Keep coming back to this video trying to find ways to explain my interest in vlogging! Have wanted to do so for like four years now but keep myself from it since ppl don't understand ;P
Our on line lives are as real as anything we see or hear, given the limitations of the medium. It's as powerful as TV or cinema, except we make it. It feels real, but doesn't look real to "outsiders". Or maybe we are all just crazy!
you know making videos is a bit retarded, just admit it LOL. Who cares tho really. Just keepdoing it if you enjoy it. I feel retarded just watching sometimes, but I do enjoy, so I subscribe.
hey! i don't think i watched this vid, but i want to say that i miss your videos. why? because some of them are really good and funny. i wish i could speak your language (swedish?) so i could communicate how much you've made me smile >:)
wtf, you're swedish ? You don't sound swedish at all .. Oh well, i know what you mean. Actually i completley know what you mean. I use gaming as sort of an escape aswell as youtube. Gaming is a whole other thing than youtube, because as you said. It's more "real" in a sense where you actually have contact with people. Ofcourse you can have that in an online game, but it's not the same.. Oh well, great video ! =)
It's all alright- It's some psychology complications, I sometimes bike up a hill or walk up a mountain or just walk in circles to figure things out, settle down for awhile maybe for just a day- but spontaneity can't be reigned without balance and respect to indulgence the natural awe of life. That's it! It's life! but- what is escape? how can one escape? I ask it too.
Sometimes it's pretty bland to be bold (be who you really are inside) the real you, inside you asides from insecurities etc.
Is it that your source of escape has an especially strong connection to humanity? I don't mean that in the way that phrase gets tossed around so often. I mean when you say you feel more real, would it be better to say you feel like you're part of the big picture? Eg. more aware of your community/society.
eemma, i was doing research on shanghai and came across your video. would love to know more about your journeys to china and japan.
you are very mature (mentally) for your age, with a cosmopolitan outlook. there prob is also an actor in you, that makes want to live different or parallel lives. it would be interesting to hear your life story.
Good topic, think a lot of people will encounter this. I think its not so much a 'seperation' of online and real life but rather a different form of connecting. For example my school friends are different then the friends I have on my soccer team. Still friends but connected differently. Same goes for youtube, the connections here are different in the sense that they are more free from social imposed standards from real life. Hmm I smell a good essay topic here :D
remember many many moons ago when i messaged you about how the people in your life react to your online life? i have the SAME dilemma-- i can't find a balance between the two! i love that you made this video-- from one online "weirdo" to another. :)
Not sure that that is how I feel atm tho. I don't have a hard time balancing them! I like it the way it is, keeping my online life "private" so to speak..
Its nothing diffrent as being addicted to MMORPG's like World of Warcraft.. People live 2 lives at once... You will eventually get tired of one of them... Hopefully the online!
i agree fully. I use city of heroes and youtube as an escape from the daily grind. i play C.O.H. then create music videos based off my character on the game. Only ones that view the site are my online friends not my real life friends I live around.
i use youtube as an escape as well. for instance, especially at the moment, taking a break from school or work, and taking a few moments to forget about the stress of everyday. it's a release in a way.
making a youtube video is like taking a really enjoyable poo. Once its done its a sense of releif and release. Plus all my videos are shit lol. Thats my thoughts...
You are trying to figure out why are you making videos? I'll give you a simple answer:
you make videos to make my day better.
This is probably the dumbest comment I've ever made. But who cares? I barely get to see stunning people around. I'd probably do more retarded things for the sake of it.
it is strange... this alternate reality of sorts.... sometimes it feels like an escape... and sometimes it feelsl ike you are more real here than anywhere else... at least for some people... I feel like I can express certain things on the internet better given the time delay and ability to write out specifically what i mean
yeah I know how you feel, it's like...nice to have something that your friends isn't a part of, it's your own little thing and that's what I enjoy asbout youtube a´nd twítter, when my friends found about me having a twitter and a youtube they immediately made fun of me, but I didn't care becouse they don't know what they are talking about.
NO one in my real life knows about my Ütube... but then I just watch on this channel. Hummm I may seem a voyer. I understand you and love it. I have a FB account that my real world knows about. I have friends and family there. Who I sub here and converse with here is just for me. I have told you for years... you are like a breathe of fresh air.. I still believe that. U r a class act. "werty"
I don't like having ppl I know IRL interact with me on YouTube or Twitter. Just seems weird to me, and I try to avoid it. I like having two separate worlds. Definitely can relate.
I think you describe a main problem. You brought it to a excelent point. But I can't solve that Question for myself. I use mainly Twitter. I think no one else can watch the Twitter timeline of you and really understand whats the meaning for yourself. But - somehow we interact in a very deep kind of matter. Thank you for your words. It gave me a lot of good points to think about. Maybe there is a more deep connection - but the everyday life is obviating these kind of connections.
Would you say YouTube is one of the few places where you can be completely honest and vulnerable about whatever is on your mind? A place where you be completely honest about who you are and not worry about anything else? Thats what it sounded like to me but I could be way off.
Jesus christ Eemma. This "escape" of which you speak is a very common thing. Alot of people escape into games, into communities and even into eating habbits to escape their current situation. (Or to take a break from reality)
the ideas are too big for a Youtube comment to really encapsulate even the spirit of the message, but I just wanted to say that you are talking about a very important, life-changing, revolutionary theme that should be talked about more...Jot down some of your thoughts of this on paper and try to organize your feelings a little more because I'd like to see another video talking about this!
