I've watched your video a few times now and everytime I've seen it I get emotional aha! I've had problems with my weight, eating disorders etc, and this video truely inspires me, it pisses me off seeing comments on here saying you look fat now because that's really insensitive, and you don't look fat, you look really well and healthy. The end of the video about diet coke reminds me of me too, because I still have a phobia of drinking drinks high in calories:L >.< I hope your well, xx
I almost cried at the part of your 14th birthday... You look so beautiful now! seriously, what a pretty face! :) dont ever ever think you're not beautiful, because you are.
Wow, you went from being perfect and small and healthy with a normal metabolism, to being deathly thin, to being fat. I'll bet you wish you'd never screwed up your body in the first place, eh ;)
@1950steapot you bet wrong, I'm glad i went through what i did as it has made me stronger and have better priorities in life. I am surrounded by love and support, and my experiences - the good AND bad, i cherish. From the sounds of it, it seems you can not simply understand that sometimes it is not what you've lost but what you've found, and one can not judge someone's journey without having walked the same path. Im not as thin as i was because thats my decision & i choose that, for now anyway.
@1950steapot wow, i didn't realise mental disorders were optional. Describing ED's or any other illness as 'unnecessary' just shows ignorance - people do not choose to have these things. Ha it is not 'funny' or ironic - its logic, i would have had to put on weight as to get out of danger and hospital places. If that has made me 'fat' to you then ok lol, you've shown the lack of credibility of your opinion on this matter anyway, so really what you think is irrelevant to me.
You are so amazing and very, very, very, beautiful. I am so glad you got the help you needed and are on the right journey to a happy life. You deserve the world. I really hope you never relapse and go back to that dark place you were once in. I want to say thank you so much for sharing your story. I couldn't stop crying when I first saw this. You are a miracle and you defiantly have a purpose in this world today. Keep your head up and always stay strong.
Please stay strong and healthy. I am so proud that you shared your story, I believe it will help others strugling with anorexia. You are a beautiful girl and have overcome so much. You have a second chance and have looked death in the face and have come out victorious. Please don't ever fall in that trap again. You are strong and you can stay healthy! You are beautiful and a survivor. You are an inspriation!
I wish you all the happiness and blessings one can enjoy in a lifetime and more!
Hi! Im fat, dont wanna say. i would never diet or calorie count. but some of the "cool people" at my school tease me. my friends are supportive to me. but im proud. everyone its not the end of the world( take that u bitch mayans!) ps: all you people who are skinny and live in mansions, go fuck yourself. u think your all that when your really not!
Hi! Marie here.Soo happy to hear that you have recovered from your anorexia.You are right you can relapse.I have.Haven`t been anorexic since childhood but then i was starving most of the time.From a family of 10 poor working class.Memories of childhood,begging for food at the market,going to the Grey nuns for food,sneeking into the A&P warehouse dumpster for dented cans of food,what fun,NOT!Now older & i`ve relapsed am 5"7 142lbs trying to hold it there.Hope it doesen`t get worse.Hate hospitals.
You are incredible... You are so strong and your beautiful :D alwaays remember that hunny. Im in Leigh House now... Not the funniest plce on earth so i no how it felt...
You are a beautiful woman and I hope that everything turns out great for you. Don't say you'll relapse again! You are an inspiration to every girl in America and where ever else who ever thinks that anorexia (pro ana, mia) is fun or cool or anything. Stay healthy and beautiful!
I'm in recovery from anorexia, but remember, we can be physically recovered, but still cognitively sick. Relapses are almost inevitable, but it's what we DO with those relapses that is important. Are we learning from them? Are they fewer and far between? Keep working at it, lovely, and someday you will be able to control ED instead of ED controlling you. You're VERY beautiful, by the way.
i'm also in recovery. it's always nice to see other survivors even if our journey was not the same. i am glad you are doing better. no doubt there will be times where you might still struggle, but hopefully you will reach out when you do so it doesn't end up how it was the first time around.
this is one of the most TOUCHING videos i have ever seen. thanks again for answering my message! i know that was awhile ago. thank you posting this video. I love Punching in a dream! :) and you look absoulutely BEAUTIFUL at 1:11 !!!! omg. and you looked so skinny in the ICU at 50 lbs (3 st 8 lb). Im anorexic to i am just gonna say i am jealous. hopefully thats not offensive. I hope your doing well Shannon. And hope your stayin' strong as long as possible.. by that i mean not relapsing. -Shelbyxx
Love Life Live It Up And Shake Your Ass Like You Don't Give A Fuck. You are Beautiful never forget that! Hang in there<33! Inbox me when you can. I would like to talk to you. I myself am learning to love myself and life again, ive battled with anorexia and bulimia.
oh my God you are seriously one of the most gorgeous girls I have ever seen, I am so glad that you are now healthy and please remember that you will forever be beautiful in my eyes no matter what. please stay strong <3
I'm seriously not trying to hate, but this is probably the worst case of ana I've seen. at 2:55, I mean, wow. Such a powerful picture that just shows what a grip ana can have and the lengths she will take you. This video is the most genuine Anorexia video that's on youtube, and it makes me so angry to girls who make videos like these when they obviously don't have the disorder. You're an amazing girl, and you're recovery is so inspiring! <3
I am soo very proud of you....I hope you don't believe that anorexia will live with you the rest of your life or pop up again someday.....You are truly a gem, I hope you always remember that...Live, Love and Laugh!!!
your journey brought tears to my eyes and it was a relief at the end to see how much you had recovered and although it is a never ending challenge for you i just you can beat this and have a happy life....
Just wanted to say that I think you're so brave for putting this out for everyone to watch. And also, I think you're beautiful in many ways. Really inspiring. Thank you.
this is the only anorexia story that has deeply touched me and the only one i've seen so far that actually seems to be genuine. i admire you overcoming your struggle.
aw this was so sad, you were so young. i cant believe something inside of you told you you were not good enough, you look like a beautiful girl and deffinitly strong since you were able to over come all that!! best of luck to you hun!
Wow, now you are so incredibly beautiful!!! Please don't say you might relapse again. That is the last thing you should do because you are so gorgeous & unique & strong to overcome all of that. that's insain, I can't think of something more painful and awful then kidney failure ect. I will pray for you to stay just the way you are now :D thank you for showing people why they shouldn't be anorexic you are such a wonderful person!
Wow, now you are so incredibly beautiful!!! Please don't say you might relapse again. That is the last thing you should do because you are so gorgeous & unique & strong to overcome all of that. that's insain, I can't think of something more painful and awful then kidney failure ect. I will pray for you to stay just the way you are now :D thank you for showing people why they shouldn't be anorexic you are such a wonderful person!
I think you are a beautiful young girl who is veru brave for facing this problem at such a young age and then dealing with recovery. I have girls who are 14 and 11 and know the pressure is there to look perfect. Everyday they always say "Dad how do I look" and I always tell them beautiful no matter what their hair color is or what crazy clothes they are wearing as their self esteem is always the most important thing.
Oh my god you are looking fantastic now!!! FAN_FUCKING_TASTIC_! WOW i didnt even recognise you at first! I WAS soo happy for you until you went all negative at the end. no girl, you should know now your thought are what control your life. change your sate of mind ;) But seriously you are wonderful now. its horrible what happened to you and sad, very sad. but you are just looking SO GOOD right now.
