Living with bulimia

[elbullock1]

some days i wonder if i will ever be truely free.. this is taking my whole life and i'm killing myself slowly with every tear I cant cry, and the inability to stop when my heart is beating so slowly and my body is so cold and I still cant stop.

[Ingy05Babe]

Recovery seems so hard to reach....Is taking over my life and my dreams, Hurting what I love the must, I will always regret the day I opened those gates of hell and let Bullimia took control of me and my life...She has it all.....

[Wintheriel]

What's the song?

[8Uberz8]

@Wintheriel sorry this is so late!! My ex actually wrote the song (he wasn't my ex when I used it!!), I'm sure he'd love that you liked it though :)

[chiquilin2010]

I promise myself everyday,,,this will be the last..n yet i seem to keep breaking that promise..:(

[chuchaosa]

like

[VampireBat12]

its sad :(

[uberownagemonkey]

lol you know how to beat bulimia. stop throwing up.

[JadeyVogue]

Trust me, if it was that simple, bulimia wouldn't exist. But apparently ignorance is bliss ...

[MedicineLove]

@uberownagemonkey

If it was that "simple" and "easy", you wouldn't hear about any bulimics out there!

[cindy1000000]

@uberownagemonkey its not that easy don't you get what a habbit is?

[MissShrinkMe]

This is spot on.

[tatulover2120]

its like ur describing my life

[EmZyLuvsTH07]

That was so amazing, the words were so deep and I almost cried :((( I feel so horrible for poor ppl who must face something so terrible and deadly... Again, amazing video =D

[kolkrabe19]

Do people with bulimia know what´s really bugging them ?

[madnessthegreatest]

this bought me to tears. watched it over and over. i know this pain - however i would have to say the pain is a billion times more then even this moving video captured. lovely work though.

[8Uberz8]

thank you so much :) i hope in the last 7 months you've felt a little better... <3

[katie6978]

Another gothic over dramatised and glamorised depiction of an illness I've suffered with for 15 years of my life - don't use your hands then - stomach muscle does it all for you or seek help - I am and will be free

[cabbagepatchemo]

hey great video i know how you feel i've had eating disorders pretty much my whole life i keep telling myself i'm never going to do it again that this is going to be the last time but it never stops

[stefh320]

it NEVER stops :'(

[BeccaJade90]

i have lived with eating dissorders-bulimia mostly, and have had days were i havent eaten at all, all thats goes through my head is, when am i going 2 be able 2 get rid of what i have just eaten, its increadably stressful, and emotionally exaussting! its a lonenly place to be! when you feel no1 will understand and constantly trying to keep it seacret,from the pepol who care,just keepin it from theem because you know how much it would upset them x x

[Miriam1932]

I can so relate to this,excellent video about bulimia.Keep well

[kolkrabe19]

I am horrified now but still dont know what bulimia is.

[madnessthegreatest]

concider yourself lucky that you dont know what it is and will not know the pain.

[kolkrabe19]

There must be some deeper reason for that pain than just bulimia. Bulimia may be just one of the symptoms of that pain.

[madnessthegreatest]

very very true

[FranFromBrazil]

This was very powerful.

Glad you received the help you needed and keep on fighting 'cause it's worth it.

xoxo

Fran

[sp45ih]

This is realistic, finally something real and powerful about living with bulimia and trying to escape it's tireless unrelenting grip. I love the harrowing dark music as well.

[fidmsucks]

fuck i just need to say my story ive been keeping it secret for about 4 years now nd i cant anymore! i need to tell someone im fkn tired of eating in front of ppl nd only being able to think about when im gonna get rid of it i feel sick when i eat i feel sick when i dont i know im depressed and that this shit is horrible and whatever else is fucked with me and i need help but i cant tell anyone i know. ):

[8Uberz8]

hey, oh wow yeah trust me i know what you're going through, it's such an awful feeling believing you're completely alone and there's nothing out there that can help you. i literally got out of inpatient after 2 months today and i'm shitting myself that if it goes wrong again i have nowhere to go and no one to turn to. maybe you could go to your doctor and they'd refer you to an ED specialist? there are so many people like you and you deserve help, if you wanna talk just mail me ok? :)

[fidmsucks]

okay.

but i cant tell my doctor.

because then everyone would find out.

and they would be hurt or angry or laugh.

idk what they would do but i dont wanna hurt them and i dont want them to get angry.

[luvsMax]

Doctors are not allowed to tell your family, friends, or anyone other than a specialist, who also cannot tell anyone. They may consult other doctors, but need your permission to do so. PLEASE get help before it is too late. I know it is hard to trust even a doctor, but if you wait you can do real damage.

I no longer have properly functioning kidneys because I feared people would be angry...but they weren't. They just wished I had been able to say "please help me"

You are not alone.

[gthbf]

If i had a sister with an eating disorder i would force her to eat

[8Uberz8]

well unfortunately eating disorders have very little to do with food and much more to do with difficult emotions which become projected into food behaviors... if it were that easy then therapy for eds wouldn't exist :)

[gthbf]

If i forced them to eat they would feel better.

[8Uberz8]

no, cos they're not just hungry, or they'd eat by themselves. they feel better by not eating; by forcing them to eat they'd feel terrible and dehumanized..

[gthbf]

So you suggest letting them starve to death?

[8Uberz8]

no.. i suggest getting them the help they need rather than forcing them to eat based on the misconception that their problem is food and food alone...

[gthbf]

I dont know how to help with emotions i only know how to help with not eating.

[tmigurl96]

hi, 8Uberz8, its me, the 11 year old who went through anorexia, i love ur video, its deep, and introuging!!

[8Uberz8]

heya, ooh thanks for watching it! i thought it was seriously waaay too emo haha but whatever, hope you're good :)

[calikaren71]

Uber, this is awesome! Why dont you think its good? You touched on the very inner demons of bulimia. Awesome job my friend! I faved this one. Gonna make any more?

btw: did ya get my comments i left on your channel? :)

xxx,

Karen

Keep writing!

[josh91bc]

This is such a well made video. My sister is anorexic and bulimic and this shows how people who suffer from it really feel inside.

[8Uberz8]

oh wow i can't believe people actually think this is good, thanks so much! i really hope your sister gets the help she needs/feels better soon, it must be really hard on you all :( people don't really often consider how it affects family as most of the time you assume/hope they don't know anything or notice..

[ColettePresea]

Oh my, this is scary i nearly shit in my shorts but it portrays mia really good <3 Im ana though, i hope you feel better <3

[8Uberz8]

'i nearly shit in my shorts' hahah blates what i was going for ;) ! aww well i hope you feel better too, stay strong sweetie things will get better <3

[mcrspaz]

that was really good!!!!

but why the question marks instead of appostrophies(spelling?)

[8Uberz8]

yay thanks!! ohh yeah lol i know it's really annoying but for some reason when i saved the text in the slideshow thingy, it kept replacing the apostrophes with question marks so i kinda gave up after a while cos it took forever to make cos im not very good with computers!! :)

[lilpinkprincess400]

This has shown me about bulimia and i hope that it shows that people don't need to do it.

[8Uberz8]

aww yay my first comment!! thanks :) i'm glad that someone got something from it :)