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MyOwnStickFigure
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Joined: January 14, 2008
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Hi, I'm Johnny ♥ A pink tutu twirlin' transgender male from the San Francisco Bay Area, CA. I'm here to share my story about my rollercoaster ride of recovery for anorexia, bulimia, orthorexia and OCD. I've been in treatment since age 14 and at 27 am still getting help. I am connected to nature & God, the ultimate Healer. I am a raw (4+ years) organic vegan. Raw food has been crucial in my recovery ☼

I am a public eating disorder artist, activist and educator. I am have done and am available for media/tv, magazine/print, photo/documentaries, research/projects and various educational interviews. If you would like my help on an educational or research project, contact me with more details. I use my You Tube account to reach out to people and deliver educational videos, as well as raw and honest video journals. I'm not recovered nor do I claim to be. Everyday is a new choice to fight or surrendor. Recovery is a lifelong commitment. Get in it so you can win it!
Name: Johnny
Age: 27
WHY MYOWNSTICKFIGURE?
Many years ago I started creating eating disorder related art work for healing purposes. I began to share it with the world and switch my focus from transgender activsim to eating disorder art, education and activism. At the time this name seemed clever considering I am an artist, androgynous and dealing with eating disorders. People began to recognize my art through my user name so I kept it. Years later, I still keep it because to me it represents creating and embracing "my own" androgynous/gender different mind, body, soul and spirit. I find stick figures to be ambiguous in nature just like me : )

CONTACTING ME:
I AM NOT AVAILABLE FOR EMAIL EXCHANGE. Please respect my healing space and refrain from emailing me even if you feel it's just a short note. It takes time to read emails even if I say I can't respond and when I read I feel it's rude not to respond so I get stuck in a very codependent situation. Overtime it got to the point where I started to get more emails than what is managable for me and because of this I have had to STOP email exchanges with people. I am unable to read and respond to all the emails I get and they back up my inbox. I would like my account to be as less stressful as possible, I wish you the same too! I need to focus my energy on my own healing so I can offer videos as I can make them but can't offer one on one. If I, or you, do not respect this boundary then my recovery process becomes hindered as I become codependent and careless about the boundaries I feel I need to set in order to move forward. Please support, not enable. The best way to contact me is through channel or video comments/responses. If you would like help with an activist project, research, education, etc. then please subject an email accordingly and I will let you know if I feel I can help you at that time. I truly appreciate all those who support me. Please know that if I had the time and energy to get to know everyone who has interest in getting to know me - I would. Respecting my email space is one of the best ways to support that I am trying to take care of myself first so I can be happy, healthy and here for all of you!

CHANNEL UPDATES:
June 14th 2009: Life is happening and changing in ways where I need to direct my focus to family and my ongoing recovery process. I will be less active on You Tube this month as I put my focus where it needs to be most. Be well my friends, thank you for respecting my need for space.
City: Redwood City, CA
Country: United States
Interests and Hobbies: God, spiruality, serving life purpose, recovery, raw living foods, vegan, nutrition education, holistic healing, walking barefoot, nature, organic gardening, farmer's markets, creativity, inner child exploration, psychology, learning, teaching, growing, meditation, relaxation, nice little things, cuddling, love, ethnic music, dance (especially ballet), arts and crafts, hello kitty, colors, riots and revolution, queer, transgender, intersex, stomping stereotypes, tattoos and piercings, kink, fetish, BDSM Lifestyle and of course feet!
Website: http://www.FindDesireNotDemise.com
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Playlists
Poetry Readings & Spoken Word
31 videos
Poetry & Spoken Word Pieces on Eating Disorders, Trauma, Sexual, Emotional, Verbal and Spritual Abuse, Genetic Addictions, Gender Identity and Other Underlying Issues. Art therapy is CRUCIAL in my recovery process and one of the best ways I know how to articulate myself in order to allow my healing to happen. You can see more of my art work on my website:
www.FindDesireNotDemise.com

