You deny the power of interpretation? The almost infinite complexity of the world & society means that it can be interpreted differently to the same degree. The act of perception is itself an act of interpretation. On which depends the action people take. The way people act depends on their experience, which depends on their theoretical framework(implied or explicit). Marx's false consciousness is simply people not having the 'right' ideas or perception. Action is useless in the face of ideology
"...as long, therefore, as activity is not voluntarily, but naturally, divided, man’s own deed becomes an alien power opposed to him, which enslaves him instead of being controlled by him. For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular, exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a herdsman, or a critical critic, and must remain so if he does not want to lose his means of livelihood."
Jess, You really need to stop smoking the whacky-backey if you want ANY chance of escaping your depression. I know you find it hard to stop but why are you smoking AGAIN when you know what it does to you? Depression can be linked to cannabis, especially due to stronger versions like skunk being distributed, and not least due to all the other toxic crap they add to it these days.
I know exactly what you mean about the 9-5. From day one I dreaded the thought of it. That's why I decided to be self employed when I grow up. I just die inside when I have to work for some heartless corporation that I despise. I am hoping to make some pathetic amount of money working freelance, and hoping desperately that I will enjoy that, but doubting that I could ever really enjoy any kind of work. I also dream of being a smallholder and just living off the land. :)
I <3 your jumper. When it comes to self esteem and relationships, I agree you must sort yourself out before you can get into a relationship, or at least you must make a little progress towards it. I used to go round the internet looking for self help websites and meditation techniques. I found that kind of thing helpful. Little rituals like looking in the mirror and saying something good about yourself. Excercising your imagination to build up your desired ego. :)
Why do we watch you? Believe it or not, when you talk to the camera, and your "human feeling" travels over the internet to your viewers, we build up a sort of relationship.
Granted, this virtual relationship may not be reciprocated like a traditional interpersonal relationship. That's probably why you question if we care.
After watching and critically entertaining your ideas for long enough, our brains begin to acclimate to your persona, similar to as if were actually getting to know you.
the most constructive activity for me in regards to self-esteem is exercise. Both running and lifting-though cardio seems more useful overall. Energy level seems to be a big factor for me and self-esteem, and therefore it helps when im in shape. Otherwise, ive had good experiences with volunteering and self-esteem, but not in all volunteering. FOr example, if the volunteer position consists of me mainly just sitting there and not doing anything, i dont get any good feeling. has to be active.
Honestly, I think what resonates with me the most with your videos is just how much your sentiments have either occurred to me in the past or are always slightly embedded in my mind all the time. I find your videos very cathartic but I do wish you the best, you seem to have a lot of fortitude also (I can tell by the calm, sophisticated way you usually ramble, haha) and it's really quite admirable. Cheer up!
Jess my advice for you to increase your self esteem, maybe you should join one of these volunteer groups that help the homeless and so on. Try volunteering in of these soup kitchens. Try going to one of these christian run charities.The religion you despise do a lot of good. The anti christian media tries hard to avoid mentioning all the good they do
I can only give the advice that turned me from bud to flower.
I examined the cages of life (TM) and realized how many of them I had created.
I was keeping myself down deliberately, seeking sympathy from people rather than seeking approval through my achievements. I was keeping my personality afloat through being pitied as this romantic underdog, rather than striving to better my essence and projecting this mighty wolf whom to be proud of =)
Soon my petals will emerge! *crrrrrrrrrrringe*!!!!!!!
I smoked weed for ten years, because I was depressed, lonely, and full of self-hatred. I fell in love recently, for the first time in my life, but the woman I've fallen in love with, also feels depressed, lonely, and very confused about herself, and life in general. We love each other, but I'm afraid she's going to push me away out of fear, and break my heart. Loving her gave me the strength to give up drugs a few months ago. I know you and I can't help each other, but I felt the need to share.
