@citcat299 Thank you very much. I am glad you enjoyed it. Please share it with others so people can begin to understand what is looks like and feels like to experience Bipolar.
I have shown this video to many people over the past year and just wanted to thank you so much for making it. It is a fantastic thing you have done enabling myself and many others to explain what happens in our heads. You have given us a gift - keep creating!
I hope you are well and happy xxx And if you are not then i hope you have good support as you have suppported so many people through creating these videos :)
@whiskerkill Oh my gosh. Thank you so much. I am glad you found it helpful. That was why I made it. I am very glad it has been a helpful tool to you. I made the video to depict what goes on in my head so "normal people" can finally begin to understand & feel some freaking empathy. I am tired of the lack of empathy & compassion. I get 0 empathy, compassion & sympathy from my own family. Instead they are vile, cruel, scary, violent, intimidating & threatening.
Firstly, congratulations on making a video thats as close as i have ever seen to replicating what goes on in our heads during a Hypomanic phase. I was blown away.
Secondly, thank you for trying to raise awareness of our condition.Even though several celebrities (Steven Fry, Catherine Zeta-Jones) have Bipolar, it still is not widely recognised, and even less widely understood.
@Th3venom91 Thank you so much. That is sweet of you. I was trying to show people what goes on in my head when I experience racing thoughts as they cannot understand when I verbally explain it to them. I decided to show it to them visually. A medical school in Australia asked me if they could use it as a teaching tool for doctors and nurses. I agreed and gave a release. I thought that was cool. If it helps them to learn I am all for it. A hospital in New Zealand used is for a seminar.
@amytriptalene I hadn't thought about that. That is a good idea. Unfortunately I did not save the images separately from the text. I didn't think to do that. I am sorry. It never occurred to me. It is all still pictures. There is no video. When it moves that is still images moving at 30 frames per second. It is over 1,000 images. I don't think I can recreate it. Sorry. I'll think about a new one with no text.
I searched my computer and I did not save the video I made. I didn't keep all the images once I was done as it was over 1,000 images. I forgot and began deleting them so now the video has empty spaces. Oops. I was Hypomanic when i made the video & I just forgot. I'm not very organized when Hypomanic.
@amytriptalene I have Bipolar and ADHD so I ping pong back and forth from task to task and don't complete any one thing from start to finish. I call it multi tasking to cover up the fact that I am ill and have problems. I try to limit myself to doing only five things at once. When it gets to 12 things it is out of control. I am good at starting things. Not so good at finishing.
@HidingFromEveryone wow that must be hard, im cyclothymic.. although ive had 2psychotic episodes each lasted about 3wks each. Everyone always says "you're so lucky to be so full of energy and enthusiastic etc.." but I hate it, the awful thoughts that go with it, and the fact when I do things Im very impulsive and theres no planning at all behind my enthusiam. You've done a good job on this video. I hope ur doing ok at the moment. Wishing you all the best.x
@amytriptalene I've improved since starting vitamin L-Methlyfolate. It turns out I am B Vitamin anemic. That is why I suicidal. I also improved since upping my T3. I read a scientific journal about how a lot of people with Bipolar are deficient in T3. I have Thyroid Disease from Lithium killing my Thyroid. Increasing my T3 has helped a lot. Have you tried L-Methylfolate? Scientists believe 40% of Bipolar patients need it. No prescription needed. See Deplin dot com for details
@Nashhinton Only if you have Hypersexuality. Hypersexuality is rare.
It feels like a never ending hunger for sex. I have it and I never feel satisfied no matter how much sex I have. It is never enough. I always want more, more, more. My appetite is insatiable. It feels like a bottomless pit I am trying fill, but it is impossible to fill the pit because there is no bottom. Now I am used to I can never get enough & have to live with it. I am always dissatisfied.
I get the rhyming thing too. Not only that, but I'll have like full on clang speech and after awhile I haven't got a goddamn clue what I'm talking about , I'm just riding on the feeling of my own voice. I'm sure I could never make it up to the people around me for going along with it and staying by my side. It's a journey all in it's own.
@HidingFromEveryone Haha - usually it's only an inconvenience and doesn't suck that much. It's when hypomania turns into mania that it gets really intolerable. ;)
@aC1dxN1gHtM4rEs Rhyming is a quirky thing, but the other symptoms of Hypomania are a big problem. Racing thoughts gave me trouble in under grad and grad school. I had a terrible time studying for finals. I had a terrible time paying attention to my profs. School was terribly tough for me.
I dont care about cchr.org church belifes i belive in human rights. I had some bipolar symtoms and that gives no hospital the right to lock the door, abuse me,force drugs on me, say my hatred of those drugs is a symptom of an illness with no pysical test DSM V, and then send me a bill for it. CCHR.org helps prevent abuse of those accused of mental illness period.
@AkathisiA101 CCHR is nothing but an arm of the Church of Scientology. I can not get on board with them. They are against all meds even aspirin. That is just silly. This website just promotes the Church of Scientology belief system and recruits more people. They are known for being mean, nasty & aggro in their approach. You do not live in the LA area so you have idea who & what they are. They are not what they seem.
@AkathisiA101 I don't believe in them! From the "About Us" Page: "CCHR was co-founded in 1969 by the Church of Scientology and Professor of Psychiatry Emeritus Dr. Thomas Szasz..." Anything owned, run by or supported by the Scientologists is total crap.
Thanks for this... it helps those who experience it feel less alone, and maybe brings some understanding to those who don't, but may love someone who does.
I was just wondering. I think that this is what I possibly have. Also this video almost seem to relax me a bit that's how fast my mind works sometimes. Otherwise it's exactly what I am going through. Is that also part of it???
@theblazen70 Have you look at the NIMH site, bipolar? Have you looked at the website for DBSA (as listed at the bottom of my video)? NAMI has good articles on their site and classes to educate people. From what little you have told me it is not enough information for me to go on. I really can't make a guess either way. Sorry, I need more information that what you are giving me. Bipolar is UP and down. You have to have the manicy up & the lowest of low. Do you have both? If not? How can I tell?
I am bipolar as well and you summed it up perfectly. Racing thoughts are terrible, thoughts are the backgrounds for other thoughts which are the backgrounds of other thoughts and there are images quotes and songs repeating and racing through so fast its impossible to sort through. I think forgetting is the worst, the last one I went through, I forgot nearly a week!
@CrystalZhai I'm glad you understood the video. Everything overlaps and there are no thoughts by themselves when the thoughts race. Everything overlaps. Things repeat like they are on a reel to reel tape from the 70s. People who do not have racing thoughts can not understand. It is frustrating to make myself understood so I made this video to get my point across. Even my bf can't understand.
Thank you so much for all your help, I'm male by the way. It's all very confusing, I will note everything down in my journal! :) I'm scared if It's bipolar, that doesn't go away right? =/ But I do know it can be treated x
@BrandyDarko for males the most common misdiagnosis is "schizophrenia" instead of bipolar. you have to have a psychiatrist who is well, well versed is "mood disorder" and knows what they doing and doesn't just gloss over "mood disorder" or pay them lip service. i would advise using a web site that is a doc referral site controlled by patients or a word of mouth to get the best service.
The motion sickness you mentioned, I feel like I have that...my head feels light...like there's a part missing, but my body feels great inside. But aches outside. I don't understand...is this normal part of Depression or?
@BrandyDarko I don't know. It might be over medication. I found the ringing in my ears, blurry vision, spots in front of eyes all went away when I lowered my meds. It is possible the motion sickness feeling is to much meds. In fact what I just described is a sign of over dose. The doc over prescribed. It is possible the motion sickness feeling is also over medication/over prescription and over dose. I found this out on my own by looking up the symptoms, my meds and playing w/ my meds dosage.
Can some1 give me advice, I feel so strange at the moment. I have been diagnosed with Clinical Depression, but about 3 days ago it just disappeared, all except the guilt and feeling unloved/worthless. But suddenly I feel energized, I've started using the wii fit, I have been inspired to paint,write,play piano and all sorts...but my thoughts are absolutely racing... I couldn't even say what I'm seeing, but Suicidal ideation and self harm and dominating the racing thoughts and I have bad insomnia
@BrandyDarko I doubt you have clinical depression. I think you have been misdiagnosed. Your misdiagnosis is quite common for women. What you describe indicates to me you are instead dealing with bipolar. I don't know which kind, but whoever diagnosed you is an idiot. In my in opinion you are a fast cycling bipolar person. I don't know which kind, but the most common kind of bipolar is bipolar II. Please look at NIMH & DBSA for more info. You need a psychiatrist who treats mood disorders
@BrandyDarko Bad insomnia means you are now in hypomania or mania land if it comes with racing thoughts. Inspired to paint, write, play piano is hypomania/mania. Welcome to the dark side. Sudden energy = hypomania/mania. None of what you describe is normal. It is not a normal recovery from depression. What you describe is a typical bipolar person. You are cycling up and down. Sorry I didn't notice at first. Just woke up.
@BrandyDarko If you feel suicidal ideation and want to self harm while you are up that is called a "mixed cycle" and it is very concerning. A mixed cycle is difficult treat and you really need to get your butt into the office a new psychiatrist who is familiar with "mood disorders" and who can treat a "mixed cycle" better than the person you have now. I've had mixed cycles. They are no picnic. They are stubborn and take a long time to pull a person out of them.
@BrandyDarko A Mixed Cycle + Fast Cycling is the worst possible combination. I have been there and it is really, really difficult to get out of that situation. It takes patience. It takes a good doc and you can't give up. It takes special/particular meds to pull you out. You can't pull yourself out by yourself. You need the right meds to do it. You need the right doc who is well informed. Get the wrong doc or you are screwed. Antidepressants pop bipolars back up into hypomania/mania so avoid.
