: and lol of coarse it wouldn't be anything like a counseling session. those people are fucktards who don't really care and never really help. Just being there for someone and listening and helping in any way possible while never judging is my way to go.
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@alexaffliction93 I agree with ur opinion on cousellors lol i was sent to one wen i was bullied and they didnt do anything and the only thing they were worried bout wen i started cutting was that other ppl would start. SHE DIDNT EVEN CALL MY FUCKING PARENTS and they still dont know. then i stopped like a month ago and now i'm sorta going bulimic...wow i'm fucked..
btw i read another one of ur comments and congrats on u having a baby and fiance. I know u'll take good care of it (:
madamfiction 1 year ago
hi im angelica i like ur vids:)lmao
theclutzunoe1 1 year ago
hi im angwlica i like ur vids:)lmao
theclutzunoe1 1 year ago
If only, if only, i had boUght her a pony, then maybe shed still be here. Instead i bought her a gun, instead i bought her a gun, cause i thaight we'd have fun, as she started to drink the beer.Instead she blew Her brains all over the wall, and as she started to fall, she made me cry and wonder why someone so beautiful would want to die. Let me know wut u think about my poem. Plze.
shadow4737 1 year ago 3
@shadow4737 way way way too negative and out of bounds. for the fact many people have gone through traumatic stages in there life like so and when they read it it will only hurt them more i'm not trying to down your poetry but hun talents talent. don't waste it on the negative. make something beautiful.
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@shadow4737 I thought it was a great poem.
XxXlindseyANDtoriXxX 1 year ago
I wish I knew more people like you who can oppose this so strongly without being mean about it
TotallyOpGaming 1 year ago
@TotallyOpGaming
well theres certainly no reason to be mean about it, its a very serious and sensitive subject. being rude get people nowhere, opening your heart will get you exactly where you wanna be(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@alexaffliction93 Well where I come from people are too wrapped up in their own lives to be sensitive. Most of them just look at anyone who's suicidal or depressed as someone who's just playing it up. Not my opinion of course but that's why I help so many people, because I believe that everyone should have the option of being happy. But yea I definitely have respect for you and this vid :)
TotallyOpGaming 1 year ago
In my school at least half the students have cut and many of them do it on a regular basis. I've become kind of the person that a lot of them turn to and I just wanted to say thanks because I can use what you said to help some of them.
TotallyOpGaming 1 year ago
I just wanted to say thank you. This video has helped me so many times.. I'm a cutter and depressed and when I watch this it brings me happiness. So thank you.. So much
JMoneyDc10 1 year ago
@JMoneyDc10 No thank you(: and thank everyone for all the positive feedback from my video. i never thought me ranting on from my heart could ever mean something in the eyes of another and yet it has so many. even tho its almost 4 years later im thinking about making another vid like this but more clear(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
@alexaffliction93 sometimes its the things that we think nothing about and think wont help anyone that really end up saving lives. i think it would be amazing if you made a newer one. but what i think made this one so amazing is that it just came straight from your heart and you truly meant what you were saying and it showed.
JMoneyDc10 1 year ago
I would kill to have a friend like you. wut u said is very insperational and helpfull. it sux wen ask for help and everyone looks at my scars,laughs and then calls me a freak.
shadow4737 1 year ago
@shadow4737
well im always here like a friend if you need me(: as i am for everyone.
theres nothin wrong with you you dont need help, just understanding and someone there for you.
i know the feeling i have so many scars on my arm everyone notices. but i dont try to hide it its the past and im not ashamed.
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
umm yea, ur hot....just sayin
RAWRximaxDUCKY 1 year ago
suicide is for the weak
adfadfewfrewafawefaw 1 year ago
wow, you are gorgeous. very deep down video. love it.
bloodgost2 1 year ago
Wish I had somebody like you around. You seem like you would listen too someone if the rlly needed to talk. If only I had someone like tht.
Dripyyx 1 year ago
I'm not exactly sure how I got to this video... But I just don't understand something. Life is hard sometimes, in fact, for most people life is always hard. But we seem to be the only generation of people to ever cause physical harm to ourselves when the shit hits the fan. What does that say about us? Just remember everybody, whatever happens, it's not worth hurting yourself over. Whatever problems come up, you will live past them tomorrow.
