I've got BPD as well as eating disorders, social and agorafobia with a distorted perception of reality (My shrink mentioned Bipolar but seems like looking for ghosts).
It really tears me and people around me apart.. Never knowing what to feel or how to react. Before I got pregnant it was easy to calm down with all drugs and alcohol but now.. Im lost, nothing there to stop it..
People dont know why I, for example, all of a sudden hate them, but it's actually cus I don't want to be abandoned..
The empitness is always there and I never know really who I am..
In one day I can have.. say 10 different interests or goals in life, I switch from happy to suicidal.. I can be really motivated about something and the next second it's gone.
Constant feeling of being worthless and dead - Always with a fake smile.
It's weird tough.. You learn to live with it and you really don't know another life than this - So getting better can be hard cuz people are scared of the unknown..
I disagree with people who say they "have bpd", you don't have it like you caught a cold or something, it IS you. you are borderline. "bpd is ruining my life" is not even right, "I am ruining my life, because I cannot cope with my bpd" is more accurate.
having BPD DOES SUCK AND ALOT OF TIMES I FEEL MISUNDERED AND i feell deep alone aybess i times i feel like theres no hope but thers your not alone even though its feels that most of the time i feeling alot bettter and iam know im seeing a BPD specialist there is hope be and dont give up
I cant relate to this disorder...I dont care to fit in and I am perfectly happy that I dont. I have Schizoid and possibly Antisocial personality disorder.
Great Vid and you arent alone i was diagnosed with BPD so i kinda know how you feel and im sorry this shit sucks, but for help i would recommend seeing a therapist i see one and he has helped me alot :) so i hope that you will keep going and if you need someone to talk to im here :)
Thanks for sharing, your not alone, there are so many of us, just wish people with out it understood anyways take care and if you ever want to talk im here x
oh god. i feel the EXACT same way... your not alone (empty words... i'd think that if you said it to me)... i'm not diagnosed but fuck, i feel like this everyday.. and i just feel like i'm a whiney bitch! i have nothing to moan about... so why?
Read Explaining colours to a blind man. Not only will it enlighten many as to what living with a mental illness is like, it also gives comfort to those sufferers who think there is no hope and that they are alone. It is very informative, sometimes shocking but also very funny in parts. All in all, a good read and highly recommended.
I've been suffering for over 20 years so I know the pain get therapy if you can and dont stop going - it doesn't get easier if you try to make it on your own
I've got BPD as well as eating disorders, social and agorafobia with a distorted perception of reality (My shrink mentioned Bipolar but seems like looking for ghosts).
It really tears me and people around me apart.. Never knowing what to feel or how to react. Before I got pregnant it was easy to calm down with all drugs and alcohol but now.. Im lost, nothing there to stop it..
People dont know why I, for example, all of a sudden hate them, but it's actually cus I don't want to be abandoned..
ZeraphinaJ 1 month ago in playlist BorderLine Personality Disorder
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The empitness is always there and I never know really who I am..
In one day I can have.. say 10 different interests or goals in life, I switch from happy to suicidal.. I can be really motivated about something and the next second it's gone.
Constant feeling of being worthless and dead - Always with a fake smile.
It's weird tough.. You learn to live with it and you really don't know another life than this - So getting better can be hard cuz people are scared of the unknown..
ZeraphinaJ 1 month ago in playlist BorderLine Personality Disorder
I have BPD and it's a real Hell. Everyday is a struggle and I've been about to kill myself so many times. I feel... Empty. Don't know who I am.
Madonelle 2 months ago
thanks, i too understand.
jamie7378 1 year ago
i cant escape myself, so many times i lied... omg... :((((
TheZlocka 1 year ago
I disagree with people who say they "have bpd", you don't have it like you caught a cold or something, it IS you. you are borderline. "bpd is ruining my life" is not even right, "I am ruining my life, because I cannot cope with my bpd" is more accurate.
punksush1 1 year ago
@punksush1 God, you're bleeding cheerful....
abcjbc 1 month ago
You will be fine! Trust me... give it time!
folaleche 1 year ago
having BPD DOES SUCK AND ALOT OF TIMES I FEEL MISUNDERED AND i feell deep alone aybess i times i feel like theres no hope but thers your not alone even though its feels that most of the time i feeling alot bettter and iam know im seeing a BPD specialist there is hope be and dont give up
meridithstar 1 year ago
I cant relate to this disorder...I dont care to fit in and I am perfectly happy that I dont. I have Schizoid and possibly Antisocial personality disorder.
DemonNecromancer 2 years ago
i loved your video! thats is totally how im feeling with bpd
Retrodancer 2 years ago 4
Amazing video! It explains better than I ever could what I have felt forever, thank you!
doortonowhere 2 years ago 4
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TheAutumnGirl 2 years ago
i have the same problem. i wish i could just be normal. so many fucked up relationships. so much hate. it sucks.
DeepTeel 2 years ago 3
Great Vid and you arent alone i was diagnosed with BPD so i kinda know how you feel and im sorry this shit sucks, but for help i would recommend seeing a therapist i see one and he has helped me alot :) so i hope that you will keep going and if you need someone to talk to im here :)
0o2 2 years ago 3
NowTHAT'S a great video
rbogdewic 2 years ago
Thanks for sharing, your not alone, there are so many of us, just wish people with out it understood anyways take care and if you ever want to talk im here x
larkhall123uk 2 years ago 3
dude having this shit sucks
meowzerzz 2 years ago 2
Wow. Another interesting video about BPD. Such a sad disorder.
mztoia 2 years ago 2
I very much identify with every bit of that video. That is exactly how I feel but nobody understands
sle061276 2 years ago
oh god. i feel the EXACT same way... your not alone (empty words... i'd think that if you said it to me)... i'm not diagnosed but fuck, i feel like this everyday.. and i just feel like i'm a whiney bitch! i have nothing to moan about... so why?
*hugs* xxx
charlottecraddock 2 years ago
Hey, you aren't alone in this. Thanks for sharing.
MyMartyMcfly 2 years ago
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Read Explaining colours to a blind man. Not only will it enlighten many as to what living with a mental illness is like, it also gives comfort to those sufferers who think there is no hope and that they are alone. It is very informative, sometimes shocking but also very funny in parts. All in all, a good read and highly recommended.
hsttraindriver 2 years ago
the song is 3 Days Grace - Animal
hiddenbehindstars 3 years ago
It's actually Animal I Have Become
InnocentUke 2 years ago
brilliant vid.... i know the feeling. I don`t suppose anyone could tell me the name of the song and who sings it, please, i would be really grateful.
StonedDory 3 years ago
awesome video! It has alot of the same images in my borderline video.
bpdhell 3 years ago
Great job on your vid.
I've been suffering for over 20 years so I know the pain get therapy if you can and dont stop going - it doesn't get easier if you try to make it on your own
aperfectingangel 3 years ago
hi brill vid... been diagnosed with bpd myself and find it hard 99.9% of the time lol if ya wanna caht message me x
pixelpixie84 3 years ago