@HidingFromEveryone Oh my God, thanks for telling me...It went like just just as I started anti depressants! I told my doctor but she said it was a normal reaction to have and that it will come down and suggest I keep taking them. I'm confused about what to do now =/ This happened before when I was given different anti depressants and 2 weeks later...I ended up in hospital with a suicide attempt, I really don't want that to happen, but the doctor suggests to keep taking them :S
@BrandyDarko My suggestion? New doc. Yours sucks. Most do. I think 80% of docs suck ass. Look for one that specializes in "mood disorders" and even then they can suck! Check out sites patients use to write up up docs to find a good doc. ratemymd is one site, but there are others.
Antidepressants can pop a bipolar patient up into mania/hypomania and send you into cycling. Then you are in trouble. You are back in fast cycling hell. Some docs use them, but sparingly, NOT in a regular dose!
@BrandyDarko 1. find a new doc who treats mood disorders. you're doc isn't any good. you need a new one. 2. look on doc rating sites to see if you can find a highly rated doc. 3. look up any med a doc gives you to see what are the side effects and what you can expect of that drug 4. the usual main drugs a person with bipolar takes is: mood stabilizers and lithium. they rarely take antidepressants. those are reserved for clinical depression 5. journal so you know if you improve or go downhill
@BrandyDarko it is important once you start treatment with psych drugs to keep a journal and note down how you feel. your physical symptoms, mental/emotional symptoms, changes since starting a med. do you improve? do you get worse? are you the same/no improvement? dosages, names of meds, date start of med, end date of med as you will need this for your medical records & your records. look up drugs on the Internet to know what to look out for. call doc at signs of trouble.
creating.i also had very colourful and 'like a movie' dreams,and if i didnt work,some pictures came to my head all the time.after i spent it all on work the 5th day,big exhausting came,that i couldnt barely walk.even create smtg.now am ok,but just yest i had kind of that feeling again ,but i went to sleep and it stopped.i realised,that this mania stig come after i am in some stresed situations.
but never though about suicide or something,i rarely have a depresion,just a stress.
if you are feeling this way it means you are a "fast cycler" AKA: rapid cycler going in and out of being manicy. fast cyclers cycle 4 or more within one year which is not that often. it means you need to look for some way to control the manicy cycles. i take lithium, but the draw backs to this drug are numerous. it has nearly killed my thyroid & can damage the kidneys & liver. it requires blood tests often.
sometimes manic/hypomanic spells will come about because of medical issues such as thyroid disease and adrenal fatigue. if you see an endocrinologist, get blood tests and they treat you for any thyroid disease issues and adrenal fatigues issues some of your problems may clear up. not everything about bipolar really is strictly a bipolar issue, but instead a physical health issue mimicking bipolar or causes bipolar. i've seen this in my own mental and physical health.
i have similar symptoms,had a 10 days ago.but dont know if it was a mania in BP or just a hypomania.i realised i had that feeling 1st about 3 years ago when i suddenly woke up after 2 hours sleeping full of energy.-i spent it on chattin with a friends.it was just a day i think.this time i had it for 4 or 5 days,and symptoms were:
heart beating fastly and strongly,muscle tension,little worse coordinating body moving,felt full of energy,ideas,felt like my brain is woking on 150% so i spent it on
@latecia1 have you looked at the NIMH site, DBSA site or similar sites for descriptions of mania (bipolar I) v. hypomania (bipolar II)? this would give you clarification as to what the difference is. there are not enough characters for me to write it here.
@Automobilie no. not until you want to go talk to the drug companies. they'd be happy to take your money and agree with you. only 20% of the population fall w/i a "mood disorder" of a clinical depression or bipolar. unless you meet this criteria you are you not w/i the parameters.
i can relate to this more than i can put to words. i have been struggling for a long time with what i thought was depression then bipolar 2 and now im wondering if i had undiagnosed add and dyslexia as a child that lead to my slow metal break down im really not sure and am very scared of talking to anyone about it as i can never express myself in a way that matches what im thinking, great video btw love your choice of music/images. peace, love
@AlexandraHutchko In a situation like yours I would suggest trying out a group session such as DBSA to see if they are for you or not. They have worldwide meetings. They are a charity. I went to their office for meeting info and cried the whole time so I could not speak. They were gentle with me when I needed it the most. dbsalliance (dot ) org. you can find meeting times and locations on their site. they took care of me. i hope they can take care you. dbsalliance dot org. please look up.
I wish you all the best, Hiding. I've got to have surgery on my arm tomorrow because I lost concentration and nearly took my hand off sharpening a sickle to scalpel levels. Time for a drugs review I think :)
Not as far as I know. I just get really, really interested in things for about 20 minutes and then get bored and find something else to get really interested in :)
@AlchemicalDavid ADD/ADHD???? have you looked up either of those disorders to see if you fall w/i those boundaries? OCD is an obsessive disorder. ADD & ADHD does cause people to lose attention and focus on what they were doing. I have both OCD & ADHD. My OCD is not severe so I can hide it. My ADHD is noticeable so sometimes people call me out on it. Is your problem to this level?
@AlchemicalDavid Does your problem interfere with work or school? If so it is time to look at getting help. It can impact your education negatively. It can cause you career setbacks if you can't focus, concentrate and stay on track. Your career suffers. You don't get promoted. You make less money. You languish at a certain level in your career and do not advance. You have to figure out how to pull it together or that is your future. Not very pretty is it?
One of the problems with our disease is the comorbidity that always seems to present. I'm 42 and unable to hold down a 'proper' job. I found that out a long time ago - you learn to adapt. I have my own safety consultancy (yeah - ironic) and I'm very lucky in that I'm quite intelligent. I managed to get a degree in chemistry/biochemistry and an MSc despite the odd 2 weeks off on the piss-up :D
@AlchemicalDavid i didn't know what you meant by piss-up so i had to look it up. i'm still not clear on it as it has different meanings in different countries, but it always seems to involve heavy drinking/binge drinking. do you do this often? is this a means of coping?
it is common for a person who has a mental illness to be above normal intelligence. the mentally ill are rarely stupid. the mentally ill can also be well accomplished academically before the illness carries them away.
I'm English - we murder the language more than Americans :P Yeah - I've been known to self-medicate. It doesn't help. You (I) might think it does but I'm not that stupid - I know it makes things worse. I still do it.
And thick tits don't have the imagination to be this bad LOL It takes some serious IQ to invent the things I (we?) are capable of.
I have bipolar II, and when in hypomania, I usually experience the racing thoughts, the spending sprees and I get very hyper-sexual. I generally enjoy the energy and good feelings that come along with being hypomanic, but the spending & hypersexuality have really messed up my life. As if I had no control of myself. The thought process needed to make wise decisions, nonexistent. Acting only on impulse to what felt good, feeding the euphoria. And it always leads into severe depression for me. =(
@lebenimteufel are you off or on meds? are you in or out of therapy? are you in or out of a support group?
however high you fly is how low you crash. the higher you go the lower you go. what you describe sounds like fast cycling. fast cycling does make a person lose more control. i can relate. been there, done that. it is uncomfortable. i hope you find relief in whatever form that takes for you.
@HidingFromEveryone I've been on meds for the past 4 yrs. I only went to therapy like 3 times, b/c I could not afford to keep going. Never been in a support group. Right now I am in a terrible depression that has lasted 3 months now. I was off of mood stabilizer b/c of side effects, and just on antidepressant, but 3 weeks ago was put on Lithium, with no changes yet. I am so very tired of it all. It's almost too much to handle at times. What I wouldn't give to be "normal" once again. =(
@lebenimteufel i understand. a support group is a nonprofit organization. DBSA is a really good one for depression and bipolar. it is world wide. dbsalliance (dot) org is their address. maybe they would be a place where you feel support and find people who are like you? it is cheaper than therapy! it is an option to consider. it will take some time for lithium to show its affect. don't give up.
@HidingFromEveryone Thank you so much for suggesting that website. I've been checking it out for the past hour or so. Seems pretty helpful. I appreciate it. And, I am trying really hard to be patient with the lithium. It's hard to do when I want so badly to not be depressed. But then again, I really don't wanna become manic either. How about somewhere in between? That'd be great.
@lebenimteufel Have you looked at NIMH website? It is about the latest in meds, research, you can sign up for research studies, etc. nimh (dot) nih (dot) gov . anti-seizure drugs also work for bipolar. have you tried them? you have to work your way thru each class of drugs to see what works or doesn't work for you just like everyone else. there is no quick fix. i'm sorry. monitor your own care. educate yourself.
@lebenimteufel keep track of: the meds you start & stop, dosage, side effects, allergic reactions, drug interactions, what you like liked about it, what you disliked about it, starting dose, ending dose for your records. it gave you no change, dizziness, ringing in the ears, upset stomach, blurry vision, etc. this helps you over the course of your treatment.
@lebenimteufel I didn't learn it was important to tracks my meds, interactions, dosages, side effects, etc. until I went to ER a couple of times for med allergies and then had to remember it years later. My memory is not that good. I was once on 20 drugs per day for quite some time. I can not name those drugs. This is why I advice people, do not make the same mistakes I made. Keep track of what is going on.
why don't people understand us. They think we like being this way. I would rather be dead. I have thought of cutting to get the poison out. I am told by people that no one likes being around me because of the way I am. I am the alien in this world. I am a freak. I have been on so many medications and in and out of the hospital so many times I"ve lost track.