FrostmourneFK 1 year ago
Its make me cry, that sensative vid.
kralenketinkje 1 year ago
I can't tell you how many times this video saved my life. Thank you.
MrOutcast76 1 year ago
@MrOutcast76 no thank you(:
thank all of you, you never realize how big of an impact one voice can have. and the rewards of knowing you helped even one person is unimaginable. as soon as i get my new camera i am going to upload a new one for all of you(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
I can't tell you how many times this video saved my life. I tried killing myself 3 times in all my life and something went wrong each time.
First time, the rope broke, 2nd time, the branch broke, third time, the gun jammed.
After those attempts, I found this video. Now every time I feel like dying, I watch this, and I feel better. Thank you.
And councillers are bad. They don't know what they're saying to us teens. They try to figure out the root of the problem rather than helping it.
MrOutcast76 1 year ago
@alexa..... ok is that onley one vedio u have ? am liveing in IRl
anwar942 1 year ago
OMG you are sooo beautiful!
I think I'm in ŁOVE!!! <3
avril4ewa 1 year ago
@avril4ewa awh thank you(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
Amazing video hun! i cut every day, and i wish i could stop that. I sometimes wish i could just end life, but i know it would cause too much pain to others. Your really inspiring hun!
emmzy94 1 year ago
ohhhhhhhh no ur so nice where do live honey?
anwar942 1 year ago
@anwar942 United States(:
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
damn.. not to long ago i almost endup takeing my life but then a friend of mine helped me out and made me see the lighter side of things and for that i thank her
DarkSkies132 1 year ago
This made me feel bad ://
sexymalotto88 1 year ago
@sexymalotto88 why so??
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
Hey Alex, call me sometime we need to go somewhere sometime. I'll call you soon ok? Well ttyl.
TheKiraWolf 1 year ago
i dont feel better by watching this video, you are attractive i thought and then yet you are only 15. WTF now i hate me. i want to jump, if i die before i hurt you then its better than hurting you before i die. 1 life would be saved right?
tboy221 1 year ago
I wake up everyday worthless I do nothing help no one, accomplish nothing. I'm starting Day number 8 indoors without leaving. I have no friends to visit outside these 4 walls. I'm 17 alone job less and life a head of me is not one I want to fight for until I'm thirty and have kids just to let go. I have had no traumatic experiences. I just have no reason to live no friends a distancing relationship with reality and no skills.
pyronic54 1 year ago
its hard for me to hear you, your voice is very low
thatsjennifer2u 1 year ago
xd ur cute :P
xX4597Xx 1 year ago
U r a relly nice person who cares a lot about these situations. Ive met ppl who have thought about a jump. I always remind them that somewhere under this sky, God put a person out there 2 look 4 u and meet u and be happy just cause ur there. Big hugs 2 u!
KnightRiderGurl 1 year ago
I cant really hear you that good but good video anyways =]] but you should of like recorded your voice with a mic. otherwise still good video to spread a message!
bellaxedward14 1 year ago
you know, about a year ago i was suicidal, on the verge of commiting suicide. then i saw this video, and it changed my mind... i tried and tried to find this video again so i could thank you, and now, a year later i finally found it. so thank you, i owe you my now happy, and self-harm free life :)
ifutoldmeulovedme 1 year ago
no, everything isnt going to get better. my bestfriend in the world, the guy who saved my life, he thought it could only get better. then his boyfriend whored himself out and lost his verginity. once again, my friend thought it could only get better, and his boyfriend cheated on him again. he kept thinking it could only get better, then his two year old daughter died. guess what, he killed himself two weeks ago. it doesnt always get better. soetimes, it can only get worse.
DeadUponArival 1 year ago
@DeadUponArival its very unfortunate that all that happened and i know it doesnt always get better but my point in being is you have the power to make it better. you can take your life in any direction you want. pple may have a say in your life but you have the deciding vote on what goes down.
alexaffliction93 1 year ago
no bad kitty no jump :O
helloTobi40 1 year ago
Your pretty brave for shraing this!
