Serena in Flux: Episode 48

[Clipper4188]

How about your relationship with your family and friends and how are they accepting your transition? Do you socialize with them as Serena? How is your relationship with your mother? Are you like mother/daughter?

[scanguy21]

another brilliant vlog and you still looking great without your makeup your a natural at this

i like your style and creativness you use on your vlogs

as a topic maybe try to explain how the physical

changes effect you transitioning from male to female

like your body's anatomy male organs to female

like what happens to your penis

and sexuall experiences as a transgendered person etc

guess you are quite a video game fanatic in your own right

it's a good form of stress relief

[redqueento]

topic ... you

your future ideas ..

what are your plans ..

please try .. if though that is the hardest of subjects

Red

[startha7]

Another good subject Serena would be your take on why T people, especially those on the net get so venomous towards one another. You saw it on Meow, on TG Gallery and other places where trannys are always at each others throats, neverreally saw you doing that to others but I know you'v seen it just the same as I. another subject would be how your parents deal with it, and how you deal with the fallout from your families response to your transition, whether good or bad

[startha7]

LOL OK usagiblonde, while we are at it also use the correct: there, instead of their, and as for spelling forgot instead of forfot..Oh wait we R on a utube comment page so who really cares? LOL. Serena sorry for the misspelling. And yes I have a degree, a professional position w NYC, am a successful post op and know both Serena and Danielle from the net and what people like us go thru. I also lived right north of Serena, know it would be interesting subject for her to present & hate direct dep 2

[usagiblonde]

what the hell startha7 did you go to school it is spell Usagiblonde not usagblonde you forfot the i

[usagiblonde]

keep up the good job

[usagiblonde]

Well startha7 you are one of the lucky one that chat with Serena and by the way that is how you spell it. I know their are alot crazy people out their. My comment to that thing danielle11746 was that she dose not know what Serena went through to become the flower that she now. Serena for all you went through I take off my hat for you keep

[danielle11746]

USA hoe, I am a transsexual also, I started transition right out of high school at 17 yrs old. ANYONE who transitions has to overcome obstacles, but I never looked for sympathy for mine, they were just par for the course. So suck my left titty.........smooches

[startha7]

usagblonde I don't mind the daneile person because there are lots of people on the net who are BSers and she seems to be checking that w serina. I have chatted w serina from TG Gallery to meow and so have followed her transition as she presented it over the years. so I just go on what she has said and it seems to of taken a long time to me too but everyone has ther own challenges. and I think the things I ask would be good subjects especially being in a hick town as a out T & get her perspective

[Serena4226]

You know I wouldn't mind if you spelled my name correctly.

[usagiblonde]

I am sorry to say this FUCK YOU danielle11746 I hate her what ever that low life of danielle11746

[usagiblonde]

I forgot to put your male voice

[usagiblonde]

Serena can you go back and forward with you voice you know what i mean at anytime can you go still make your male

[Serena4226]

actually I can't really use my male voice anymore. I haven't used it for so long everytime I do it sounds funny like I am doing an impression or something.

[startha7]

Oops LOL I am having probs putting this up Serena. I tried and commented last night but it didnt go up. I have chatted w u since 2002 and u know who I am. Why true selves? that book sucks. How do the people at your work deal with your T? How do the midwest small town people deal w it? Why did U go back there after Australia? I thought you graduated from collage a few years ago, why not go for a better position in a much more progressive place? OK there's like 4 or 5 topics for you hon.

[startha7]

I still wonder when u went full time

[Serena4226]

I went fulltime in the middle of March 2008

[gothique11]

yay, for random lack of sleep vlogs!

[danielle11746]

You said you have been full time for 10 months. I am truly happy and say congrats. I still ask the same question, what has taken you so long? Why did it take you so long to go "full time"? I asked the question because YOU asked people to help with future topics to talk about. It is a legit question and a legit topic that a lot of trans deal with. To be defensive and defiant makes someone look like they are BS, when its a legit topic.