Or a video about cats! : ) They are purrdy cute! (Oh, lord, what a bad pun, lolz)
I understand what you're trying to say, I think. The argument can be expressed in many ways; Escapism to a more glamourous existance where you have thousands of people listening to you, making you feel important and powerful...A break from the stress and choices you are thrust into in real life...A personal little corner of the internet that doesn't belong to the "Eemma" that your friends know and expect, where you can be a different person and follow the heretofore undreamed dream...
It's in some way an escape but the true meaning of it all is not just that I think. Being part of online communities and playing online games (especially MMO) is an ENHANCEMENT imo. It makes your life more complete, richer, broadening your mind ^^v
Yea that's what I sorta of said at the end.. "If anything "escaping" has made me more open" And of course u have to keep it all moderate and not let it TAKE OVER your life! (btw your comment shows now on the top! :D)
I understand what you mean, Eemma. Especially when you started talking about gamers and how they escape into the games itself. Always when I'm feeling sad, I game. People around me think it's completely ridiculous, because gaming is just to relief you from boredom, but to me it also has another value than just gaming when getting bored. I can express myself better, and it is a satisfaction. It's like it's clearing my mind and preparing for something new, that's how I feel.
You have it so perfect, it is so hard to explain to friends...I have stopped trying to. They think it is odd, and I think it is odd that they don't get it.
I am asked quite often why I bother with forums, youtube etc and it is really hard to explain it. Especially the youtube part. People that aren't active on the site can't seem to wrap their heads around the fact that their are people behind the user names.
I found it became easier to describe once I became a youtube partner. The revenue stream seems to be a justification in many of my friends eyes. I don't know, I enjoyed youtube before partnership as much as I do now.
Hehe yea. That's sad tho.. it's not at all about fame or money to me =/ That's the simple way of looking at it. And that's what ppl think it's about. So yea.. what's the use in explaining?
although im not as active as you i do get what you are saying. im like living together with all the people that im subscribed to in this youtube reality and i also discovered the greatness of it all a long time ago. its like i know them (which ofcourse i dont, but since its a "youtube reality" i really dont have to know them that well) and share their experiences. yes i do have a very good normal life, but its kinda like the place i have these other people that i can communicate you know :)
I've had a very similar experience. I started putting up videos on Youtube a few years ago and nobody I knew was doing it (I have way fewer subscribers than you). Then, the other night, I went to dinner with a large group of friends and they all wanted to talk about my videos. It turned out that even though they don't do it, the all loved reading my blog, Twitter and watching my Youtube videos. I have no idea why I do it either, it's just a compulsion to tell the story of how I see the world.
Nice one dstone2004 thats right on the spot in my case and prob. for alot of online users. Im into playing quake3 and has been doing it online for years (98)... its about control. putting everything aside and focus on your gameplay
In the real world, even when we're simply watching tv, someone else is mostly in control, but on the internet or video games, we have more control, and most people prefer to have control.
Agreed! I think about it in exactly the same way. My friends aren't really into youtube (as a community thing) and twitter. I think of it as an escape, but I also get more perspective on things. One can see that every one is the same, it doens't matter where one lives on the globe. Maybe you're familiar with Diggnation (.com), that's my escape. I just love how they talk about tech and that they're just normal guys. Very famous on the internet - not "in real life".
thx for this very open and deep vlog emma. thats getting rare these days on here.
now if a friend of yours from the real world would see all your vlogs on here and would talk to you about it all, would u feel kinda odddd and...u know...or would u like it and be happy to share all this such openly?
isnt it all about being much more open in the online world than in the real world? thats my experience. u share stuff about yourself much easier and much faster than u do in the real world. its like theres a certain trust in it, a trust u built on thats not there in the real world that fast. its like ure part of a special unit, like a feeling that connects in a special way..and thats giving strenght, cause u view things through the eyes of your unit and share your experiences with them.
You know Eemma, most of us are here for those very reasons. One day, you try and upload your first video, and the feedback is unexpected, massive and often very positive.
And this esperience is what we all have in common here. Like an unsaid bond.
Besides, since we don't know one another online, we tend to express different things, and they are interpreted in a different way from that of our family and friends.
It's the same difference as when you write letters instead of phoning... ;)
I feel the EXACT same way, but in the last time I didnt sort of feel the "need" to escape, so --> no videos from me, :-). And I also think that ppl that come to these sites now cant really feel this "magic" or get hooked to the phenomenon easily, wheareas ppl in the old days felt sort of being a pioneer and had a sense of community. Today, these sites are more or less just a tool and that is sad, but pure reality. SO, ppl from the old days, stick together and communicate!!!! :-), pZ
yeah, but then... I mean, you said it before... why bother to explain it to them?? Just keep it as your lil secret, :-). We all have lil secrets, lol, PZ.
I made a video with a friend once and some of his friend saw some of my own videos of me talking to the camera. And when I met them they said: Oh, you're that guy who talks to yourself.
I wish I had the courage to make videos here and talk about... everything. But I'm paranoid, so I would be so embarrassed if friends and family found my videos. Keep on escaping, I really like your videos! :)
my friends and family in real life are all ass holes, I come to the interwebs to meet nice people that treat me like a real person. Just today, I spent some time with my grandma and she has always hated me (she hates all men), so now I'm here where people are kind and friendly.
I've been "on-line" a while and I understand exactly what you mean. Your online line life is an aspect of yourself or expression of your personality your friends know about but don't understand - or get the significances of. Sigh.... ;-)
This explanation was kinda cute. For me, it's pretty simple. Some of us are just more comfortable interacting online. Until people get drawn into an online community, the concept might sound a little strange. Who needs an online friendship, they may ask. But online, there's a community for everything. It's a lot different than interacting with the same people everyday IRL. When you go online, you're really forced to think and produce. It's intellectual. I like that.