Option Paralysis: The tendency, when given unlimited choices, to make none. -Douglas Coupland
I know where you're coming from, I have a job that is difficult to land pays quite well by most standards so it's not exactly an easy thing to walk away from but as is pointed out by virtually everybody in my life, including my co-workers is frankly below me as a career option. I'm 28 years old and I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
Today I got really dressed up - makeup, dress, my favorite boots - went to the grocery store and the library and enjoyed the experience. I'm not sure what it was but it was fun. Then I went home and shared a bottle of wine with my dad. My self-esteem is probably twice what it was when I woke up this morning.
re- pot, i quit 4-5 days a week so as to maintain the Orwellian/Maslowian need to pay bills, oh and i love when my dear friend quits in winter and gets all gloomy, merely for the fact he come to stay more. (imagery reference being: `drug Buddie' by the Lemon-heads) oh and apart from the fact that i love your waffle, i long for the day you say the word `bottom' in that lovely wee english accent, for no other reason than i seek the tiny daisies within the pointlessness of existence.
I'm not bored 'cos you're an interesting person and I like listening to you talk about whatever's on your mind :) Plus I can relate to a lot of what you say and I guess that makes me feel a little less lonely.
I would think the children would be too busy working to think about such things. Life was tough & the ability to have extended childhoods & adolescence is a luxury even our grandparents did not have.
Protests are not ''Hands on changing the word''. They are the tool of the powerless & sidelined.What really changes the world is ideas, so it is not as if it is not possible to merge that ambition with a career path. For example as university lecturer one can mould young minds while making money,& learning, thinking what you like for life rather then submitting to mindless toil.With the added possibility of using your knowledge & authority to change the climate of ideas & therefore society.
@Malthus0 "mould young minds' says it all. You could do with reading The German Ideology, comrade. People with 'ideas' have only interpreted the world and wanked themselves off in the process. The point is to change it with concrete practical action by those whose interest it is to do so.
@BoundlessEyes Sorry, just out of context articulated randomness.
And "we" or rather I watch your videos because there is something in them that I can identify with. Like mocking the dominant culture, being haunted by the ghost of solitude, smoking weed and many many more other things . . . .
You know what you want to do, so get on it! Also, you mention feeling kind of loserly when spending time alone... is that because you're really lonely or do you just think you should be lonely? I enjoy my time alone... people try to make you feel a bit ashamed of it, but if you honestly enjoy being alone, then just enjoy it. When you hang out with other people it doesn't necessarily mean you're using your time any more productively. Anywho... Hope you're having fun right now :] ~Later
i think a lot of people who have an 'artful soul' struggle with the 9-5 concept, considering it soul-killing. i think of it as an option i have to make a living that gives me the resources and space to fill up the other parts of my life with things that are inspiring. some people can find ways to do both - my grandfather was a sculpter and opened a leather shop to supplement his art. in his case, working beyond 9-5 was fine, because it was something he loved doing that fed him creatively.
I see jobs as the following. There are 3 levels of work. UNETHICAL! ETHICAL! and NEUTRAL! Some ethical jobs are more ethical than others. Some jobs are more unethical than others. You can work for a bank which is unethical or you could work for a bank that is more ethical... but its still a bank! You could work for Tesco's or Co-op... co-op is more ethical but still sells a lot of things I wouldn't eat. Neural jobs are like working for a swimming baths of something... pretty apolitical.
I for one listen to "waffle-videos" while doing routine stuff, like shuffling code around when refactoring. Two things only taking up half my brain each = my whole brain in use
I have the same issue with my career...got a BA and a bunch of certificates for no good. Can't find anything I like out there...capitalist economy sux my ass. As for loneliness, I think people feel lonely regardless of their relationship status. People are born as a lone entity and die as one too. Buddhism is a facinating philosophy that addresses this human loneliness issue. Meditation helps with the feeling of emptiness, too.