@mlwish hey, thank you for your comment. I have been worried about my physical health as of late, mainly because i have started a job in a supermarket which has required use of bending my knees a lot through lifting and bending my back. My knees are still so weak and my back is brittle so i have been finding it hard. I have made a doc appointment so as to book a DEXA scan to check for osteoporosis in the spine and to see what i can do for my knees.
@prettyreckless2700 have you heard of webiteback ? its a great site for people trying to overcome their eds, I'm on it and the people there are great and inspiring (lol, I mean the other women, not me obviously!) Good luck with everything, i hope that you're able to tell the negative thoughts to go to hell.
@mlwish My overall fitness is still quite poor, i get tired walking short distances etc its embarrassing, sometimes i think those who are overweight are probably fitter than me which is quite ironic. Mentally I am the same in my priorities - thin, thin, thin, unfortunately. But of course like with most, it will always be that way. Right now I am just doing my best to improve my physical strength of my muscles, bones and internal organs, i am trying not to focus on my thoughts...
@mlwish I don't want to think because i am scared because i know that i can't live without being dangerously thin, at the same time i can't live with being dangerously thin. Just seems i am doomed either way, and its just a matter of time. Sorry for the downer, but i think honesty is crucial in talking about an ed, especially because ed's are so infamous for their deceit.
it didn't change how I felt cause like you said death didn't scare me either. I agree with you I think it's always with you if you were born with it it's a part of you. I much preffered hanging with the other people they have different perspectives and views and are so un-judgemental. I'm glad you're able to keep the fight going even though you are still living with the thoughts. I hope we can all come to a point when we are able to feel stronger and able to live life as crazy as we want! Hugs x
They should've done daily blood tests, ECG's and heart holters to monitor your intake cuz you can go into arrest from to much to quick or not enough. The tube's the safest way and when you're that unwell they can't risk it. solid food would've sent you into arrest because it's foreign to the body and oral supplements would have high risks of regurgitating. I learnt after a while it was like an anti-biotic or medicine they have to give you to keep you alive. It's not punishment it's duty of care
Hey I just wanted to say it's really good to see someone brave enough to display this. It riles me up to that people are pro ana and want 'ana' buddies cuz if they really wanted it they would just do it and figure it out for themselves everybody has a different body and relying on other ppl is a cop out. That's not anorexia it's a diet. I can understand where you're coming from with the naso. It happens to pretty much everyone with refeeding syndrome you lose weight.
At the begginging of the video, I thought, oh, she is not that bad, but as soon as I saw the pictures from the hospital, I cried a little. You went through so much...i can't even imagine:'[
I don't know if anorexia/obsession with being thin has anything to do with the image created by the modeling industry but if it does I truly hope that women realize that the modeling industry is run by old women and extraordinarily gay men. So the idea that a model is somehow "attractive" in the true sense of the word is a billion dollar lie.
Twiggy was absolutely repulsive to all but a few disturbed men and the current crop of stick figured models aren't any more attractive than she was.
you really can recover totally beautiful, i know it sounds crazy and impossible, but you've come through too much to give up now. you are very inspirational
I am so glad you are better. I can relate in every way possible. I was dying. You were dying. It made me so broken inside seeing you so sick and frail. I am so glad you are better. Like you already mentioned, anorexia is a state of mindl and you and I both, will have it forever. But I know that we are stronger than ana and can be the young woman we were meant to be; healthy and strong! Good luck on your journey for the rest of your life.
Anorexia can be a terrible thing but sometimes it realluy changes people to what they really are and im glad that you have recovered!!!!! <3 this video!
keeep going ur vidio made me cry had no idea it wud finishish with lh, i also had 2 imisions there so i no how amazing there are annd i also had a pink cake! good old grayham th chef :) xx
i enjoyed watching your video and reading all of your extras. its a sad story, but a powerful one. you go girly! you look absolutely beautiful in ALL of your photos.
I know it might sound weird but there's a group called overeaters anonymous that is free and in a lot of cities (it's like AA) and is used by anorexics, bulimics and overeaters/binge eaters for support in getting and staying well. If they have it in your city could connect with people there anytime you felt you were falling again. Look it up online.
You are an amazingly courageous, amazingly strong girl. I could relate to a lot of your story: the nurses who couldn't care less about me, the relapses, & the semi coma you had in the third admission, not to mention the hair loss. I have been anorexic since I was 14 & bulimic since 16 (now 17). I am still not recovered.I would really really like to recover, I am over it.I was just wondering if you could tell me what made you recover like you did?
You are an amazingly courageous, amazingly strong girl. I could relate to a lot of your story: the nurses who couldn't care less about me, the relapses, & the semi coma you had in the third admission, not to mention the hair loss. I have been anorexic since I was 14 & bulimic since 16 (now 17). I am still not recovered.I would really really like to recover, I am over it.I was just wondering if you could tell me what made you recover like you did?
You are an amazingly courageous, amazingly strong girl. I could relate to a lot of your story: the nurses who couldn't care less about me, the relapses, & the semi coma you had in the third admission, not to mention the hair loss. I have been anorexic since I was 14 & bulimic since 16 (now 17). I am still not recovered.I would really really like to recover, I am over it.I was just wondering if you could tell me what made you recover like you did?
fu*n stupid people, i was talking to her not to u =)
i was anorexic too, so i know that when u finally end with this problem (anorexia ) u gain weight... but that's not healthy =( that's why after i left anorexia, i have to exercise ...
You have a lovely figure! So glad you're doing better, you're a pretty young thing, I'd hate to see a life go to waste! Good job and keep it up hun! :)
Hi! I've looked for this video because I saw it few months ago and I loved your change into health! I also liked the songs that the vidoe has before, cuold you tell me the names? THANKYOU SO MUCH!
@manurevi94 sorry I just had to say it's so good to hear someone say 'health' so many people focus on weight and it's not about weight. you can be a healthy weight but have organs failing. overweight has health complications. some overweight people are fine. I hate it when people think it's all in vain when really you just want to be left alone and alot want men to leave them alone. It doesn't matter how big or small you are if your emotionally and mentally struggling you still deserve help!
@Kuryba114 You sir, can go to hell. All you are is a coward for criticizing this beautiful girl, even with you knowing what she has been through. Grow up you child. She is amazing.
@Kuryba114 its been medically proven that in recovery stages of anorexia the fat distributes through the body unevenly at first leaving some patients looking like they are 9months pregnant. this is called refeeding syndrome and can take months for the body to get used to having regular nutrition and changing out of starvation mode. Once nutrients are restored and metabolism is working it settles and the weight drops because the body is functioning properly again. size is irrelevant her health is
thanks for sharing your story. I suffered from an eating disorder too and man it sucked. I wasted away high school and my friends thought I was so weird and freaky. I'm glad you're feeling better, keep up the good work! It's gonna be tough (I'm 4 years into recovery now), but we're here for you! (and you can message me if you want ^^)
thank you for sharing your story :) i am now a year into recovery from anorexia, and although i didn't have as many medical complications as you did (so sorry you had to go through that!) the mental and physical aspects definitely still affect me today. thank you for putting up a video that shows EDs how they really are! i hate those pro ana vids too. you look gorgeous at your healthy weight by the way :)
I was so scared when I saw how thin you were. Now, I am relieved to see you well and healthy again. I wish the best for you and for your family. Jesus bless you.