[Serena4226]

I'm not upset about the question of why I took so long since it is mostly due to school money and respect for other people. I was always planning to move somewhere where no one knew me and then go fulltime, but can't wait that long. what I was upset about is saying I've done nothing in terms of my transition and not even started. I've done heaps and like it to be recognized and no discredited. I've been through allot to get where I am.

[danielle11746]

Ok now back to the original thought, make a video about what stood in your way. You did ask people for help on future topics? I think it is something a lot of trans people deal with.

[sexyjoanie]

you need your sleep badly, please get some rest.

[colinbibra]

Have to say you look really good with that low key make up wise thing - It gives you that kind of vulnerable look.

Right , topic - Mmmmmh! - Difficult , maybe on styles of dress & what looks best on some rather than others blah de blah. I'm struggling here.

Lastly - Your fringe - I know you're tetchy about your forehead but on vlog 20 you kind of give a peek at the hair/fringe back & I think you look great like that - But if you prefer the fringe that's great too.

Keep well & warm.

[Serena4226]

The fringe must stay. When I got rid of it for a couple years I got read right away several times. I figured it must be my forehead and I do think I look more manish without the fringe. It is part of my look now. I would look funny without it.

[LadyVIolence]

And I have to say, I'm definitely sick of people telling my fiance HOW TO FUCKING DRESS!

[rdbuilder2010]

Anyways.. how did you like Australia? Been thinking of vacationing there within the next year or so. You thoughts on a vid would be nice. Thanks!

[iWedTheRed]

Crackers. A vlog about crackers...and cider! Yum! I'm wholly unhelpful today, sorry. Lovely vlog and again, sorry for snapping at you at work. Damn lights make my head ache so. Whine, complain, gripe, I know. ^^

[Serena4226]

BWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANDI! sorry had to say it.

[iWedTheRed]

*doh*

[itspaul70]

You look awesome without make-up on.

Topics:

How can someone who is cisgendered be considered a "true" ally?

You're engaged to a cisgendered female and in doing so what obstacles, if any and not distance, are you facing in having this type of relationship?

How do you tell the difference between a "chaser" and someone who is truely interested in someone transgendered?

Do you think most transgendered people only date other transgendered people? Why or why not.

That's all I have.

[LadyVIolence]

To never be considered a 'true' ally just because my body biologically matches is really offensive to me.

[itspaul70]

Don't take it in that way Tamsin. I didn't mean any disrespect.

I only phrased it that way to set aside those people that are truely in love with someone who is transgendered and not just a chaser of any kind.

I know you're not a chaser so don't take the question personally.

I'm sure you may know people that actually are.

This is not a question of gender but one of how to be an ally.

Off to work I go now.

[LadyVIolence]

Ahh I see. Fair enough.

[femstarlight]

Snow kills my motivation to live, let alone go out somewhere. I know the so-so feeling, things are okay but not spectacularly great or horrible.

[danielle11746]

Here is a topic, and I am not being shady. I saw you on Meow Chat years ago and since then you have not furthered your transition, or even started to transition at all. Is fear standing in your way? What is causing you not to go any further or even begin. Things like electrolysis, hormones or going full time?

If there is a will there is a way. So I would guess it has to be something physcolgical standing in your way.

Do you think other TG people are afraid to take the step?

[Serena4226]

Are you insane? I've done heaps towards my transition. I've been on hormones for over 5 years. I am fulltime now and I am going to start electrolysis very soon. I just didn't see a reason before because it didn't bother me that much. I'm not afaird of transition, I can't be because it is either do it or die.

[danielle11746]

I must be mistaken. Although few months ago you posted a video of you before your trip, you were in male mode with a male voice included. You also have said you are male at work. Correct me if I am wrong but doesn't that mean your not full time.

[Serena4226]

You have any idea how long ago that was? I went fulltime as soon as I came back from that trip. HELLO

[danielle11746]

According to your videos you left 6 months ago, and returned 3-4 months ago. So you been full time for 4 months, but according to your videos not full time at work.

Girl I am not trying to pick words with you. At first my question was "what is holding you back" now I have a second question "what creates the delusional mind"?

[LadyVIolence]

Does it really matter to you whether she means fulltime 100% at work and home, or just at home when she says fulltime? You say you don't mean to pick words, but you sure have semantics down to an art. As for hormones, I specifically remember injecting her myself numerous times. And we don't have a thing to prove to you. Just leave her alone.