Iv been to the physc ward 2 times now for suicide, self harm, anxiaty and sleep.
Im strting a group my counclior runs today for teens who self harm, its called teens needing tools. Im really scared but some of my friends from the hospital are there!
slothsandshit8 1 year ago
Fuuuuck! We must help 2 suciders! Why? Cuz I was. Fortunatelly - I am live now and all reasons which made me wanna suecide are gone. So now - I sayt hanxx!
;P ;P
Help god dammit!
Now I am living with idea ~ I will allways be able 2 kll myself, but not to come back to this life.
So I made a promise 2 myself - If everything will be screwd - I will wait one month. And if wount be Oky-doky again : Lets go!
Blinkyboy4U 1 year ago
good points were made, your pretty DONT DIE!:)
KidWithCats 1 year ago
Well I cut and it is worth it it releaxis yr pain but don't do it it's adicting I can't even stop it's been I think 3 years and I'm only 3 I would have alredy jumped by now
[add me ppl IM sexyskatborder55]
sexyskatborder55 1 year ago
this is a very helpful video i dont knw what to say its just a mind opener great job on the video
Bloodshottube 1 year ago
what could be so bad that one would want to take their own life?
tdubblz 1 year ago
that made me really want to stop cutting... thank you <3 (:
13ilovedyou 1 year ago
most people that good looking are just flat out dumb.you, however, definitely have some intelligence and not just science-ish "oh this and that percent of sh'ers miss the vein and dont wanna die", you actually know from our perspective, thank you
-AC;)
TheAC44 1 year ago
Not to sound weird but you're really pretty, even beautiful actually! And your video is so true, I agree with you 100%.
cooldragon1423 1 year ago
I wish I was your freind, I spent 2 years on the phone with a girl your age , we used to talk 6 hrs a day, and all night many times, talked her out of it, She asked why would a stranger like me care? I told her, I,m an adult, your my future. Don,t know you , but wish I could be your freind
Uncledonny 1 year ago
I love this video! everytime something is wrong i always watch it :) thanks so much :)
cutter9091 1 year ago
im so messed up right now i cant cry i cant smile i cant sleep just dont know what to do
maddogmaurice 1 year ago
my life has be a liveing hell sens i was 3 i should have jumped by now and there is no reson i shouldnt but i still live on
elkins007 1 year ago
i found something that made me happy and she just ripped my heart out
maddogmaurice 1 year ago
you're a beautiful person, you have a lot of courage. thank you xxxx
natalixx007 1 year ago
sometimes people can't be saved...i found out :(
and that jump won't kill you im sure of it..i know im saying stupid stuff..im sorry..im messed up..no worries
jamietje 1 year ago
That was really nice.
ConsentToTreatment 1 year ago
Thanks for caring <3
TKDrocks15 1 year ago
omg teens are realy mean so i just give them and the rest of the world the finger we are judged by what we do what we wear and how we act but the people who can see past that are the true friends in life but finding true friedns is hard but dont give up im not "emo" but i do think this world sucks but dont give up i have no life so if anyone wanna talk im on facebook just message me through my u tube account k
skulleyes1 1 year ago
I wanted to thank you for saving me, you have no idea what this video did for me, really all I can say is thank you so much
forevathindarbs 1 year ago
what're you doing in that video...
it looks like you're fishing for compliments over that lake. =]
Jukukiwaiyi2 1 year ago
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mhytee 2 years ago
Thank you, thank you, thank you. You really have no idea how beneficial this video has been to my very well-being. I thank you for giving a light to everyone in the dark. I respect you for wanting to change things & give hope to the hopeless. You are beautiful inside & out & I thank you for being that sliver of hope for me and so many others♥
hottwhitegurl5 2 years ago
your beautiful from the inside and out. im sure youre the reason that many people still is alive. ur amazing.
im only 15, but i already have 4 suicidalstries, anorexia, bulimia, self injury ++++ . i reaally have to tell u again. ur amazing
XXXWTF17 2 years ago 6
Great vid hun. I'm sorry that people are spamming it with there bull...
