i know what you mean by the "full" feeling. i associate that full feeling with memories of being heavier and weight gain...i've never been fat or anything but i have weighed more than id like. i guess that we bulimics don't want any negative feelings especially associated with food and our image.
whenever i want to puke i lay on my bed, put a pillow over my face, listen to the radio and cry and scream. :P it really works! you're really an inspiration, keep fighting!
I can totally relate to all this... I find it really helping to go on camera aswell in these cases! I actually felt like this earlyer today.. and I managed to keep the food in... And yeah... i think its a better idea to wait until your in control before you go to the bathroom!
A good friend of mine is fighting bulimia and I'm trying to figure out what I can do to help her. These videos really help me understand what she is dealing with, and I hope that she will overcome this disease. I hope you will too. I wish you all the best.
I have to say, I admire you so much. I wish I'd seen this video an hour ago, before I made the mistake to giving in to the feeling of fullness by purging and taking my lax. However comforting and strangely relaxing it was to do, I still wish that I somehow had the strength you displayed in this video.
It is good to know someone else has a tormented mind (well not nice for you at all, but I just mean others will get comfort from identifying with it) So thank you for being so brave to film these things. Your prayers are so encouraging as well. I don't know if you prayed for me after my previous video comment, but if you did - it worked. I am much stronger now and I will keep you in my prayers too.
I do not suffer from an eating disorder but am intrigued in a strange way by it. Although I'm hearing the same things from different people in their videos, I don't understand it. I want to know why there is so much self-destruction. Why it's so hard to overcome and eat. I wish you well on you road to recovery and sincerley hope that you win your fight. Let the beauty of nature inspire you and remember that you are part of it as well. 'Tis the season of life and renewal. Best of luck to you.
I think it's wonderful you want to learn about this, especially since you don't suffer it. It's really great of you to take interest into learning. Education is everything. One may never understand the true nature of addiction but I can tell you that food or lack of is the drug of choice to someone with eds. I'd recommend you study more about the brain in order to understand addictions. It will give you major insight to how one can self-destruct and not think twice of it or somehow "enjoy it"
The feeling of fullness was completely UNBEARABLE for me before...I can completely relate to you! It was like an 'eject' button being pushed every time I ate something, whether it was broccoli or ice cream or whatever... Just keep in mind, that you are SO strong in that you can resist that 'eject' button!!! The feeling does go away when you get more used to eating....Stay strong!! ((hugs))
The feeling off fullness is one that i did have problems with initally in my recovery. Now...i am stuffed every night, like you, i am eating healthy food (for me, its veg) so its not going to do any harm being inside me :) Slowly...very slowly the urge to get rid of the food will go. Of course i still get days when i don't feel great with my weight, but i never act on it.
i think its so good to talk through it, because really, others help us with a lot. i have learned that others are a big support in my life, instead of shying away from people. so awesome on that, and on everything! you're doing so good! dont give up!! you're right- recovery is a long process and you're making a difference by fighting it today! i admire you!
you're so awesome. it takes a really strong person to talk himself through an urge rather than act on it...that's maturity right there. inspiring as always <3
Thank you again for your candor and bravery. It was inspiring to watch you move from complete panic to empowerment as you talked your shit out, so to speak. Luv you!
I think it is a great idea for you to just lay and process for a while when bulimia's urges are that powerful. I am so incredibly proud of you! You are amazingly strong. *hugs*
good job sweetie. I hope you made it all the way to digestion. But if not, oh well, you always have the next meal you can work on. every little step is a positive one towards recovery. Sending love to you.
Thank you love, so much. For the record - I would never post a video like this if I purged after, I just couldn't bring myself to do that and mislead people. I always post info in the INFO box for the movies in case someone can't view the video for whatever reasons, HUGS
Another success - I'm so happy for you! You are showing everyone that they CAN fight ed urges, and that empowers them as well as you. If you were full, you were full of GOODNESS, and that makes a huge difference too. You are stronger than you know.
It was actually seaweed and there is a big chunk that's very visible on one part of the video ... some on my lip before I lick it too lol Cindy, my Lemon, I hope you got my emails and phone message.