Loved your story but the part at the end when you said you will probably relapse again scared me so I thought I would share a few words about my story. I was once in bondage to something, it wasn't ana, and the therapy said "you will have this for life". Well here is the good news. I can honestly say that it CAN completely disappear because it did for me. No triggers, no thoughts just vanished. I wish that for you too.
It takes a lot to put yourself out there like in this video. Hell, it takes a lot to go through this shit in general. And believe me, I can relate on so many levels. As lame and over done as it sounds, its the truth. Stay strong hun, don't let fall back on old habits.
I'm so glad you made it through this! You DON'T have to relapse. I'm 31 and have had an ED since I was about 22, with a two year period in recovery before I relapsed. I wish SO MUCH that I hadn't let the ED back into my life. I'm about 6 months behavior free now after a 1 year relapse, but I feel sad that I had to spend all that time in hospitals and treatment. It was such a waste of my 20s. I don't want you to waste your young adulthood like I did much of mine! Be strong!
I can't believe they'd feed biscuits to anorexics in hospitals. Fruits and veggies seems most logical as they have tons of nutrients, exactly what the body is missing when starving.
folllow sunsetjuliett or juliet thomason on twitter she's absolutely amazing. she's going to start videos in the near future of her stories of self harm, eating disorder, trauma, loss, bullying and more...she helped me. shes really nice. she gave me great advice & her stories are soo helpful..they're sad but powerful. she's a great help. just check her out. she also talks about stuff on stickam (Juliet Thomason) her videos are up go check her channel out julietthomason. love her!
aw, last time I saw this video, it was a lot more inspiring in helping with my recovery. But now that I've seen you've made a few changes, I wonder what's going on in your life and why you're positive spirit has disappeared :(
PLEASE..don't ever tell yourself that you know you're going to relapse someday..this lets ana know you're waiting for it. You almost died..DON'T let that happen again..you have great control over it, so keep going. When ana tries to creep back in, watch this video over and over again, and remind yourself that you don't want to end up like me..I damaged my body so much that I was unable to have biological children and permanently damaged my metabolism.
ahhh your amazing. im 5,0 and in 7th grade, and weigh 70 pounds. im very scared, but i try to eat alot, & im gunna get a diatition. thank you for this. you are gorgeouss, stay strong. <33.
@animaluver12 why are you so underweight? If you have an eating disorder, please get some help. You don't want to end up like me..38 years old with a 28 year history of an eating disorder, and unable to have my own children. I love my adopted kids, but I felt robbed..betrayed by my own body.Get some help ASAP.
@blessedmommy73 Idkk, but i dont have a disorder. Im just not eatiing the right things. i am about to get a dietisian. Soo i will be gooood. ahha & thatss ok, they love you just as much.. <3.
@animaluver12 a dietician is actually a very good idea. Maybe you can compensate with some Ensure Plus to compensate for the calories. yes..I love my children so soo much and I am thankful for them every second of my day. I did become pregnant last may, so I'm trying to get healthy and maybe it will happen, my kids want it to happen so much..lol. What are you actually eating in one day? The nurse in me is curious. I've never worked in ED but I specialize in pediatrics. Take care!
@blessedmommy73 Hhah thanks! andd ehh maybe. ahah gooooood. <3. good luck! my doctor told me to eat 5 glasses of water, 4 fruits and veggies, 3 milk. haha but i usually dnt eat it, i try to. i am very strong, and what is on me, is muscle, so i guess thats good! haha welllll thankk you! you seem so nice. <33 you also take care. (:
You're so beatiful honey,and oh so brave to have pulled through this and get to where youare now..im also in recovery from anorexia and bulimia and although i never got to the emaciated stage liike yu unfortunately did,i can see now how ill i was.so tiny and i also had a ng tube..how are u doing now?i'd loveto hear from u..inbox me and we culd chat more :)new friends^.^ xxx
im a chubby person...im happy with my chub...but how can u do that...? no offense but i literaly think of jewish people+WW2 era germans when i see skinny like that
Search SOCIAL JUSTICE PITCH-THE BUTTERFLY FOUNDATION in the youtube search bar and click on the first video. If you have a heart you will help raise awareness for this serious issue in todays society!
I have a ? for anybody 2 answer. I am 13 and weigh 80 pounds. My frends say im skinney and i never eat as much as them. shuld i go on a diet? or can that lead to bad things. i think i can control myself but idk. help!
Thank you for sharing your journey so eloquently! You said "I'll probably get sick again!" This is called a self fulfilling prophecy! Please don't fulfill this prophecy - for your mother's sake. Be well.
You are so eloquent, its like you are inside my head vocalizing things I've felt but (until now) couldn't describe. You are so brave for posting this video AND for working to inform your treatment facilities so they can better treat future patients. Thank you for sharing your story!
@riku0yuki Fucking delete this comment, you piece of shit. Seriously, why would you even say that to her when you know it could trigger her anorexia again? She's beautiful and healthy.
@riku0yuki WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? RU FUCKIN RETARDED OR WHAT? THE WORLD DOESN'T DESERVE PEOPLE LIKE YOU. SERIOUSLY. I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU, FOR BEING SUCH AN IDIOT... feel ashamed for this comment and delete it. When u realize all the bullshit that u just said, it might be too late.
Being a former anorexic myself I know what you went through and I am so so proud of you. You are a beautiful girl and remember that you overcame this so you can overcome just about anything after this!!!
your story really touched me. i don't have an eating disorder, but i count calories religiously and constantly patronize myself on my appearance. you've made me want to finally work to gain some confidence! thank you so much!
you're gorgeous, and so, so strong - i'm so glad you're healthy now. god bless! :]
@FIREYICEangel that is funny you should say as they were my exact thoughts at the time. I know this sounds ridiculous but i felt that they got a kind of pleasure forcing me to eat the crap, i also got the feeling they were envious. Weirdly, i have heard at least one other person i know with anorexia who said the same. One occasion a nurse clearly saw me eat my biscuit but claimed i didn't she said "i have to get you another one now", and gave me a blatant haha smile. An incident out of many.
@prettyreckless2700 Thanks for sharing your story...I'm sure it will help many girls out there. You are lucky to be alive. I've watched a few severe cases on youtube and it's shocking to see such a frail sight. I know it's a mental thing...I just find it hard that they see fat when there's a skeleton in the mirror...it's like the bones appear as "fat", yet there's nothing more to lose except their life. Nice to see a happier ending like yours. Others made me cry. You are beautiful
You are so pretty..wieght doesnt matter. it is only yourself that will beat yourself up over your wieght, and sometimes we think the whole world is staring at us. But really you are so pretty. I dont believe you will relapse b/c i think you know what you dont want to go through again. Dont say what doesnt kill you will prob. try again, because that doesnt help your confidence at all. Anorexia isnt a thing that is going to come attack you, it is all in yourself and you have power to control it
Oh my God ... The pictures of you are your thinnest made me cry so hard. I'm still crying ... You looked like a concentration camp victim, I was so scared that the end of the video was going to say that you were still struggling ... But no, you look healthy and whole and beautiful and that makes me so happy. Never give in to ana again, she's fucking evil. Much love. ♥
@OfficialUNICORNS lol i think that is great =) I hate to refer to this quote, as i have heard a lot of pro-ana's use it, but for me "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels", sums it up really. The statement is quite sad but it is honest. And it was, and is now how i feel about food. First it was this notion that drove me on and soon after it just became easy; you lose the hungry feeling, with each pound your looking better (in one's mind)its just so addictive, and felt amazing (post 5st anyway).
even i've survived from anorexia, these eating disorder -surviving-videos never touch me at all, i hardly have an interest watching these when i found one. but this poor pretty little girl, you, made me cry.
sweetheart it doesnt have to be your life or return to get you unless you allow it to!I come from a family that has high IQ's along with really bad bipolar disorder don't let your fucked upness define you grow around it and refuse to be a victim be a survivor and move forward.....