Hi Eemma...if I understand you, I think you're trying to say that YouTube & Twitter are parts of a subculture in which you are an active member. This differentiates you from your regular everyday friends who don't belong to the on-line subculture and do not appreciate the rewards & benefits of belonging like you do. Perhaps you find it personally gratifying to be able to reach out to 'on-line communities' and find rewards that others in the larger culture don't understand as well as you do.
i kinda know what u mean. i talk about youtube video all the time but i never say what my channel is. i also have different email for friends and efriends. they are two different worlds and u r in both.
You are looking for your Jerusalem, you in a quest for your existential arrengement where everything is possible; your Pasargada (look that up on google). Also google those words just like it is, and read the first likn which comes up: paris may be for lovers jerusalem visionaries -
Hum. Trodde knappat att det fanns någon som inte var inne på youtube eller så these days. Eller jo, men då är det Facebook som gäller istället liksom. Men jag fattar vad du menar tror jag.... YouTube och Gaming för mig.. är båda nåt som är skönt för att koppla bort lite av allt annat som pågår i livet.
Sure I recognize myself. I remember bringind up that subject with you. You are looking for real love and a place where you can be your true self. Somewhere you can be what you still can't be in real life. Your are doing therapy to yourself by defragmenting your memories, and putting them together, so your mind can process than better and help you cope with reality. Just as your computer does to its memory, in order to maintain its functionability properly. Your eyebrows looking better than ver!
I know exactly what you mean. I think it's perfectly normal. I don't share some of my "hobbies" with people because they involve the internet. If I tried to explain people why I do my videos, they'd never understand. I do other things on the internet too that no outsiders really understand.
It's like trying to explain to me why someone play's football. I hate football, but some people love it.
To preserve relationships from the vulnerability of being "local," people seldom present their "real" personalities locally. If we feel like behaving one way in a situation, but are concerned about local reactions, we restrain ourselves to minimize judgment and even loss. But, online, we can say more of what we really feel because we are less dependent on the participants. Online, we express aspects of our selves that are inconvenient in face-to-face contact. Is that what you wanted to say?
No, not at all actually :) Cus I don't care at all what ppl think. I'm doing what I enjoy and it's not hurting anyone. So what do i care, right? I don't want to force anything onto ppl.. if someone really deeply cared about my online life, i'd try to explain it to them. But often i just go w the short version cus i know they won't get it anyway. It's got nothing to do w being judged.
Eema, how did you first get involved with making your videos? I'm curious.
I'm involved with online activities, too. But, as time goes on I think I'm being drawn away from internet activities and my internet persona matches my outside world one. But, when I was a teenager, I definitely felt a divide. I think some people just don't recognize information on a screen as being produced by another human.
hehe :) I was on here pretty much from the start, although I didn't make videos right away. I was VERY reluctant to making em at first. English isn't my first language and i hated hearing my voice lol. I couldn't understand how ppl could be so relaxed in front of the camera! But i finally made a video response to someone i subbed to. I loved shooting and editing it. I used my dad's old compact camera that could record like 2 min and then edited in windows movie maker.
Everyone used that back then. And no-one cared that it all looked crap. lol "Waahh!! How did u make the text move like that??" Everybody just did their best! Ahhhh, the good old days! lol
I know what you mean. It's like being Alice in Wonderland. The people here are real but not real. You're a video amongst thousands of other videos. You're only alive when you're on but when you're not on you're not alive even though you are when you make the video then you fade to obscurity. However if you built that snowbunny then it would be different. Sorry I digress.
Hehe, it's not awkward at all to me! But.. now that I come to think of it.. When I got featured on the Swedish YT-main page ppl in school that i never spoke to cus i wasn't "worthy their attention", confronted and congratulated me. It wasn't awkward for me tho, more for them.
I keep the two lives totally separate. It means I can talk about 3D life online and not feel like I need to deal with politics. The internet lets me be me without as many strings.
I laughed at the end, because you said "maybe somebody else knows what I'm talking about"...It's a common thing. It's also common for friends and family to be really turned off of and biased against the internet because they feel in a way superior in their realness, as though we're not real. All they think the internet is is loling and trolling (they don't know what either of those mean, they just think it's full of scary or perverted people. Mention "chatroom" and they think of terrible things.
They're so sure in their ignorance that they're not worth explaining to. I don't attempt to prove to the obtuse and ignorant what they're missing. If they give me attitude, they get nothing and I simply see less of them as I share myself with people I talk to online. Real people.
who's the lucky guy missy? who is he?
rocaho001 8 months ago
Keep coming back to this video trying to find ways to explain my interest in vlogging! Have wanted to do so for like four years now but keep myself from it since ppl don't understand ;P
KeendraBlaze 1 year ago
natile portman doppleganger......?
LukeWhitaker 1 year ago
you have a beautiful accent. Where is it from?
..and your videos are encouraging me to start a youtube vlog.
Keep the videos coming!
cswannysk8 1 year ago
Our on line lives are as real as anything we see or hear, given the limitations of the medium. It's as powerful as TV or cinema, except we make it. It feels real, but doesn't look real to "outsiders". Or maybe we are all just crazy!
periurban 1 year ago
I LOVE YOU.
Te Amo.
irikaraj 2 years ago
It's like AVATAR. Yes, I agree with you
himsanjun 2 years ago
this chick has amazing features
LukeWhitaker 2 years ago
Jag förstår dig! :D
daliida 2 years ago
is that a g shock?
if so
NICE!
bobbayy23 2 years ago
Your channel is a place where I can escape, it is cozy and interesting place.
