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  • how can u be soo skinny? do u purge. i feel u.

  • whats binge?

  • Stay strong. I spent the night @ my uncles house and ended up eating 3 chocolate chip cookies, 2 oatmeal raisin cookies and 1 slice of cake with maple icing. I felt awful and it kept me up almost all night. But I didn't purge so that's a win.

  • Hold tight sweetie. I'm going through the same thing. Take care.

  • You are so beautiful <3

  • I ALWAYS purge when I binge, I could never just let all that food remain in my body. I spend hours in the bathroom, I don't care how long it takes. If you wanna be skinny, you've gotta be willing to face the toilet bowl for every bite you put in your mouth

  • ...why dont you just fuckn work out and not be a lazy ass instead of worrying about purging all your shit. fat is good for you body.

  • i just binged too. 10 wrappers of magic flakes (130 cal each), 1 full container of egg drop soup with turkey and green beans, 4 cups of yogurt, persimmons, plums,...it really is hard to stop. i kept going even though my stomach hurts. I just stopped seeing a boy i liked tho cuz i found blond hair strands in his hat. really really sucks. I want to eat more...i never vomit tho. Ill try to get it together tomorrow. Good luck with you, try not to overeat or under eat and you'll be fine.

  • today i ate two cheese sticks, a bagel, at least 15 oreos, some pretzels, half a bag of chips, some chocolate...and thats not even counting my normal breakfast, lunch or dinner

    i dont know why i keep doing this. im trying to lose weight not gain it! :(

  • Wats the song?

  • i do the same, so often :(

  • ur very nice and betuful

  • I just did this today, and I feel so fat.

  • let me tell you what i ate in one day: an entire box of fruity pebbles cereal with milk each bowl ( I didn't even care that it was regular fat milk, i was so hungry ), half a box of hot pockets, and the whole carton of banana split ice cream. so yeah, that was a horrible day for me. i wanted to die.

  • did you ever try cookies called "celebration" lol they are the bomb

  • why didn't you just purge? :(

  • @iloveyoupilot because once you start, it's so hard to stop

  • you tend to binge on similar foods as I do...

  • Hey, dont worry :)

    Please stay strong, and.....well, hope you make the right decision soon enough :)

    xx

  • you are so brave. i know exactly how you feel

  • Hope you're okay now :( I know exactly what this is like x

  • lol. I have to gain weight for heaLth reasons, and today I went over board and ate 22 chocolate chip cookies...I think Im gonna barf. I hate myself as well. dont worry I know how that feels. I just hope I dont gain too much weight until the next doctors appointment. :S

  • @cutiecookie23 Don't worry I ate 15 cookies, a bowl of pudding, two desert yogurts and a shitload of juice and milk. Yipeeeee.

  • I wont say I'm sorry, because I don't know what you are going through, but I am fructose intolerant-- so I can hardly eat anything with artificial sugaring. :/

  • i know what it feels like... :/

  • all of that was pure junk food...and i don't even eat that much junk food in a month

  • I'm curious, what does your typical day meal plan look like? A cause for binging is the body subconsciously asking you for food when it feels like it hasn't gotten in enough calories over an extended period of time.

  • fucking skinny girl!!!

  • I know how you feel.....but unfortunately, I have this but without the purging. So you can imagine how much weight I gain after a binge and how quickly I put weight on....

    It's awful.

  • @blackhorse099

    so you are me. i mean,the same problem.

  • You are beautiful. fuck all the haters. I have the exact same problems as you do and summer also just started for me. Im scared and I have been working out like crazy. I am in love with your channel. thank you for having this

  • i know exactly how you feel... and i never purge, asside from lax :(

  • thank you for showing me that i am not alone in this. that this doesnt only happen to me.

  • Your stunning hun, don't worry about this binge, just learn from bad experience xxx

  • You're gorgeous and very brave!

  • oh hun.. wish we knew how to eat right : [

  • Remember that time OP doesn't need to worry about her weight?