[danielle11746]

I was asking a question because I remember chatting with her many years ago, I simply asked what has held her back for so many years. I asked nicely and though it could even be a topic that a lot of other trans deal with. In return I got a defiant response telling me I was insane. So I am just stating the facts. BTW Mz. LadyViolence....full time is is exactly what it means FULL not part. Full time is full time and part time is part time there is not a middle your one or the other.

[LadyVIolence]

and honestly, don't play dumb. You're just back pedalling now. "But I asked nicely" no, you did not. You asked in a cocky and arrogant tone. Your comments are dripping with self righteous bullshit, and here you are playing the innocent little angel. "I got a defiant response" Well tough.

[Serena4226]

I've been there twice and the first time was 10 months ago. I went fulltime as soon as I returned and btw have you seen me at work? I don't think so, so you have no idea if I am fulltime there or not and I am fulltime there too.

[danielle11746]

The video of you in "male" mode before your trip was posted 6 months ago.

[LadyVIolence]

Just drop it. She is NOW fulltime at work and at home. You have no idea what you're talking about. Really. You have no ammunition. Just leave her the hell alone. She has put a hell of a lot of work into transition, it just doesn't look like it in my videos because she does her videos so exquisitely well!

[LadyVIolence]

dah, in her videos*

[Serena4226]

check it, the first time I left was in February. The male mode video was number 20 that was a very long time ago. Besides I only asked if you were insane because I don't like being told I have done nothing when I have worked so hard for last five years.

[danielle11746]

BTW you said you were not full time at work.

[LadyVIolence]

Well now she is. So get over it.

[danielle11746]

i think i found some looney tunes. god, it is nothing to be ashamed of but to lie and make stuff up make you look looney tunes hun. you are a girl at home in front of your web cam only, i been around longer then a day or two.

[Serena4226]

Oh yea I'm sure you know everything about me when I'm not on camera. I'm sure you see me at work and on the street. That's fine but stocking in illegal in this state.

[Serena4226]

why do you keep bring up things I said 10 months ago? Allot changes in that time. If I wasn't fulltime at work I would not be referred to as Serena there no would I be referred to as "she" and as a girl in every way. That all took place in March then I got back the first time from Australia.

[danielle11746]

then why is ur video if u in male mode leaving for ur trip 6 months ago. hun, you have nothing to prove to me, but be honest with yourself. your female when in front of your computer.

[LadyVIolence]

HAHAHAHAHAHHAH The extent on your ignorance is both infuriating and hilarious. BABE, I INJECTED HER WITH OESTROGEN PERSONALLY, MORE THAN ONCE! durrrrrrrrrrr

[LadyVIolence]

Look, she visited me TWICE. Is that why you're so confused?! Feb 13 2008, she stayed with me and left in march 13, 2008. THEN, AGAIN, in June, she stayed with me until september. THAT IS WHY IT SAYS 6 MONTHS AGOOOO

[danielle11746]

to lie is not good, in another 8 yrs i will find you in the same place.

[LadyVIolence]

Lie? Hahah. I'm not lying.

[danielle11746]

not u i said she is not being truthful, and she is giving people advice on transition when she hasn't done it herself.

[LadyVIolence]

Hasn't transitioned? Have you been living under a rock, dear? Have you seen her old photos?

[Serena4226]

In another 8 seconds you will find yourself blocked

[LadyVIolence]

You're so good to me. <3 I love you so much.

[GeenaDaniels]

Make a video of you getting madeup and doing your hair.

[7674Princess]

Get some rest baby!!!!!! Did you know that.. Vitamins & SLEEP are the MOST overlooked things in a Male to Female HRT regimen???

The more sleep you get, the better oppertunity your body has to repair itself and help ur HRT along to make you all girlie. As with the vitamin thing....Sleep & Vitamins Babe. You have a GREAT foundation...Make the most of it!!!!

MUAH

XOXOXOXO

[Jennylovemiller]

Talk about Fashion, make a X-Mas Video.....