God bless the Emma`s world :)
Vladimir467800137 2 years ago
Quit quoting me lol. I said that first. Just check her profile quotes.
zedwid 2 years ago
but if u were really ugly I prob wouldn't watch the videos tbh lol.
usefulenergy 2 years ago
you know making videos is a bit retarded, just admit it LOL. Who cares tho really. Just keepdoing it if you enjoy it. I feel retarded just watching sometimes, but I do enjoy, so I subscribe.
usefulenergy 2 years ago
hey! i don't think i watched this vid, but i want to say that i miss your videos. why? because some of them are really good and funny. i wish i could speak your language (swedish?) so i could communicate how much you've made me smile >:)
dominic2014 2 years ago 2
why do Scandinavian English speakers have American accents?
TheEvilOyo 2 years ago
you never make videos anymore :(
stephy77 2 years ago
wtf, you're swedish ? You don't sound swedish at all .. Oh well, i know what you mean. Actually i completley know what you mean. I use gaming as sort of an escape aswell as youtube. Gaming is a whole other thing than youtube, because as you said. It's more "real" in a sense where you actually have contact with people. Ofcourse you can have that in an online game, but it's not the same.. Oh well, great video ! =)
zoroztheg4mer 2 years ago
Btw, nice tivoli stereo system!
redumbrellastudios 2 years ago
Couldn't have said it better...same thoughts on my mind..
redumbrellastudios 2 years ago
Does my earlier post make any sense or am I way off the mark?
18yardsout 2 years ago
It's all alright- It's some psychology complications, I sometimes bike up a hill or walk up a mountain or just walk in circles to figure things out, settle down for awhile maybe for just a day- but spontaneity can't be reigned without balance and respect to indulgence the natural awe of life. That's it! It's life! but- what is escape? how can one escape? I ask it too.
Sometimes it's pretty bland to be bold (be who you really are inside) the real you, inside you asides from insecurities etc.
WLuico 2 years ago
listened to the whole vid. i just have one question....
huh????
what in the h*ll r u talking about.
MargaritasAntesPorco 2 years ago
I love the Stronger vinyl in the background! Random, but you get props for that.
yokota126 2 years ago
Did my last comment post?
UtubiaPresident 2 years ago
Cool blog eemma
I'm the new prez, queen alliah
Want to do a fun collab sometime?
UtubiaPresident 2 years ago
Is it that your source of escape has an especially strong connection to humanity? I don't mean that in the way that phrase gets tossed around so often. I mean when you say you feel more real, would it be better to say you feel like you're part of the big picture? Eg. more aware of your community/society.
18yardsout 2 years ago
eemma, i was doing research on shanghai and came across your video. would love to know more about your journeys to china and japan.
you are very mature (mentally) for your age, with a cosmopolitan outlook. there prob is also an actor in you, that makes want to live different or parallel lives. it would be interesting to hear your life story.
lyh10021 2 years ago
OMG this really is good stuff,and i do know where you are coming from :)
ir40 2 years ago
I understand what your saying all the way.
FREED0MRISING 2 years ago
Good topic, think a lot of people will encounter this. I think its not so much a 'seperation' of online and real life but rather a different form of connecting. For example my school friends are different then the friends I have on my soccer team. Still friends but connected differently. Same goes for youtube, the connections here are different in the sense that they are more free from social imposed standards from real life. Hmm I smell a good essay topic here :D
Singul4r1ty 2 years ago 4
yea true :D
Eemma 2 years ago
Has your boyfriend left you?
Vatsek 2 years ago
i know EXACTLY what you're talking about...
remember many many moons ago when i messaged you about how the people in your life react to your online life? i have the SAME dilemma-- i can't find a balance between the two! i love that you made this video-- from one online "weirdo" to another. :)
HeyHeyItsAmanda 2 years ago
Not sure that that is how I feel atm tho. I don't have a hard time balancing them! I like it the way it is, keeping my online life "private" so to speak..
Eemma 2 years ago
blah, blah i love you<333
kindoof 2 years ago
Its nothing diffrent as being addicted to MMORPG's like World of Warcraft.. People live 2 lives at once... You will eventually get tired of one of them... Hopefully the online!
muzvit 2 years ago
say after me: "I'm addicted!" :D
pgawel 2 years ago
*refuses*
Eemma 2 years ago
i agree fully. I use city of heroes and youtube as an escape from the daily grind. i play C.O.H. then create music videos based off my character on the game. Only ones that view the site are my online friends not my real life friends I live around.
markbluejay 2 years ago
Sounds nice :)
Eemma 2 years ago
btw, why do so many europeans who can speak english have american-sounding accents? it's always so surprising to hear.
baygrl518 2 years ago
Yes, I wonder too...
WJiamei 2 years ago
Cus we watch american TV, listen to american music. But i lived a little in the states about 11 years ago. So it's prolly cus of that.
Eemma 2 years ago
i use youtube as an escape as well. for instance, especially at the moment, taking a break from school or work, and taking a few moments to forget about the stress of everyday. it's a release in a way.
baygrl518 2 years ago
Yea! But to me it's constant and bigger!
Eemma 2 years ago
making a youtube video is like taking a really enjoyable poo. Once its done its a sense of releif and release. Plus all my videos are shit lol. Thats my thoughts...
Ninja187Rules 2 years ago
lmao
Eemma 2 years ago
I want the violence-loving headshots Emma to be real! Say its real! :P
IntrovertGuy 2 years ago
You are trying to figure out why are you making videos? I'll give you a simple answer:
you make videos to make my day better.