  • You're stunning... and very brave for posting this. Keep goings and stay strong ♥

  • haha how do you have all this tasty food to binj on, when i binj i basically rid the kitchen of everything sweet within 3k calories and have to cook my own greasy salty stuff after that

  • I know what it feels like to be pressured to be "skinny and beautiful" by family members.

    They don't realize that it is detrimental, mentally.

  • i want to make it clear: IF YOU ARE A BINGE EATER, GET PROFFESIONAL HELP NOW!!

    this is not about learning to control food intake, but about learning to assess your feelings and dealing with aspects of your life that you otherwise handle through food. buy self help books on the topic and see a therapist, but realize you're using food like an alchololic uses alcohol and therefore you have to take responsibility for changing your life.

  • @vampiregeek995 I'm so in! I've needed an anti-binge buddy too! Message me plz!

  • I feel so full right now, but your videos really help. I overate last night and all day today....I didn't keep track of the exact amounts really..not enought to list them anyway. I most definately want to start these documentaries like you do though, as soon as I reach my goal of a video camera.

  • hi,wanted to say that i had the same problem, and that you might want to see a counselor about this because binge eating sources from underlying emotional issues.DO NOT PURGE!Bulimia has a surprisingly enormous amount of terrible, terrible side-effects.What personally helped me was going on a juice fast to cleanse my body, but i would only do it under the supervision of a doctor.you are a beautiful young girl, and your body deserves to be treated with love and respect. You owe it to yourself!

  • this happens to me about every three weeks, and its terrible because i then cant stop eating for about 4 days after and then i end up starving myself for 3 weeks and the cycle starts again. how do you get back on track????

  • aww girly you are so pretty and gorgeous...hope whatevers making you feel empty in life goes away or changes

  • Hi. I just binged. I ate: thai fish cakes x5 pineapple fried rice i whole bag of assorted xmas cookies and a huge box of almond chocolates. and i did the same last night. tomorrow, im starting a fast. which is going to be challenging because it will be xmas eve? does anybody want an anti bindge buddy? maybe we can dtop these binges by regularly 'topping up' on fruits and low cal things (like strawberries, MINUS CAL!) throught the day so we dont binge.. im 15 and 102, 5'4 personal messege me!
  • binges happen. Don't worry about it. Just move on and tommorow is another day. You are very beautiful :)

  • I know what you're going through... It happens to me, all the time.

    Just wanted to say that you're such a beautiful person and deserve more than this - keep trying, never give up

  • @lillylioh Don't forget you deserve more than this too. <3

  • @lillylioh if you ate all of that, it's no wonder you are so fat. 

  • @ed9s fuck you asshole

    

  • @DialmyDorm not only you are a binger but rude with a dirty mouth. Didn't your mother teach you manners?

  • hey. I just binged. 3 huge cookies, 2 lemon bars, 2 cups of turkey, 2 cups of mashed potatoes, apple pie, a cup of stuffing. Yes left over thanksgiving food. But at least i did not throw up. you kinda helped me with that :) I hope you get better because you are an amazing and beautiful person. You have really helped me

  • @Escapethegrace5 awww...good job on not throwing up! one step at a time. =)

    I'm glad that i've helped you some how. <3

  • I can completely empathise with you. I have binge eating disorder but am not overweight, however every time I binge I feel morbidley obease. The guilt afterwards isthe worst feeling I've ever experienced... unfortunately nobody who has a healthy relationship with food could ever understand ;/

  • PLEASE know you are not alone. I am recovering from anorexia, and now I have developed binge eating. I go for the peanut butter and marshmallows :) I've never purged, but I deal with that gross feeliing of too much food all the time. How you can stop this behavior is by noticing a pattern in binges. For instance, I notice that I only binge when Im alone. So, I only eat with other people around. Also, have lots of low to 0 calorie foods (popcorn, pickles, fruit, celery, etc.) in case you crave it

  • I'm glad you DIDN'T purge.

    Honey, you are so beautiful, and that wouldn't change if you gained 50lbs. You are THAT gorgeous, seriously. Stop thinking you're overweight because you are anything but.