@060perspective090 not a problem. It was the doctors, therapists and my own deceit and determination that got me so far. The doctors seemed uninterested and never forceful. Their 'expert decisions' were detrimental, like in the 3rd admission they refused to put my calories up from 300 which led me to lose weight and have a fit. I put on an act at the therapists which was effortless. The most hassle i got was from my folks, i would of not made it without them I'm just sad i put them through it.
I know exactly what you mean, anorexia will always be a part of you (part of mine aswell) and we may survive, but the little voice will never completely dissapear.
Becoming and staying thin(ner) stays important, because we have tasted the beauty and the feeling of being thin. Only problem here is, how to know it is enough, because you keep pushing yourself ALL the way. Im sorry if this is too personal, but what made you stop (this time)?
I've watched your video a few times now and everytime I've seen it I get emotional aha! I've had problems with my weight, eating disorders etc, and this video truely inspires me, it pisses me off seeing comments on here saying you look fat now because that's really insensitive, and you don't look fat, you look really well and healthy. The end of the video about diet coke reminds me of me too, because I still have a phobia of drinking drinks high in calories:L >.< I hope your well, xx
selfharmadvice 2 days ago
I almost cried at the part of your 14th birthday... You look so beautiful now! seriously, what a pretty face! :) dont ever ever think you're not beautiful, because you are.
steph4234 2 days ago
Wow, you went from being perfect and small and healthy with a normal metabolism, to being deathly thin, to being fat. I'll bet you wish you'd never screwed up your body in the first place, eh ;)
1950steapot 3 days ago
@1950steapot you bet wrong, I'm glad i went through what i did as it has made me stronger and have better priorities in life. I am surrounded by love and support, and my experiences - the good AND bad, i cherish. From the sounds of it, it seems you can not simply understand that sometimes it is not what you've lost but what you've found, and one can not judge someone's journey without having walked the same path. Im not as thin as i was because thats my decision & i choose that, for now anyway.
prettyreckless2700 3 days ago 2
@prettyreckless2700 Glad you're proud of going through something unnecessary and that just made you your worst fear in the end..
Funny how that worked out.
1950steapot 2 days ago
@1950steapot wow, i didn't realise mental disorders were optional. Describing ED's or any other illness as 'unnecessary' just shows ignorance - people do not choose to have these things. Ha it is not 'funny' or ironic - its logic, i would have had to put on weight as to get out of danger and hospital places. If that has made me 'fat' to you then ok lol, you've shown the lack of credibility of your opinion on this matter anyway, so really what you think is irrelevant to me.
prettyreckless2700 2 days ago
@prettyreckless2700 Wow good for you!! You have a lot more confidence than I thought you would :)
Wishing you all the best!
1950steapot 2 days ago
@1950steapot thankyou, i really appreciate that =)
prettyreckless2700 1 day ago
@prettyreckless2700 Of course. You went through all of that, and genuinely came out strong. That's cool. Glad I couldn't get you down.
1950steapot 1 day ago
your such an inspiration...
TWFAN97 6 days ago
You are so amazing and very, very, very, beautiful. I am so glad you got the help you needed and are on the right journey to a happy life. You deserve the world. I really hope you never relapse and go back to that dark place you were once in. I want to say thank you so much for sharing your story. I couldn't stop crying when I first saw this. You are a miracle and you defiantly have a purpose in this world today. Keep your head up and always stay strong.
vstover24 1 week ago
i love you girly!! xxx
bluestars4butterflys 1 week ago
i wish i was 50 lbs. yes im anorexic to all you people who are gonna bitch at me.
TheKillerInMyHead 1 week ago
Please stay strong and healthy. I am so proud that you shared your story, I believe it will help others strugling with anorexia. You are a beautiful girl and have overcome so much. You have a second chance and have looked death in the face and have come out victorious. Please don't ever fall in that trap again. You are strong and you can stay healthy! You are beautiful and a survivor. You are an inspriation!
I wish you all the happiness and blessings one can enjoy in a lifetime and more!
CharsseV 1 week ago
Hi! Im fat, dont wanna say. i would never diet or calorie count. but some of the "cool people" at my school tease me. my friends are supportive to me. but im proud. everyone its not the end of the world( take that u bitch mayans!) ps: all you people who are skinny and live in mansions, go fuck yourself. u think your all that when your really not!
angel987643211 2 weeks ago
Hi! Marie here.Soo happy to hear that you have recovered from your anorexia.You are right you can relapse.I have.Haven`t been anorexic since childhood but then i was starving most of the time.From a family of 10 poor working class.Memories of childhood,begging for food at the market,going to the Grey nuns for food,sneeking into the A&P warehouse dumpster for dented cans of food,what fun,NOT!Now older & i`ve relapsed am 5"7 142lbs trying to hold it there.Hope it doesen`t get worse.Hate hospitals.
underloved1 2 weeks ago
You are incredible... You are so strong and your beautiful :D alwaays remember that hunny. Im in Leigh House now... Not the funniest plce on earth so i no how it felt...
CherylKungFuClouds 2 weeks ago
You are a beautiful woman and I hope that everything turns out great for you. Don't say you'll relapse again! You are an inspiration to every girl in America and where ever else who ever thinks that anorexia (pro ana, mia) is fun or cool or anything. Stay healthy and beautiful!
Crackforcrackers6 2 weeks ago
Hope you are well!
alliterati1 2 weeks ago
wee pet, you're beautiful. hope your doing ok
lola19873 2 weeks ago
you're so so beautiful....
PerfectlyUnperfect25 3 weeks ago
I'm in recovery from anorexia, but remember, we can be physically recovered, but still cognitively sick. Relapses are almost inevitable, but it's what we DO with those relapses that is important. Are we learning from them? Are they fewer and far between? Keep working at it, lovely, and someday you will be able to control ED instead of ED controlling you. You're VERY beautiful, by the way.
realitytweeter 3 weeks ago 7
i'm also in recovery. it's always nice to see other survivors even if our journey was not the same. i am glad you are doing better. no doubt there will be times where you might still struggle, but hopefully you will reach out when you do so it doesn't end up how it was the first time around.
justagurl23 3 weeks ago
this is one of the most TOUCHING videos i have ever seen. thanks again for answering my message! i know that was awhile ago. thank you posting this video. I love Punching in a dream! :) and you look absoulutely BEAUTIFUL at 1:11 !!!! omg. and you looked so skinny in the ICU at 50 lbs (3 st 8 lb). Im anorexic to i am just gonna say i am jealous. hopefully thats not offensive. I hope your doing well Shannon. And hope your stayin' strong as long as possible.. by that i mean not relapsing. -Shelbyxx
TheKillerInMyHead 3 weeks ago
@TheKillerInMyHead * 1:10
TheKillerInMyHead 3 weeks ago
Love Life Live It Up And Shake Your Ass Like You Don't Give A Fuck. You are Beautiful never forget that! Hang in there<33! Inbox me when you can. I would like to talk to you. I myself am learning to love myself and life again, ive battled with anorexia and bulimia.