This is probably the dumbest comment I've ever made. But who cares? I barely get to see stunning people around. I'd probably do more retarded things for the sake of it.
pleasedontdie 2 years ago
haha xD Thank u :)
Eemma 2 years ago
i can totally relate to what you are saying
i enjoy having my real life and youtube life as seperate as possible... i don't really like when a lot of my friends know i make videos
it is a different community.... you can find people who you have a lot in common with you so much faster and easier
it is an escape from reality.... you can interact with people and information in a whole new way...
i understand what you are saying and i agree
Decky11 2 years ago
hehe mm We're all here on YT, and we all love YT so at least we have that in common :)
Eemma 2 years ago
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QuantumStudios2008 2 years ago
it is strange... this alternate reality of sorts.... sometimes it feels like an escape... and sometimes it feelsl ike you are more real here than anywhere else... at least for some people... I feel like I can express certain things on the internet better given the time delay and ability to write out specifically what i mean
ShaneM686 2 years ago
yeah I know how you feel, it's like...nice to have something that your friends isn't a part of, it's your own little thing and that's what I enjoy asbout youtube a´nd twítter, when my friends found about me having a twitter and a youtube they immediately made fun of me, but I didn't care becouse they don't know what they are talking about.
Virrush 2 years ago
Totally :) Good, keep going!
Eemma 2 years ago
if the videos you make is reality (and i'm not saying that it's not), then you have one of the more interesting reality series! =)
johnnyians 2 years ago
lolz ^^
Eemma 2 years ago
NO one in my real life knows about my Ütube... but then I just watch on this channel. Hummm I may seem a voyer. I understand you and love it. I have a FB account that my real world knows about. I have friends and family there. Who I sub here and converse with here is just for me. I have told you for years... you are like a breathe of fresh air.. I still believe that. U r a class act. "werty"
WERTY317 2 years ago
Thank u :)
Eemma 2 years ago
I don't like having ppl I know IRL interact with me on YouTube or Twitter. Just seems weird to me, and I try to avoid it. I like having two separate worlds. Definitely can relate.
nrgins 2 years ago
"Discover it on your own and see the greatness of it." Is that a hidden reference to me? Am I "the greatness of it"? If so, then thanks! :P
nrgins 2 years ago
hahah xD Try again!
Eemma 2 years ago
"you people"?
If I were black I'd say something.
Reverseflush 2 years ago
We reside in a physical superficial materialistic world.
Reverseflush 2 years ago
I think you describe a main problem. You brought it to a excelent point. But I can't solve that Question for myself. I use mainly Twitter. I think no one else can watch the Twitter timeline of you and really understand whats the meaning for yourself. But - somehow we interact in a very deep kind of matter. Thank you for your words. It gave me a lot of good points to think about. Maybe there is a more deep connection - but the everyday life is obviating these kind of connections.
AutumnPerception 2 years ago
Mmm maybe! I liked this; "But - somehow we interact in a very deep kind of matter." True.
Eemma 2 years ago
I could write so many things about this... but yeah. "EXACTLY!" <--- that's all you get! :)
worm2glow 2 years ago
ktnxbye lol! :D
Eemma 2 years ago
agree *****, and youtube is much better for all this that any other video sharing site :-)
Leissadon 2 years ago
Would you say YouTube is one of the few places where you can be completely honest and vulnerable about whatever is on your mind? A place where you be completely honest about who you are and not worry about anything else? Thats what it sounded like to me but I could be way off.
bhill643 2 years ago
Almost.
Eemma 2 years ago
Jesus christ Eemma. This "escape" of which you speak is a very common thing. Alot of people escape into games, into communities and even into eating habbits to escape their current situation. (Or to take a break from reality)
It's nothing complicated nor deep or even new.
But it was fun listening to you as always.
AnonNov 2 years ago
the ideas are too big for a Youtube comment to really encapsulate even the spirit of the message, but I just wanted to say that you are talking about a very important, life-changing, revolutionary theme that should be talked about more...Jot down some of your thoughts of this on paper and try to organize your feelings a little more because I'd like to see another video talking about this!
Or a video about cats! : ) They are purrdy cute! (Oh, lord, what a bad pun, lolz)
LordOfNothingreally 2 years ago
Hehe tnx. And I agree. I think i'll for some some kitteeeehs tho! ^^ nom nom
Eemma 2 years ago
I understand what you're trying to say, I think. The argument can be expressed in many ways; Escapism to a more glamourous existance where you have thousands of people listening to you, making you feel important and powerful...A break from the stress and choices you are thrust into in real life...A personal little corner of the internet that doesn't belong to the "Eemma" that your friends know and expect, where you can be a different person and follow the heretofore undreamed dream...
LordOfNothingreally 2 years ago
Hehe maybe! But it's got nothing to do w fame.
Eemma 2 years ago
glad you make videos eemma, your videos are very thought provoking ;)
JUELZRIZZUTO 2 years ago
Been thinking about this all day...
It's in some way an escape but the true meaning of it all is not just that I think. Being part of online communities and playing online games (especially MMO) is an ENHANCEMENT imo. It makes your life more complete, richer, broadening your mind ^^v
DeXimE 2 years ago
Yea that's what I sorta of said at the end.. "If anything "escaping" has made me more open" And of course u have to keep it all moderate and not let it TAKE OVER your life! (btw your comment shows now on the top! :D)
Eemma 2 years ago
You are the best Emma:)
Nissehultan 2 years ago
I understand what you mean, Eemma. Especially when you started talking about gamers and how they escape into the games itself. Always when I'm feeling sad, I game. People around me think it's completely ridiculous, because gaming is just to relief you from boredom, but to me it also has another value than just gaming when getting bored. I can express myself better, and it is a satisfaction. It's like it's clearing my mind and preparing for something new, that's how I feel.