  • Im just kidding and i know its really not that much...im not a fat guy but i love food and binge once in a while too:) i like seeing and befriending girls who do it also or at least have passion for food:)

  • That was 3,650 calories.

  • @316sina if you dont believe me, thats fine. but i know to some other girls with the same issues as mine, that amount of food is nothing.

    its amazing and horrifying to realize the amount of food a person can eat

  • @ClearUncertainty Yes, and they've even created a competitive sport for it now... "competitive eating." I really hope it's not giving people struggling with bulimia nervosa an excuse to binge more often.

  • @316sina Wowww thats so stupid. yup she just went thru her trash and picked out wrappers. seriusly? get a brain

  • @oceantulip411 People like you are the reason people like us ( eating disordered people) have such a hard time being understood. You obviously have no idea that a girl her size, with an ED easily can manage to eat all that. With no control of her actions. Don't just watch a video and write a comment like that. You're talking about stuff that you have no idea about.

  • @Lovethinspo93 So because im sticking up for her you tell me i dont understand? I stuggle with EDs as well and i dont need to give you more info...but before you critize remember what does around comes around and your gonna have people telling you your wrong.

    its not worth fighting.

    bye!

  • @Lovethinspo93 Think you replied to the wrong person...it was someone else that said she didn't eat all that stuff..idk..just thought you might have responded wrong "/

  • @316sina Are you fucking joking? Jesus, if you don't understand ED's, then PLEASE, do me a favour and stay the fuck off of this video. Obviously she ate it you idiot. What do you think, she fakely made this to gain attention from idiots like you? No.

  • I am so proud of you telling us about it. Stay strong girl! I know what big binges are like, and i know that ppl usually dont really get it, telling you how skinny you are & why you would do such thing to yourself. Or dont believe you at all. But it feels suckish!

    How are you now? Any improvements?

  • sounds like someone went through a breakup? alol jk

  • I notice a heavy preference for sugary things. What's with the sweet tooth?

  • why exactly do you binge...? what emotions go through you before you start?

  • @Alive4Metal Sometimes when I binge I have that "given up" mentality and I allow myself to eat and eat and not care anymore. I am usually either really down or angry about something. & so binging kind of takes that feeling or focus away...If I was sad, Im filled with food instead of sadness or emptiness. If I was angry, allowing myself to eat so much is almost like Im punishing myself.

    I really don't know though. Eating in general is my coping mechanism I guess...

  • @ClearUncertainty i hear ya girl its fucked how much i can eat sometimes .

  • @ClearUncertainty man i really know that given up mentality, like what it feels like. but a way i learned to cope with it and not binge again is i rethink back to the times i have binged, and how crappy i felt both physically, mentally and emotionally, its just not worth it, going from feeling like crap, binging and then feeling like sh*t lol. also i like to think to myself that even if i make a diet slip up, i wouldnt flat all my car wheels just because one went flat kind of thing.

  • Whoever rvggarcon is clearly doesn't know a thing about eating disorders or the fight to overcoming them. Good for you for putting this up, it is a step to recovery, don't be ashamed, I know this was a year ago, I hope you're doing better, I'm going to go watch all your vids. xoxo

  • i can relate :( thanks for sharing

  • Attention whoring much? (no offense)

  • @rvggarcon LoL, i guess me posting videos about my eating disorder that I am truly ashame of is... just for attention...? & even though that last thing I would want to happen is for someone I knew to find out about these videos and find out the worse part about me, I want attention sooo much that this is the only reason why i post these videos...

    because i am attention whoring much. ok.

  • @ClearUncertainty I didn't mean any offense by it, but I mean if you're truly ashamed of your illness, you wouldn't be posting these videos for everyone to see. It almost seems like you're bragging about being bulimic. You look good by the way, but that's just how your videos come across.

  • @rvggarcon oh, well i guess you gotta have something like bulimia to understand why sometimes its better to talk about how you feel than to just keep it all inside. & its not something i can share with those around me. id rather have strangers hate me or turn away than those i actually share relationships with.