@iscrca people don't understand what isn't *exactly* like them. bipolar runs in my family & even still no one gets me. even the ppl who have it themselves don't get the others who have BP. there is no understanding or comfort in my family. i understand how you feel more than you can know.
it is very important to keep track of the meds you have tried, dosage, reaction, length of time on the drug for your medical history. you need this for each new doc. you can get your records from each old doc
@HidingFromEveryone Thank you for your kind words and understanding. I feel so miserable. It's like I am manic and yet I am not, I have been told by my psyc that I have borderline personality disorder, ADD because I get bored easy lose my concentration easily, I also have post traumatic stress disorder and I suffer from anxiety and panic disorder. Now maybe people will understand why I want to call it quits. I don;t know what I want from one minute to the next.
@iscrca ADD/ADHD, OCD, PTSD, anxiety disorders, etc. are sister illnesses/traveling companions. they are found with the primary illness. this is common 4 mental illnesses. panic disorders are actually under the anxiety disorders category & so are phobias. i've been treated for PTSD, ADHD and diagnosed OCD, but not treated for OCD. i have trouble w/ phobias & anxiety, but get no treatment 4 that. as you can see i have sister illnesses just like you. it is hard, but i keep trying. i hope u do 2
@iscrca have you thought about joining a support group? DBSA is a good one. they are worldwide.
dbsalliance (dot) org is their site. it is a nonprofit.
i wanted to cut prior to the 1st time i was hospitalized w/ the same thoughts as you. i understand. you are NOT a freak. you are struggling with an illness that is not your fault. 2% of the population has a mood disorder. you are not alone. i keep changing docs. they are not good at BP or think they are god. it is tough. but we all have to try
@iscrca please don't give up. eventually you will find a better doc who knows BP. look for a doc who treats "mood disorders" as a specialty. if you see the doc is terrible on the 1st, 2nd or 3rd appt don't go back. change to someone else. don't waste your time or money. keep moving. a better doc is out there. a doc is like a chemist. they find the right chemicals for you so you can feel better. the doc is key to everything. they prescribe & make you well. get the right doc & you feel better.
I remember once as a kid while on a road trip with my family, I was sitting in the back seat of the car with my eyes closed watching a slideshow like the one in your video. I leaned forward and asked my mom "do you see all kinds of crazy pictures and stuff when you close your eyes?" She said "no, what do you mean?"
"Well, I see a man running very fast, flickering with lights all around and colors and shapes and faces. All kinds of animals and eyes and..."
@HidingFromEveryone I had some tests ran. They found some "abnormalities" and scheduled another appointment to discuss them but I never ended up going back. I guess my mother was worried about what they'd find and decided to avoid it altogether. For years after that I had racing thoughts and in my teens I eventually ended up in a mental hospital after a suicide attempt. I still have my days where it's hard to deal with but much easier now than as a kid.
@Damienf77 Your poor mom, avoidant personality. I'm sorry you have had such trouble for so long. That is tough. Have you considered meds? It only gets worse as you age. It doesn't get better.
Gawd I empathize. I have suffered from racing thoughts all my life, Mom is that way, and Dad is BP. I used to self medicate with cannabis and I am considering going back. Geodon is making insomnia worse! Take my ambien too, up at 4AM.
@danielsaun1 Pot studies show pot will make you worse over the long haul. I wouldn't recommend it. I was thinking about it until I looked at the studies. My brother has gone loopy from long term pot use. He is not on this planet. Geodon makes me more manic. It works for some people, but not all. Sleeping pills do not help me. Mood stabilizers work. I'm on Tegretol & a combo of other stuff. I'm on Triazolam for sleep, it can be addictive, it is a benzo. You have to find what is right for you.
@jraydunn Racing thoughts come from Bipolar Disorder. To be specific they come from when a person who has Bipolar cycles into mania or hypomania & can experience racing thoughts. Racing thoughts are an offshoot of the illness. You do not get them unless you have Bipolar Disorder. Not every person who has Bipolar gets racing thoughts.
@CodeV114 Do you mean the mania/hypomania is the fucking shit and the depression is the fucking worst? If so, I agree with that. Then again...I can get into a whole hell of a lot of trouble while in a hypomanic phase. As my sister puts it, it is funny, but sad at the same time. I agree with her. Like you said, it is a double edged sword.
@CodeV114 No problem. I have that happen myself. Bipolar does cut both ways. You can be riding the wave one minute and in trouble the next. That is how it goes.
@HidingFromEveryone Do you think it can create a singular conciousness perfect entity being when they are fused together as one walking the earth as if some kind of god or monolith? What is after all the years of medication and therapy and support it all just goes away? And what if it doesnt but only gets worse over time dealing with it thus creating more so called disorders and personality issues that create something new altogether different something. Type 0 bipolar? Being stuck in BP limbo n
Will it go away? I doubt it. I've had it for 42 years. I can only hope for better control. Get's worse? That is the usual outcome. It is to be expected. I am logical & practical. I expect to grow worse not better. I look to science for the answer. I hope the CDC & NIMH find more answers. They make breakthroughs all the time. The research in Finland with the Finnish Gene Atlas & The Finnish Genome Project is promising. The Finns have given us a lot more is 2 come.
@HidingFromEveryone But what about the damage already done? Are you saying this in hopes for yourself or hopes for the younger generations to come that suffer from this illness? I've had Bipolar for 10 years and it's already to late for me. I can't imagine 42 years, although who can really tell at what date and time one should be officially diagnosed. These people that make breakthroughs are surely not for us, I don't know about you but I've turned into something altogether and slowly trying to
@CodeV114 I believe damage done can be reversed w/ the right meds. I believe there is hope for everyone regarding breakthroughs. Breakthroughs are made with the intention they help everyone who will benefit regardless of age, generation or stage of illness. There is no cutoff.
I've had BP since I was 5. I barely remember life w/o it, but I have hope. I was diagnosed at 42. It has been a rough ride, but still. I cling to hope. Please have some hope. Things can get better.
@HidingFromEveryone If you see someones head get blown off right in front of your face that damage cannot be undone. There is no hope to erase the damage that Bipolar causes because it travels farther than any painful phase you can imagine. Im not saying there is no hope, there is most certainly hope. But maybe in different words it could be said that there is hope to continue to live life without bipolar dragging you down even further down the abyss. We are blessed and cursed.
@CodeV114 Yes, we are blessed and cursed at the same time. Our illness brings out in us a huge burst of creativity other people could only dream of. We think differently. We solve problems differently. We are unique. No one is like us. We think outside the box. How many times have you heard that saying in corp America? I have heard it at every Fortune 500 Co. I have worked for. I can do it b/c I am different, but my coworkers can not. Having BP helps me in some ways.
@CodeV114 Why are you turning ugly? What did I say that offended you? I certainly did not mean to intentionally hurt you or offend you. I was just explaining a strength we have as BP people. We have weaknesses, but we have strengths as well. We are NOT one big ball of weaknesses. We are a balance of strengths and weaknesses. I don't think you realize this. I think you spend your time focusing on the weakness angles and no time acknowledging that we can do some things better. We are not all shit.
@HidingFromEveryone Ah fk it just dont listen to me im talking out of my ass. Your right there is hope for sure keep hope alive i am very manic right now and have been manic 4 life so yeah I know what ur talking about
@CodeV114 I went thru 2 decades of flying hi w/ hypomania w/ the exception of 1 hospitalization for depression. I know what you mean. The 20s & 30s are marked by mania/hypomania. The 40s come the crash. The teenage yrs are really hard. Things fluctuate. That is why it is called Bipolar! You are up. You are down! You are upside down. It is like riding a freaking roller-coaster.
Great video! Hypomania is lots of fun. I like driving around in the heart of a downtown traffic jam blasting Bob Dylan and scanning for skank boots. Then I head for a whorehouse and get a freak on. After that, I take a snooze while listening to World at War videos featuring screaming dive bombers. AAAHhhh, what a perfect day. War and Snore.... mmmmm. Responsibility is highly overrated.
Are you sure that is hypomania, and not hypermania? It wasn't that severe when I has it. My mind went off on tangents and I was easily distracted, but the thoughts weren't nearly as speedy as the ones in here.
@melora72 Hypermania doesn't exist. Cute name though. Talked it over with past and present docs. They all said it was hypomania, racing thoughts. That was the first time I ever heard of it. My docs have been the ones to educate me.
Nope I rarely get irritable with people that show me respect. But considering you do not even believe I have bipolar, I do get irritable! Respect us if you want respect back. Don't expect professionals to do anything for you. Give up the grain, beans and sugars. Get on high protein and fat.
@Catherine8raw I have a number of food allergies. I eat to accommodate them: NO gluten, lactose, pork, shellfish, pineapple, egg yolk (eat few eggs), chocolate. etc
Whether you are manic or not depends upon your behavior & thinking. That can be determined by a doctor & NOT a blood test. You are not understanding how to diagnose.
Yes, I get depression. How much depends on how often/fast I cycle. I don't think you have a real good grasp on what BP is. Read up at NIMH, NAMI & DBSA for more info.
@Catherine8raw There is another person who sent me a friend request. He has Lyme Disease as well. His user name is: Thane17. Maybe the two of you would have something in common??? I'm just throwing it out there just in case you are interested. I don't know him. I just got the friend request and noticed his page is about Lyme Disease. I thought of you.
@Catherine8raw Lithium is not for everyone. It works for some, but not for others. Docs think they know all and no one knows more than them. It can be frustrating for the patient. I know what you mean. I have more than one condition myself. I have been there, done that myself. I can relate to what you are experiencing. 1 doc misdiagnosed me & almost killed me. I woke up in the ER AFTER I died and the docs saved me. That was a wild ride. We experience things docs can not explain.
@fawnknudsen I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to help you. Have you met with a psychiatrist for a med consult? Have you looked at DBSA Alliance.org as a place to meet for a support group? Maybe you would find a support group helpful? Maybe a new doc would helpful to you??? I don't know. I am just throwing it out there as a possibility.