KuroiiTenshii 2 years ago
yea! I like this; "I can express myself better, and it is a satisfaction." Can relate to that!
Eemma 2 years ago
makes a lot of sense.
nicholo05 2 years ago
I understand. I can relate to this just perfectly. And I'm lucky that my family and friends are mostly being supportive about my youtube videos. :)
kittykattykoo 2 years ago
Who couldn't be? ^^
Eemma 2 years ago
Cooooooooooooool Can i buy you a drink???
na14beer 2 years ago
RedBull ktnxbye
Eemma 2 years ago
Your too expensive :)
na14beer 2 years ago
expensive?
Eemma 2 years ago
Red bull is expensive, cheaper drinking vodka
na14beer 2 years ago
Das war richtig. Ich fühle die gleiche Weise. Danke :)gm90210
gm90210 2 years ago
danke schön guten tag
Eemma 2 years ago
You have it so perfect, it is so hard to explain to friends...I have stopped trying to. They think it is odd, and I think it is odd that they don't get it.
Glad to see a video from you!!
Mike
glock882 2 years ago
I like this; "They think it is odd, and I think it is odd that they don't get it." True :) Hope u're doing good!!!
Eemma 2 years ago
In the great words of Mischof Baxtor.
Those who escape the reality of non reality are, in turn, realists within themselves.
Deep stuff.
actually ..it means nothing. I just made something up for fun
Just remember 1 thing eemma
Keep making vids ..because ..you're cool :)
brusspup 2 years ago
lmao!!
Eemma 2 years ago
I am asked quite often why I bother with forums, youtube etc and it is really hard to explain it. Especially the youtube part. People that aren't active on the site can't seem to wrap their heads around the fact that their are people behind the user names.
I found it became easier to describe once I became a youtube partner. The revenue stream seems to be a justification in many of my friends eyes. I don't know, I enjoyed youtube before partnership as much as I do now.
Farmerknowsbest 2 years ago
Hehe yea. That's sad tho.. it's not at all about fame or money to me =/ That's the simple way of looking at it. And that's what ppl think it's about. So yea.. what's the use in explaining?
Eemma 2 years ago
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I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU.
JasonTheSurfer 2 years ago
exactly what lextastic said
greenadore 2 years ago
Emma long time no see, lol, very nice g-shock, and kind of understood the vid :P, keep on making vids!
Sneakerfreaker05 2 years ago
Kind of? Watch it again!
Eemma 2 years ago
I know exactly what you mean!
jimmbboe2 2 years ago
although im not as active as you i do get what you are saying. im like living together with all the people that im subscribed to in this youtube reality and i also discovered the greatness of it all a long time ago. its like i know them (which ofcourse i dont, but since its a "youtube reality" i really dont have to know them that well) and share their experiences. yes i do have a very good normal life, but its kinda like the place i have these other people that i can communicate you know :)
lextastic 2 years ago 2
I feel that too :)
Eemma 2 years ago
I totally agree and feel the same way.
JXintheZ 2 years ago
I feel ya Emma, its a way to get away from the real world.. hehe..
armisis 2 years ago
I've had a very similar experience. I started putting up videos on Youtube a few years ago and nobody I knew was doing it (I have way fewer subscribers than you). Then, the other night, I went to dinner with a large group of friends and they all wanted to talk about my videos. It turned out that even though they don't do it, the all loved reading my blog, Twitter and watching my Youtube videos. I have no idea why I do it either, it's just a compulsion to tell the story of how I see the world.
rrrconserve 2 years ago
Goody :) Keep up the good work!
Eemma 2 years ago
Nice one dstone2004 thats right on the spot in my case and prob. for alot of online users. Im into playing quake3 and has been doing it online for years (98)... its about control. putting everything aside and focus on your gameplay
dunderdotten 2 years ago
It's an escape and it's also about control.
In the real world, even when we're simply watching tv, someone else is mostly in control, but on the internet or video games, we have more control, and most people prefer to have control.
dstone2004 2 years ago
Indeed :) That's what I like about YT! But we used to have more control back in the days on here, before Google etc.
Eemma 2 years ago
I have no idea what you are talking 'bout but I totally agree.
bensaldehyde 2 years ago
*high fives*
Eemma 2 years ago
Agreed! I think about it in exactly the same way. My friends aren't really into youtube (as a community thing) and twitter. I think of it as an escape, but I also get more perspective on things. One can see that every one is the same, it doens't matter where one lives on the globe. Maybe you're familiar with Diggnation (.com), that's my escape. I just love how they talk about tech and that they're just normal guys. Very famous on the internet - not "in real life".
TimFredrix 2 years ago 2
Yea :)
Eemma 2 years ago
thx for this very open and deep vlog emma. thats getting rare these days on here.
now if a friend of yours from the real world would see all your vlogs on here and would talk to you about it all, would u feel kinda odddd and...u know...or would u like it and be happy to share all this such openly?
johndoners 2 years ago
isnt it all about being much more open in the online world than in the real world? thats my experience. u share stuff about yourself much easier and much faster than u do in the real world. its like theres a certain trust in it, a trust u built on thats not there in the real world that fast. its like ure part of a special unit, like a feeling that connects in a special way..and thats giving strenght, cause u view things through the eyes of your unit and share your experiences with them.
johndoners 2 years ago
You know Eemma, most of us are here for those very reasons. One day, you try and upload your first video, and the feedback is unexpected, massive and often very positive.