  • @rvggarcon You obviously don't have an eating disorder or compasion for that matter. Your comment is so typical

  • @catheirnejessicasmit I've actually gone through the same thing as you. I just think if she's really ashamed of it she wouldn't be posting it on youtube. I know a lot of girls who just do it for attention.

  • Fuck it, nothing to worry about, infact it probably did you some good. I mean lets be honest, there's not an once of fat on you, if you get any thinner you'll put your health at risk.

  • lmfao hah hah hah !!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats like one pound of fat gained

  • @Bobby25ification yup...

  • If I could binge and still look like you I would binge everyday.

  • well duh you're body is telling you you're hungry.

    4 words for you hun

    STARVING KIDS IN AFRICA.

  • thats like impossible to eat all that !

  • @ayymamiix0 actually its easier than u think...you just feel like a bowling ball after..

  • I know how it is. Some days I'll eat everything in the fridge and more and others I don't eat at all. It's horrible.

    Get better. You're beautiful.

    God bless :)

    -Bethany

  • your very beautiful hun!! <3 best wishes too you i hope you can overcome this don't feel ashamed. i love you. :) & this song is amazing. Love kristyn. xox

  • Yesterday I binged.

    Big mac AND a jr mcchicken from mcdonalds.

    Came home and ate two slices of deluxe delissio pizza

    Made myself a small milkshake

    Ate a bunch of sweedish fish, gummy bears, and chocolate.

    I DON'T ever purge. I just binge then try to make up for it the next day by eating less or working out.... damn :( I just can't stop

  • dude... not a good thing, but you know that already... dont you? did you know thats theres such a thing having a good personality? I mean you're hot. but are you a good person? just saying. and Im not trying to insult you. when you have problems like these it means u judge yourself harshly. does that mean your HARSHLY judging others. I mean if you think YOUR ugly, what do you think about other people who ARE fat? not a good thing and i think thats worse part in this.

  • @taxt17 thats the thing...even though i may harshley judge myself, it doesnt mean thats how i percieve others... I can look at a curvy girl & think how pretty she is. & i think thats how it is with others who are going through the same thing as myself.

  • @ClearUncertainty I dont mean to offend but these types of disorders just dont register with me. very hard for me to understand. I mean Im overweight by like 40 lbs, and I struggle to loose it. I guess its the opposite when you struggle to gain it. I mean I know alot people say shit like this but THE most important thing in a finding a mate is how good of a personality they have. I mean WE all get ugly when we get old anyway. Ask my parents who are in the middle of a divorce.

  • How wonderful :D Your posting your shitty confidence on the internet .-. YOUR BEAUTIFUL Why do you do this to yourself D: Well.. Continue on . .. making your life even worse -.-

  • You poor thing :( hang in there, you are stronger than this disease. Anorexia doesn't define you, you define yourself! You can fight this

  • You're very beautiful... I know these words mean nothing to you. The few times I've heard them, they haven't meant anything to me, and I still binge...

    It's SO strong of you to keep it down there!

  • @Bissen Hopefully one day soon those words will mean something & me and you both will believe them

  • @Bissen wow sucks we all have this damn problem i can relate so well to you in that vid not something i like to share but i refuse to lie to myself..

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  • @PINKbyVictoriaS i do too...

  • everything is presevered high sugar packaged junk! Maybe you wouldn't be binging if you got rid of packaged foods and just cooked everything fresh yourself!

  • You're gorgeous!! Believe me!

  • @foodsux4 I want to believe you with every bone in my body...

  • i finished one huge ass bag of tortilla chips by myself today. and i feel really terrible.

  • Out of curiosity - why didn't you purge?

  • God bless all of the ppl suffering from eating disorder please

    Love u all ppl!!!

    GL

  • same here girl I didn't purge just ran like 5:30 hours non stop the next day then binged again on a 7000 calories overcame it already few months ago by praying really my very first time n I m a Christian now no jking

    U r hot though :P

    Sorry if I said sth wrong..