AMissTori 2 years ago
All I can say is thank you. This video REALLY made me think. I cut myself and I've considered suicide a few times. I'm only 13. But this gave me hope. You have no idea how much this helped. Thanks for posting this. I know it's old but still.
And sidenote,you're really pretty(:
xVictoriaxox 2 years ago
i always watch this video when i feel bad thank you but sometimes it dosnt work you alex are a beautiful person careing for others so everyone who says shit about her fuck off
maddogmaurice 2 years ago 15
What's thatsong playing in the backround???
emoerinmcr 2 years ago
say anything-save me from me
(:
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
@brianpeppers5ft2
ok. for one i share myself,my past,my knowledge,and etc to everyone. I help the ones who come to me and or are willing to listen. what you say does not affect me nor anyone else. it just shows how much of a low life you are. dont like what other people are doin? well freakin keep it to yourself.
-A.S.
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
you are an amazing person for doing this and i can guarantee you that you've saved at least one person's life. God bless you... : )
BE4eva16 2 years ago
@monkeyfarman
dude. chill. your the only one who needs to do that if you are low enough to come onto someones page with a want and a cause and try to deem it down.
-A.S.
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
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i agree, WITH MONKEY MAHN, hes right, burn i say burn, and you do not talk like that in real life i can guarentte it, if you did, u'd get slapped, and yes it is worth it to end your life, jump i say jump slip, slit even if thts ur thing, JUST FUCKING DIE
brianpeppers5ft2 2 years ago
Wow... just when I though society had hit rock bottom, some dumbass like yourself comes onto Youtube and tries to start nonsence over a damn video. What she has done in this video is not wrong in the least, she has help many, to bad your to fucking stupid to understand that. Get a fucking life! Grow up and act civil, don't be disrespectful over a freaking youtube vid dude. Just learn from it, and if not learn, dont be an asshole and be discouraging like that.
Thank you- -K.E.
whsdrummer09 2 years ago 2
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i hope ur house sets on fire or u get cancer and end up looking like a bad costume in a comic book fair, LEX LUTHER ! ! !
brianpeppers5ft2 2 years ago
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here what you should do and all you emo faggots get a gallon of gasoline and a lighter....
monkeyfarman 2 years ago
thats good,antidepressants are a freakin joke. they just get u addicted and you eventually get immune to them so you need a higher dosage and so on. all you need to get over depression and cutting is will,want,inner strenght,and comfort of another. so many are going through the same thing yet all feel alone. i hate it i just wish we could all reach out to one another,share our stories,and end the hurt and suffering once and for all.
-A.S.
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
I can't tell you how many times you saved my life.
MrOutcast76 2 years ago
depression wooo i suffer from depression prity much every day do i cut yes i do i am ashamed of it i do want to stop but i dont want any antidepressants they just fuck you up even more i lve this video i always watch it when im down
maddogmaurice 2 years ago
You're absolutly right. There is always hope, and good in the future. Have a great day, and never give up. ^^
elf4god 2 years ago
me too
lilbeth122 2 years ago
Thank you for this putting this video on here hon, You have helped many I am sure . Including my daughter in alot of ways . Keep being you 1
mzzed2009 2 years ago
@januarysrevengeonjun
i dont have a sickness and im not a cunt. i have a fucking life. i do leave them alone. i made a video and if they want me i am here for them, i dont forse anything. i am trying to help others with theirs and keep theirs thank you very f**king much. if anything your the one who doesnt have a life. watchin vids then decrading pple who are trying and doing what they love. >=(
-Aly
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
you are so beautiful. im trt=ying to stopp..
iAreJustAnEmoKid 2 years ago
life is overrated, kill yourselves.
YamazakiSuperDM 2 years ago
Yea, this really did help. (: Thanks.
OhhShiettLis 2 years ago
why be afraid of yourself when you are the only one who can truly save yourself? not doctors not parents, maybe people on here and etc that understand. but even then YOU are the only one that can truly save yourself.