Very interesting, I am not at a point in my recovery where I can accept that and it's safer for me not to focus on full but rather focus on food more as medicine to help heal me along my recovery and sustain life. Your prespective will really benefit me once I am at that point, Thank you!
Great to have made a video as soon as you heard bulimia's annoying voice. Keep up the fight, you are so much stronger than all of those compulsions, OCD, bulimia, anorexia... who needs 'em??
You can do it! That's good just focusing on abstinence from it, one meal at a time.
I gave in to that feeling yesterday, just enough to get rid of the full feeling. Still felt sickish and somewhat guilty afterward, tho I only do it maybe 2 or 3 times a year so that was my mental argument for doing it. An hour ago I felt almost as full but resisted this time.
Progress not perfection = brilliant, YES! Hugs. Slips don't have to turn into cycles and they do NOT take away from your progress. You have worked your ass off in recovery and it's natural to have a downslide every so often, it's part of recovery. Life isn't a bowl of cherries, sometimes we find worms along the way.
hang in there. you can make it through this. fight the urges and you will win over the bulimia. talking does help make it through the urges. typing the urges away helps sometimes as well.
You are just even cuter with broccoli in your teeth! This video was incredible..Your strength is soooooo inspirational-i purged last night and i wish i had seen this before as it has really empowered me today! Purging is not an option anymore, you know? I wish i was there-id have grabbed your hang and dragged you out into the beautiful sun..... xoxox
Last night is over and like I just told someone above - it doesn't take away from any progress. Shit, I struggled daily with multiple purging and that doesn't take away from all the hard work I'm doing with anorexia, bulimia and orthorexia (and bdd, ocd, shopping addiction). I'm glad this vid empowered you, come back to it at anytime! Broccoli kisses to you!!! smirk
lol funny you noticed, yes actually... i have been working out per request of my physical therapist and also to help support my muscles, body and overall health as i restore weight and recover. when i look healthier in the body i will show you what hard work can do : ) what i've earned
Hang in there Johnny, fight the urge to purge. I've been in the same situation you have, and I know it's not easy to do. Tough it out darlin', you're well on your way to recovery =)
Your cute, please live!
LA2Alaska 1 week ago
i know what you mean by the "full" feeling. i associate that full feeling with memories of being heavier and weight gain...i've never been fat or anything but i have weighed more than id like. i guess that we bulimics don't want any negative feelings especially associated with food and our image.
cutebutterfly09 1 year ago
you are so strong
you can do this
AshleyKrack 2 years ago
whenever i want to puke i lay on my bed, put a pillow over my face, listen to the radio and cry and scream. :P it really works! you're really an inspiration, keep fighting!
zombieeatslollipop 2 years ago
looking back on this video i can see so much of your progress you have made <3 im very proud of you my dear <3 your incredable
betteroffdead123 2 years ago
i just wish i was skinny thats y i do it...the only ting that prevents me from doin it most times is my teeth!
momasharif 2 years ago
I can totally relate to all this... I find it really helping to go on camera aswell in these cases! I actually felt like this earlyer today.. and I managed to keep the food in... And yeah... i think its a better idea to wait until your in control before you go to the bathroom!
SessanTunsberg 2 years ago 2
A good friend of mine is fighting bulimia and I'm trying to figure out what I can do to help her. These videos really help me understand what she is dealing with, and I hope that she will overcome this disease. I hope you will too. I wish you all the best.
EmmawesomeO 2 years ago
I have to say, I admire you so much. I wish I'd seen this video an hour ago, before I made the mistake to giving in to the feeling of fullness by purging and taking my lax. However comforting and strangely relaxing it was to do, I still wish that I somehow had the strength you displayed in this video.
selliepwns 3 years ago
i wish i could have been there with you...keep fighting! you're so strong and i'm so proud of you!
jdpasino 3 years ago
i just want to hold you :(
i know you can beat this..
day by day.. i will be here to support you
CYB3Rx3RR0R 3 years ago
this really helps a lot. you have incredible willpower!