LOTS OF LOVE, EDDIE
<3
journeyrecovery 3 weeks ago
You look so beautiful in the end!
EmmaLayMartin 3 weeks ago
oh my God you are seriously one of the most gorgeous girls I have ever seen, I am so glad that you are now healthy and please remember that you will forever be beautiful in my eyes no matter what. please stay strong <3
aryba95 3 weeks ago
I'm seriously not trying to hate, but this is probably the worst case of ana I've seen. at 2:55, I mean, wow. Such a powerful picture that just shows what a grip ana can have and the lengths she will take you. This video is the most genuine Anorexia video that's on youtube, and it makes me so angry to girls who make videos like these when they obviously don't have the disorder. You're an amazing girl, and you're recovery is so inspiring! <3
ShelbyyWelby 1 month ago 2
Thank you for posting this. You are helping so many people with this video, both with and without anorexia. You are wonderful.
Rumplestiltskin16 1 month ago
I am soo very proud of you....I hope you don't believe that anorexia will live with you the rest of your life or pop up again someday.....You are truly a gem, I hope you always remember that...Live, Love and Laugh!!!
zaa1290 1 month ago
a BMI of 9.1? Wow, you really looked death straight in the eyes! I am so glad your doing better now, keep it up girl! Cuz you deserve to live!
TheSnuffy1994 1 month ago
your journey brought tears to my eyes and it was a relief at the end to see how much you had recovered and although it is a never ending challenge for you i just you can beat this and have a happy life....
WayneInPain 1 month ago
Just wanted to say that I think you're so brave for putting this out for everyone to watch. And also, I think you're beautiful in many ways. Really inspiring. Thank you.
DrummerElliott 1 month ago
the one thing i never understood though : how come all people that have anorexia personalize it, and actually transform it into some kind of being?
zarehara 1 month ago
this is the only anorexia story that has deeply touched me and the only one i've seen so far that actually seems to be genuine. i admire you overcoming your struggle.
zarehara 1 month ago
your so beautiful!
1234jnsh 1 month ago
aw this was so sad, you were so young. i cant believe something inside of you told you you were not good enough, you look like a beautiful girl and deffinitly strong since you were able to over come all that!! best of luck to you hun!
Xmofuckin0 1 month ago
OMG i hv that top butin Tshirt stye at 1:06
ThePeg1979 1 month ago
It took a lot of courage to post this video.
ButtcrackObama 1 month ago
Wow, now you are so incredibly beautiful!!! Please don't say you might relapse again. That is the last thing you should do because you are so gorgeous & unique & strong to overcome all of that. that's insain, I can't think of something more painful and awful then kidney failure ect. I will pray for you to stay just the way you are now :D thank you for showing people why they shouldn't be anorexic you are such a wonderful person!
misssummersparkle 1 month ago
Wow, now you are so incredibly beautiful!!! Please don't say you might relapse again. That is the last thing you should do because you are so gorgeous & unique & strong to overcome all of that. that's insain, I can't think of something more painful and awful then kidney failure ect. I will pray for you to stay just the way you are now :D thank you for showing people why they shouldn't be anorexic you are such a wonderful person!
misssummersparkle 1 month ago 14
I think you are a beautiful young girl who is veru brave for facing this problem at such a young age and then dealing with recovery. I have girls who are 14 and 11 and know the pressure is there to look perfect. Everyday they always say "Dad how do I look" and I always tell them beautiful no matter what their hair color is or what crazy clothes they are wearing as their self esteem is always the most important thing.
Kursk431 1 month ago
what a sad expedience!!!!
lucky you are still living!
i love you ;'( <3
laurynlawler 1 month ago
Oh my god you are looking fantastic now!!! FAN_FUCKING_TASTIC_! WOW i didnt even recognise you at first! I WAS soo happy for you until you went all negative at the end. no girl, you should know now your thought are what control your life. change your sate of mind ;) But seriously you are wonderful now. its horrible what happened to you and sad, very sad. but you are just looking SO GOOD right now.
MyBeautifuLiar 1 month ago
How are you now? I hope you are in a much better mental state.
mlwish 1 month ago
@mlwish hey, thank you for your comment. I have been worried about my physical health as of late, mainly because i have started a job in a supermarket which has required use of bending my knees a lot through lifting and bending my back. My knees are still so weak and my back is brittle so i have been finding it hard. I have made a doc appointment so as to book a DEXA scan to check for osteoporosis in the spine and to see what i can do for my knees.
prettyreckless2700 1 month ago
@prettyreckless2700 have you heard of webiteback ? its a great site for people trying to overcome their eds, I'm on it and the people there are great and inspiring (lol, I mean the other women, not me obviously!) Good luck with everything, i hope that you're able to tell the negative thoughts to go to hell.
mlwish 1 month ago
@mlwish My overall fitness is still quite poor, i get tired walking short distances etc its embarrassing, sometimes i think those who are overweight are probably fitter than me which is quite ironic. Mentally I am the same in my priorities - thin, thin, thin, unfortunately. But of course like with most, it will always be that way. Right now I am just doing my best to improve my physical strength of my muscles, bones and internal organs, i am trying not to focus on my thoughts...
prettyreckless2700 1 month ago
@mlwish I don't want to think because i am scared because i know that i can't live without being dangerously thin, at the same time i can't live with being dangerously thin. Just seems i am doomed either way, and its just a matter of time. Sorry for the downer, but i think honesty is crucial in talking about an ed, especially because ed's are so infamous for their deceit.
prettyreckless2700 1 month ago
really zelda? lol
Awwison99 1 month ago
@Awwison99 lol yeah why not, Zelda OOT is amazing!
prettyreckless2700 1 month ago 9
@prettyreckless2700 I agree
Awwison99 1 month ago
it didn't change how I felt cause like you said death didn't scare me either. I agree with you I think it's always with you if you were born with it it's a part of you. I much preffered hanging with the other people they have different perspectives and views and are so un-judgemental. I'm glad you're able to keep the fight going even though you are still living with the thoughts. I hope we can all come to a point when we are able to feel stronger and able to live life as crazy as we want! Hugs x
TheSkylaReign 1 month ago
They should've done daily blood tests, ECG's and heart holters to monitor your intake cuz you can go into arrest from to much to quick or not enough. The tube's the safest way and when you're that unwell they can't risk it. solid food would've sent you into arrest because it's foreign to the body and oral supplements would have high risks of regurgitating. I learnt after a while it was like an anti-biotic or medicine they have to give you to keep you alive. It's not punishment it's duty of care
TheSkylaReign 1 month ago
Hey I just wanted to say it's really good to see someone brave enough to display this. It riles me up to that people are pro ana and want 'ana' buddies cuz if they really wanted it they would just do it and figure it out for themselves everybody has a different body and relying on other ppl is a cop out. That's not anorexia it's a diet. I can understand where you're coming from with the naso. It happens to pretty much everyone with refeeding syndrome you lose weight.