@movadoband Then you understand the point of what it is like to experience racing thoughts. The thoughts ebb and flow too quickly. By the time you want to grab on to any one particular thought it is gone. Racing thoughts make it difficult to get anything done. The lack of focus and concentration make things difficult to achieve.
There's a small and excellent online depression support group called Depression Hangout that is always open to anyone who is struggling with mental health problems (not just depression). It's run in its own chaotic way by its members who meet regularly in the chat room and it's a great place to seek and provide help and support, make new friends and even just have a laugh. (We all need that too!) To join just go to depressionhangout-dot-blogspot-dot-com.
@Almondjoyinit Racing thoughts can be a series of still images, sound clips, pieces of movies, pieces of conversations we have had in the past, music, etc. They flood the brain so fast that it is overwhelming. If they come more slowly it can play out like a movie w/ clips stitched together. Much like this vid is over 1,000 still images stitched together to make a vid. Make sense?
@NinetiesYouth You have to have Bipolar Disorder II. Hypomania is part of the mental illness making up Bipolar Disorder II. Bipolar Disorder is a Mood Disorder treated by psychiatric meds, individual therapy, group therapy and support groups. Full blown mania is found in Bipolar Disorder I. Hypomania is lower than full blown mania in Bipolar I. Bipolar I = mania; Bipolar II = hypomania.
Believe me, you don't want it. It comes with other problems and gets worse as you age.
@NinetiesYouth The only way I have found to induce hypomanic was purely by accident. That was by taking meds meant to even me out & instead they made me worse. Mood stabilizers can have that impact on people with Bipolar. Instead of making us better they can make us worse by changing our brain chemistry.
If u try to reach a hypomanic state with drugs u risk burning out ur brain & doing irreversible damage. Ex: u can burn out all the dopamine or serotonin in ur brain by using certain drugs
@HidingFromEveryone did you know that psychosis has been cery helpful to many people, as long as you are allowed to let the experience run it's course that is, most end up being drugged forcefully which ends all possibilities of healing.
@movadoband It could go either way. A small minority of people can ride it out and experience it as a good thing. I don't know anyone like this. Everyone I know has had a psychotic break & ended up in the psych ward. I try to careful about making generalized statements as they could only hurt someone who takes them to heart.
@Catherine8raw My cycles are not dependent upon the seasons or months of year. That sounds more like SAD. Perhaps there is a sister illness traveling with your BP illness and it is called SAD???? I can't tell for sure, but it is a possibility. BP has a long list of sister illnesses or travel companions that travel with BP. You may have picked up a travel companion/sister illness.
@NinetiesYouth It's often not a good thing to experience, it can turn readily on the person experiencing it. Goes from a good feeling (when the racing thoughts bring insight and creativity) to irritability and agitation that has to be experienced to be comprehended (the racing thoughts move to fast). Give a patient with depression anti-depressants alone and you'll soon find out if they are suffering from depression or they are bipolar.
@gemartii Actually the NIMH advises AGAINST giving antidepressants to bipolar patients as it only makes them worse. You can give antidepressant to unipolar depressed patients and they will get better, but not bipolar patients. Bipolar patients need mood stabilizers. I guess not all the psychiatrists got the memo as some of my old shrinks tried to give me antidepressants & I had to tell them, NO! Read the research.
@HidingFromEveryone I wasn't actually saying that you should give anti-depressants to a suspected or known bipolar patient - I'm an unfortunate example of this poor practice. I perhaps should have started that particular sentence with 'If you give a patient...' rather than "give a patient..."
@HidingFromEveryone Hi friend! Choline is actually a B vitamin. If you look in the B complex, you will normally find it with inositol. Choline and inositol are in lecithin, eggs, liver. If your havin big probs I suggest: stop margerine/vegetable oils, eat fatty meat, fish, take marine lipid fish oil supps, eat all veggies, some fruit, stop all dairy products (can encourage bipolar in some) and all grains/sugars, inc. wheat. Aim for a paleo diet with nuts (not peanuts) eat more eggs/fish
I am bipolar 1 and life hurts like hell. I do relate to your video. But I'm sick of thinking so my comment is Kudos to you on the greyhound adoption ad. My mom got one from the Omaha track and he is the coolest dog :)
I was doing volunteer work at a greyhound adoption site when I made the vid. That is why I included the spot for the greyhound adoption pitch. They are such cool dogs. I wanted to help & spread the word that they are available for adoption. I was manicy at the time & made this vid to match my mood. I was mad that I could not make Movie Maker go faster. I feel the vid is sloooow in comparison to my brain, but Movie Maker is slow.
@HidingFromEveryone Blood pressure can be pulled down with marine lipid fish oils and garlic! fruit/veggies (potassium), eating less carbs (less grain/sugars/junk foods). Lowering salt.
im under a doctor who believes i may have bipolar 2 and yourvideo reminded me of an episode i had a month ago i tried to go to bed and all i could see both eyes open and closed was what i discribed as a slideshow on superfast forward it freaked me out images image images they wouldnt stop .. the only way i could get them to stop was by switching on the tv and trying to focus on the screen... scary stuff no noises though just pictures
@abominableangel yeah, it''s like watching a slide show. when it is w/ sound it is like watching a movie. hate to break it to you...sounds like your doc could be right. i had that start 20 yrs before i was diagnosed. i thought everyone had it. i did not think it was abnormal until others told me it was just me who had it. wait until it happens when you are driving & you can not shut it off. that will be the highlight of your year & send you running for help. then you will believe u need help.
@HidingFromEveryone Since you spoke of movies that reminded me of a thought that crossed my mind when I was having a manic episode back in fall of 2009. (This actually carried on a lot longer into other delusions, imaginative things but anyway).
@HidingFromEveryone I have... they have become my entertainment when I swim and go to the gym and workout, my brain keeps me motivated. Sometimes I have been visualising flying in sports cars over bridges when the road was bloacked on the motorway... I can go as fast as I like... I imagine the zum sounds... everyone is like... wow! husband says "what was that, honey"... and she says in a perthertic american voice, "I think I just saw a spaceship honey, maybe aliens do exist", LOL!
Thanks for creating this video! It's an amazing depiction of racing thoughts - as others have said - great great job on this.
citcat299 2 weeks ago
@citcat299 Thank you very much. I am glad you enjoyed it. Please share it with others so people can begin to understand what is looks like and feels like to experience Bipolar.
Thank you again.
HidingFromEveryone 2 weeks ago
I have shown this video to many people over the past year and just wanted to thank you so much for making it. It is a fantastic thing you have done enabling myself and many others to explain what happens in our heads. You have given us a gift - keep creating!
I hope you are well and happy xxx And if you are not then i hope you have good support as you have suppported so many people through creating these videos :)
whiskerkill 2 weeks ago
@whiskerkill Oh my gosh. Thank you so much. I am glad you found it helpful. That was why I made it. I am very glad it has been a helpful tool to you. I made the video to depict what goes on in my head so "normal people" can finally begin to understand & feel some freaking empathy. I am tired of the lack of empathy & compassion. I get 0 empathy, compassion & sympathy from my own family. Instead they are vile, cruel, scary, violent, intimidating & threatening.
HidingFromEveryone 2 weeks ago
@HidingFromEveryone I would just like to sday a few things.
Firstly, congratulations on making a video thats as close as i have ever seen to replicating what goes on in our heads during a Hypomanic phase. I was blown away.
Secondly, thank you for trying to raise awareness of our condition.Even though several celebrities (Steven Fry, Catherine Zeta-Jones) have Bipolar, it still is not widely recognised, and even less widely understood.
Very good video, keep it up :D
Th3venom91 3 weeks ago
@Th3venom91 Thank you so much. That is sweet of you. I was trying to show people what goes on in my head when I experience racing thoughts as they cannot understand when I verbally explain it to them. I decided to show it to them visually. A medical school in Australia asked me if they could use it as a teaching tool for doctors and nurses. I agreed and gave a release. I thought that was cool. If it helps them to learn I am all for it. A hospital in New Zealand used is for a seminar.
HidingFromEveryone 3 weeks ago
any chance u could do one of these without words on it..just the images and the songs? xx
amytriptalene 1 month ago
@amytriptalene I hadn't thought about that. That is a good idea. Unfortunately I did not save the images separately from the text. I didn't think to do that. I am sorry. It never occurred to me. It is all still pictures. There is no video. When it moves that is still images moving at 30 frames per second. It is over 1,000 images. I don't think I can recreate it. Sorry. I'll think about a new one with no text.
HidingFromEveryone 1 month ago
@HidingFromEveryone thanku for replying :) x
amytriptalene 1 month ago
@amytriptalene No problem.
I searched my computer and I did not save the video I made. I didn't keep all the images once I was done as it was over 1,000 images. I forgot and began deleting them so now the video has empty spaces. Oops. I was Hypomanic when i made the video & I just forgot. I'm not very organized when Hypomanic.
HidingFromEveryone 1 month ago
@HidingFromEveryone hahah know the feeling, :) i have no organisation skills x
amytriptalene 3 weeks ago
@amytriptalene I have Bipolar and ADHD so I ping pong back and forth from task to task and don't complete any one thing from start to finish. I call it multi tasking to cover up the fact that I am ill and have problems. I try to limit myself to doing only five things at once. When it gets to 12 things it is out of control. I am good at starting things. Not so good at finishing.