I love watching your vid's. I might not say much, bud I do enjoy them. You seem very honest, and in tune with everything that life throw's at you. Keep smiling. :)
OK if you really want to feel good about yourself, I'm going to go with... Get yourself a sexy little push up bra, some dark denim skinny jeans and a sexy little pair of 5' stiletto jimmy choo's and call me in the morning.... I must say that I really enjoy your outlook on life, it helps me deal with humans...
I've never fond an answer to my depression. All I can do is try to find distractions from myself. Distractions are my only short term solution. Thinking too hard for too long about how empty our lives really are will be the end of me, so I do whatever I can to not think about it. I'm in tune with reality, but I pretend I'm not, just to get through the days. It sucks, and it works, kinda.
better to listen to the little people 'what would so so do right now in my shoes'etc if they are telling you to do bad things then best to have alittle chat with a shrink, my advice on self esteem building is to think small because small is big,focus more on the smaller hurdles, once achieved set abit higher ,else everything will just become overwhelming,when earning a living dont pick things you enjoy just spoils the fun .have you seen a mechanics car? exactly they dont have time for one :P
Loneliness, huh? Same here. What I'm doing about it can be put in one word - waiting.
For a few years, now. Oh, and Prozac + John Coltrane.
Damn, I've been talking a little too much about myself lately.
And yay for cello and giving attention to your poetry channel. You've been given the poetry tag by two people, for the record. Well, to be fair so was I and I did only one, but...
And you're honest, and that really helps a lot of people relate. Nice to know there are other wandering people.
Feelings are expression of self-reflection not statements on actuality. I know, this sounds very flimsy, but it has helped myself quite a lot.
timeofwonder2009 1 year ago
You deny the power of interpretation? The almost infinite complexity of the world & society means that it can be interpreted differently to the same degree. The act of perception is itself an act of interpretation. On which depends the action people take. The way people act depends on their experience, which depends on their theoretical framework(implied or explicit). Marx's false consciousness is simply people not having the 'right' ideas or perception. Action is useless in the face of ideology
Malthus0 1 year ago
"...as long, therefore, as activity is not voluntarily, but naturally, divided, man’s own deed becomes an alien power opposed to him, which enslaves him instead of being controlled by him. For as soon as the distribution of labour comes into being, each man has a particular, exclusive sphere of activity, which is forced upon him and from which he cannot escape. He is a hunter, a fisherman, a herdsman, or a critical critic, and must remain so if he does not want to lose his means of livelihood."
ButherLi55ett 1 year ago
Why watch you? Because you're interesting and you're pretty. But I think I'm stating the obvious here.
RadicalAwesomeness 1 year ago
Jess, You really need to stop smoking the whacky-backey if you want ANY chance of escaping your depression. I know you find it hard to stop but why are you smoking AGAIN when you know what it does to you? Depression can be linked to cannabis, especially due to stronger versions like skunk being distributed, and not least due to all the other toxic crap they add to it these days.
RockingMrE 1 year ago
I know exactly what you mean about the 9-5. From day one I dreaded the thought of it. That's why I decided to be self employed when I grow up. I just die inside when I have to work for some heartless corporation that I despise. I am hoping to make some pathetic amount of money working freelance, and hoping desperately that I will enjoy that, but doubting that I could ever really enjoy any kind of work. I also dream of being a smallholder and just living off the land. :)
artisannika 1 year ago
I <3 your jumper. When it comes to self esteem and relationships, I agree you must sort yourself out before you can get into a relationship, or at least you must make a little progress towards it. I used to go round the internet looking for self help websites and meditation techniques. I found that kind of thing helpful. Little rituals like looking in the mirror and saying something good about yourself. Excercising your imagination to build up your desired ego. :)
artisannika 1 year ago
Why do we watch you? Believe it or not, when you talk to the camera, and your "human feeling" travels over the internet to your viewers, we build up a sort of relationship.
Granted, this virtual relationship may not be reciprocated like a traditional interpersonal relationship. That's probably why you question if we care.
After watching and critically entertaining your ideas for long enough, our brains begin to acclimate to your persona, similar to as if were actually getting to know you.