And this esperience is what we all have in common here. Like an unsaid bond.
Besides, since we don't know one another online, we tend to express different things, and they are interpreted in a different way from that of our family and friends.
It's the same difference as when you write letters instead of phoning... ;)
freddh2 2 years ago
Ppl arent friendly on here anymore =/ You guys are tho! But i'd say u mostly get hated on if u were to start off doing vids on here now.
Eemma 2 years ago
I feel the EXACT same way, but in the last time I didnt sort of feel the "need" to escape, so --> no videos from me, :-). And I also think that ppl that come to these sites now cant really feel this "magic" or get hooked to the phenomenon easily, wheareas ppl in the old days felt sort of being a pioneer and had a sense of community. Today, these sites are more or less just a tool and that is sad, but pure reality. SO, ppl from the old days, stick together and communicate!!!! :-), pZ
MartyMcFly2107 2 years ago
Very well said. Again that's what keeps me from ever being able to explain it to my IRL friends. They don't know the story!!
Eemma 2 years ago
yeah, but then... I mean, you said it before... why bother to explain it to them?? Just keep it as your lil secret, :-). We all have lil secrets, lol, PZ.
MartyMcFly2107 2 years ago
Eemma FTW!
btopishere 2 years ago
I know exactly what you mean.
I made a video with a friend once and some of his friend saw some of my own videos of me talking to the camera. And when I met them they said: Oh, you're that guy who talks to yourself.
H2TheChrizzle 2 years ago
We DON'T talk to ourselves! We talk to each other :) Keep making videos now!
Eemma 2 years ago
tnx for the video Emma ! I really wish you had some more free time and make some sweet videos like you always do... take care !
damianwba 2 years ago
nice Tivoli stereo you have there!! :)
you have the black wood and silver. :)
the classic wood and light brown at the front are old school tho.
pedronero 2 years ago
I like the black better ^^ Fits in w everything!
Eemma 2 years ago
I wish I had the courage to make videos here and talk about... everything. But I'm paranoid, so I would be so embarrassed if friends and family found my videos. Keep on escaping, I really like your videos! :)
hjertelampe 2 years ago 2
What would happen if someone u knew saw your vids?
Eemma 2 years ago
my friends and family in real life are all ass holes, I come to the interwebs to meet nice people that treat me like a real person. Just today, I spent some time with my grandma and she has always hated me (she hates all men), so now I'm here where people are kind and friendly.
Hugs
David
roy40oz 2 years ago
lmao!!! Sorry to hear that David! :P Welcome to the family! Share the looooooove ppl!
Eemma 2 years ago
I've been "on-line" a while and I understand exactly what you mean. Your online line life is an aspect of yourself or expression of your personality your friends know about but don't understand - or get the significances of. Sigh.... ;-)
Jervns 2 years ago
Yea! :)
Eemma 2 years ago
DEFINITELY! I totally agree, I can relate to you. :)
KimDonesia 2 years ago
U're just saying that! Now gimme 5 stars instead!!!
Eemma 2 years ago
This explanation was kinda cute. For me, it's pretty simple. Some of us are just more comfortable interacting online. Until people get drawn into an online community, the concept might sound a little strange. Who needs an online friendship, they may ask. But online, there's a community for everything. It's a lot different than interacting with the same people everyday IRL. When you go online, you're really forced to think and produce. It's intellectual. I like that.
jarail 2 years ago
Nice angel. I like this; "When you go online, you're really forced to think and produce. It's intellectual."
Eemma 2 years ago
Hi Eemma...if I understand you, I think you're trying to say that YouTube & Twitter are parts of a subculture in which you are an active member. This differentiates you from your regular everyday friends who don't belong to the on-line subculture and do not appreciate the rewards & benefits of belonging like you do. Perhaps you find it personally gratifying to be able to reach out to 'on-line communities' and find rewards that others in the larger culture don't understand as well as you do.
bikenik 2 years ago
Nooow if i could write shit that good ;D Lol! Well said! But then there's also the part about escaping!
Eemma 2 years ago
Ha Ha...thank-you so much my dear! : ) I wanted to say more but remember we're limited to just so many words in our written responses!
I know you like the theme of 'escaping' whether its to exotic places like Japan or conceptual places like cyberspace. I hope you keep at
it one way or another all your life. Cheers!
bikenik 2 years ago
Will do :)
Eemma 2 years ago
Ja jo. Men du fattar vad jag menar.
ShaxDr87 2 years ago
(F) (-:P
im rushing out to film shoot ill write a proper comment l8ter this is sort of the anna was here comment
Annaconda1984 2 years ago
You sound so much like an artist here.
Try not to question it. You know what your doing. Maybe not consciously, but hell who really does.
PersonalJesus348 2 years ago
I need to question it cus i'm the only one of my IRL friends that gets this. I feel weird.
Eemma 2 years ago
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ohxromance 2 years ago
I don't know where to put myself in all of this :) I totally get what you mean :) I feel the same thing, except for the posting videos part.. :) <3
afflaf 2 years ago
U're in the middle ;)
Eemma 2 years ago
i kinda know what u mean. i talk about youtube video all the time but i never say what my channel is. i also have different email for friends and efriends. they are two different worlds and u r in both.
ammanRex 2 years ago
You are looking for your Jerusalem, you in a quest for your existential arrengement where everything is possible; your Pasargada (look that up on google). Also google those words just like it is, and read the first likn which comes up: paris may be for lovers jerusalem visionaries -
Esdrasreis 2 years ago
Hum. Trodde knappat att det fanns någon som inte var inne på youtube eller så these days. Eller jo, men då är det Facebook som gäller istället liksom. Men jag fattar vad du menar tror jag.... YouTube och Gaming för mig.. är båda nåt som är skönt för att koppla bort lite av allt annat som pågår i livet.
