Lauren, you know what? just leave everything to God. If you don't do the pacemaker you might leave us, and if you do, you might leave us too...God will provide, just keep your faith, you have overcome an incredibly big issue, so just live like there's no tomorrow (in a good way of course) and keep up the good work. Just know you're not alone. (I know, easy for me to say, but just want to lift your spirit) :O)
i love this video. for some reason. your honesty is incredibly inspiring and gives me so much hope - following your path of recovery is a very moving journey. i wish you all the best (and i'm so happy for your latest video!!!). you're beautiful inside and out, and i love you for posting it all. <3
..i feel i must comment for i relate to you on many levels. i know well of the pain and frustration that ed's cause people.
over the years i've realized that what is most important to understand about the path to recovery is knowing that it can all end if you really want it to..and in the end, that's the hardest bit of the truth left to swallow. you've got to want it. this is a truth that haunts me personally. :/
from one soul to another soul, i hope that you may find some peace.
let me just say, i've been on youtube since '07 & you are the FIRST person i've EVER subscribed to (just now). I don't have an eating disorder so i cant say i've been there but ur videos are SO inspiring (i watched them ALL 2nite.. pretty lame of me i know) & raw & i RESPECT the crap outta u for putting yourself out there. It's AMAZING how ur experience has helped so many & even me in a weird way. Stay strong!! I'll be praying for you, no doubt! :) oh and ur gorgeous by the way.. little jealous.
Hello, i have bulimia w/anorexic tendancies, and i've had an eating disorder for 7 years. i've watched all you videos, and i'm sorry how tough things have been. I was in treatment this past summer, but i've relapsed. Hearing that your 9 months free is so inspirational and i really hope that someday i can say that for myself. Do you have any advice for how i can prevent some of the medical issues that your currently going through?
Girl, you said what I couldnt wrap my brain around. Its so hard to know that the better we get, the harder the thoughts get, and it feels so counter-intuitive because we know how to "fix" it but that road is complete crap and not something to be desired. Hang in there girl, stay strong you are amazing!
Lauren, I can sense that your going through a realli rough patch atm and I can totally relate to you at the present time. Holidays are a very very hard time to get through especially Christmas and New Year. There probably the hardest. You're doing so well though, you're still fighting and you're staying strong and I must say that DOES inspire me. I'm sorry to hear about your heart, but hopefulli things will work out with that in a way or another. Take care of yourself, Ellie, xx
Lauren, I can feel this. I can. I am thinking it is interesting to have the b&w and the music... and I do, I hear how fucking hard this is. And mostly, why I feel how hard it is, I know it.
I have been there and that is why I maybe feel it so much. That it is a shared experience, and yet each persons experience is their own. If you ever want to talk, I am here. And I will always be. With love, Rache. And KNOW this does get easier, I promise. I promise. And I am so sorry about your heart. Please never give up on yourself xxx
Stay strong & true u! Ur spirit is so courageous and strong. Your angels and guides and the creator are helping u and r sooo proud of everything uve accomplished in this short amount of time.
my mum has a pacemaker and my 12 year old sister needs one for a disorder that runs in my family... honestly its not half as abd as it sounds. It doesnt stop my mum doing anything and shes alot healthier.
I'm new to your videos, so...hi. Just wanted to say that I identify, and that I know you must be feeling anxious and overwhelmed right now. But you also sound motivated and focused on your health, which takes SO much strength. Just wanted to wish you luck in your continuing recovery-I hope that things work out for you, and that you find the healthy future you deserve XXX
Keep hanging in there Lauren. You can make it. I'm going thru the same part right now in my recovery. That voice gets louder when you don't engage, but in time it will become softer.
Hopefully you remember me... it's Sarah Rzewski (from New Dawn?). I just wanted to let you know that I've kept up on your posts and I'm very proud of you for doing so well with your recovery! I've now been in recovery for a full year and I know how hard it can be. The body image stuff really does linger. :( But hang in there! You're doing great.
hon, I still struggle with body image and I've been symptom free for two years. it does get easier, but some days are still VERY tough. you can do this!