Next time I feel the need to purge, I can remember your vid, cuz It's shown me It really isn't worth it.
thanks for giving me some hope
ej00therose 3 years ago
Perhaps you can try to form new memories with being full?
razorslipped 3 years ago
when i can get over the old ones, yes, you bring up a brilliant idea to master
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
It is good to know someone else has a tormented mind (well not nice for you at all, but I just mean others will get comfort from identifying with it) So thank you for being so brave to film these things. Your prayers are so encouraging as well. I don't know if you prayed for me after my previous video comment, but if you did - it worked. I am much stronger now and I will keep you in my prayers too.
wsjulz 3 years ago
I do not suffer from an eating disorder but am intrigued in a strange way by it. Although I'm hearing the same things from different people in their videos, I don't understand it. I want to know why there is so much self-destruction. Why it's so hard to overcome and eat. I wish you well on you road to recovery and sincerley hope that you win your fight. Let the beauty of nature inspire you and remember that you are part of it as well. 'Tis the season of life and renewal. Best of luck to you.
ilsemorero 3 years ago
I think it's wonderful you want to learn about this, especially since you don't suffer it. It's really great of you to take interest into learning. Education is everything. One may never understand the true nature of addiction but I can tell you that food or lack of is the drug of choice to someone with eds. I'd recommend you study more about the brain in order to understand addictions. It will give you major insight to how one can self-destruct and not think twice of it or somehow "enjoy it"
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
The feeling of fullness was completely UNBEARABLE for me before...I can completely relate to you! It was like an 'eject' button being pushed every time I ate something, whether it was broccoli or ice cream or whatever... Just keep in mind, that you are SO strong in that you can resist that 'eject' button!!! The feeling does go away when you get more used to eating....Stay strong!! ((hugs))
katerynabilyk 3 years ago
Hey..
The feeling off fullness is one that i did have problems with initally in my recovery. Now...i am stuffed every night, like you, i am eating healthy food (for me, its veg) so its not going to do any harm being inside me :) Slowly...very slowly the urge to get rid of the food will go. Of course i still get days when i don't feel great with my weight, but i never act on it.
You'll come through good, i KNOW you will..
Sarah♥
beingsarah 3 years ago
Hi sweetie, hang in there. You're in my thoughts and my prayers.
Is there some place you can go after you eat that will make it next to impossible for you to throw up?
DivaMakeup 3 years ago
good video!!!
darlingtester1982 3 years ago
GOD! i know exactly how u felt!am struggling with this shit..each day i really suffer!..thnx for ur video it's helping me not to do that anymore
xo xo
sou90 3 years ago
You have realy loveley eyes.
and, your cute when you yawn =]
x
TanitaTanita 3 years ago
Hey hun, if you don't mind..would you post some pics of you growing up?
tobybroadie 3 years ago
No, I won't do this. This would be the most triggering thing I could ever do. I don't look at or touch them. Just being honest.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
I agree. I have the same thing.
theenchantedkitty 3 years ago
okay, then please don't.
tobybroadie 3 years ago
♥
casgrl21 3 years ago
hey cutie... i'm glad you were able to overcome it this time! each time you do, makes you a bit stronger. keep it up!
xoxox
ShanzeeeGirl 3 years ago 2
i think its so good to talk through it, because really, others help us with a lot. i have learned that others are a big support in my life, instead of shying away from people. so awesome on that, and on everything! you're doing so good! dont give up!! you're right- recovery is a long process and you're making a difference by fighting it today! i admire you!
Godlvr2007 3 years ago
you're so awesome. it takes a really strong person to talk himself through an urge rather than act on it...that's maturity right there. inspiring as always <3
jenneyefer86 3 years ago 2
Thank you again for your candor and bravery. It was inspiring to watch you move from complete panic to empowerment as you talked your shit out, so to speak. Luv you!
narcissiste84 3 years ago 2
I think it is a great idea for you to just lay and process for a while when bulimia's urges are that powerful. I am so incredibly proud of you! You are amazingly strong. *hugs*
ambernc 3 years ago
cuddles x
clarespray 3 years ago
good job sweetie. I hope you made it all the way to digestion. But if not, oh well, you always have the next meal you can work on. every little step is a positive one towards recovery. Sending love to you.
theenchantedkitty 3 years ago
Thank you love, so much. For the record - I would never post a video like this if I purged after, I just couldn't bring myself to do that and mislead people. I always post info in the INFO box for the movies in case someone can't view the video for whatever reasons, HUGS
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Another success - I'm so happy for you! You are showing everyone that they CAN fight ed urges, and that empowers them as well as you. If you were full, you were full of GOODNESS, and that makes a huge difference too. You are stronger than you know.