Andrewticus04 1 year ago
the most constructive activity for me in regards to self-esteem is exercise. Both running and lifting-though cardio seems more useful overall. Energy level seems to be a big factor for me and self-esteem, and therefore it helps when im in shape. Otherwise, ive had good experiences with volunteering and self-esteem, but not in all volunteering. FOr example, if the volunteer position consists of me mainly just sitting there and not doing anything, i dont get any good feeling. has to be active.
peteheatb3 1 year ago
Live confusion....I appreciate it.
CaptRedeye 1 year ago
Honestly, I think what resonates with me the most with your videos is just how much your sentiments have either occurred to me in the past or are always slightly embedded in my mind all the time. I find your videos very cathartic but I do wish you the best, you seem to have a lot of fortitude also (I can tell by the calm, sophisticated way you usually ramble, haha) and it's really quite admirable. Cheer up!
kgulman 1 year ago
How does marijuana affect your self-esteem?
baller1069 1 year ago
Cool top swirrrrrrrlllly like your hair
hillhazz 1 year ago
OK, I'm depressioneering really bad right now.
Vogon poetry please, or I'll probably bother you with requests for advice.
Fuck, couldn't come up with something funnier. That's depression for you, I guess.
TookiGuy 1 year ago
Sorry forget my previous advice of doing voluntary work. You wont have time to be on utube.
I dont know if we can survive without seeing your beautiful face and listening to your opinions.
Just hang in there Jess
Nuron666 1 year ago
Weirdly I do youtube videos to boost my self esteem, so just keep making videos :D
Give me a heads up when you feel like having a relationship again ;) hehe
Do you have one of those UV boxes for your S.A.D? random curiosity question :D
Chaoticentertainment 1 year ago
Jess my advice for you to increase your self esteem, maybe you should join one of these volunteer groups that help the homeless and so on. Try volunteering in of these soup kitchens. Try going to one of these christian run charities.The religion you despise do a lot of good. The anti christian media tries hard to avoid mentioning all the good they do
Nuron666 1 year ago
I can only give the advice that turned me from bud to flower.
I examined the cages of life (TM) and realized how many of them I had created.
I was keeping myself down deliberately, seeking sympathy from people rather than seeking approval through my achievements. I was keeping my personality afloat through being pitied as this romantic underdog, rather than striving to better my essence and projecting this mighty wolf whom to be proud of =)
Soon my petals will emerge! *crrrrrrrrrrringe*!!!!!!!
MannyFandango 1 year ago
I smoked weed for ten years, because I was depressed, lonely, and full of self-hatred. I fell in love recently, for the first time in my life, but the woman I've fallen in love with, also feels depressed, lonely, and very confused about herself, and life in general. We love each other, but I'm afraid she's going to push me away out of fear, and break my heart. Loving her gave me the strength to give up drugs a few months ago. I know you and I can't help each other, but I felt the need to share.
necro1925phantom 1 year ago
existential validity.. :)
volnay853 1 year ago
Option Paralysis: The tendency, when given unlimited choices, to make none. -Douglas Coupland
I know where you're coming from, I have a job that is difficult to land pays quite well by most standards so it's not exactly an easy thing to walk away from but as is pointed out by virtually everybody in my life, including my co-workers is frankly below me as a career option. I'm 28 years old and I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
preachingsin 1 year ago
Today I got really dressed up - makeup, dress, my favorite boots - went to the grocery store and the library and enjoyed the experience. I'm not sure what it was but it was fun. Then I went home and shared a bottle of wine with my dad. My self-esteem is probably twice what it was when I woke up this morning.
AntiLoquaxx 1 year ago
re- pot, i quit 4-5 days a week so as to maintain the Orwellian/Maslowian need to pay bills, oh and i love when my dear friend quits in winter and gets all gloomy, merely for the fact he come to stay more. (imagery reference being: `drug Buddie' by the Lemon-heads) oh and apart from the fact that i love your waffle, i long for the day you say the word `bottom' in that lovely wee english accent, for no other reason than i seek the tiny daisies within the pointlessness of existence.
forkqall 1 year ago
Piss head!