TheSkylaReign 1 month ago
the image at 2:55 killed me... so sad
SistersAndTheDino 1 month ago
At the begginging of the video, I thought, oh, she is not that bad, but as soon as I saw the pictures from the hospital, I cried a little. You went through so much...i can't even imagine:'[
anything4perfection 1 month ago
I don't know if anorexia/obsession with being thin has anything to do with the image created by the modeling industry but if it does I truly hope that women realize that the modeling industry is run by old women and extraordinarily gay men. So the idea that a model is somehow "attractive" in the true sense of the word is a billion dollar lie.
Twiggy was absolutely repulsive to all but a few disturbed men and the current crop of stick figured models aren't any more attractive than she was.
granolanutpunch 1 month ago
hola! :) me da gusto que ya estés mejor que bonita te vez con tu peso normal te vez saludable yo quisiera ser como tu .que te bendiga Dios
TheDianna1212 1 month ago
you really can recover totally beautiful, i know it sounds crazy and impossible, but you've come through too much to give up now. you are very inspirational
slashkatze 1 month ago
yo don't relapse ur a gorgeous girl who has so much 2 live 4. thanks 4 sharing. good luck!
ekwrocks 1 month ago
you are so beautiful. please don't ever give up.
xobellababeox329 2 months ago
I am so glad you are better. I can relate in every way possible. I was dying. You were dying. It made me so broken inside seeing you so sick and frail. I am so glad you are better. Like you already mentioned, anorexia is a state of mindl and you and I both, will have it forever. But I know that we are stronger than ana and can be the young woman we were meant to be; healthy and strong! Good luck on your journey for the rest of your life.
brooke512744 2 months ago
Anorexia can be a terrible thing but sometimes it realluy changes people to what they really are and im glad that you have recovered!!!!! <3 this video!
allyssandra100 2 months ago
keeep going ur vidio made me cry had no idea it wud finishish with lh, i also had 2 imisions there so i no how amazing there are annd i also had a pink cake! good old grayham th chef :) xx
torirosefoxwell 2 months ago
i enjoyed watching your video and reading all of your extras. its a sad story, but a powerful one. you go girly! you look absolutely beautiful in ALL of your photos.
nitrogirl1632 2 months ago
I know it might sound weird but there's a group called overeaters anonymous that is free and in a lot of cities (it's like AA) and is used by anorexics, bulimics and overeaters/binge eaters for support in getting and staying well. If they have it in your city could connect with people there anytime you felt you were falling again. Look it up online.
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TheBlueJism 2 months ago
wow you were a skeleton before. but you look beautiful and healthy now!! i'm happy for you :)
greencrystalapple 2 months ago
Well done! :) you made it out on the other side and your still here. Be proud Xx Many Blessigs
chylorna 2 months ago
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You are an amazingly courageous, amazingly strong girl. I could relate to a lot of your story: the nurses who couldn't care less about me, the relapses, & the semi coma you had in the third admission, not to mention the hair loss. I have been anorexic since I was 14 & bulimic since 16 (now 17). I am still not recovered.I would really really like to recover, I am over it.I was just wondering if you could tell me what made you recover like you did?
NeverNormalAbby 2 months ago
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You are an amazingly courageous, amazingly strong girl. I could relate to a lot of your story: the nurses who couldn't care less about me, the relapses, & the semi coma you had in the third admission, not to mention the hair loss. I have been anorexic since I was 14 & bulimic since 16 (now 17). I am still not recovered.I would really really like to recover, I am over it.I was just wondering if you could tell me what made you recover like you did?
NeverNormalAbby 2 months ago
You are an amazingly courageous, amazingly strong girl. I could relate to a lot of your story: the nurses who couldn't care less about me, the relapses, & the semi coma you had in the third admission, not to mention the hair loss. I have been anorexic since I was 14 & bulimic since 16 (now 17). I am still not recovered.I would really really like to recover, I am over it.I was just wondering if you could tell me what made you recover like you did?
NeverNormalAbby 2 months ago
Your beautiful, But girl you had annerexia bad, I think even though it's hard you need to eat, I Promise you you are not fat!.
chadissmexyyeah 2 months ago
Naked and Famous? You from NZ?
<3 you are very brave!
magicmunchies 2 months ago
Bless you xx :)
999nikki999 2 months ago
Did you still get periods? and if you did what did they do?.
UBPubic 2 months ago
fu*n stupid people, i was talking to her not to u =)
i was anorexic too, so i know that when u finally end with this problem (anorexia ) u gain weight... but that's not healthy =( that's why after i left anorexia, i have to exercise ...
just that =) u're a beauty
riku0yuki 2 months ago
you are so brave well done for getting better:),im currently struggling with anorexia.......:(
was that leigh house in winchester by any chance?
frankie171196 2 months ago
Oh wow hun your such an inspiration to me :) Hope you stay well xx
ChocoBunny61 3 months ago
god im 12 and im like obese compared to you..
HannaBananaDrama 3 months ago
You have a lovely figure! So glad you're doing better, you're a pretty young thing, I'd hate to see a life go to waste! Good job and keep it up hun! :)
ShhhhhItsasecret 3 months ago
Hi! I've looked for this video because I saw it few months ago and I loved your change into health! I also liked the songs that the vidoe has before, cuold you tell me the names? THANKYOU SO MUCH!
Sorry about my English, it's not very well!
manurevi94 3 months ago
@manurevi94 sorry I just had to say it's so good to hear someone say 'health' so many people focus on weight and it's not about weight. you can be a healthy weight but have organs failing. overweight has health complications. some overweight people are fine. I hate it when people think it's all in vain when really you just want to be left alone and alot want men to leave them alone. It doesn't matter how big or small you are if your emotionally and mentally struggling you still deserve help!
TheSkylaReign 1 month ago
You were still smiling...youre such a strong woman
marilouchixx 3 months ago
You were gorgeous in the first pictures... then in the hospital you looked.. dead? :/
MollyMassacree 3 months ago
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But you are fat right now! Stop beaing anorexia does not mean to be eating everything kow! I meen cmoon!!! Look at the miror! You f''''g fat!!!
Kuryba114 3 months ago
@Kuryba114 You sir, can go to hell. All you are is a coward for criticizing this beautiful girl, even with you knowing what she has been through. Grow up you child. She is amazing.
hannahthejedi117 3 months ago
@Kuryba114 You lame assed pimple infested GIT!! You´ve got some nerves after just seen what she´s been through! She almost died you asshole!
Grow up ,eh
Thanks for sharing your story and I´m so happy to see a happy ending for you. Keep strong and keep healthy and ignore fags like Kuryba114.