  • awww im sorry hun D:

  • I binged about an hour ago.

    Ate a chicken, veggie, & rice stirfry, 5+ servings of Pops Cereal/Cheerios, 2 cups soymilk, 1 bag of lowfat popcorn (2 1/2 servings), and some frozen yogurt.

    Also chew/spit 8 Choco pies.

    Yeah, my life is fantastic.

  • I'm so confused about my own problems. When I purge I can never throw everything up. It hurts so bad and I throw up just about anything I eat. ;-; So miserable yet I don't think there could be anything that wrong. Can't be. Sigh.

  • im about to binge right now...

  • how does your stomach hold that much food? i am a big eater but i doubt i could eat that much

  • @DolceVita at the time i just wanted to stuff all the food i can down just to fill this void i felt...but i dont even know how i was able to keep all of it in...

  • @DolceVita

    yeh she eats alll of that and yet she's sooo skinny

    ur soo lucky

  • @darkangle70s I didnt think i was that skinny. I used to over excerise to make up for all the food i ate as well...

  • @ClearUncertainty

    i'm glad ur better now

    btw u r soooo beautiful and u shouldnt let that get to u again ever

    i used to be bulimic too and i felt soooo satisfied everytime i purged but then i had a wake up call and i realized i was killing myself so i recovered alone

    my parents didnt even know about the whole thing and it lasted 7 months lol

    we all love u

    keep up the videos

    btw i used to think i was suppper fat and i only weight 117 pounds

    it's pretty crazy how it makes u blind right?

  • @darkangle70s sometimes i wish i could recover alone. having people there to support you is great...but sometimes i wish they didnt know how hard i have fallen...

  • Thank you so much for sharing, you are not alone....

  • please, tell me that you're going in therapy? you need to get a sense of self worth, or it won't go away. you're hurting yourself, and you deserve better. what happened to you? i'm not prying, i just know that there's often traumas behind this sort of self destructive behaviour. i binged, without purging, since i was a kid because of serious trauma (but didn't gain any weight) and it seemed like it wouldn't stop, but it does get better. i not addicted to it anymore. you can fix this.

  • I'm talking to someone right now about it... im not sure exactly what happened but since i could remember, i've been stuck with this idea in my head that i was just not good enough (& it doesn't necessarily mean being pretty enough). all i know is that i hit my breaking point when my first boyfriend broke up with me...pathetic...yes...i know...i was 15.

  • yeah, i know. it has nothing to do with appearance, it's just the way it manifest itself, it's about lack of self worth. it really is. is the therapy working? it's important that you talk to someone you feel actually manage to make a difference, even if it is a small one. this takes time. everything will be alright, that I promise you :)

  • I think the therapy is working. In the beginning it gave me this chunk of hope. & i think right, hope is what i need.

  • good luck with everything. it's important to hang in there, and keep believing that you're worth fighting for.

  • What the hell? There is no way you could eat that in one sitting. You look like you are 100 pounds soaking wet. I am really confused about this whole binging thing, is it purely mental? because I can't see why the body would demand or want that much energy/calories at one time.

  • you would be surprised...some of us can eat way more in one sitting. but it's not like we binge, or at least i dont, everyday. and yes, it is mental. sometimes i use eating to ignore other emotions or to distract myself from problems or issues. its like im trying to overfeed my body to numb whatever i feel inside. =/

  • this video was kinda triggering for my eating disorder

  • im sorry  =/

  • I don't know how all that fited in your tummy!! I hate binging =/ I been doing it all week augh! I've never been this out of control. the most I've binged is 2,000 cal

    and I'm 124 lbs. I can't believe youre so skinny! anyways I hope you get better. an ed s not pretty =[ *hugs*

  • when this happened, i needed to lie down...

  • wow, you're so pretty...

  • i hope you are doing better now. i just binged right now :( not feeling too good. and i hate it because its something that i feel i can't control.....