Talking of protests; you going to protest the Pope?
ReverendSCAReY 1 year ago
I'm not bored 'cos you're an interesting person and I like listening to you talk about whatever's on your mind :) Plus I can relate to a lot of what you say and I guess that makes me feel a little less lonely.
ShakeySurgeon 1 year ago
I would think the children would be too busy working to think about such things. Life was tough & the ability to have extended childhoods & adolescence is a luxury even our grandparents did not have.
Malthus0 1 year ago
Protests are not ''Hands on changing the word''. They are the tool of the powerless & sidelined.What really changes the world is ideas, so it is not as if it is not possible to merge that ambition with a career path. For example as university lecturer one can mould young minds while making money,& learning, thinking what you like for life rather then submitting to mindless toil.With the added possibility of using your knowledge & authority to change the climate of ideas & therefore society.
Malthus0 1 year ago
@Malthus0 When I was talking about it I definitely put protest under the 'useless' category, along with YouTube, notably. =P
BoundlessEyes 1 year ago
@Malthus0 "mould young minds' says it all. You could do with reading The German Ideology, comrade. People with 'ideas' have only interpreted the world and wanked themselves off in the process. The point is to change it with concrete practical action by those whose interest it is to do so.
ButherLi55ett 1 year ago
hungry hungry hippo . . . .
th3inquisitiv31 1 year ago
@th3inquisitiv31 lol pardon?
BoundlessEyes 1 year ago
@BoundlessEyes Sorry, just out of context articulated randomness.
And "we" or rather I watch your videos because there is something in them that I can identify with. Like mocking the dominant culture, being haunted by the ghost of solitude, smoking weed and many many more other things . . . .
th3inquisitiv31 1 year ago
Like your sweater
yeahwotevaman 1 year ago
You know what you want to do, so get on it! Also, you mention feeling kind of loserly when spending time alone... is that because you're really lonely or do you just think you should be lonely? I enjoy my time alone... people try to make you feel a bit ashamed of it, but if you honestly enjoy being alone, then just enjoy it. When you hang out with other people it doesn't necessarily mean you're using your time any more productively. Anywho... Hope you're having fun right now :] ~Later
Bippledot 1 year ago
I like your voice when your smashed, it's kinda singsong and thats fun
Curas1 1 year ago
i think a lot of people who have an 'artful soul' struggle with the 9-5 concept, considering it soul-killing. i think of it as an option i have to make a living that gives me the resources and space to fill up the other parts of my life with things that are inspiring. some people can find ways to do both - my grandfather was a sculpter and opened a leather shop to supplement his art. in his case, working beyond 9-5 was fine, because it was something he loved doing that fed him creatively.
heatherlynblue 1 year ago
love hodgepodge
mccallumTOO 1 year ago
I see jobs as the following. There are 3 levels of work. UNETHICAL! ETHICAL! and NEUTRAL! Some ethical jobs are more ethical than others. Some jobs are more unethical than others. You can work for a bank which is unethical or you could work for a bank that is more ethical... but its still a bank! You could work for Tesco's or Co-op... co-op is more ethical but still sells a lot of things I wouldn't eat. Neural jobs are like working for a swimming baths of something... pretty apolitical.
DaneVincentVid 1 year ago
All that I can say is "lucky bastard"
Elenkhos 1 year ago
I'd go out with you, if that's any consolation.
BENY0HAMA 1 year ago
Here's an idea for how to feel good about yourself: learn to speak RP.