HidingFromEveryone 3 weeks ago
@HidingFromEveryone wow that must be hard, im cyclothymic.. although ive had 2psychotic episodes each lasted about 3wks each. Everyone always says "you're so lucky to be so full of energy and enthusiastic etc.." but I hate it, the awful thoughts that go with it, and the fact when I do things Im very impulsive and theres no planning at all behind my enthusiam. You've done a good job on this video. I hope ur doing ok at the moment. Wishing you all the best.x
amytriptalene 3 weeks ago
@amytriptalene I've improved since starting vitamin L-Methlyfolate. It turns out I am B Vitamin anemic. That is why I suicidal. I also improved since upping my T3. I read a scientific journal about how a lot of people with Bipolar are deficient in T3. I have Thyroid Disease from Lithium killing my Thyroid. Increasing my T3 has helped a lot. Have you tried L-Methylfolate? Scientists believe 40% of Bipolar patients need it. No prescription needed. See Deplin dot com for details
HidingFromEveryone 3 weeks ago
Hypomanics are also very sexual.
Nashhinton 3 months ago
@Nashhinton Only if you have Hypersexuality. Hypersexuality is rare.
It feels like a never ending hunger for sex. I have it and I never feel satisfied no matter how much sex I have. It is never enough. I always want more, more, more. My appetite is insatiable. It feels like a bottomless pit I am trying fill, but it is impossible to fill the pit because there is no bottom. Now I am used to I can never get enough & have to live with it. I am always dissatisfied.
HidingFromEveryone 2 months ago
i totally jammed out to all the songs and the flashing pictures :D whee :P
mynameislynno 3 months ago
@mynameislynno lol glad you enjoyed it.
HidingFromEveryone 3 months ago
I get the rhyming thing too. Not only that, but I'll have like full on clang speech and after awhile I haven't got a goddamn clue what I'm talking about , I'm just riding on the feeling of my own voice. I'm sure I could never make it up to the people around me for going along with it and staying by my side. It's a journey all in it's own.
aC1dxN1gHtM4rEs 3 months ago
@aC1dxN1gHtM4rEs Does that suck hard or just a little bit?
HidingFromEveryone 3 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Haha - usually it's only an inconvenience and doesn't suck that much. It's when hypomania turns into mania that it gets really intolerable. ;)
aC1dxN1gHtM4rEs 3 months ago
@aC1dxN1gHtM4rEs Rhyming is a quirky thing, but the other symptoms of Hypomania are a big problem. Racing thoughts gave me trouble in under grad and grad school. I had a terrible time studying for finals. I had a terrible time paying attention to my profs. School was terribly tough for me.
HidingFromEveryone 3 months ago
@SurgeryStatus Yes, I know. That is what I said. Look at my comment again.
HidingFromEveryone 4 months ago
@SurgeryStatus Yeah, it is not pleasant. Is it?
HidingFromEveryone 4 months ago
and cool vid ! mindfreedom.o rg founded by victim of pschiatric abuse
AkathisiA101 5 months ago
I dont care about cchr.org church belifes i belive in human rights. I had some bipolar symtoms and that gives no hospital the right to lock the door, abuse me,force drugs on me, say my hatred of those drugs is a symptom of an illness with no pysical test DSM V, and then send me a bill for it. CCHR.org helps prevent abuse of those accused of mental illness period.
AkathisiA101 5 months ago
@AkathisiA101 CCHR is nothing but an arm of the Church of Scientology. I can not get on board with them. They are against all meds even aspirin. That is just silly. This website just promotes the Church of Scientology belief system and recruits more people. They are known for being mean, nasty & aggro in their approach. You do not live in the LA area so you have idea who & what they are. They are not what they seem.
HidingFromEveryone 4 months ago
This is an awesome video! Thanks!
blmac78 5 months ago
@blmac78 Thanks! I made it while hypomanic. I was frustrated that I couldn't make it go faster.
HidingFromEveryone 5 months ago
cchr.org
AkathisiA101 5 months ago
@AkathisiA101 I don't believe in them! From the "About Us" Page: "CCHR was co-founded in 1969 by the Church of Scientology and Professor of Psychiatry Emeritus Dr. Thomas Szasz..." Anything owned, run by or supported by the Scientologists is total crap.
HidingFromEveryone 5 months ago
I like this vid- i can race faster "seeing everhthing" I call it.
AkathisiA101 5 months ago
Thanks for this... it helps those who experience it feel less alone, and maybe brings some understanding to those who don't, but may love someone who does.
Rox1SMF 6 months ago
@Rox1SMF Thank you for your comment. What you have said...it my hope.
HidingFromEveryone 6 months ago
I was just wondering. I think that this is what I possibly have. Also this video almost seem to relax me a bit that's how fast my mind works sometimes. Otherwise it's exactly what I am going through. Is that also part of it???
theblazen70 7 months ago
@theblazen70 Have you look at the NIMH site, bipolar? Have you looked at the website for DBSA (as listed at the bottom of my video)? NAMI has good articles on their site and classes to educate people. From what little you have told me it is not enough information for me to go on. I really can't make a guess either way. Sorry, I need more information that what you are giving me. Bipolar is UP and down. You have to have the manicy up & the lowest of low. Do you have both? If not? How can I tell?
HidingFromEveryone 7 months ago
I know exactly what you mean! this is how i am too,
thats why i love the intro on The big bang theory . its even faster when i meditate or go to bed. Its like a machine on rocket fuel.
Did you suffer from depression before you became hypomanic?
MrKewito 7 months ago
I am bipolar as well and you summed it up perfectly. Racing thoughts are terrible, thoughts are the backgrounds for other thoughts which are the backgrounds of other thoughts and there are images quotes and songs repeating and racing through so fast its impossible to sort through. I think forgetting is the worst, the last one I went through, I forgot nearly a week!
CrystalZhai 7 months ago
@CrystalZhai I'm glad you understood the video. Everything overlaps and there are no thoughts by themselves when the thoughts race. Everything overlaps. Things repeat like they are on a reel to reel tape from the 70s. People who do not have racing thoughts can not understand. It is frustrating to make myself understood so I made this video to get my point across. Even my bf can't understand.
HidingFromEveryone 7 months ago
Thank you so much for all your help, I'm male by the way. It's all very confusing, I will note everything down in my journal! :) I'm scared if It's bipolar, that doesn't go away right? =/ But I do know it can be treated x
BrandyDarko 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko for males the most common misdiagnosis is "schizophrenia" instead of bipolar. you have to have a psychiatrist who is well, well versed is "mood disorder" and knows what they doing and doesn't just gloss over "mood disorder" or pay them lip service. i would advise using a web site that is a doc referral site controlled by patients or a word of mouth to get the best service.
HidingFromEveryone 7 months ago
The motion sickness you mentioned, I feel like I have that...my head feels light...like there's a part missing, but my body feels great inside. But aches outside. I don't understand...is this normal part of Depression or?
BrandyDarko 8 months ago in playlist Bipolar (2? / Rapid cycling?)
@BrandyDarko I don't know. It might be over medication. I found the ringing in my ears, blurry vision, spots in front of eyes all went away when I lowered my meds. It is possible the motion sickness feeling is to much meds. In fact what I just described is a sign of over dose. The doc over prescribed. It is possible the motion sickness feeling is also over medication/over prescription and over dose. I found this out on my own by looking up the symptoms, my meds and playing w/ my meds dosage.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
Can some1 give me advice, I feel so strange at the moment. I have been diagnosed with Clinical Depression, but about 3 days ago it just disappeared, all except the guilt and feeling unloved/worthless. But suddenly I feel energized, I've started using the wii fit, I have been inspired to paint,write,play piano and all sorts...but my thoughts are absolutely racing... I couldn't even say what I'm seeing, but Suicidal ideation and self harm and dominating the racing thoughts and I have bad insomnia
BrandyDarko 8 months ago in playlist Bipolar (2? / Rapid cycling?)
@BrandyDarko I doubt you have clinical depression. I think you have been misdiagnosed. Your misdiagnosis is quite common for women. What you describe indicates to me you are instead dealing with bipolar. I don't know which kind, but whoever diagnosed you is an idiot. In my in opinion you are a fast cycling bipolar person. I don't know which kind, but the most common kind of bipolar is bipolar II. Please look at NIMH & DBSA for more info. You need a psychiatrist who treats mood disorders
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko Bad insomnia means you are now in hypomania or mania land if it comes with racing thoughts. Inspired to paint, write, play piano is hypomania/mania. Welcome to the dark side. Sudden energy = hypomania/mania. None of what you describe is normal. It is not a normal recovery from depression. What you describe is a typical bipolar person. You are cycling up and down. Sorry I didn't notice at first. Just woke up.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko If you feel suicidal ideation and want to self harm while you are up that is called a "mixed cycle" and it is very concerning. A mixed cycle is difficult treat and you really need to get your butt into the office a new psychiatrist who is familiar with "mood disorders" and who can treat a "mixed cycle" better than the person you have now. I've had mixed cycles. They are no picnic. They are stubborn and take a long time to pull a person out of them.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko A Mixed Cycle + Fast Cycling is the worst possible combination. I have been there and it is really, really difficult to get out of that situation. It takes patience. It takes a good doc and you can't give up. It takes special/particular meds to pull you out. You can't pull yourself out by yourself. You need the right meds to do it. You need the right doc who is well informed. Get the wrong doc or you are screwed. Antidepressants pop bipolars back up into hypomania/mania so avoid.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Oh my God, thanks for telling me...It went like just just as I started anti depressants! I told my doctor but she said it was a normal reaction to have and that it will come down and suggest I keep taking them. I'm confused about what to do now =/ This happened before when I was given different anti depressants and 2 weeks later...I ended up in hospital with a suicide attempt, I really don't want that to happen, but the doctor suggests to keep taking them :S
BrandyDarko 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko My suggestion? New doc. Yours sucks. Most do. I think 80% of docs suck ass. Look for one that specializes in "mood disorders" and even then they can suck! Check out sites patients use to write up up docs to find a good doc. ratemymd is one site, but there are others.