  • first of all, I just want to say you are beautiful! and I see alot of people are saying stuff like "I have never ate that much" "I could never eat that much" etc. I deal with bingeing and I know comments like that only make me feel worse. When I binge I eat just as much if not more than you did. I just purge by barely eating for awhile, but I'm stuck in a cycle of bingeing, and trying to get better. I hope you do too <3

  • thanks...& yes...those comments do make me feel kinda worse...

    & i hope the same for you <3

  • i don't know how you managed to eat all of that but wow! that alot more than me. the most i've had was 2700 calories and yea i purged.

    i hope u get better cause u are so pretty! :)

    i remember when i binged once (only 1500) and i didn't purge and i could just feel all the food inside me but eww it was gross. i know how u feel :(

  • you gorgeous ,

    and brave :)

  • i just love food <3

  • ok? LoL, i guess 100lbs is fat for you then. you make skinny people anorexic.

    thats sad.

  • I like that you are so honest...a lot of people stop posting when they binge, or they avoid accountability. This video is admirably honest. You can get over this, you're strong.

  • you know what, that's a big binge, BUT i am sooooo proud of you for keeping it in your stomach! woohoo way to go! i am anorexic but my best friend used to be bulimic she got through it and i know you can too. you're very thin! dont lose more weight! you look great stay strong i know you can get through this.

  • you have so much more faith in me than i do...i really hope i can get through this...

  • i've had worst. trust me.

    I started this diet (The cheat to lose diet, aka cheat your way thin) and you get to have a cheat day in which you are free to eat whatever you want, well, mine was every sunday (still kinda is but i control myself now) and come 5 am on sunday i'd start eating everything in sight, it was crazy, and i stuffed my face all day long and felt horrible, but i know that was the only day i could eat things that i liked, but i'm out of it now

  • <3

    im glad its over for you

  • To be honest, you are not even REMOTELY fat! Stop trying to restrict your food, stop worrying about it, and the urges to binge will go away! Just eat when you like, and the binges will become so unimportant, you will not even be tempted! Then the self hate will stop, and you will be able to lead a NORMAL, un-stressed, FREE life!! Trust me hun, I've been there. If you wanna message me or anything please feel free. Take care. xxx

  • come binge at my house anytime damn girl your hot

  • lmao i've totally eaten all that at once. and i couldn't puke either. it was bad.

  • @sufoodse that sucks for you.

  • wow that was alot. ive only had that much a few times.

  • O . O Wow, I thought that -my- binges were bad.

    <3 I hope that you find peace and healing soon. It is a difficult battle.

  • i downloaded this song on my ipod after watching your video :)

  • This illness sucks. I wish there was some sort of loop whole :/

    take care and love the song (:

    x

  • fuck your so cute

    let's go to a castle in the sky and binge eat together X D

  • I'm a guy and I have a question. If I'm purging only to relieve a stuffed stomach am I still considered belimic?

  • If you're doing this periodically...i think so.

    =/

  • i'm asian too and also a binge eater, but you can still save yourself from this and weight gain; I've fallen too deep and now i have a lot to lose, please get some help.

  • I do that....and what's sad is sometimes (like today for instance)I'll start it off with a salad, then I eat a whole pan of brownies, then I'll eat some muffins, shepard's pie (4 servings), half a watermelon....and I've forgotten what else I've had tonight....sad huh?

  • Omg i do the same thing and with the same exact food you eat too!

    And your soooo pretty i wish i can do that and not get fat! don't worry its a better day tommorow ....rite?

  • omg so much food and you're so thin!

    i wish i had your metabolism....

  • trust me...its not really the metabolism...

    =/

  • stay strong:)

  • lol i know right!

    talk about FASTING For the next few days!

  • fasting kinda and excerising...hahha

  • I suffered from purging anorexia for 4 years.

    may i invite yu to a site? i wil send you a message babe

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  • oh but you're so beautiful..

    please get rid of that evil, disgusting food!!

    please...

    thin = perfection

    <3

  • =/

    i think im doing better now...

  • great (:

  • Your food digested well?