Hi Lauren. I just want to tell u again that ur beautiful. The black & white setting is nice. Ur honesty is priceless. I'll also pray for u. Luv, Susan
Lauren, my heart breaks for you and all the hardships you've been through. I'm amazed at your recovery and so thankful that you have shared your journey with us on youtube. I myself am recovering from an ED and it is hell, but I am hopeful. Your videos have been a source of hope for me. I truly hope you feel better about yourself soon! Please keep us updated about your health and how you're doing. Thank you for making these videos.
thank you, for some reason...your comment really resinates with me, so i just copied it into my journal...thank you. And yes, recovery is hell, but we can definitely do it!
Good luck with everything. I've been praying for you. I've done damage to my body as well. My therapist always reminds me that I can't change the past. I wish I could give you a hug. My body image used to be so bad. It helps me to remember that the way I preceive myself is so distorted and just wrong. Just know you are in my thoughts.
you seem like a lovely girl i almost feel like i know you after watching these videos and it makes me sad to see you unhappy,
czr7j9 1 year ago
Lauren, you know what? just leave everything to God. If you don't do the pacemaker you might leave us, and if you do, you might leave us too...God will provide, just keep your faith, you have overcome an incredibly big issue, so just live like there's no tomorrow (in a good way of course) and keep up the good work. Just know you're not alone. (I know, easy for me to say, but just want to lift your spirit) :O)
ivonciuca 1 year ago
i love this video. for some reason. your honesty is incredibly inspiring and gives me so much hope - following your path of recovery is a very moving journey. i wish you all the best (and i'm so happy for your latest video!!!). you're beautiful inside and out, and i love you for posting it all. <3
NaiadSoul393 1 year ago
..i feel i must comment for i relate to you on many levels. i know well of the pain and frustration that ed's cause people.
over the years i've realized that what is most important to understand about the path to recovery is knowing that it can all end if you really want it to..and in the end, that's the hardest bit of the truth left to swallow. you've got to want it. this is a truth that haunts me personally. :/
from one soul to another soul, i hope that you may find some peace.
namaste.
idotechno 2 years ago
You are incredibly inspiring.
sumkindawunnerful 2 years ago
this video made me cry
you are such an inspiration to me to recover
i really truely wish you the best of luck lauren
vissna1 2 years ago
let me just say, i've been on youtube since '07 & you are the FIRST person i've EVER subscribed to (just now). I don't have an eating disorder so i cant say i've been there but ur videos are SO inspiring (i watched them ALL 2nite.. pretty lame of me i know) & raw & i RESPECT the crap outta u for putting yourself out there. It's AMAZING how ur experience has helped so many & even me in a weird way. Stay strong!! I'll be praying for you, no doubt! :) oh and ur gorgeous by the way.. little jealous.
Divachik1390 2 years ago
Hello, i have bulimia w/anorexic tendancies, and i've had an eating disorder for 7 years. i've watched all you videos, and i'm sorry how tough things have been. I was in treatment this past summer, but i've relapsed. Hearing that your 9 months free is so inspirational and i really hope that someday i can say that for myself. Do you have any advice for how i can prevent some of the medical issues that your currently going through?
Hope your doing better this week.
firefly1297 2 years ago
If you need a pacemaker please get one. YOU NEED TO LIVE.
jackfromnyc 2 years ago
Lauren you are so inspiring to me!
waterandapples 2 years ago
thank you love, I am so glad!
laurenlivejournal 2 years ago
STAY STRONG! you do not wanna go back.... so stay strong. think about how much happier u are w/o it. you can get better
cnw730 2 years ago
Girl, you said what I couldnt wrap my brain around. Its so hard to know that the better we get, the harder the thoughts get, and it feels so counter-intuitive because we know how to "fix" it but that road is complete crap and not something to be desired. Hang in there girl, stay strong you are amazing!
Marissa0829 2 years ago
Lauren, I can sense that your going through a realli rough patch atm and I can totally relate to you at the present time. Holidays are a very very hard time to get through especially Christmas and New Year. There probably the hardest. You're doing so well though, you're still fighting and you're staying strong and I must say that DOES inspire me. I'm sorry to hear about your heart, but hopefulli things will work out with that in a way or another. Take care of yourself, Ellie, xx
BoomItsElz 2 years ago
Lauren, I can feel this. I can. I am thinking it is interesting to have the b&w and the music... and I do, I hear how fucking hard this is. And mostly, why I feel how hard it is, I know it.