Antidepressants can pop a bipolar patient up into mania/hypomania and send you into cycling. Then you are in trouble. You are back in fast cycling hell. Some docs use them, but sparingly, NOT in a regular dose!
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Thank you I will! I'm just so confused about what to do in the mean time...do I continue with them or don't I?
BrandyDarko 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko 1. find a new doc who treats mood disorders. you're doc isn't any good. you need a new one. 2. look on doc rating sites to see if you can find a highly rated doc. 3. look up any med a doc gives you to see what are the side effects and what you can expect of that drug 4. the usual main drugs a person with bipolar takes is: mood stabilizers and lithium. they rarely take antidepressants. those are reserved for clinical depression 5. journal so you know if you improve or go downhill
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@BrandyDarko it is important once you start treatment with psych drugs to keep a journal and note down how you feel. your physical symptoms, mental/emotional symptoms, changes since starting a med. do you improve? do you get worse? are you the same/no improvement? dosages, names of meds, date start of med, end date of med as you will need this for your medical records & your records. look up drugs on the Internet to know what to look out for. call doc at signs of trouble.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
creating.i also had very colourful and 'like a movie' dreams,and if i didnt work,some pictures came to my head all the time.after i spent it all on work the 5th day,big exhausting came,that i couldnt barely walk.even create smtg.now am ok,but just yest i had kind of that feeling again ,but i went to sleep and it stopped.i realised,that this mania stig come after i am in some stresed situations.
but never though about suicide or something,i rarely have a depresion,just a stress.
latecia1 8 months ago
@latecia1 not sure what you mean. what is "smtg"? i don't know what the means.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
it means someting.why?
latecia1 8 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
it means someting....i would really like to know what was it,as i am shure it will come beck ,at least when i am in stresed situations.
latecia1 8 months ago
@latecia1 I didn't know what you were saying to me so I didn't know how to answer you.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
if you are feeling this way it means you are a "fast cycler" AKA: rapid cycler going in and out of being manicy. fast cyclers cycle 4 or more within one year which is not that often. it means you need to look for some way to control the manicy cycles. i take lithium, but the draw backs to this drug are numerous. it has nearly killed my thyroid & can damage the kidneys & liver. it requires blood tests often.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
sometimes manic/hypomanic spells will come about because of medical issues such as thyroid disease and adrenal fatigue. if you see an endocrinologist, get blood tests and they treat you for any thyroid disease issues and adrenal fatigues issues some of your problems may clear up. not everything about bipolar really is strictly a bipolar issue, but instead a physical health issue mimicking bipolar or causes bipolar. i've seen this in my own mental and physical health.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
means something
latecia1 8 months ago
i have similar symptoms,had a 10 days ago.but dont know if it was a mania in BP or just a hypomania.i realised i had that feeling 1st about 3 years ago when i suddenly woke up after 2 hours sleeping full of energy.-i spent it on chattin with a friends.it was just a day i think.this time i had it for 4 or 5 days,and symptoms were:
heart beating fastly and strongly,muscle tension,little worse coordinating body moving,felt full of energy,ideas,felt like my brain is woking on 150% so i spent it on
latecia1 8 months ago
@latecia1 have you looked at the NIMH site, DBSA site or similar sites for descriptions of mania (bipolar I) v. hypomania (bipolar II)? this would give you clarification as to what the difference is. there are not enough characters for me to write it here.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
Doesn't everyone have symptoms?
Automobilie 9 months ago
@Automobilie no. not until you want to go talk to the drug companies. they'd be happy to take your money and agree with you. only 20% of the population fall w/i a "mood disorder" of a clinical depression or bipolar. unless you meet this criteria you are you not w/i the parameters.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
@Automobilie no. only people who have bipolar. it is not found in the rest of the population.
HidingFromEveryone 8 months ago
i can relate to this more than i can put to words. i have been struggling for a long time with what i thought was depression then bipolar 2 and now im wondering if i had undiagnosed add and dyslexia as a child that lead to my slow metal break down im really not sure and am very scared of talking to anyone about it as i can never express myself in a way that matches what im thinking, great video btw love your choice of music/images. peace, love
AlexandraHutchko 9 months ago
@AlexandraHutchko In a situation like yours I would suggest trying out a group session such as DBSA to see if they are for you or not. They have worldwide meetings. They are a charity. I went to their office for meeting info and cried the whole time so I could not speak. They were gentle with me when I needed it the most. dbsalliance (dot ) org. you can find meeting times and locations on their site. they took care of me. i hope they can take care you. dbsalliance dot org. please look up.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Thank you I will look that up and get back to you. thank you very much
AlexandraHutchko 9 months ago
I wish you all the best, Hiding. I've got to have surgery on my arm tomorrow because I lost concentration and nearly took my hand off sharpening a sickle to scalpel levels. Time for a drugs review I think :)
AlchemicalDavid 9 months ago
@AlchemicalDavid Wow! Why were you doing that?
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
I'm a bit obsessive about keeping knives and blades sharp. I'm the same about polishing shoes and ironing shirts. When I do it it has to be perfect.
AlchemicalDavid 9 months ago
@AlchemicalDavid Do you have OCD???
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
Not as far as I know. I just get really, really interested in things for about 20 minutes and then get bored and find something else to get really interested in :)
AlchemicalDavid 9 months ago
@AlchemicalDavid ADD/ADHD???? have you looked up either of those disorders to see if you fall w/i those boundaries? OCD is an obsessive disorder. ADD & ADHD does cause people to lose attention and focus on what they were doing. I have both OCD & ADHD. My OCD is not severe so I can hide it. My ADHD is noticeable so sometimes people call me out on it. Is your problem to this level?
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@AlchemicalDavid Does your problem interfere with work or school? If so it is time to look at getting help. It can impact your education negatively. It can cause you career setbacks if you can't focus, concentrate and stay on track. Your career suffers. You don't get promoted. You make less money. You languish at a certain level in your career and do not advance. You have to figure out how to pull it together or that is your future. Not very pretty is it?
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
One of the problems with our disease is the comorbidity that always seems to present. I'm 42 and unable to hold down a 'proper' job. I found that out a long time ago - you learn to adapt. I have my own safety consultancy (yeah - ironic) and I'm very lucky in that I'm quite intelligent. I managed to get a degree in chemistry/biochemistry and an MSc despite the odd 2 weeks off on the piss-up :D
AlchemicalDavid 9 months ago
@AlchemicalDavid i didn't know what you meant by piss-up so i had to look it up. i'm still not clear on it as it has different meanings in different countries, but it always seems to involve heavy drinking/binge drinking. do you do this often? is this a means of coping?
it is common for a person who has a mental illness to be above normal intelligence. the mentally ill are rarely stupid. the mentally ill can also be well accomplished academically before the illness carries them away.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone
I'm English - we murder the language more than Americans :P Yeah - I've been known to self-medicate. It doesn't help. You (I) might think it does but I'm not that stupid - I know it makes things worse. I still do it.
And thick tits don't have the imagination to be this bad LOL It takes some serious IQ to invent the things I (we?) are capable of.
AlchemicalDavid 9 months ago
@AlchemicalDavid More slang to confuse me and it is different from that used by my english grandfather. lol
your posting today is seriously funny. great sense of humor.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
I have bipolar II, and when in hypomania, I usually experience the racing thoughts, the spending sprees and I get very hyper-sexual. I generally enjoy the energy and good feelings that come along with being hypomanic, but the spending & hypersexuality have really messed up my life. As if I had no control of myself. The thought process needed to make wise decisions, nonexistent. Acting only on impulse to what felt good, feeding the euphoria. And it always leads into severe depression for me. =(
lebenimteufel 9 months ago
@lebenimteufel are you off or on meds? are you in or out of therapy? are you in or out of a support group?
however high you fly is how low you crash. the higher you go the lower you go. what you describe sounds like fast cycling. fast cycling does make a person lose more control. i can relate. been there, done that. it is uncomfortable. i hope you find relief in whatever form that takes for you.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone I've been on meds for the past 4 yrs. I only went to therapy like 3 times, b/c I could not afford to keep going. Never been in a support group. Right now I am in a terrible depression that has lasted 3 months now. I was off of mood stabilizer b/c of side effects, and just on antidepressant, but 3 weeks ago was put on Lithium, with no changes yet. I am so very tired of it all. It's almost too much to handle at times. What I wouldn't give to be "normal" once again. =(
lebenimteufel 9 months ago
@lebenimteufel i understand. a support group is a nonprofit organization. DBSA is a really good one for depression and bipolar. it is world wide. dbsalliance (dot) org is their address. maybe they would be a place where you feel support and find people who are like you? it is cheaper than therapy! it is an option to consider. it will take some time for lithium to show its affect. don't give up.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Thank you so much for suggesting that website. I've been checking it out for the past hour or so. Seems pretty helpful. I appreciate it. And, I am trying really hard to be patient with the lithium. It's hard to do when I want so badly to not be depressed. But then again, I really don't wanna become manic either. How about somewhere in between? That'd be great.
lebenimteufel 9 months ago
@lebenimteufel Have you looked at NIMH website? It is about the latest in meds, research, you can sign up for research studies, etc. nimh (dot) nih (dot) gov . anti-seizure drugs also work for bipolar. have you tried them? you have to work your way thru each class of drugs to see what works or doesn't work for you just like everyone else. there is no quick fix. i'm sorry. monitor your own care. educate yourself.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@lebenimteufel keep track of: the meds you start & stop, dosage, side effects, allergic reactions, drug interactions, what you like liked about it, what you disliked about it, starting dose, ending dose for your records. it gave you no change, dizziness, ringing in the ears, upset stomach, blurry vision, etc. this helps you over the course of your treatment.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone I will certainly keep track of that information. Thank you so much! =)
lebenimteufel 9 months ago
@lebenimteufel I didn't learn it was important to tracks my meds, interactions, dosages, side effects, etc. until I went to ER a couple of times for med allergies and then had to remember it years later. My memory is not that good. I was once on 20 drugs per day for quite some time. I can not name those drugs. This is why I advice people, do not make the same mistakes I made. Keep track of what is going on.