ShaxDr87 2 years ago
Nja.. YT _är_ en del av livet också :)
Eemma 2 years ago
Sure I recognize myself. I remember bringind up that subject with you. You are looking for real love and a place where you can be your true self. Somewhere you can be what you still can't be in real life. Your are doing therapy to yourself by defragmenting your memories, and putting them together, so your mind can process than better and help you cope with reality. Just as your computer does to its memory, in order to maintain its functionability properly. Your eyebrows looking better than ver!
Esdrasreis 2 years ago
Hehe i recognize some of this! "Somewhere you can be what you still can't be in real life." True. Very true.
Eemma 2 years ago
I know exactly what you mean. I think it's perfectly normal. I don't share some of my "hobbies" with people because they involve the internet. If I tried to explain people why I do my videos, they'd never understand. I do other things on the internet too that no outsiders really understand.
It's like trying to explain to me why someone play's football. I hate football, but some people love it.
So yes, it's okay. You're normal!
- Saxman, a true American legend
saxman727 2 years ago
haha! I like that; "It's like trying to explain to me why someone play's football. I hate football, but some people love it." lol
Eemma 2 years ago
To preserve relationships from the vulnerability of being "local," people seldom present their "real" personalities locally. If we feel like behaving one way in a situation, but are concerned about local reactions, we restrain ourselves to minimize judgment and even loss. But, online, we can say more of what we really feel because we are less dependent on the participants. Online, we express aspects of our selves that are inconvenient in face-to-face contact. Is that what you wanted to say?
Chase69Chase 2 years ago
No, not at all actually :) Cus I don't care at all what ppl think. I'm doing what I enjoy and it's not hurting anyone. So what do i care, right? I don't want to force anything onto ppl.. if someone really deeply cared about my online life, i'd try to explain it to them. But often i just go w the short version cus i know they won't get it anyway. It's got nothing to do w being judged.
Eemma 2 years ago
I hear what you're layin down Emma and I approve of this message.♥
teddygator 2 years ago
Eeeemmmmmaaaaa! :D
Arigato gozaimasu.
AkScoochy 2 years ago
Eema, how did you first get involved with making your videos? I'm curious.
I'm involved with online activities, too. But, as time goes on I think I'm being drawn away from internet activities and my internet persona matches my outside world one. But, when I was a teenager, I definitely felt a divide. I think some people just don't recognize information on a screen as being produced by another human.
quantumscape 2 years ago
hehe :) I was on here pretty much from the start, although I didn't make videos right away. I was VERY reluctant to making em at first. English isn't my first language and i hated hearing my voice lol. I couldn't understand how ppl could be so relaxed in front of the camera! But i finally made a video response to someone i subbed to. I loved shooting and editing it. I used my dad's old compact camera that could record like 2 min and then edited in windows movie maker.
Eemma 2 years ago
Everyone used that back then. And no-one cared that it all looked crap. lol "Waahh!! How did u make the text move like that??" Everybody just did their best! Ahhhh, the good old days! lol
Eemma 2 years ago
LOOOL Eemma, I still use the movie maker.... damn, does that make me a bad tuber now??? heheheeh, greetzli, marty
MartyMcFly2107 2 years ago
No, just old-school :D Stick to it!
Eemma 2 years ago
i agree
pieseonerth 2 years ago
This comment has received too many negative votes show
There is some Fucked up Shit going on here, please people get offline and have some fun,
Dreaming32 2 years ago
I know what you mean. It's like being Alice in Wonderland. The people here are real but not real. You're a video amongst thousands of other videos. You're only alive when you're on but when you're not on you're not alive even though you are when you make the video then you fade to obscurity. However if you built that snowbunny then it would be different. Sorry I digress.
pongman 2 years ago
hahah :D Yea, it's very true. But it can evolve into something else... if u make friends on here, i'd say u're alive all the time.
About the snowbunny now dammit.. how the hell would i make one? :P
Eemma 2 years ago
hi ! i hope you have a nice day. don't forget to smile and just be happy. bye!!!
NIK0LAS09 2 years ago
I know what you're talking about, I usually HATE when somebody i know watch my videos,subscribe,etc...Is a really awkward situation.
rickwarriorbard 2 years ago
Hehe, it's not awkward at all to me! But.. now that I come to think of it.. When I got featured on the Swedish YT-main page ppl in school that i never spoke to cus i wasn't "worthy their attention", confronted and congratulated me. It wasn't awkward for me tho, more for them.
Eemma 2 years ago
I keep the two lives totally separate. It means I can talk about 3D life online and not feel like I need to deal with politics. The internet lets me be me without as many strings.
poopslingingmonkey 2 years ago
I laughed at the end, because you said "maybe somebody else knows what I'm talking about"...It's a common thing. It's also common for friends and family to be really turned off of and biased against the internet because they feel in a way superior in their realness, as though we're not real. All they think the internet is is loling and trolling (they don't know what either of those mean, they just think it's full of scary or perverted people. Mention "chatroom" and they think of terrible things.
poopslingingmonkey 2 years ago
They're so sure in their ignorance that they're not worth explaining to. I don't attempt to prove to the obtuse and ignorant what they're missing. If they give me attitude, they get nothing and I simply see less of them as I share myself with people I talk to online. Real people.
poopslingingmonkey 2 years ago
End parentheses I guess...)
poopslingingmonkey 2 years ago