Well it wasn't directly the king of pop who made my school days hell, it was actually Gary Carey who branded me a 'fag' after hearing me sing the MJ classic 'Ben'. In this video I also talk about gay benches and scented toilet paper.. what the shit?

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I met these guys in their hood.. On top of the 'Yellow Bridge', Mile end, east London. They were part of a crew called 'ELM get to know'. One of them slapped me when I asked him if he was an 'Asbo'. I decided to make a run for it in case they tried to jump me for my camera. Then I fell down a hill, but thankfully sustained no serious injuries.

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The lazy people who I share a house with here in London couldn't be bothered to buy light bulbs, so I had to take a shit in the dark. Nobody else buys light bulbs for the communal areas except me. I never see the other people that live here, they work strange hours all the time.. I just share the kitchen and bathroom with these guys, we never talk.. it's a sad exsistence. In this video I also discuss prostate milking

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So I got on a train to Manchester. Spent the day there. Met this guy called 'Chewbacca', he was friendly enough just not very charismatic. Infact manchester itself was pretty dull.

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Sorry for my absence. This is my first video for a while. I have had some heavy shit going on in my life, basically one of my friends from back home has died.. I am at my lowest point now. I have also recieved an email from the mental health department of the royal London hospital in whitechapel, they feel I am a danger to myself and others around me, I think I will go and see them, once they meet me they will see that I am perfectly ok. I have copied and pasted the email below so you can take a look. Let me know your thoughts.

Dear Ray,

I am not going to contradict your beliefs, I don't know about them but I tend to believe that you would benefit from some help. I have sat through most of your videos if not all of them, and I conclude that you are of well above average intelligence and quite talanted at what you do. However you need help in overcoming your problems, you are in what is a foreign city, you do not have your normal family/friend support network about you, you have recently gone through a traumatic relationship breakdown and estrangement from your family, your living and financial situation is far from ideal, and you have found it difficult due in part to cultural differences to form new friendships and relationships. In your more distant past you suffered the loss of your mother, a strained relationship with your father and siblings and what sounds like some form of sexual abuse with your brother; moreover, you have arrived in London in the middle of what has been a long and cold, dark Winter. Given even half of this it would not be unusual to loose it, or drop your bundle and suffer some form of mental breakdown, which I believe you are, in fact it proves above anything that you are very normal.

I do not believe that you are certifiable; I have seen that your moods even with in a posting can swing from melancholic/very depressed (with expressions of self harm) to quite happy and euphoric at times. You seem to have an inconsistent train of thought as you swing from subject to subject, abd will often contradict yourself, you do not have a normal and regular sleeping pattern, I doubt very much that you are eating properly/ You indulge in delusional and strange behaviour, the Flat inspection is an example, the conversation with the prostitute another, the fac that you have fled overseas another.

I can not say that you will be reunited with your wife and son, when you start to feel better then this might be appropriate for all of you,. The reason why I am reccomending that you get help and support is primarily to allow you to put what has happened to you in context that allows you to live a normal life, things will get better if you allow them to, you are a very normal person who is reacting to a bad situation. Help is at hand:
The Royal London Hospital in Whitechapel's mental health team:

3rd Floor, Outpatient Building, Royal London Hospital
Tower Hamlets
E1 1BB

Or speak to Mind a mental health charity
0845 766 0163
info@mind.org.uk


Tel: 020 7375 1052

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Basically my wife thinks that I was sleeping with prostitutes.. So I decided to make this video to show my wife that I love her and I can spend time with hookers without engaging in any sexy stuff. This is Lola, a 'working girl'. She agreed to let me talk to her about various topics, including my relationship with my wife. I think we got on well. I am not sure if my wife will understand why I did this but what the hell.. My marriage seems pretty much over right now anyway. At the end of this I gave her some english pounds and I left. I am proud to say that no sexual activity took place.

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So this is the apartment that Ian Bond showed me. It was pretty small and the kitchen was in the lounge?! While inside I trod on a chocolate eclair which reminded me of my son Paul because he loved them.

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I wanted to see what kind of apartment I could purchase if I had a huge bundle of cash, so I booked a viewing with this real estate guy called Ian Bond, nice guy I think we got on well, I kinda feel guilty for yanking his chain but what the hell..

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So I met these 3 girls, they were students, they were drunk. They were trying to encourage me to be more positive about myself. At one point they told me I have cool clothes.. they invited me to party with them, which was a real boost for me.

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This is my first video of 2009. Hopefully this year will be better for me than 2008. I watched a TV 'programme' called 'Panorama.. kids behaving badly', it was on the BBC (illuminati puppets). It was about sexual abuse in schools, it prompted me to remember my own experiences with two girls when i was about 7 or 8 years old.. it didn't feel like abuse at the time, infact it felt pretty exciting. I have also decided that i am like the Bermuda triangle.. i.e. anything that gets close to me is destroyed. Happy new year.

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I had to get a loan from my dad, that reminded me of how little respect I have for money, which is ok because it brings false joy. I think money is the root of all evil. I have also decided to get out of London for christmas, I am going to paris and then a little place called the 'Isle of wight', David Icke lives there so I may try to find him. I will be away from my laptop for a while so this might be the last video I can upload for a couple of weeks. Happy holidays folks.

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So i finally went on a date, with an old friend from back home.. which was weird. Sorry for breaking down in the middle of this video but that is the real me so fuck it. Also in this video I talk about alien sex, how would they fuck? post me your thoughts.

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