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
moon fairy, so your about 14, im 13and i take prozac too.i suffer from clinical depression aswell, though i also have anxiety, my thoughts of cutting make me scared(thats the anxiety kicking in) and im afraid of my self, i swear i make myself crazy, this vid just ...really just scared me, the idea really makes me scared of myself.but moonfffairy, i no ur pain eitherway.
jkdfunkejruf 2 years ago
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7579johns1 2 years ago
well........
xwalmartxninjax 2 years ago
Seriously,what the fuck,do you have some kind of sickness,or were you born a cunt? Get a life and leave those alone who are actually trying to help others keep theirs
JanuarysRevengeOnJun 2 years ago
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just jump then id have sumit decent too watch lol
7579johns1 2 years ago
wow, this has helped me alot... thank you... but, i still feel as if something is missing out of my life and i feel depressed alot lately... like i am alomost coming to a point of shut down/ giving up. but this vid has helped me alot. thank you.
Gl0wR4C3R 2 years ago 2
pretty girl.
KarleeAmber 2 years ago 4
thanks wow that helps
pingypong118 2 years ago 3
This vid is ture cus iv been there im trying to stop cutting and im sick of the scars and memorys and stress of school and ive tryed to do it 3 time and this vid made me think alot about my life and i think it help the most with me stop cutting so thank i no it just a vid but still it what you said that got me thanks... DeathScroll56
deathscroll56 2 years ago
I know exactly how you felt and went through(well not exactly exactly cause we all have our own unique different storys/backgrounds,but i know generally)
up to the mom point. i could never tell my mom,shes too stuck in the old days&wouldnt have understood. but antidepressants are bad,theyre just like being on anyother drug,and u get so dependant on them,you dont need them,your self will is stronger than any medicine when it comes to this.
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
Ive been cutting since I was nine about a year ago it got so bad that i was so scared because i kept going deeper and deeper i just wanted to die. I went and told my mum I was so scared but afterwards I just felt like a huge load was lifted. All the pain and suffering I had been keeping in for five years had spilled out of me. She took me to the doctor who refer me to a phsycologist I see once a week and take anti-depressents (prozac) over the past year my dose has trippled. Thnx for reading XxX
MoonFairy14 2 years ago
U really know what ur talking about. I cut and im not ashamed but u are inspiring
CloserThanEnemies123 2 years ago
I used to be so suicidal, and many failed attempts later I realized- I don't wanna kill myself, because it would be extremely boring if I was dead.
Now I don't have a death wish, but if I die, I die. Its a better attitude than wishing for death. Don't want it, just wait your turn.
SofieDosie 2 years ago
Hi honey, I recommend you watching my video "the other side of suicide"; I think this will really help <33
Chantilliscious 2 years ago
=/ my grandpa was is dying. my girlfriend (not anymore) "needs time" and my closest friend commited suicide.
luvnvrwntdme 2 years ago
forget the was*
luvnvrwntdme 2 years ago
it will get better if you want it to. lifes a hellious rollercoaster. there will always be ups,downs,twists,loops and much more. anything is worth everything if you set your heart to it. your life is precious,just like all around you. it means the world to the ones around you and ones you dont even know about and still have yet to meet.
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
*Sighs* I Just wonder, what if it doesn't get better? Whats it worth? Whats my life worth? Whats anything worth?
Why did he leave me? Why did he take his life? It was selfish of him, selfish of me to think it too, but I Just ... Fuck I dont know. I just want to end the suffering, end the pain y'know?
Xelxius 2 years ago
i agree. is anything worth it?