Stealing and using of ANY of my copyright and published artwork without my permission is extremely prohibited and illegal. Legal action can take place in situations deemed approperiate. Thank you for respecting my artwork.
Raw Food Recipes & Nutrition Videos
52 videos
My raw food creations and recipes + videos addressing nutrition and eating disorder recovery diet topics.
Spirituality, Hope & Meditations
58 videos
Gifts of God, spirituality, hope, relaxation and meditation exercises and earth offerings/nature.
Update 06/23/09
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[TRANSLATED] Update 06/23/09
[TRANSLATED] Update 06/23/09
Quick update, mentality change, confirmation from God. I'm okay, amen. God is b...
no rating 2 weeks ago 2,268 views MyOwnStickFigure no rating
COMPLETE CRISIS PLEASE WATCH
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I am leaving You Tube until I am more stable and settled. Severe crisis, watch thi...
2 weeks ago 2,348 views MyOwnStickFigure
RE: I Need a hug!
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[TRANSLATED] RE: I Need a hug!
[TRANSLATED] RE: I Need a hug!
I'm okay! Just a quick update on yesterday's post, last night and how I won't be v...
no rating 3 weeks ago 945 views MyOwnStickFigure no rating
Help - I need a hug?
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[TRANSLATED] Help - I need a hug?
[TRANSLATED] Help - I need a hug?
Comments disabled on June 14th - thank you all for the support! Read info for movi...
3 weeks ago 1,356 views MyOwnStickFigure
"Wild at Heart" Tattoo *new*
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New tattoo... Message to my world, message to the rest of the world: "A prayer...
no rating 1 month ago 1,348 views MyOwnStickFigure no rating
Channel Promotion #3
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[TRANSLATED] Channel Promotion #3
[TRANSLATED] Channel Promotion #3
Channel promotion #3 - Sabrina aka Loversenduringpromise http://www.youtube.com...
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R.I.P. (may trigger)
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[TRANSLATED] R.I.P. (may trigger)
[TRANSLATED] R.I.P. (may trigger)
in order to grow, we must let go... dying: with death comes rebirth... you serv...
no rating 1 month ago 2,162 views MyOwnStickFigure no rating
imagine.
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[TRANSLATED] imagine.
[TRANSLATED] imagine.
imagine. questions with unspoken answers. answers only we can create. imagine if w...
no rating 1 month ago 689 views MyOwnStickFigure no rating
freedom footprints
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[TRANSLATED] freedom footprints
[TRANSLATED] freedom footprints
unleashing,embracing & loving my inner gender different children through artistic ...
1 month ago 1,006 views MyOwnStickFigure
Harp Music Harpist Concert A bird came flying
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Thanks for watching my video: A bird came flying, I am playing my original song du...
2 years ago 113,758 views annevanschothorst
Health is so simple!
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[TRANSLATED] Health is so simple!
[TRANSLATED] Health is so simple!
HEALTH IS SO SIMPLE! ❤ Some motivation and inspiration to keep you moving into h...
2 weeks ago 123 views liferegenerator
Phoenix - "The Anorexorcist" Original Song
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http://www.audreyphoenix.com (link to my website) Each individual is of infinite ...
1 year ago 12,956 views yourphoenix
Coconut Boi: The GO RAW mantra*
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Being silly/serious about health, happiness, and well being through an uncooked life.
2 weeks ago 64 views coconutboi11
Blind Chinese Boy  with Great Voice -Tiān Táng (Heaven)
4:57
My Dream Tiān Táng (Heaven)
2 years ago 22,366 views shariksharik
Om Gann Ganapataye Namoh Namaha
9:37
Jai ganapati bapa
1 year ago 171,949 views chamundamaa
Hug.
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[TRANSLATED] Hug.
[TRANSLATED] Hug.
This is for you.
3 weeks ago 214 views AndreaLiddell
The biggest secret in nutrition - Food Combining - Consequences
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If you think that excellent food combining is just for taste / texture / pleasure ...
3 weeks ago 191 views ManofTruthHealth
Ganesha Mantra to African Drums
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From the Audio CD "Healing Mantras" www.TheHealingDrum.com This is Ganesha's Base ...
1 year ago 55,306 views theholographicmind
Channel Comments (2993)
Lovesenduringpromise (6 hours ago)
Praying for you still Johnny! Stay strong, don't give up. Faith will be tested, but if you endure it will be strengthend. God bless and love ya.
annevanschothorst (8 hours ago)
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for the times you forget how to fly.. just be still.. and listen ... you will find your poetry again...
you have such strong and important message to share! I wish for you lots of love and happiness!!
-xx- anne
GISMOON8 (14 hours ago)
Sending you tones of support and love!
I have a HK clipper ready to travel to CA. I will keep it in a safe place for the moment.
You know i love you, sweetie. Always here for you xoxo
ps: I'm doing just fine... hugs and kisses
pokerface270 (14 hours ago)
Dear Johnney I am sry that u are having such a rough time. I have Scoliousis and Neck, hip, and feet problems, i take alot of meds and it donst help. Sry to be sucha whiner. I wish u best of luck and fair wishes and pace. Ps i u have time mail me back
eluvzmokie (15 hours ago)
hey there, IDK if Johnny of his friend is taking care of the account right now, but I was just wondering if i had permission to mention MyOwnStickFigure in one of my videos just as someone who has inspired me to come online and start talking and as someone who has been such an awesome friend. i would be willing to tell them that you do not accept emails and PMs and to please be considerate and only comment, i just want to give credit to people i feel have helped me,
BlackRiverBay (17 hours ago)
I feel for you. I once rented an apartment and stayed for two weeks. It was a similar situation to yours. I'm glad I got out - I lost some money and time, but was better off leaving an unworkable situation. Life doesn't always run smoothly. That keeps things interesting. Obstacles are opportunities!
soulardbill (18 hours ago)
Hi Johnny, I just wanted to let you know that I'm keeping you and your mother in my prayers. Hugs to you both ! : )
MyOwnStickFigure (18 hours ago)
May she open her heart to the Lord too. I will avoid her until I move out and then maybe write her a nice card and wish her well to make peace before I go. She doesn't have to accept it, but I will... closure. Ps. I was so lonely with my net down. I missed you all SOOO much you don't even know!!! I am so excited to be back online!!! even if time is limited, I will be back in action when things are settle over here! Love you all, extra much!
MyOwnStickFigure (18 hours ago)
Hugs everyone. I know I should be online looking for apartments but my Mom found a place I am going to check out tomorrow, I got a team helping me! Amen. I just got off the phone wiht my Pastor. This situation, I am now viewing as a test. God is testing my faith. I prayed for this woman hard tonight, may she find peace. I can't let her demons rip my peace. The last few days have been very bad for me - mentally, physically, nutritionally... health dropped and depression set in and instead of going to God like how I did when He granted me all these blessings after we lost the house, I went to depression. Not good. I am being tested here so I got up and am trying to get out by the grace of God. I know in my heart He will lead me to where I need to be. This apartment is nothing but a mere learning experience and hey - she got prayer out of it : ) Maybe things will improve for her.
anseladams23 (18 hours ago)
All my prayers are with you. You will find something else where you will be away from that energy and find a peaceful place for yourself. I have watched your channel and feel like a friend through all the love and openness you share. I am located in the bay area and can respond to requests for help if needed. If you need some physical help to move again, etc. , whatever. Again, much love, prayers, and support to you. Lea
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