I learned it the hard way.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
why don't people understand us. They think we like being this way. I would rather be dead. I have thought of cutting to get the poison out. I am told by people that no one likes being around me because of the way I am. I am the alien in this world. I am a freak. I have been on so many medications and in and out of the hospital so many times I"ve lost track.
iscrca 9 months ago
@iscrca people don't understand what isn't *exactly* like them. bipolar runs in my family & even still no one gets me. even the ppl who have it themselves don't get the others who have BP. there is no understanding or comfort in my family. i understand how you feel more than you can know.
it is very important to keep track of the meds you have tried, dosage, reaction, length of time on the drug for your medical history. you need this for each new doc. you can get your records from each old doc
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Thank you for your kind words and understanding. I feel so miserable. It's like I am manic and yet I am not, I have been told by my psyc that I have borderline personality disorder, ADD because I get bored easy lose my concentration easily, I also have post traumatic stress disorder and I suffer from anxiety and panic disorder. Now maybe people will understand why I want to call it quits. I don;t know what I want from one minute to the next.
iscrca 9 months ago
@iscrca ADD/ADHD, OCD, PTSD, anxiety disorders, etc. are sister illnesses/traveling companions. they are found with the primary illness. this is common 4 mental illnesses. panic disorders are actually under the anxiety disorders category & so are phobias. i've been treated for PTSD, ADHD and diagnosed OCD, but not treated for OCD. i have trouble w/ phobias & anxiety, but get no treatment 4 that. as you can see i have sister illnesses just like you. it is hard, but i keep trying. i hope u do 2
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@iscrca have you thought about joining a support group? DBSA is a good one. they are worldwide.
dbsalliance (dot) org is their site. it is a nonprofit.
i wanted to cut prior to the 1st time i was hospitalized w/ the same thoughts as you. i understand. you are NOT a freak. you are struggling with an illness that is not your fault. 2% of the population has a mood disorder. you are not alone. i keep changing docs. they are not good at BP or think they are god. it is tough. but we all have to try
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
@iscrca please don't give up. eventually you will find a better doc who knows BP. look for a doc who treats "mood disorders" as a specialty. if you see the doc is terrible on the 1st, 2nd or 3rd appt don't go back. change to someone else. don't waste your time or money. keep moving. a better doc is out there. a doc is like a chemist. they find the right chemicals for you so you can feel better. the doc is key to everything. they prescribe & make you well. get the right doc & you feel better.
HidingFromEveryone 9 months ago
I remember once as a kid while on a road trip with my family, I was sitting in the back seat of the car with my eyes closed watching a slideshow like the one in your video. I leaned forward and asked my mom "do you see all kinds of crazy pictures and stuff when you close your eyes?" She said "no, what do you mean?"
"Well, I see a man running very fast, flickering with lights all around and colors and shapes and faces. All kinds of animals and eyes and..."
"I'm taking you to the doctor"
Damienf77 10 months ago
@Damienf77 What happened after that?
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone I had some tests ran. They found some "abnormalities" and scheduled another appointment to discuss them but I never ended up going back. I guess my mother was worried about what they'd find and decided to avoid it altogether. For years after that I had racing thoughts and in my teens I eventually ended up in a mental hospital after a suicide attempt. I still have my days where it's hard to deal with but much easier now than as a kid.
Damienf77 10 months ago
@Damienf77 Your poor mom, avoidant personality. I'm sorry you have had such trouble for so long. That is tough. Have you considered meds? It only gets worse as you age. It doesn't get better.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@Damienf77 lol
ipod2304 10 months ago
Gawd I empathize. I have suffered from racing thoughts all my life, Mom is that way, and Dad is BP. I used to self medicate with cannabis and I am considering going back. Geodon is making insomnia worse! Take my ambien too, up at 4AM.
danielsaun1 10 months ago
@danielsaun1 Pot studies show pot will make you worse over the long haul. I wouldn't recommend it. I was thinking about it until I looked at the studies. My brother has gone loopy from long term pot use. He is not on this planet. Geodon makes me more manic. It works for some people, but not all. Sleeping pills do not help me. Mood stabilizers work. I'm on Tegretol & a combo of other stuff. I'm on Triazolam for sleep, it can be addictive, it is a benzo. You have to find what is right for you.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
what do you think is causing the racing thoughts?
jraydunn 10 months ago
@jraydunn Racing thoughts come from Bipolar Disorder. To be specific they come from when a person who has Bipolar cycles into mania or hypomania & can experience racing thoughts. Racing thoughts are an offshoot of the illness. You do not get them unless you have Bipolar Disorder. Not every person who has Bipolar gets racing thoughts.
Good question and thank you for asking.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
HELL YEAH BIPOLAR IS THE FUCKING SHIT AND ALSO THE FUCKING WORST
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 Do you mean the mania/hypomania is the fucking shit and the depression is the fucking worst? If so, I agree with that. Then again...I can get into a whole hell of a lot of trouble while in a hypomanic phase. As my sister puts it, it is funny, but sad at the same time. I agree with her. Like you said, it is a double edged sword.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Yeah sorry I wrote that while having an episode myself. Yeah it is truly is a double edged sword.
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 No problem. I have that happen myself. Bipolar does cut both ways. You can be riding the wave one minute and in trouble the next. That is how it goes.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Do you think it can create a singular conciousness perfect entity being when they are fused together as one walking the earth as if some kind of god or monolith? What is after all the years of medication and therapy and support it all just goes away? And what if it doesnt but only gets worse over time dealing with it thus creating more so called disorders and personality issues that create something new altogether different something. Type 0 bipolar? Being stuck in BP limbo n
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 Perfect entity? No.
Will it go away? I doubt it. I've had it for 42 years. I can only hope for better control. Get's worse? That is the usual outcome. It is to be expected. I am logical & practical. I expect to grow worse not better. I look to science for the answer. I hope the CDC & NIMH find more answers. They make breakthroughs all the time. The research in Finland with the Finnish Gene Atlas & The Finnish Genome Project is promising. The Finns have given us a lot more is 2 come.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone But what about the damage already done? Are you saying this in hopes for yourself or hopes for the younger generations to come that suffer from this illness? I've had Bipolar for 10 years and it's already to late for me. I can't imagine 42 years, although who can really tell at what date and time one should be officially diagnosed. These people that make breakthroughs are surely not for us, I don't know about you but I've turned into something altogether and slowly trying to
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 I believe damage done can be reversed w/ the right meds. I believe there is hope for everyone regarding breakthroughs. Breakthroughs are made with the intention they help everyone who will benefit regardless of age, generation or stage of illness. There is no cutoff.
I've had BP since I was 5. I barely remember life w/o it, but I have hope. I was diagnosed at 42. It has been a rough ride, but still. I cling to hope. Please have some hope. Things can get better.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone If you see someones head get blown off right in front of your face that damage cannot be undone. There is no hope to erase the damage that Bipolar causes because it travels farther than any painful phase you can imagine. Im not saying there is no hope, there is most certainly hope. But maybe in different words it could be said that there is hope to continue to live life without bipolar dragging you down even further down the abyss. We are blessed and cursed.
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 Yes, we are blessed and cursed at the same time. Our illness brings out in us a huge burst of creativity other people could only dream of. We think differently. We solve problems differently. We are unique. No one is like us. We think outside the box. How many times have you heard that saying in corp America? I have heard it at every Fortune 500 Co. I have worked for. I can do it b/c I am different, but my coworkers can not. Having BP helps me in some ways.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Fuck you.
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 Why are you turning ugly? What did I say that offended you? I certainly did not mean to intentionally hurt you or offend you. I was just explaining a strength we have as BP people. We have weaknesses, but we have strengths as well. We are NOT one big ball of weaknesses. We are a balance of strengths and weaknesses. I don't think you realize this. I think you spend your time focusing on the weakness angles and no time acknowledging that we can do some things better. We are not all shit.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone Ah fk it just dont listen to me im talking out of my ass. Your right there is hope for sure keep hope alive i am very manic right now and have been manic 4 life so yeah I know what ur talking about
CodeV114 10 months ago
@CodeV114 I went thru 2 decades of flying hi w/ hypomania w/ the exception of 1 hospitalization for depression. I know what you mean. The 20s & 30s are marked by mania/hypomania. The 40s come the crash. The teenage yrs are really hard. Things fluctuate. That is why it is called Bipolar! You are up. You are down! You are upside down. It is like riding a freaking roller-coaster.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
Great video! Hypomania is lots of fun. I like driving around in the heart of a downtown traffic jam blasting Bob Dylan and scanning for skank boots. Then I head for a whorehouse and get a freak on. After that, I take a snooze while listening to World at War videos featuring screaming dive bombers. AAAHhhh, what a perfect day. War and Snore.... mmmmm. Responsibility is highly overrated.
dogterd 10 months ago
@dogterd I have no idea what you are saying.
HidingFromEveryone 10 months ago
Are you sure that is hypomania, and not hypermania? It wasn't that severe when I has it. My mind went off on tangents and I was easily distracted, but the thoughts weren't nearly as speedy as the ones in here.
melora72 11 months ago
@melora72 Hypermania doesn't exist. Cute name though. Talked it over with past and present docs. They all said it was hypomania, racing thoughts. That was the first time I ever heard of it. My docs have been the ones to educate me.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
Nope I rarely get irritable with people that show me respect. But considering you do not even believe I have bipolar, I do get irritable! Respect us if you want respect back. Don't expect professionals to do anything for you. Give up the grain, beans and sugars. Get on high protein and fat.