wyosen10rs 2 years ago
Nice video. you care alot about others and people close. itz a gd gd video. u shud try making a relaxation one for people with the suicidal thing. i would listen to it. i have suffered so many things and would try do it myself but i wudnt know where to start even though i have been trhu it and still am. thanks
declinedspark 2 years ago
Wherever that was taken...I SO want to go there. It seems so peaceful and a great place to think...I thought the video was very sweet and sincere. You obviously have a lot of genuine care about others and yourself, and some good insight into life. It's not easy to just accept the kind of attitude you have, but it's certainly helpful for those who can:)
Feenrai 2 years ago
are you ok sweetie i mean ur kinda sad in this video just saying tell me why u are sad i feel the same way if ur trying to exsplane :-)
ibeliveinfairiesable 2 years ago
SelfHarmJournel
DaLilShorty8999 2 years ago
will it ever end? no i dont think so can you help us unless you understand you cant will it ever be ok... no
maddogmaurice 2 years ago
i ttride to of my sell six times 1st i jumpt of brig broke both legs 2th i i slit van 3rd i took a hand full of Advil and went to bead hope never to wake up agen that's wen i new i need help i call suicidal help line i still get idey every ow and thennow i got scars every wer on arm not big tho
iam10123 2 years ago
you know your cute and your right but the way i see it if you want to jump the go head first if you dont then just suck it up and keep on walking
skinnyman1423 2 years ago
hey i was 14 and speakin from my heart. i want even really aware of what i was saying i was just blurting out stuff from the confides of my mind.
i am 10x wiser and more understanding now(:
im almost 17 ^_^
alexaffliction93 2 years ago
well... thanks for thinking things will be ok... but it doent seem like you really get it... but good on you for trying
Emraldae 2 years ago
you blow my fuckin' mind..
leynd000 2 years ago
ur hot... just sayin =)
madmoney11111 2 years ago 2
I don't think that jump I'll kill ya it'll most likely leave you with some broken bones and a lot of pain. Majority of people who try to commit suicide end up just getting really badly hurt instead and them they have to live through that pain for the rest of their lives
papatuchus 2 years ago
Why do people care so much? During the Roman times it was considered an act of heroism. If they wanna do it, let them. It's their life not yours.
PirateIt 2 years ago
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dss3393 2 years ago
ummm if you jump off the you would not die !!!
momlove7 2 years ago
how gorgeous is dat girl <3 <3
bhamdoun1975 2 years ago 11
@bhamdoun1975 Very
DarkSkies132 1 year ago
I listen 2 u tlk 4 ever!!
I cant stop listen!! :(
Btw Ppl need 2 Stop sayin u dont know what ur tlkn bout!! I think u completely understand and u can give ur damn opinion if you want to!! :)
blake304420666304 2 years ago 4
Please don't try to give your opinion on things that you clearly DO NOT understand. You talk about cutting and suicide as if it was a simple, easy choice made by rational people. IT ISN'T. I speak from experience when I say that. I, and many others like me, don't cut to be "trendy". We do it because we're suppressing screams. We do it when the depression and rage that we keep tightly locked up within ourselves is so strong that it hurts to breathe, let alone even consider going on with life.
EmbraceYourInnerEris 2 years ago
I completely agree,
I've been wanting to die for the past two years,
But I think of somebody I love everytime I try.
Life is never gonna be great,
For anyone,
But it can be turned around.
iPityForiPod 2 years ago
uhh that fall's just gonna break your legs. ha. but in all seriousness it's nice that you're sending a positive message out to depressed people like me. thanks
ramonemeister 2 years ago 3
actually it only takes six feet to cause a fatality however I agree with what you said. this video is not about that and she did a great job and is very intellingent for her age. There is Hope in everyone, we just need to find it and help others find it in themselves. Both of you are great people.
22bobbyjoe22 2 years ago 2
can't speak for everyone babe... trust me... self harm is spreading... becoming an epidemic... the youth of the world right now offer so much hope but yet- are so tortured as well... you have the right mindset in keeping positive tho
rescueisfound18 2 years ago
that is self mutilation though
mysticalmagick 2 years ago
ok, you made this video on my birthday. Now listen i have been Self harming for almost 2 years and stuff. I like your video but at the same time there are some things that are very wrong about it. You cant speak for everyone who si's. only urself if that is the case.
ImpossibleLife12 2 years ago
aww ure cute =)
SendMeRockMusic 2 years ago 2
Actually, some people who self-harm do want help. You can't speak for everyone.
ThatllBeTheDay 2 years ago
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your hot, the message sucks and that music in the background sucks
reaper69316 2 years ago
good message alex lol this is samantha s lol imu
manthas123 2 years ago 3