(Ps: There wasn't any broccoli in your teeth :)
peppernme 3 years ago
It was actually seaweed and there is a big chunk that's very visible on one part of the video ... some on my lip before I lick it too lol Cindy, my Lemon, I hope you got my emails and phone message.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Sweety I will be back,.,. I deleted my account someone was really being rude.. But I will be back
Angitia39 3 years ago
stay strong and keep fighting!
<3
TheQueenofSnow 3 years ago
Keep on being strong Johnny! You can do it, you are already on your way! Im rooting for you! Love
eifosnosslo 3 years ago
Also another positive thought behind feeling full is to be thankful for the ability to feel full.
Mysticbutterfly21 3 years ago
Very interesting, I am not at a point in my recovery where I can accept that and it's safer for me not to focus on full but rather focus on food more as medicine to help heal me along my recovery and sustain life. Your prespective will really benefit me once I am at that point, Thank you!
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Great to have made a video as soon as you heard bulimia's annoying voice. Keep up the fight, you are so much stronger than all of those compulsions, OCD, bulimia, anorexia... who needs 'em??
Enjoy the sunshine, sunshine!
theskinnypig 3 years ago
You can do it! That's good just focusing on abstinence from it, one meal at a time.
I gave in to that feeling yesterday, just enough to get rid of the full feeling. Still felt sickish and somewhat guilty afterward, tho I only do it maybe 2 or 3 times a year so that was my mental argument for doing it. An hour ago I felt almost as full but resisted this time.
Progress, not perfection.
*hugs*
thesoothingsurf 3 years ago
Progress not perfection = brilliant, YES! Hugs. Slips don't have to turn into cycles and they do NOT take away from your progress. You have worked your ass off in recovery and it's natural to have a downslide every so often, it's part of recovery. Life isn't a bowl of cherries, sometimes we find worms along the way.
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
hang in there. you can make it through this. fight the urges and you will win over the bulimia. talking does help make it through the urges. typing the urges away helps sometimes as well.
yami990 3 years ago
You are just even cuter with broccoli in your teeth! This video was incredible..Your strength is soooooo inspirational-i purged last night and i wish i had seen this before as it has really empowered me today! Purging is not an option anymore, you know? I wish i was there-id have grabbed your hang and dragged you out into the beautiful sun..... xoxox
hipslikemonroe 3 years ago
Last night is over and like I just told someone above - it doesn't take away from any progress. Shit, I struggled daily with multiple purging and that doesn't take away from all the hard work I'm doing with anorexia, bulimia and orthorexia (and bdd, ocd, shopping addiction). I'm glad this vid empowered you, come back to it at anytime! Broccoli kisses to you!!! smirk
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
fight johnny fight!!
qweengrape 3 years ago
You can do this Johnny!!!! You are a strong human being, and I applaud you for being so open about having hard times..
Keep up the positive thinking, you will have a beautiful day! Yay!!!!
Love Selma
SingerSelma 3 years ago
wow!you been doing abs?
lazicsasa87 3 years ago
lol funny you noticed, yes actually... i have been working out per request of my physical therapist and also to help support my muscles, body and overall health as i restore weight and recover. when i look healthier in the body i will show you what hard work can do : ) what i've earned
MyOwnStickFigure 3 years ago
Hang in there Johnny, fight the urge to purge. I've been in the same situation you have, and I know it's not easy to do. Tough it out darlin', you're well on your way to recovery =)
ManOnAMac 3 years ago 2
i m so sorry that u r going through all ofthis.. BUT KEEP POSTING.. you are helping yourself and others by making these vids...
galaxycat3 3 years ago 2