Lethnion 3 months ago
@Kuryba114 its been medically proven that in recovery stages of anorexia the fat distributes through the body unevenly at first leaving some patients looking like they are 9months pregnant. this is called refeeding syndrome and can take months for the body to get used to having regular nutrition and changing out of starvation mode. Once nutrients are restored and metabolism is working it settles and the weight drops because the body is functioning properly again. size is irrelevant her health is
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JoannaNg1996 3 months ago
thanks for sharing your story. I suffered from an eating disorder too and man it sucked. I wasted away high school and my friends thought I was so weird and freaky. I'm glad you're feeling better, keep up the good work! It's gonna be tough (I'm 4 years into recovery now), but we're here for you! (and you can message me if you want ^^)
transientfragility 3 months ago
I'm glad you feel better <3
xFakingThatSmilex 3 months ago
thank you for sharing your story :) i am now a year into recovery from anorexia, and although i didn't have as many medical complications as you did (so sorry you had to go through that!) the mental and physical aspects definitely still affect me today. thank you for putting up a video that shows EDs how they really are! i hate those pro ana vids too. you look gorgeous at your healthy weight by the way :)
flying0flautist012 3 months ago
you are beautiful now! stay strong!
CurryBiskit 3 months ago
when you are at your healthy weight you are sooo pretty! i wish i had hair like yours :)
toosexyforyou90 3 months ago
I was so scared when I saw how thin you were. Now, I am relieved to see you well and healthy again. I wish the best for you and for your family. Jesus bless you.
doomedkitty2 3 months ago
Loved your story but the part at the end when you said you will probably relapse again scared me so I thought I would share a few words about my story. I was once in bondage to something, it wasn't ana, and the therapy said "you will have this for life". Well here is the good news. I can honestly say that it CAN completely disappear because it did for me. No triggers, no thoughts just vanished. I wish that for you too.
funlover2283 3 months ago
It takes a lot to put yourself out there like in this video. Hell, it takes a lot to go through this shit in general. And believe me, I can relate on so many levels. As lame and over done as it sounds, its the truth. Stay strong hun, don't let fall back on old habits.
Silhouettes45 3 months ago
Nice vidoe. Check out my video at The Holly Help on anorexia.
What do you think? Is anorexia playing it small? Why or why not?
TheHollyHelp 3 months ago
You Are so beautiful though why would you do this, and i hate ana!
botdq 3 months ago
I'm so glad you made it through this! You DON'T have to relapse. I'm 31 and have had an ED since I was about 22, with a two year period in recovery before I relapsed. I wish SO MUCH that I hadn't let the ED back into my life. I'm about 6 months behavior free now after a 1 year relapse, but I feel sad that I had to spend all that time in hospitals and treatment. It was such a waste of my 20s. I don't want you to waste your young adulthood like I did much of mine! Be strong!
MandaT1980 3 months ago
I can't believe they'd feed biscuits to anorexics in hospitals. Fruits and veggies seems most logical as they have tons of nutrients, exactly what the body is missing when starving.
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thedagonfly1989 3 months ago
I disagree. It is perfectly possible to recover. It just isn't easy.
PsychoBatcave 3 months ago
aw, last time I saw this video, it was a lot more inspiring in helping with my recovery. But now that I've seen you've made a few changes, I wonder what's going on in your life and why you're positive spirit has disappeared :(
ch3rryxx 3 months ago
listen, jsut stop and think. your glad to be alive more ppl will judge u if ur anerix . loojks dont matter, your beautiful on the insaide
a6ty 3 months ago
PLEASE..don't ever tell yourself that you know you're going to relapse someday..this lets ana know you're waiting for it. You almost died..DON'T let that happen again..you have great control over it, so keep going. When ana tries to creep back in, watch this video over and over again, and remind yourself that you don't want to end up like me..I damaged my body so much that I was unable to have biological children and permanently damaged my metabolism.
blessedmommy73 3 months ago
When you had gained the wait bk you reminded me of Abby from Eastenders but you are much prettier
darcymaywhitaker 3 months ago
i am from holland and after i watch this video i will cry!!
youre amazing girl! thats good of you! You're stronger than anorexia and I hope you get better soon!
ibouten 3 months ago
You are SO GORGEOUS now! Keep it up girl! :D
pipperz 3 months ago
omg. !
Panana25 3 months ago
ahhh your amazing. im 5,0 and in 7th grade, and weigh 70 pounds. im very scared, but i try to eat alot, & im gunna get a diatition. thank you for this. you are gorgeouss, stay strong. <33.
animaluver12 3 months ago
@animaluver12 why are you so underweight? If you have an eating disorder, please get some help. You don't want to end up like me..38 years old with a 28 year history of an eating disorder, and unable to have my own children. I love my adopted kids, but I felt robbed..betrayed by my own body.Get some help ASAP.
blessedmommy73 3 months ago
@blessedmommy73 Idkk, but i dont have a disorder. Im just not eatiing the right things. i am about to get a dietisian. Soo i will be gooood. ahha & thatss ok, they love you just as much.. <3.
animaluver12 3 months ago
@animaluver12 a dietician is actually a very good idea. Maybe you can compensate with some Ensure Plus to compensate for the calories. yes..I love my children so soo much and I am thankful for them every second of my day. I did become pregnant last may, so I'm trying to get healthy and maybe it will happen, my kids want it to happen so much..lol. What are you actually eating in one day? The nurse in me is curious. I've never worked in ED but I specialize in pediatrics. Take care!
blessedmommy73 3 months ago
@blessedmommy73 Hhah thanks! andd ehh maybe. ahah gooooood. <3. good luck! my doctor told me to eat 5 glasses of water, 4 fruits and veggies, 3 milk. haha but i usually dnt eat it, i try to. i am very strong, and what is on me, is muscle, so i guess thats good! haha welllll thankk you! you seem so nice. <33 you also take care. (:
animaluver12 3 months ago
You are amazing. Extremely beautiful and brave. <3 I hope you are doing well now.
brittanyandjonas 3 months ago
You're so beatiful honey,and oh so brave to have pulled through this and get to where youare now..im also in recovery from anorexia and bulimia and although i never got to the emaciated stage liike yu unfortunately did,i can see now how ill i was.so tiny and i also had a ng tube..how are u doing now?i'd loveto hear from u..inbox me and we culd chat more :)new friends^.^ xxx
BooEDlife 3 months ago
im a chubby person...im happy with my chub...but how can u do that...? no offense but i literaly think of jewish people+WW2 era germans when i see skinny like that
fredcyrdawsontheoran 3 months ago
you're amazing :')
dulceprincesa33 3 months ago
Good for you, honey. That took alot of bravery.