WeRFreEDomFighters 2 years ago
I have been there and that is why I maybe feel it so much. That it is a shared experience, and yet each persons experience is their own. If you ever want to talk, I am here. And I will always be. With love, Rache. And KNOW this does get easier, I promise. I promise. And I am so sorry about your heart. Please never give up on yourself xxx
WeRFreEDomFighters 2 years ago
Stay strong & true u! Ur spirit is so courageous and strong. Your angels and guides and the creator are helping u and r sooo proud of everything uve accomplished in this short amount of time.
clovrmay 2 years ago
congrats on your progress!!! omg a physical therapist on top of everything else. stay strong.
aShiningStarX 2 years ago
stay strong girl :)
m5J1M3 2 years ago
my mum has a pacemaker and my 12 year old sister needs one for a disorder that runs in my family... honestly its not half as abd as it sounds. It doesnt stop my mum doing anything and shes alot healthier.
Sending you love.
lilkel86 2 years ago
You are so strong. Thats some really tough news, i wish i had your courage. Keep fighting, xxx
rebeccadblake 2 years ago
Everything's going to be all rigth!!! keep Figthing. You're strong!!!
saritaflynn 2 years ago
I'm new to your videos, so...hi. Just wanted to say that I identify, and that I know you must be feeling anxious and overwhelmed right now. But you also sound motivated and focused on your health, which takes SO much strength. Just wanted to wish you luck in your continuing recovery-I hope that things work out for you, and that you find the healthy future you deserve XXX
cheranne81 2 years ago
Keep hanging in there Lauren. You can make it. I'm going thru the same part right now in my recovery. That voice gets louder when you don't engage, but in time it will become softer.
GymnastBrit3 2 years ago
yes i cant stand to see you sad
steven7121 2 years ago
idk why, but watching this video makes me cry....
your sooo strong!!!
paintballer7449 2 years ago
you are so beautiful its poetic
steven7121 2 years ago
Hey Lauren,
Hopefully you remember me... it's Sarah Rzewski (from New Dawn?). I just wanted to let you know that I've kept up on your posts and I'm very proud of you for doing so well with your recovery! I've now been in recovery for a full year and I know how hard it can be. The body image stuff really does linger. :( But hang in there! You're doing great.
sarahjeangirl 2 years ago
hon, I still struggle with body image and I've been symptom free for two years. it does get easier, but some days are still VERY tough. you can do this!
angelicone515 2 years ago
Hey Lauren,
I know how that feels. But don't give up. It's worth fighting.
Hope you get healthy soon. Let's pray that the new meds will work.
Love you.
xoxo
Fran
todreamisagift 2 years ago
lauren, i hope your feeling a little better. you have come so far! keep it up you can do anything. your brilliant! xoxo
-madi
m5J1M3 2 years ago
Hi Lauren. I just want to tell u again that ur beautiful. The black & white setting is nice. Ur honesty is priceless. I'll also pray for u. Luv, Susan
weasalw 2 years ago
thank you so much, xo
laurenlivejournal 2 years ago
Keep up the good work hun. You are doing great. I will say a special prayer for you.
AngeloftheNight2386 2 years ago
Lauren, my heart breaks for you and all the hardships you've been through. I'm amazed at your recovery and so thankful that you have shared your journey with us on youtube. I myself am recovering from an ED and it is hell, but I am hopeful. Your videos have been a source of hope for me. I truly hope you feel better about yourself soon! Please keep us updated about your health and how you're doing. Thank you for making these videos.
trixy776655 2 years ago
thank you, for some reason...your comment really resinates with me, so i just copied it into my journal...thank you. And yes, recovery is hell, but we can definitely do it!
xo
laurenlivejournal 2 years ago
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@laurenlivejournal
You're very welcome. And yeah, I do think we can do it. Life is worth it!
trixy776655 2 years ago
Lauren,
Good luck with everything. I've been praying for you. I've done damage to my body as well. My therapist always reminds me that I can't change the past. I wish I could give you a hug. My body image used to be so bad. It helps me to remember that the way I preceive myself is so distorted and just wrong. Just know you are in my thoughts.
~Brianna
singinchick 2 years ago
Lauren,
So proud of you for all your recovery accomplishments. Praying for guidance and peace regarding your heart issues :-).
Thinking of ya hun - Joy -
Joy05cf 2 years ago
thank you Joy, so much.
xoxo
laurenlivejournal 2 years ago