Just kidding.
sneakyninjacrow 1 year ago
I for one listen to "waffle-videos" while doing routine stuff, like shuffling code around when refactoring. Two things only taking up half my brain each = my whole brain in use
AnonymousCoward23 1 year ago
I have the same issue with my career...got a BA and a bunch of certificates for no good. Can't find anything I like out there...capitalist economy sux my ass. As for loneliness, I think people feel lonely regardless of their relationship status. People are born as a lone entity and die as one too. Buddhism is a facinating philosophy that addresses this human loneliness issue. Meditation helps with the feeling of emptiness, too.
shinyhardcrystal01 1 year ago
I love watching your vid's. I might not say much, bud I do enjoy them. You seem very honest, and in tune with everything that life throw's at you. Keep smiling. :)
MrWallace81 1 year ago
what was the text book and what was the magazine you had that day?
elstonieo 1 year ago
@elstonieo The magazine was Marie Claire (and no I didn't buy it) and the book was Jacob's Room by Virginia Woolf.
BoundlessEyes 1 year ago
Self-referential titles are really intriguing....Oops, echoed the title.
2bsirius 1 year ago
OK if you really want to feel good about yourself, I'm going to go with... Get yourself a sexy little push up bra, some dark denim skinny jeans and a sexy little pair of 5' stiletto jimmy choo's and call me in the morning.... I must say that I really enjoy your outlook on life, it helps me deal with humans...
SimonDB2006 1 year ago
The pointless point.
Loreleila 1 year ago
I've never fond an answer to my depression. All I can do is try to find distractions from myself. Distractions are my only short term solution. Thinking too hard for too long about how empty our lives really are will be the end of me, so I do whatever I can to not think about it. I'm in tune with reality, but I pretend I'm not, just to get through the days. It sucks, and it works, kinda.
AnotherMasterMind 1 year ago
try helping on things like MSF or something thats the first tip. Then one you can do by yourself is just smile into the mirror everymorning.
I like beening on Blog Tv and debatting out there. And please make more music I like your voice and I would love for more on that channel
best wishes
FratisNox 1 year ago
i love you. I think we'd be total muckers in real life. ;-p
thes0rleymussed 1 year ago
better to listen to the little people 'what would so so do right now in my shoes'etc if they are telling you to do bad things then best to have alittle chat with a shrink, my advice on self esteem building is to think small because small is big,focus more on the smaller hurdles, once achieved set abit higher ,else everything will just become overwhelming,when earning a living dont pick things you enjoy just spoils the fun .have you seen a mechanics car? exactly they dont have time for one :P
exdribbler 1 year ago
I was going to make a video response, but a comment will probably do the trick just as well. Question: have your looked into MBTI or the Enneagram?
Ezer101 1 year ago
I'm a very selfish person as well, it's a side effect to depression.
I find you interesting, and I consider you a friend, and so I would listen to you even if you needed to vent or something.
StanMarsh1 1 year ago
Thought about charity work overseas? Mate of mine did it a few years ago, she said it was fucking amazing.
jazANDbase 1 year ago
I know how you feel re the 5 days of doing meaningless shit...
xy11xy 1 year ago
Loneliness, huh? Same here. What I'm doing about it can be put in one word - waiting.
For a few years, now. Oh, and Prozac + John Coltrane.
Damn, I've been talking a little too much about myself lately.
And yay for cello and giving attention to your poetry channel. You've been given the poetry tag by two people, for the record. Well, to be fair so was I and I did only one, but...
And you're honest, and that really helps a lot of people relate. Nice to know there are other wandering people.
TookiGuy 1 year ago
@TookiGuy Who tagged me? x
BoundlessEyes 1 year ago
@BoundlessEyes Iremythpurr/Nuclearnight and RecklessRagdoll.
TookiGuy 1 year ago
@TookiGuy Oh wait, they are two different tags - the standard poetry tag and the Vogon poetry tag.
See Oojamaflipper's Vogon poetry video for details.
TookiGuy 1 year ago
@TookiGuy YES JOHN COLTRANE
MetaCraken 1 year ago
@MetaCraken Psalm.
You?
TookiGuy 1 year ago
@TookiGuy Everything.
But Afro Blue too.
MetaCraken 1 year ago
we watch cause we care......an smile darn it
BootlegPainting 1 year ago 2