TheFirebrand 3 months ago
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kerriekaterina 3 months ago
You became a beautiful girl when you got better. Remmember, Boys like curves! :-) I think you look great in 2011 :-)
God bless you
Flying90Birdy 3 months ago
Your an inspiration lovely :) x
Tiny101Dancer 3 months ago
I have a ? for anybody 2 answer. I am 13 and weigh 80 pounds. My frends say im skinney and i never eat as much as them. shuld i go on a diet? or can that lead to bad things. i think i can control myself but idk. help!
cookiemonstah147 3 months ago
You are gorgeous now, and I admire you a lot. Health and true happiness are priceless. <3
thaycarbd 3 months ago
Thank you for sharing your journey so eloquently! You said "I'll probably get sick again!" This is called a self fulfilling prophecy! Please don't fulfill this prophecy - for your mother's sake. Be well.
frugalmom5000 3 months ago
Hey where was ur clinic because i recognise it xxx
abiiccarter 3 months ago
You are so eloquent, its like you are inside my head vocalizing things I've felt but (until now) couldn't describe. You are so brave for posting this video AND for working to inform your treatment facilities so they can better treat future patients. Thank you for sharing your story!
epomanicandsaturated 3 months ago
you are beatiful.
monycagiselle 3 months ago
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sorry that i say this but... you are a little fat now =/.. get a middle point ._.
riku0yuki 3 months ago
@riku0yuki Fucking delete this comment, you piece of shit. Seriously, why would you even say that to her when you know it could trigger her anorexia again? She's beautiful and healthy.
whenrobotstakeover 3 months ago
@riku0yuki WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? RU FUCKIN RETARDED OR WHAT? THE WORLD DOESN'T DESERVE PEOPLE LIKE YOU. SERIOUSLY. I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU, FOR BEING SUCH AN IDIOT... feel ashamed for this comment and delete it. When u realize all the bullshit that u just said, it might be too late.
thaycarbd 3 months ago
I think you went to the same school as me :D
PANDAxPLUM 3 months ago
YOU`RE VERY BEAUTIFUL! THANK GOD URE OK
Eres muy hermosa, gracias a Dios estas bien. Blessings <3
vanedenadal 3 months ago
omgosh you got so thin :/
mariahhata 3 months ago
U are very beautiful before and after the anorexcia hope your still ding well u are truly inspiring
KatieisLatey123 3 months ago
Being a former anorexic myself I know what you went through and I am so so proud of you. You are a beautiful girl and remember that you overcame this so you can overcome just about anything after this!!!
Linnas79 3 months ago
your story really touched me. i don't have an eating disorder, but i count calories religiously and constantly patronize myself on my appearance. you've made me want to finally work to gain some confidence! thank you so much!
you're gorgeous, and so, so strong - i'm so glad you're healthy now. god bless! :]
limmyxXXO 3 months ago
beatifu;
greysonluver630 3 months ago
what is the convertion from 'stones' to pounds?
sharemychips64 3 months ago
you're so beautiful darling xxx
Criminalnegligence 3 months ago
you look so healthy and well im so glad that u fought what was killing you, thank god your not dead!
prettyjohnson16 3 months ago
How come every time you're in the hospital the doctor's and nurses are fat ??O.o I'm sorry that would make me try harder to be skinny
FIREYICEangel 3 months ago 22
@FIREYICEangel that is funny you should say as they were my exact thoughts at the time. I know this sounds ridiculous but i felt that they got a kind of pleasure forcing me to eat the crap, i also got the feeling they were envious. Weirdly, i have heard at least one other person i know with anorexia who said the same. One occasion a nurse clearly saw me eat my biscuit but claimed i didn't she said "i have to get you another one now", and gave me a blatant haha smile. An incident out of many.
prettyreckless2700 3 months ago 13
@prettyreckless2700 Thanks for sharing your story...I'm sure it will help many girls out there. You are lucky to be alive. I've watched a few severe cases on youtube and it's shocking to see such a frail sight. I know it's a mental thing...I just find it hard that they see fat when there's a skeleton in the mirror...it's like the bones appear as "fat", yet there's nothing more to lose except their life. Nice to see a happier ending like yours. Others made me cry. You are beautiful
tanja5856 3 months ago
You are so pretty..wieght doesnt matter. it is only yourself that will beat yourself up over your wieght, and sometimes we think the whole world is staring at us. But really you are so pretty. I dont believe you will relapse b/c i think you know what you dont want to go through again. Dont say what doesnt kill you will prob. try again, because that doesnt help your confidence at all. Anorexia isnt a thing that is going to come attack you, it is all in yourself and you have power to control it
katiemarie92294 3 months ago
from the dominican republic: blessings...
deidyntube 3 months ago
Oh my God ... The pictures of you are your thinnest made me cry so hard. I'm still crying ... You looked like a concentration camp victim, I was so scared that the end of the video was going to say that you were still struggling ... But no, you look healthy and whole and beautiful and that makes me so happy. Never give in to ana again, she's fucking evil. Much love. ♥
mallorymaloney 3 months ago
You Had Me Tearing :'3
Gosh , One Thing i NEED To Ask ..
Well .. i've Never Had Eating Disorders .. i Don't Go on Diets, iDon't Count Calories, i Just Eat Whatever isn't .. Fat ? Um .. Nothing BAD i Guess..
But .. Eating Feels So ... GOOD ^-^
Like .. Didn't The Smell Of Food Drive You Nutts ?!
i Don't Understand ! i Know Not To Eat Too Much Of it, But i HAVE To Take One .. How Did You Control That ?
OfficialUNICORNS 3 months ago 4
@OfficialUNICORNS lol i think that is great =) I hate to refer to this quote, as i have heard a lot of pro-ana's use it, but for me "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels", sums it up really. The statement is quite sad but it is honest. And it was, and is now how i feel about food. First it was this notion that drove me on and soon after it just became easy; you lose the hungry feeling, with each pound your looking better (in one's mind)its just so addictive, and felt amazing (post 5st anyway).
prettyreckless2700 3 months ago
amazing.. youre amazing.
what country are you from and why are all of the anorexia stories on youtube from the Uk.... hahah.
TheGoodforSomething 3 months ago
even i've survived from anorexia, these eating disorder -surviving-videos never touch me at all, i hardly have an interest watching these when i found one. but this poor pretty little girl, you, made me cry.
kuklooku 3 months ago
you are an inspiration!
lucyameliasparrow 3 months ago
sweetheart it doesnt have to be your life or return to get you unless you allow it to!I come from a family that has high IQ's along with really bad bipolar disorder don't let your fucked upness define you grow around it and refuse to be a victim be a survivor and move forward.....
SummoningtheMuse 3 months ago
@060perspective090 not a problem. It was the doctors, therapists and my own deceit and determination that got me so far. The doctors seemed uninterested and never forceful. Their 'expert decisions' were detrimental, like in the 3rd admission they refused to put my calories up from 300 which led me to lose weight and have a fit. I put on an act at the therapists which was effortless. The most hassle i got was from my folks, i would of not made it without them I'm just sad i put them through it.
prettyreckless2700 3 months ago
Zelda for the win at the end , You are beautiful <3
xEMOxBRAN3Yx 3 months ago
you're so pretty...
Wintermace1212 3 months ago
You are so beautiful omg ... :)
222poptarts 3 months ago
I know exactly what you mean, anorexia will always be a part of you (part of mine aswell) and we may survive, but the little voice will never completely dissapear.
Becoming and staying thin(ner) stays important, because we have tasted the beauty and the feeling of being thin. Only problem here is, how to know it is enough, because you keep pushing yourself ALL the way. Im sorry if this is too personal, but what made you stop (this time)?
kskvhj19 3 months ago
Girl, with that angelical face, nobody would care if you weight a 1000 tons.
hiair 3 months ago
So proud of you! you are beautiful!!! stay strong!
500InTheMorning 3 months ago
im really in that wired part of youtube again
anthony3leaves 3 months ago
OMG you look SO much better at the end!! healthy and beautiful! I cant believe it! did you really only had a diet coke?
jessicassecrets 3 months ago
now you are so beautiful never change! :3
princesaYuukicross 3 months ago
This has been flagged as spam show
You feel only self-pity you disgusting fat ugly pig.
MrPyjamaTrousers 4 months ago