Catherine8raw 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw I have a number of food allergies. I eat to accommodate them: NO gluten, lactose, pork, shellfish, pineapple, egg yolk (eat few eggs), chocolate. etc
Whether you are manic or not depends upon your behavior & thinking. That can be determined by a doctor & NOT a blood test. You are not understanding how to diagnose.
Yes, I get depression. How much depends on how often/fast I cycle. I don't think you have a real good grasp on what BP is. Read up at NIMH, NAMI & DBSA for more info.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
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Catherine8raw 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw Irritable manic much?
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw There is another person who sent me a friend request. He has Lyme Disease as well. His user name is: Thane17. Maybe the two of you would have something in common??? I'm just throwing it out there just in case you are interested. I don't know him. I just got the friend request and noticed his page is about Lyme Disease. I thought of you.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
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Catherine8raw 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw What is "highering"? I don't understand. I usually take flax seed oil or fish oil.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw Lithium is not for everyone. It works for some, but not for others. Docs think they know all and no one knows more than them. It can be frustrating for the patient. I know what you mean. I have more than one condition myself. I have been there, done that myself. I can relate to what you are experiencing. 1 doc misdiagnosed me & almost killed me. I woke up in the ER AFTER I died and the docs saved me. That was a wild ride. We experience things docs can not explain.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
WHAT I JUST SAW 1,000 IMAGES?!?! omg
BamBabyBrenda 11 months ago
@BamBabyBrenda Actually you saw more than 1,000 images. I stopped counting at 1,000. lol They go by quick don't they? Snap! They are over.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
This happened tonight. I wanted to vomit. I had to leave somewhere because I couldn't stop the stimulus. I am so isolated....
fawnknudsen 11 months ago
@fawnknudsen I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to help you. Have you met with a psychiatrist for a med consult? Have you looked at DBSA Alliance.org as a place to meet for a support group? Maybe you would find a support group helpful? Maybe a new doc would helpful to you??? I don't know. I am just throwing it out there as a possibility.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
ya man, so many images and thoughts it's just too hard to grab on to just one.
movadoband 11 months ago
@movadoband Then you understand the point of what it is like to experience racing thoughts. The thoughts ebb and flow too quickly. By the time you want to grab on to any one particular thought it is gone. Racing thoughts make it difficult to get anything done. The lack of focus and concentration make things difficult to achieve.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone just be here now.
movadoband 11 months ago
There's a small and excellent online depression support group called Depression Hangout that is always open to anyone who is struggling with mental health problems (not just depression). It's run in its own chaotic way by its members who meet regularly in the chat room and it's a great place to seek and provide help and support, make new friends and even just have a laugh. (We all need that too!) To join just go to depressionhangout-dot-blogspot-dot-com.
MrSolmon123 1 year ago
@Almondjoyinit Racing thoughts as being like movies...could you elaborate what you mean?
Almondjoyinit 1 year ago
@Almondjoyinit Racing thoughts can be a series of still images, sound clips, pieces of movies, pieces of conversations we have had in the past, music, etc. They flood the brain so fast that it is overwhelming. If they come more slowly it can play out like a movie w/ clips stitched together. Much like this vid is over 1,000 still images stitched together to make a vid. Make sense?
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
How does one induce a hypomanic state?
NinetiesYouth 1 year ago
@NinetiesYouth You have to have Bipolar Disorder II. Hypomania is part of the mental illness making up Bipolar Disorder II. Bipolar Disorder is a Mood Disorder treated by psychiatric meds, individual therapy, group therapy and support groups. Full blown mania is found in Bipolar Disorder I. Hypomania is lower than full blown mania in Bipolar I. Bipolar I = mania; Bipolar II = hypomania.
Believe me, you don't want it. It comes with other problems and gets worse as you age.
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
@NinetiesYouth The only way I have found to induce hypomanic was purely by accident. That was by taking meds meant to even me out & instead they made me worse. Mood stabilizers can have that impact on people with Bipolar. Instead of making us better they can make us worse by changing our brain chemistry.
If u try to reach a hypomanic state with drugs u risk burning out ur brain & doing irreversible damage. Ex: u can burn out all the dopamine or serotonin in ur brain by using certain drugs
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
@HidingFromEveryone did you know that psychosis has been cery helpful to many people, as long as you are allowed to let the experience run it's course that is, most end up being drugged forcefully which ends all possibilities of healing.
movadoband 11 months ago
@movadoband It could go either way. A small minority of people can ride it out and experience it as a good thing. I don't know anyone like this. Everyone I know has had a psychotic break & ended up in the psych ward. I try to careful about making generalized statements as they could only hurt someone who takes them to heart.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone I can refer you to an online community
where we discuss these things.
movadoband 11 months ago
@movadoband Thanks! Very cool.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
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Catherine8raw 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw My cycles are not dependent upon the seasons or months of year. That sounds more like SAD. Perhaps there is a sister illness traveling with your BP illness and it is called SAD???? I can't tell for sure, but it is a possibility. BP has a long list of sister illnesses or travel companions that travel with BP. You may have picked up a travel companion/sister illness.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
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Catherine8raw 11 months ago
@Catherine8raw Wow! That sounds complicated for you and your doc. You are not an easy case at all.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
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Catherine8raw 11 months ago
@NinetiesYouth It's often not a good thing to experience, it can turn readily on the person experiencing it. Goes from a good feeling (when the racing thoughts bring insight and creativity) to irritability and agitation that has to be experienced to be comprehended (the racing thoughts move to fast). Give a patient with depression anti-depressants alone and you'll soon find out if they are suffering from depression or they are bipolar.
gemartii 11 months ago
@gemartii Actually the NIMH advises AGAINST giving antidepressants to bipolar patients as it only makes them worse. You can give antidepressant to unipolar depressed patients and they will get better, but not bipolar patients. Bipolar patients need mood stabilizers. I guess not all the psychiatrists got the memo as some of my old shrinks tried to give me antidepressants & I had to tell them, NO! Read the research.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
@HidingFromEveryone I wasn't actually saying that you should give anti-depressants to a suspected or known bipolar patient - I'm an unfortunate example of this poor practice. I perhaps should have started that particular sentence with 'If you give a patient...' rather than "give a patient..."
gemartii 11 months ago
@gemartii they feel as if they need to "do" something to you, rather than "be" with you.
movadoband 11 months ago
@gemartii OK, gotcha.
HidingFromEveryone 11 months ago
I am a maniac too :D I have found choline supps are good.
Catherine8raw 1 year ago
@Catherine8raw I've never heard of that. What is it? Is it a vitamin? Is it a mineral? What is it? What does it do for you?
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
@HidingFromEveryone Hi friend! Choline is actually a B vitamin. If you look in the B complex, you will normally find it with inositol. Choline and inositol are in lecithin, eggs, liver. If your havin big probs I suggest: stop margerine/vegetable oils, eat fatty meat, fish, take marine lipid fish oil supps, eat all veggies, some fruit, stop all dairy products (can encourage bipolar in some) and all grains/sugars, inc. wheat. Aim for a paleo diet with nuts (not peanuts) eat more eggs/fish
Catherine8raw 1 year ago
I am bipolar 1 and life hurts like hell. I do relate to your video. But I'm sick of thinking so my comment is Kudos to you on the greyhound adoption ad. My mom got one from the Omaha track and he is the coolest dog :)
MrRapidcyclerforever 1 year ago
@MrRapidcyclerforever Having BP sucks! I will give you that.
I was doing volunteer work at a greyhound adoption site when I made the vid. That is why I included the spot for the greyhound adoption pitch. They are such cool dogs. I wanted to help & spread the word that they are available for adoption. I was manicy at the time & made this vid to match my mood. I was mad that I could not make Movie Maker go faster. I feel the vid is sloooow in comparison to my brain, but Movie Maker is slow.
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
@HidingFromEveryone Blood pressure can be pulled down with marine lipid fish oils and garlic! fruit/veggies (potassium), eating less carbs (less grain/sugars/junk foods). Lowering salt.
Catherine8raw 1 year ago
im under a doctor who believes i may have bipolar 2 and yourvideo reminded me of an episode i had a month ago i tried to go to bed and all i could see both eyes open and closed was what i discribed as a slideshow on superfast forward it freaked me out images image images they wouldnt stop .. the only way i could get them to stop was by switching on the tv and trying to focus on the screen... scary stuff no noises though just pictures
abominableangel 1 year ago
@abominableangel yeah, it''s like watching a slide show. when it is w/ sound it is like watching a movie. hate to break it to you...sounds like your doc could be right. i had that start 20 yrs before i was diagnosed. i thought everyone had it. i did not think it was abnormal until others told me it was just me who had it. wait until it happens when you are driving & you can not shut it off. that will be the highlight of your year & send you running for help. then you will believe u need help.
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
@HidingFromEveryone Since you spoke of movies that reminded me of a thought that crossed my mind when I was having a manic episode back in fall of 2009. (This actually carried on a lot longer into other delusions, imaginative things but anyway).
Almondjoyinit 1 year ago
@Almondjoyinit Have you experienced racing thoughts as being like movies sometimes?
HidingFromEveryone 1 year ago
@HidingFromEveryone I have... they have become my entertainment when I swim and go to the gym and workout, my brain keeps me motivated. Sometimes I have been visualising flying in sports cars over bridges when the road was bloacked on the motorway... I can go as fast as I like... I imagine the zum sounds... everyone is like... wow! husband says "what was that, honey"... and she says in a perthertic american voice, "I think I just saw a spaceship honey, maybe aliens do exist", LOL!
Catherine8raw 1 year ago